Yesterday, when I blew out the candle for my 53rd birthday, my heart was not filled with joy, but with endless bitterness. Looking back on this half of my life, I seem to have been living for others and working hard for other people's children, but I have become a bystander to this drama of life.
I used to be full of dreams and longings, hoping to build a love nest with my beloved and have children. But fate played a cruel joke on me. After many years of marriage, I was never able to get pregnant, and it was only after the examination that I found out that it was due to physical reasons. At that time, we tried all kinds of methods, but to no avail.
Later, life hit us harder. The husband is unemployed and the family is in trouble. To make ends meet, he chose to drive a taxi while I stayed home to take care of my elderly in-laws. During that time, we had an extremely difficult time, but our feelings for each other became deeper and deeper.
However, just when I thought my life was about to get better, my husband cheated on me. He had a child with another woman, and even bowed his head to me for the sake of that child. At that moment, my heart was like a knife, but for the sake of the integrity of the family, I chose to forgive.
In the days that followed, I became the mother of that child and took care of him with all my heart. And my own dreams and pursuits have gradually been forgotten in the long river of time. Whenever I see others enjoying family fun, there is always an inexplicable sourness in my heart.
Now, I stand at this crossroads in my life, looking back on the past, my heart is full of helplessness and regret. I don't know why I live such a messy life, why I am always giving for others and not getting what I deserve.
Is this my destiny? Am I destined to live for others and never be able to have my own happiness? I am not reconciled, I am not willing to submit to the arrangement of fate.
Friends, have you ever had a similar experience? Have you ever sacrificed your dreams and pursuits for your family and for others? If you feel the same way, then please leave your comments and likes! Let's share each other's stories and find our own path to happiness together!