Narrator: Anonymous Future (Disclaimer: This article is not my own experience, it is based on the narrator's words)
After I left the army, I worked in a leadership position until I retired.
In 21 years, it was the first year of my retirement, with a pension of 10,000, and I was very happy at that time, and I finally started to live a free and easy retirement life.
But after I came down from the leadership position, I seemed to have an occupational disease, and I liked to blame and order others.
At first, it was very new, but slowly, I started to get tired of this kind of life, because I felt that this kind of life was static and boring every day.
With nothing to do every day, my heart gradually became very empty and anxious, which made me feel that I was wasting my time every day.
After that, I wanted to find a job, but I was used to the leadership position, and I couldn't do anything, and I ended up being addicted to picking up scrap and selling it for money.
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I spent 21 years in the army before I returned home.
He worked in his subsequent job until the age of retirement, and at that time, he could get more than 10,000 pensions after retirement, and he couldn't spend them at all.
The two children are more productive than the other, and I don't have to care about it at all, and they will give me money every month, I said don't need it, but the two children said, you don't need it, you can save it.
But we must still give, a month's pension plus the children give, are almost 20,000, just retired during the period, I was addicted to fighting landlords.
They are all a group of retired old men in the community, and the pension of the old man who can live in this community will not be less, and we have to fight the landlord to make money.
I'm a newbie, I lose every day, I want to play every day, I want to play every day when I lose, I want to play even more when I win, we play a very small 5 pieces of 10 yuan, even if I lose every day, I can't lose it all.
I should have been playing for three or four months, and then I stopped playing, because there were a few old men who would put on their faces as soon as they lost, and said some unbearable words in their mouths.
Then I started fishing with my friends, and I sat there every day for a day, and sometimes I couldn't catch a single fish in a day, but it was a lot of addiction during that time.
Later, I found out that in addition to sitting in a daze, fishing is looking at the mobile phone, which is not as comfortable as lying on the bed at home, and then the fish is no longer fishing, so I wander around every day or drink tea and bask in the sun at home.
At first, I thought this life was very comfortable, but after a long time, I felt that it was completely wasting my time, and I could no longer find the value of my life.
So I wanted to find a new job to enrich myself and find my life value in my work.
But at my age, it's hard to find a job as a security guard, and finally I worked as a security guard in my own community, and I just opened the door every day when someone wanted to open the door, and I just walked around the community.
However, when my old friends saw me in a security uniform, they would always say something sarcastic, saying that I was fishing for money, and I stopped doing this job after less than a month.
Then I went to work as a cleaner in a small company, but I didn't expect to be pushed down by an aunt on the second day of work, because the ground I mopped was not clean, and the aunt dragged cleaner than me.
It's funny that I, a person who never mops the floor at home, actually went outside to clean up for others.
I couldn't stick to it after finding a lot of work, and eventually I had to be my own boss, but in business, I couldn't cook, so I didn't know what to be the boss.
Until that day, I saw a news on my mobile phone, there was a retired old man who made five or six thousand a month by picking up garbage, and at that time I was saying just do it, rummaging through gloves and masks at home to prepare to go out.
My wife didn't know what I was going to do until a few days later, when someone saw me picking up garbage outside and told my boss, she told me: Do you know what people say about you?
I didn't listen, I just waved my hand to my wife and said, "Don't care."
Then I would go out every day with my gloves and a few big plastic bags to pick up garbage, and I would go to other neighborhoods to pick it up, because I was afraid that people who knew me would see me and gossip behind my back.
Picking up garbage every day is like hunting for treasure, a bottle is a few cents a few cents, if I pick up a few cents on the ground, I can't look at it, but as long as I see cartons and bottles in the trash can, my eyes will shine.
Every day when I take the fruits of my labor and go to the scrapyard to exchange money, it is the happiest time, because I can see the fruits of my labor every day.
I also set a working time for myself, and through squatting, I summarized where there are more people from Monday to Tuesday, where there are more people from Wednesday to Friday, and Saturday and Sunday.
So I also made a place for myself to work, sometimes in a shopping mall, sometimes in a park, and sometimes in a subway station, these places I had to be quick to go, otherwise I would be snatched away by my peers.
One day when I came home, I called the two children, I opened the door and saw my wife and two children, I quickly turned around and went out, because of the reason for picking up the garbage for a day, not only the body and face were dirty, but also exuded a bad smell.
The two children also saw me, came directly to me and dragged me back, and began to educate me ideologically: Is the money not enough for you to spend every month? We didn't talk about you when we went to work before, you said you were bored at home, but now you actually run to pick up garbage.
How much money can you make, do you know what others say about you and us?
I sat on the sofa and didn't dare to say a word, there is nothing wrong with picking up garbage, but it is this job that gives people a kind of life that makes it impossible to come out to pick up garbage.
But I have children to take care of, and I am well taken care of, and my pension is so much, others will not only say that I am not filial when they see me picking up garbage, but also that my son is not filial, and I am reduced to picking up garbage.
I knew it was going to make them lose face, but I was like I was addicted to it and wanted to pick up trash every day for money.
The children must have been very incomprehensible to me, and they just thought that if I went out to pick up garbage, it would make them very shameless, but I just wouldn't listen.
That day, I verbally promised to go out to pick up the garbage the next day, and although the whole family objected to me doing so, I didn't listen, because it seemed that I could only have fun when I was picking up garbage.
I don't know why I felt the way I did at the time, but I was like I was addicted to it, and I wanted to go out and pick up garbage every day when I woke up.
Especially when I saw the money in my hand, I felt very happy, I actually earned more than 10,000 yuan by selling scrap products in three months, although more than 10,000 yuan in three months, it was not as much as my pension plus my children.
But this is the fruit of my hard work, the nature is completely different, the labor can not only make me feel very happy, but also let me find my own value.
My wife will say every day that I make my clothes so dirty and smelly, and I also think it's a shame, after all, the community I live in is a high-end community, and since I started picking up garbage, the old men in the community have begun to deliberately avoid me.
I didn't feel comfortable in my heart, but what I thought at the time was that I just had to be happy and happy, and I didn't care about what others thought of me.
My family kept saying that they wouldn't let me go out to pick up garbage anymore, but no matter what they said, they couldn't persuade me, and I was even more motivated, and sometimes I had to work overtime.
Until the child's words that day, I never went out to pick up garbage again.
I make a lot of money picking up garbage every day, and once I do more, I picked up bottles a day and sold them for five or six hundred yuan, what kind of concept is this.
Five or six hundred yuan is equivalent to the grain income of a farmer per acre of land, so I will feel very happy to see the fruits of my hard work every day.
I went home again that day, and my two children came to our house for dinner with their wives and children, and when I entered the house, I quickly ran to the bathroom to take a shower and change into clean clothes, because I was afraid that they would dislike me.
Then I sat down to eat and started talking about me picking up garbage, and the eldest son said, "Your garbage picking up has reached the ears of my colleagues, and they all ask me what is going on with you, and some people think I am bullying you."
Do you have to pick up this garbage every day?
Those who pick up garbage have no job, no pension, no way to live, they pick up some garbage and sell it for money to live, and you earn almost 20,000 yuan a month to make fun with them.
If you say that it is not good, you are bullying them and cutting off their financial routes, and they will live on this money, and you will rob them with them.
You have picked up all the garbage, what do you let them pick up, they can't pick up the garbage, they can't make money, what do they eat.
After listening to this sentence, I feel that my approach is a little inauthentic, and at this time my heart to pick up garbage has begun to waver, because I don't pick up garbage to make a living, and I don't lack that little money, but this money is the key to whether some people can eat.
I haven't gone out to pick up trash since that day, and since then I've been fishing with my friends every day, playing cards and going back to my boring life.
After that, I found something more interesting, as a person who has been a soldier for more than 20 years, I have studied military history quite thoroughly.
At first, I would go to some elementary schools for free to popularize military history to children, but at first I didn't talk very well, and many children were not interested.
After that, I found the direction, and I gave the children those stories of the Anti-Japanese War that were boiling in history.
Since then, my lectures have also become better and better, from the previous free lectures to the current many schools inviting me to give lectures, and I am also very motivated, because I am very willing to spread ideas to the new generation of Chinese people.