After three years of marriage with Song Zhang, he raised one lover after another outside.
And for the sake of the child in my womb, I pretended to be deaf and dumb and played his virtuous wife.
In the end, he died of depression.
Reliving I, I turned around and married his brother.
He has always been noble and indifferent, but at the wedding, he clasped my wrist with red circles under his eyes, choked up and asked me:
"Little girl, the person you want to marry is obviously my ......."
I snapped his fingers one by one and chuckled and reminded him:
"Crying Daughter-in-law."
I died on the phone call with Song Zhang.
Car accident, killed on the spot.
When I died, I was still holding the diagnosis certificate in my hand, and the black and white words clearly proved my innocence-
Threatened miscarriage.
At that time, he was busy helping his new lover support the field.
"Jin Yao, don't play tricks with me, you know I can't feel sorry for you again.
"Linlin needs me here, if you bother again, don't blame me for being unkind......
Before he could finish speaking, I was knocked over by a powerful impact.
The call was abruptly cut off, and I wonder if he heard my moans of pain at the last second.
But I guess it doesn't matter if I hear it or not, he won't care anyway.
For Song Zhang, I am a despicable woman who separates him from Bai Yueguang.
Even if he really died, he would only feel happy.
I floated up and down in the darkness with all these miscellaneous thoughts, until the voices in my ears grew louder and louder.
I thought I was dying, but when I opened my eyes, I realized that it was actually in a restaurant.
Sitting in front of him was Song Zhang's new favorite who looked very much like Luyang, Jiang Lin.
As she uttered those familiar words, I realized that I had been born again.
"Miss Jin, you can also see how disgusted Song Zhang is for you, why do you have to hold on to it and not let go?
"It's better to abdicate and let Xian, so that you can gather and disperse, and you can save everyone from tearing their faces in the end. 」
I watched her wear a famous brand from head to toe, which is by no means what an eighteenth-tier actor should have.
It seems that Song Zhang really spoils her.
I smiled and slowly forked the steak into my mouth:
"Yes, how much money does Song Zhang plan to divide with me, how many shares? Or do you ...... Song Zhang didn't know about this matter, you came to me by yourself and made a decision for him. 」
Jiang Lin's eyes dodged, she had been by Song Zhang's side for not a short time, of course she knew that person was the most taboo for others to interfere with his thoughts.
Otherwise, he wouldn't hate me so much because of Lu Yang's death.
And this meeting in my previous life, I was far less calm than I am now.
At that time, I only felt that Jiang Lin was forcing the palace, and in a fit of anger, she threw the wine and sauce all over her body, allowing her to sell miserably in front of Song Zhang.
When he returned, the inevitable quarrels and sarcasm aggravated my depression and left my child without a healthy life.
It's all my own doing.
Love brain, I deserve it.
"Don't worry, I'll divorce him. Go back and tell your Mr. Song, I won't pester him anymore. 」
In the past three years, I have also ruined enough myself.
2
When I came out of the restaurant, I called Song Zhang, and unexpectedly, it was answered in seconds.
"Where are you?"
"Where?"
The two of them spoke in unison, and I raised my eyebrows and reported his position:
"But it's not convenient for me to talk here, I'll go find you, are you in the company?"
"Well, I have something to tell you, too. 」
I am all too familiar with Song Zhang's company location.
In the past, he would ask me to send him documents and reports every once in a while, and then deliberately hugged and hugged other women in front of me.
My position as Mrs. Song is in vain, and even the employees in his company are arrogant to me.
He knew it, but he never cared.
I stepped on my heels to find Song Zhang's office, and spoke first without waiting for him to speak:
"Song Zhang, let's get a divorce. 」
Song Zhang's eyes looked back and forth at me suspiciously, as if he was judging what kind of illness I had committed today.
Indeed, I never thought of divorce even when I was approached by his lover.
I said that it was for the Jin family, and later said that it was for the children, but in fact, it was because I still had illusions about Song Zhang.
But since God asked me to do it all over again, it must be to let me change my way of life.
Song Zhang didn't find a flaw in my face, and nodded lightly after pondering for a while:
"Okay, it just so happens that I'm looking for you for this too. 」
He was more prepared than I was, and the divorce agreement was ready.
I probably flipped through it, and when I thought it was okay, I signed it, and when I looked up, I saw that he was still staring at me.
"What's wrong?
"You...... There's nothing you want to say to me?"
He unconsciously rubbed his fingertips, but such a subtle movement made my heart tremble.
In his previous life, in order to help Jiang Lin block the wine, he had a scar on his finger cut by the glass to make him develop such a habit.
But at this time, Song Zhang did not have this scar.
Could it be that he is also born again?
I was dumbfounded, it turned out that if I did it again, he still wouldn't love me, and even avoided it even more than in his previous life.
Luckily, I don't care.
I shook my head and got up with the agreement: "I don't have anything to say to you, let's go quickly, it's too late to delay until tomorrow." 」
3
Without me standing between the two, Jiang Lin made their relationship public that night.
And Song Zhang generously admitted that he chose Luyang so firmly as many years ago.
Lu Yang and Song Zhang are famous couples in the school during their college years, both of them have the same appearance and family background, and their grades are also alternating first and second.
And I'm just a fool who has been chasing Song Zhang since I was a child, but I have always been cowardly and dare not show my sincerity.
I'm used to looking at his back, from being ignorant when I was a child, to adolescence, to college, to his falling in love.
I don't dare to bother too much, I'm afraid that if I do something wrong, even my friends won't be able to do it.
Until one day, the girl with a high ponytail and a pear vortex when she laughed came to me.
She said her name was Luyang.
"You like Song Zhang very much, I can see it. 」
I subconsciously wanted to deny it, but she stopped me in time:
"Don't be afraid, I'm not here to trouble you. I was just...... I'd like to ask you to do me a very excessive favor. 」
It was also on that day that I learned that Luyang was seriously ill and had no cure, so I could only wait for death in the best years.
She said that Song Zhang was the most reassuring thing for her, but she didn't want to show him her bloody self.
"I've always been proud, so I don't want anyone to see me with my hair and teeth gone, dying in bed, struggling to survive, not even Song Zhang.
"Jin Yao, I want to take a step ahead, don't you tell him, okay?
"I know he's going to be in pain, so I want to ask you...... Can you accompany him and take good care of him in his most difficult days?"
Luyang's tears fell in the wind and floated to my face.
I can't find a single reason to refuse.
So two days later, Song Zhang was broken up by a cliff, and Lu Yang insisted on leaving despite any of his pleas and cut off all contact with him.
Only I know that she went to the seaside town that she had always longed for and ended her life.
The three of us have our own pains.
Later, as Lu Yang said, since then, Song Zhang has been in a slump and has spent the most decadent days I have ever seen.
He smoked and drank heavily, and in just one month he lost his weight, and no matter how much I tried to make up for him, it would be useless.
He was so persistent in following Luyang's footsteps, so I wasn't surprised at all when he threw the medical certificate in my face.
"You already knew that, didn't you? She can even tell you, and she just hides it from me, don't you take me for a fool!"
I shook my head, "No...... We're also for your own good, and we don't want you to be too upset......
"For my good, for my good, you can ignore my thoughts and let me passively suffer a result, so that I don't even see her for the last time!"
Song Zhang's eyes were about to split, and then he suddenly thought of something, and looked at me coldly:
"Or did you do it on purpose? You just didn't want me to be with her.
"You like me, don't you? I didn't lose your previous diary, I picked it up and threw it away, I didn't expect that after so many years, you still have this kind of thought. 」
My hands and feet were cold for a moment, and I thought I was hiding so well that it had long since become a secret in the sun.
My panic became a void in Song Zhang's eyes, and some things, once the best time to explain was missed, became quibbles.
I looked at the intimate photo of Song Zhang and Jiang Lin on the screen, and suddenly I didn't know if it was worth it for so many years for me, or if it was not worth it for Luyang.
4
Jiang Lin's high-profile show of love made my failed marriage with Song Zhang re-noticed by the Jin and Song families.
The next day, I was taken by my father to a dinner with the Song family, and it seemed that I had to make up for this relationship.
I probably glanced at it, but Song Zhang didn't come.
However, his brother Song Yu, who has been abroad all the year round, rarely arrived, and nodded to me from a few people to say hello.
Speaking of which, this is the person I married at the beginning.
Later, it was Song Zhang who took the initiative to ask for a replacement, and I did chase Song Zhang a little more, so the two families decided on this family business.
And I didn't know until I was married on the day of my wedding that Song Zhang married me just to get revenge, he hated me for being related to Luyang's death, and he hated me for being alive.
"Yaoyao, that ...... We've all heard about you and Song Zhang, but we still hope you can think about it again.
"That kid Song Zhang, he loves to play since he was a child, I must say that he disciplines him and lets him return to the family! Look at you, do you want to give him another chance?"
Does Song Zhang like to play? No.
He is dedicated and affectionate, and I have been following him for so many years, and I know him best.
So he really doesn't love me, and he doesn't even bother to act on the spot.
I smiled and shook my head, showing everyone present the indentation of the ring on my hand:
"No, we have already registered for divorce, and we will get the divorce certificate in a while.
"It's not just Song Zhang's problem that I've come to this point, it's also that I don't love him anymore. This kind of marriage without any emotional foundation, neither of us can hold on.
"Although we can't be husband and wife, Song Zhang and I are still friends, so uncle doesn't have to worry. 」
At this point, the elders can only respond to the regrets.
The main purpose of the meal was not achieved, and everyone ate the same as chewing wax, except for me.
Near the end, Song Yu offered to send me home.
I looked at my dad and saw that they wanted to go to the second show, so I agreed.
Song Yu and I talked back and forth all the way, but it wasn't very embarrassing.
Waiting for the gap between the red lights, he suddenly glanced at me:
"The Song family and the Jin family, is there no possibility of remarriage?"
I shook my head: "No, Song Zhang and I ......."
"The Song family. 」
He interrupted me abruptly, and then looked at me solemnly, "Song Zhang is not the only one. 」
If the first sentence is a temptation, then the second sentence is almost a nominee.
I suddenly felt my throat choke on words, and my brain shut down for a few seconds before I reacted.
"If your other option is yours, then I'm going to say no.
"As you can see, I haven't been loved by Song Zhang for a few years since I got married, and I've never loved myself well, so I'm tired of this emotionless lifestyle.
"If marriages are like this and you can get together and live together, then I'd rather not get married. 」
I spoke slowly, but Song Yu listened carefully.
It wasn't until the car drove up to my door that it replied, "Okay, I understand, I'll see you tomorrow." 」
See you tomorrow?
Unfortunately, before I could ask him what he meant, the car drove away.
It doesn't seem to be in much better mental condition than his brother's.
5
When I returned to my own home, I finally felt alive.
Looking back on those three years, I feel like I was soaking in bitter water every day, desperately grasping at that illusory life-saving straw.
Thinking about it now, it's ridiculous.
I don't need to search for Song Zhang's news, it hangs with Jiang Lin's name all day long.
Occasionally, I saw a photo of the two of them, and I returned to Luyang in a trance.
I remembered that I used to envy Luyang, thinking that she had a good personality, good grades, and could easily get Song Zhang's love.
But on the day I came back, I stood in front of the mirror and saw the woman standing across from me with exquisite makeup, a wealthy family, and the ability to run a company.
I realized that I had always been good, but I just liked that the light of a person was too bright, and I was completely lost in the shadows.
I picked up my phone and was going to wash up and go to bed after watching the video for a while, when a message happened to come in.
It's Song Zhang.
[Went to dinner today? They didn't embarrass you, did they?]
I was puzzled, I didn't know what kind of style Song Zhang was smoking today, so he actually took the initiative to ask me.
[Nope.] Don't worry, I've already told them and won't bother you anymore. 】
There was no reply for a long time, and it wasn't until I finished washing up that I replied with a [hmm], which is very his style.
I was just about to turn off the screen, and the other party sent another sentence:
[Rest early, don't be too tired, good night.] 】
If it was the previous life, his sentence was enough for me to be so excited that I couldn't sleep in the middle of the night.
But now I look at this ordinary sentence, and after thinking about it, I still haven't replied.
Now that you've decided to let it go, there's no need to talk too much about it.
6
I thought Song Yu's words were just casually remarked, so I didn't take it to heart.
It wasn't until the next day at work, when he was led into my office by someone from the technical department, that I knew he was telling the truth.
"Mr. Jin, this is a new recruit in our department, Xiao Song, Song Yu. 」
I raised my eyebrows: "Xiao Song?"
"Well, Mr. Jin is good. 」
His expression was so faint that I couldn't see his purpose at all.
But it is absolutely impossible for a person who is in charge of several companies to come to me as a low-level employee, and say that there is no purpose.
After taking Song Yu away, I called HR and asked him about his situation, and after learning that the monthly salary was 8,000, I motioned her to press it again.
"Okay, then...... Seven thousand and a half? In his position, eight thousand is the lowest, and if it is lower, he will be poached. 」
I shook my head, "All I want is to let him go." Pressed to two thousand, and then find some messy excuses every month to deduct one thousand two. 」
HR's expression was like a ghost, and I patted her on the shoulder comfortingly:
"It's okay, I'll take it with me if something happens. 」
I don't think any tech guy can allow his abilities to be underestimated like this.
Even if you don't just pick on it, at least you have to be a little dissatisfied.
But obviously, I underestimated Song Yu.
Near the end of the day, he leaned against the door of my office and made an invitation to me:
"In order to thank you for your tempering and cultivation of me, I invite you to dinner? not as an employee, as a friend, but as the elder brother of the Song family. 」
I hesitated again and again but followed, I didn't want to be so unfortunate that I could meet Song Zhang in the same restaurant.
He was followed by Jiang Lin, his face was not good, and it seemed that he was arguing.
「宋章？这么巧，带新欢来吃饭。 」
The person who was called nodded, and then his eyes wandered back and forth between me and Song Yu, and I was uncomfortable to see.
"You're also in a good mood to have dinner with my ex-wife. 」
He deliberately accentuated the word "ex-wife", and the eyes that fell on me were vaguely chilling, which was incomprehensible.
I had no intention of dealing with him too much, but when I was about to leave, I was suddenly stopped by Song Zhang.
"There's still a lot of your stuff in the house, so why don't you go back and get it sometime?" 」
"No, just throw it away, it's all garbage. 」
He frowned, "There are still a lot of handicrafts, and I don't want them?"
"That's not worth much, why keep it?"
As soon as these words came out, the displeasure on Song Zhang's face became even more obvious, and he left a sentence coldly: "You have to throw yourself back and throw it back." 」
Then he walked away, not even caring about Jiang Lin.
7
I have long been accustomed to Song Zhang's uncertainties, after all, I spent three years under his temper in the last life.
He rarely got used to me, and most of the time he was sneering at me, or hugging others to deliberately provoke me to make me angry.
The piles broke my heart.
"You don't seem to be in a good mood, do you need to eat somewhere else?"
I came back to my senses, and as soon as I looked up, I met those calm and stable eyes, and shook my head with a smile.
"No, I was just thinking about it. 」
"About Song Zhang?"
I didn't hide it, and I admitted bluntly, "Yes and no. It's really related to him, but it's not sad for him. 」
Song Yu looked at me for a long time before hesitating:
"You...... I liked him so much before, why don't you like him all of a sudden?"
When I heard this, I was playful, and I smiled at him:
"I said it was because I had a dream that I would die a miserable death because of him, do you believe it?"
"Letters. 」
He answered so crisply, but I didn't know how to answer, and I was stunned.
Fortunately, the dishes were ready, I lowered my head and just ate them, Song Yu peeled several shrimps and put them in a bowl and pushed them to me:
"Jin Yao, let's make a deal. I show you my sincerity, prove my worth, and you consider being with me. Whatever the outcome is, and whatever the reason, I'll accept it. 」