Dictation: Li Yuxiang
Finishing: Rebirth
Manuscript: 依旧迷茫
In the days after marriage, I was sweet and happy!
Wang Chunsheng, a good man who will always be worthy of my trust and reliance.
We went from acquaintance to love, until we stepped into the palace of marriage hand in hand.
We never blushed, and his love for me was so meticulous that it permeated every bit of life.
In his eyes, I felt like a little lamb, protected by him all the time.
He took on almost all the daily household chores, laundry, cooking and cleaning, and he never counted on me.
For example, during the holidays, I have more time and want to help him with some household chores, but he often rushes to do it. It seems that I am not up to standard, especially when it comes to taking care of my son, as long as he is at home, it is not my turn to take care of him.
What should I wear, should I be fed formula, and he always remembers it.
Every time I come back from work, I always ask: What time do you feed the milk powder?
He was very attentive and considerate of my son and my care, warm and thoughtful.
For this, I often feel guilty and feel sorry for him all the time.
To him I have been hiding from him my unbearable past and pre-marital possessions.
I often ask myself, if he loves me so much, why don't I announce it in front of him?
During the summer vacation, my younger brother wanted to come to play with us, so he packed up the room in advance and prepared a lot of snacks to entertain my younger brother.
He also said in front of me more than once: "Let my second elder come to live here, if you don't feel used to it, you can rent a suite for the second elder nearby." ”
His belief is clear: to love a person, to love her all.
There is no reason for true deep love, whether it is good or bad. In the face of deep love, she is flawless.
Even if it is a momentary confusion and betrayal, under the shroud of deep love, it will be melted and forgiven.
In the past few years, I have often thought: God did not treat me badly, although I experienced the unbearable first love, but the appearance of Wang Chunsheng gave me great compensation and comfort.
Wang Chunsheng, he is a funny and humorous person.
In his concept, the person he loves is never wrong.
For example, when I cook occasionally, salty or light, he never complains and blames. If it is salty, it is buying real salt, and if it is light, it is buying fake salt.
The same is true for him when it comes to work.
He treats his team members as brothers and sisters and always cares about their daily lives.
After a period of ideological struggle, I decided to tell him my secret.
It was a weekend evening, and I asked him with a smile:
"Wang Chunsheng, don't you want to know about my past? Do you know that you are not my first love, but you are the most beautiful love in my life!"
And what about him? Suddenly he covered my mouth.
Meaning let me stop, no matter what, let him pass the past, even if it's the good side.
He knew my past, my first love, and it must have been sad. Otherwise, where would there be his play?
In order not to conjure up my sad memories, he said categorically: "Please don't mention and dwell on the past, who doesn't have a past in life?"
既然他不愿意听，那我又何必呢？
So although I feel a little sorry for him, I can only make him my permanent secret when I look back on the past.
As for the house I bought before marriage, I was about to tell him, but he took the initiative to remind me, saying that he would use his housing provident fund to repay the mortgage we live in. Use my housing provident fund to buy another set and let my second elder support me in the future.
And I? I'm sorry. Thank you for your love and kindness.
I achieved this a few years ago, and now I'm paying off the loan with rent?
He said, "You're stupid, and you're uniquely stupid. We've been together for so long, don't you know me? You know, in my heart, you will always be the most perfect person. ”
I was particularly touched by his words.
A sense of guilt, as if all of a sudden, swept back into my heart.
Why didn't I meet him sooner? Why wasn't he my first love?
The more he treated me, the more I felt guilty and guilty.
Because I didn't leave him the sacred first time, and let the unbearable past be hidden in my heart forever.
Sometimes I really want to vomit, but I can't.
During the Spring Festival of that year, I returned to my homeland for the first time after a long absence.
I met a colleague in the county seat, and he told me: After Zhang Mingbo and I broke up, he didn't get together with his ex-girlfriend. Instead, he married a female employee of a cotton mill, but two years ago, his lover had been laid off.
Later, he made a living by setting up tea stalls and selling stationery on campus.
As for Zhang Wenbo, he has been standing still and has made almost no progress.
And I, when I got his latest situation, I was not happy, but I felt a sense of empathy.
All of this may be fate!
My love, love, hate!
It's all gone.
Today, I, a young female teacher in my thirties, are still working silently in an ordinary position.
Although I didn't have big ups and downs, I was proud to meet a good man like Wang Chunsheng!
Thanksgiving! Thanksgiving!
I am even more grateful for his presence in my life!
It was his appearance that gave me a new rebirth.
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