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Today's eighth day of junior high school, whether everyone is also going to work, I don't know how everyone is doing this year, I really can't say anything, I am a girl who married to other places, I drove the night train back to my mother's house in the second year of junior high school, the third year of junior high school, when I left my mother's house, I left crying, what happened, everyone listen to me.
My name is Li Sisi, this year's natal year, dragon, 48 years old, the second day of the Lunar New Year is the day to go back to my parents' house, I am busy with work this year, I haven't returned to my hometown for a year, it's just the New Year, I've been busy for a year, I'm going to evaluate the title in the company, and I'm going to go home to see my mother during the New Year.
My mom is now 79 years old, my mom has been a little wrong since last year, my eldest brother also called me and said, saying that my mom is now older, a little different from before, I thought it was not very good, but the eldest brother said very vaguely, the eldest brother said that Mom's health is good, Dad's body is average, sick twice. I was weird at the time.
Later, in May of the year, my mother called me often when I was at work, and at first, I thought something was wrong, but then I found out that she had nothing to do, she just wanted to talk to me.
But I need to drive to work every morning, sometimes in the evening, busy until late to get off work, just busy with work has made me anxious, work takes up all my time, at home, the children are also more managed by my husband and parents-in-law, they also understand me, but my mother doesn't understand, and it doesn't matter if I'm busy or not, I also understand, the old man is old, it's like this, but I also need to work. It's not the Chinese New Year, I went back to my parents' house in the second year of junior high school, and before dawn in the morning, I pulled my husband and children and drove home in the dark.
When I was in the city, it was not very good to drive, there were quite a lot of cars on the road, and finally drove on the highway, there was an accident on the highway, and it was delayed for a while, I thought I could get home before 12 o'clock, but I didn't expect to drive at two o'clock in the afternoon.
In fact, as early as when my husband proposed to go home for the New Year, I was actually full of hesitation. It's not that I don't want to be filial, it's just that I have long lost my sense of belonging to that so-called "home". But my husband's persistence and filial piety made me unable to say no, so I could only silently bear this journey home.
I didn't tell my husband, in fact, my relationship with my mother is quite tense, for many reasons, don't look at me as a girl, my mother is partial to me, although the eldest brother is by my mother's side, but my mother is still partial to me.
The eldest brother is divorced with a girl, and the niece has always lived with my mother, although the eldest brother has not remarried, but I know that he has a girlfriend, and the eldest brother also helps others raise children. My mother told me that my eldest brother's conditions are not good, but I am doing well now, and I will help more if I have the ability.
When I was admitted to university, my eldest brother only attended one vocational school. When I was a child, I was actually not very sensible, often into trouble, my eldest brother protected me, my parents were also used to me, plus I was smart, I also worked hard to study, and I was indeed admitted to a good university, in those years, the whole family provided me to study alone, I remember that my living expenses in college were 300 yuan, not enough to spend, I also went out to be a tutor, my eldest brother knew that I was not enough to spend, and also mailed me ham sausages and bread. But ham sausage is the good stuff.
After I graduated, I went to a big company for an interview, and my mother didn't want to, she wanted me to go back to the local area so that I could be by her side, but I didn't want to, I just wanted to study and leave, leave home, leave that small city.
After work, the leader of the unit introduced me to a boy, his family conditions are good, I am an undergraduate, he is a college student, although there is a gap in academic qualifications, but his family conditions are good, many people have studied abroad in those years, and his family also sent him to study in the UK.
In fact, my family is not very suitable for his family, although I study well, but the family education is not good, my parents give me what they think is the best, but compared with my husband, it is actually still a lot worse, and there is no way to make up for these gaps. I was young at the time and didn't realize all of this, which I didn't figure out until I was at this age.
In fact, when I first got married, I often fought with my husband, because many concepts are different for us, and one of the things my husband often said to me at that time was, why do you think so, and then I experienced a lot, and I also understood, in fact, the problem is on me. But family education is in the bones, not you can change it if you want to, my education for my daughter, many times, is the same as my mother's education for me.
I know that my family of origin can't be changed, but I'm also lucky, at least, I left that family. Later, I talked to my eldest brother, in fact, my eldest brother also wanted to leave, but he couldn't leave it.
In fact, I used to look forward to going home for the Chinese New Year, going home to meet my childhood friends, going to places I used to be, taking my daughter to the park where I used to get up early and go for a morning run, and reunite with my family.
But in the past few years, I don't really want to go back, my mother has been telling me every year during the Chinese New Year or usually, telling my relatives, anyway, just talk about people, what to talk about, talk about how much money I spent on her when I went to college, talk about how she trained me, accompany me to study, run with me, anyway, it is the dedication to me.
My dad is an honest man, he has been honest all his life, he listens to my mother, and he has never said a word about my mother's current situation.
Last summer, my mother sold the two houses in the family, and then transferred the money to me, I told my mother that I don't want it, the eldest brother is obviously by your side to take care of you, I am in the field, and there is a family with parents-in-law, you give the money to the eldest brother, but my mother said I was stupid, she didn't care about giving me the money.
I told my eldest brother about it, and my eldest brother was very excited, and I don't know why my mother did this, in July, my mother transferred money to me, and in September, my eldest brother was hospitalized with a heart attack. The eldest brother's illness was quite sudden, the doctor said, the eldest brother is in such a situation, you can't be excited in the future, otherwise it is very dangerous, the eldest brother is sick, at first my mother didn't know, because my father's health this year has not been very good, the eldest brother also said, don't tell your mother, I'm afraid that they will be old and worry about any accidents.
But after my mother gave me money, she called me more often, and even came to the city where I lived to find me, to live with me, and said, is my brother to her, not as good as before, did not go to her house to see her, my mother said that my brother has changed. I don't know how to tell my mom, I'm struggling.
So this year, I don't really want to go home for the New Year.
On the day of Chinese New Year's Eve, I didn't call my mother, but my husband made this call and said that we would go out early in the morning of the second year of junior high school and go home to see them. I don't want to go back, and I think this year's Chinese New Year must be a different year.
I don't know if my brother's illness has anything to do with the money my mother gave me, but I know that my brother is unhappy, in fact, my mother still has two houses in her hands, but it is written in my father's name. I don't know if my mom will give me the house or give it to my brother.
In order to save money, my husband and I started driving home before dawn, and when I got home, I felt that I was already hungry, and when I got home, I didn't see my niece, nor did I see my eldest brother, and my mother seemed to be limping, I didn't ask my mother, what happened, I felt that the atmosphere at home was wrong. My dad seems to have something on his mind, too.
What's going on at home?
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