Lao Li's New Year's speech - my 50 years from a different perspective
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Perhaps, this is the most different kind of New Year's message you have ever seen. First of all, I wish you all a happy Chinese New Year, a happy family, and all the best!
Do you find that there is one of the most significant changes in the New Year and previous years, that is, Wishing you prosperity to fortune, the Year of the Ox, the Year of the Horse, the Year of the Snake, the Year of the Donkey, the Year of the Dragon, the Year of the Pig, the year of fortune. That's because, now people are more realistic, those flashy, not the nonsense that you wish to get rich can really get rich, in fact, everyone knows that they can't make a fortune, so now, no one wants to listen to those, it's better to have a happy family and be in good health. These words are not, but auspicious words. Just like the Qing Dynasty, when the two of them met, a dozen and a thousand children, "you are auspicious" is a meaning.
I was born in 71, and after the New Year, I was 53, but in fact, it was not yet. My 50 years, in fact, can't be counted as 50 years, because I have to start counting from 78/79 because I am sensible, right?
I graduated from junior high school in '87, and as I am now, I am white, illiterate, and I have never been to school. At the end of the 80s, in the 89/90s, I wanted to study the budget and final accounts of architecture, but I went to sign up, and people said that I had to be a member of the league to learn this, and asked if you were a member of the league?
Am I a member of the league? How do I know if I am a member of the league? It's a toss, I got the membership card, but I'm already past the spirit of self-improvement, Nimad, I don't study. For me, it's the times that have brought it to me. I don't have anything sorry for the times and countries, but ...... You know!
I write, the person who has the greatest influence on me is the Taiwanese female writer Sanmao, I want to be like her, I want to have love like her, I think she is the other half of my love, this is the influence of Sanmao on me.
As a result, there was a thunderclap, and on January 4, 1991, Sanmao hanged himself in the bathroom of Taipei Veterans General Hospital, dying of 40 years old 7.
I complained and sighed for half a month, there is a word called such as mourning Kaoyan, I have heard of it, I am more examined than Kaoyan, when my parents died, it was uncomfortable when Sanmao died. At the same time, I thought hard for half a month, in the bathroom of the hospital ward, there is a bathroom in the ward, this ward is high-end enough. If you don't say what the gap is, it doesn't start now, but a long time ago, the gap existed.
I guess there are few people in their fifties or sixties who know about it. Back then, I also read a manuscript, the first one was "The Heart of a Girl", according to that time, the main focus was sexual enlightenment, contraband, or no need to copy by hand.
For me, it was a youthful memory, a testimony of my youth. "Girl's Heart", also known as "Manna's Memoirs", tells the story of the love triangle between the protagonist Manna and her cousin Shaohua and classmate Lin Tao. The book began to circulate among the people in the 70s and did not end until I saw the manuscript.
I met this person once, he is still alive now, he is Mr. Zhang Yang, he is not too old, born in 1944, this year is equivalent to 80 years. Zhang Yang is best known for his novel "The Second Handshake", which he also entered. I read that his "Second Handshake" is also a manuscript.
A few years ago, Zhang Yang wrote a small essay, a thousand words, called "disaster relief wine", which means that a certain place in Hunan was hit by a disaster, and the relevant departments went to the disaster relief to help hundreds of thousands of yuan, but everyone in the group ate and fed the horses, including the car dealership to eat and drink, and the total cost was 10 times and 20 times the disaster relief money, which is probably such a story. I appreciate flamboyance, and that's his character.
There is a writer in Beijing, Zhao Qiang, we used to have some contacts, he wrote "Can't Find the North" and "Who is more stupid than whom", these are two very common novels, in fact, if you press today, it should be in the boudoir, you can't get out.
Brother Mo Yan, that's everyone, Nobel laureate. He wrote a novel called "Breast and Fat Buttocks" a few years ago, according to the title of the book, if it is put aside today, it will not be published, you know. Even included, Ge You Feng Xiaogang's movie "The Funeral of the Big Names", the title could not be reviewed, and it was later changed to "The Big Names". Over the years, I have written a lot of various dramas, and I know them well.
I don't know what she's doing now, but a few years ago, she wrote a pioneering "sexual" novel called "Shanghai Baby", and the female author is called Wei Hui.
Wei Hui is the same age as me, she is 73 years old, graduated from the Chinese Department of the College of Literature of Fudan University, and is considered a scientific class. To be honest, I watched her "Shanghai Baby" as if I was fascinated and immersive, and even I lived it almost like that kind of day. In my opinion, the main theme of this novel is realism.
Of course, what I'm talking about is all before, it was okay before, but not now. That's why I said that my New Year's speech is different from someone else's. The difference is the perspective, the difference is the experience, the difference is the past, and the difference is that those years are okay.
From the perspective of a writer, from the perspective of a person who has experienced it, I interpret the years I have experienced and these years, where have they changed? We used to look forward to a bright future, but now we don't have ideals and no longer fantasize. I used to be a little bit of a taste, but now I don't care at all. I used to have spotless clothes and never have grudge ideas, but now I think a little grudge idea is my true color.
Because even if I am clean and clean, I can't live in a vacuum, in a sterile environment, right? Is the food safe? Are you still eating crops after you turn around? Is the word smog used to exist? Acid rain, red rain, mud on a rainy day, and the idea of mud may have been experienced before? Therefore, to re-examine myself, I am actually pulling a calf. I'm still a big wave, let's follow everyone around.
When I was a child, I picked up a small stone slab in Xihetao, 300 meters away from my home, and there were small fish or other small animals on it. We were very curious about what kind of stone it was, but we didn't know about the fossil of the creature. And now, you look at these things only in museums. Suddenly, those fossils with small fish and small animals disappeared without a trace in an instant, just like my attitude towards love at that time.
My cousin was 2 years older than me, I think it was 1989, and that's when she started to fall in love. I think I guided her in love. Even though she was two years older than me, I was already half-reading poetry. My guidance to her is all in my book.
She was standing outside the wall of my house, and I was inside the wall, and we were talking like that. My middle finger was tipped at the crack in the stone, and my other hand was on the wall. I felt that my middle finger was cold, and I looked down to see a small snake licking my fingers with its thin tongue, as if it was still licking with relish.
I said you lick it, and across the wall, I asked my cousin, what is love?
When I say that the meaning of love is to help the other person improve at the same time, and at the same time improve himself, this is called love, which is what Chernyshevsky said. As for what kind of car this driver drives, I don't know.
I am in my 50s this year, and after so many years of verification, I finally found out that this sentence turned out to be wrong. My love is basically to find happiness in the case of more or less helping each other with funds, I think the official language is called love, the truth is called friendship, good words are called communication, the truth is called exchange, and ugly words are called transactions.
On the occasion of the Spring Festival, I hope you can feel different from others, and I hope you can watch it with relish.
I wanted to give him a few thousand more words, but the space is limited, and it's too long to post, so stop there. Once again, I wish you a blessed and prosperous Chinese New Year!
That's it, thank you!
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