"It's Xinyue who is difficult now!" Guangyu said.
"Yes, it's hard for you! Whether you recognize your biological father or not, but the blood relationship is severe, you can't resent him, he doesn't know that there is a son of yours at all!"
Xia Jianjun's tears were in her eyes, her tears were more for her cousin Guan Qishan, the person who loved him the most, died because of him, and left him a son. The man he married betrayed him, and the daughter he had carefully cultivated did not know whose it was until she died?
"He doesn't know? Who believes it? I don't know why you are asked to take care of our brothers? Why did I grant me 500,000 yuan with a word?" Guangyu asked.
Xia Jianjun casually threw the letter left by Guan Qishan in front of him, "If you don't believe it, I can't help it, look at this letter!"
"Whose letter?" Guangyu asked.
"My cousin stayed. ”
Guangyu asked, "For whom?"
Xia Jianjun replied: "It's for me, but it's all your business!"
"Say me?" Guangyu was puzzled. He thought to himself, Guan Qishan has passed away, when did he leave a letter, how can he still talk about himself?
"Yes. This is still before the Spring Festival this year, you and Xin Yue eyebrows, I was afraid that you would go crazy, so I called him and told him. This is the letter he left me that night.
After his death, Xinyue cleaned up from his office, and brought it to me when Xinyue came to Shanghai during this National Day holiday. Because at that time, my cousin and I thought that you and Xinyue were half-brothers and sisters.
Since Lao Zhao has already said that you know that you are Guan Qishan's son, why are you still pestering Xinyue? At that time, I didn't know what purpose you had, so I didn't tell you that you had this letter at that time. ”
Guangyu picked up the envelope and flipped through it, but did not take the letter inside.
Seeing this, Xia Jianjun said: "You take it out and look at it from beginning to end, you don't believe what I say." You'll know if you've seen it!"
Guangyu took out the letters from the envelope and read them one by one. With the review of the relationship between him and his mother in Guan Qishan's letter, it turned out that many mysteries in his diary that he couldn't solve now he understood.
After June 12 of that year, the reason why his mother ignored Guan Qishan, and the reason why she regretted and hated it was because she and Guan Qishan were emotionally impulsive and broke through the bottom line. She was both panicked and sweet and shy.
In that era when raw rice is cooked and mature, and having a skin-to-skin relationship is "your person", his mother must hope that Guan Qishan can marry her. Because of the disparity in their status, she was afraid of wronging him, so she chose to retreat.
In fact, her retreat was not willing, she was retreating, waiting, waiting for him to chase after her, expecting him to chase him without hesitation, so that she would be happy to accept his love.
Because of Yan Hua's appearance, he became forward-looking and hesitant, which made his mother's heart gradually cold.
This is also the reason why his mother ignored him for more than two months until August 24 after she couldn't help but fall in love with him by the old mountain pond on June 12 of that year.
August 24 is the seventh day of the seventh month of the lunar calendar. Her mother couldn't wait, because she found out that she was pregnant, and she was about to show her pregnancy, and time didn't allow her to drag it out, so she asked him to meet him at the old place.
Qixi Festival is a traditional Valentine's Day in mainland China. The reason why his mother chose to meet him on this special day is actually to show her attitude, that is, she hopes that he can marry her.
Because at that time she had no choice but to marry him, because she had no choice but to have a showdown with him.
Poor, alone by the old mountain pond, endured the cold wind and stayed up all night, leaning on strange rocks to listen to crows, and stayed all night, without waiting for the "Guan Lang" in her heart to appear at the end of the Queqiao.
The next day, that is, on August 25, she was cornered, put down all the reserves of women, and resolutely went to the township government to find him, but what she got was that he and Yan Hua were both transferred out of Shanghai Port, which is what his mother wrote in her diary on August 25, 1974:
"It's over!
The dream also woke up!
What is the point of complaining about him? I wish them happiness!
Goodbye! All the good things have been left here, and I hope that one day he will read it! Let him know what I have done for our love!"
What kind of decision is this? This is a decision to nirvana for love, and she swallows all the bitterness that belongs to her and what does not belong to her, not only to maintain her pure love for him, but also out of helplessness. Her final choice of his father is proof of this.
If Guan Qishan read that her mother wrote a diary for him five years later, I don't know how to feel?
Five years ago, he missed an appointment, and five years later, he missed again. The first time he broke the appointment, he made her lose her love, and the second time, he made her lose her life. also made him lose Guan Qishan forever the true memory left by the person he loved the most.
He now seemed to understand that the reason why the fucking diary was left in Shantang must have been brought to him by her. The purpose given to him was never to renew the previous relationship, because the fate of each other was exhausted. She handed him the diary, foreshadowing her to say "goodbye" to the past once and for all!"
In that case, why did her mother bring it up again?
She has let go, but it does not mean that she is willing, and she has let go, but it does not mean that she can tolerate his ignorance.
She gave everything for him, and also helped give birth to a son, she persevered to the end, did not live up to him in the slightest, and carried the hardships of life that belonged to two people, and he couldn't ignore her existence.
She has no regrets or wants anything for what she has done, but you can't be indifferent.
The reason why she brought the diary to him was to return all her suffering and grievances to its maker, otherwise there would be no place to confide in the bitterness and grievances that pressed on her heart!
Sadly, she didn't let him see her diary until she died, her love, her suffering, and her grievances sank into the mountain pond together with the kind her.
Originally, the story of her love will always lie flat under the mountain pond, who would have thought that 24 years later, the diary will return to her son's hands.
Guangyu finished reading Guan Qishan's letter, and his mind was still immersed in the memories of her mother.
"What are you thinking?" asked his aunt Xia Jianjun.
"Aunt, it turns out that the reason why you have been taking care of our family is because of Uncle Guan's entrustment, this question has been solved, but I still have some mysteries that have not been solved. Guangyu asked her.
"What?
"I've always wanted to ask you, is who gave my mother's grave flowers on the Qingming Festival?
"I also sent it, and your Uncle Guan also sent it. Every 5th or 10th anniversary of your mother's death, your cousin will come to Houshan to lay a bouquet of flowers on your mother's grave. In normal years, he would ask me to dedicate on my behalf. ”
"I've been wondering for a long time, but today I've finally solved the mystery. ”
Then Guangyu said, "Do you think you can atone for your sins in this way, and will you be able to pay off what you owe my mother?"
He can't erase the damage he did to my mother, and he can't resist my mother's true affection for him! If he had a little bit of responsibility, my mother would not have died in Lao Shantang, and he would have an unshirkable responsibility for my mother's death!
If he hadn't fled that night, my mother would never have fallen into the pond. ”
"Guangyu, both of them have passed away, what's the point of mentioning this again?" Xia Jianjun persuaded.
After a while, Guangyu said to Xia Jianjun again: "Aunt, someone directly hinted to me that my mother was killed by Guan Qishan! And tell me that there are my mother's relics at the bottom of the old mountain pond, and if you find the relics, the truth will be revealed to the world." ”
Jianjun: "Yes, Qishan also received a message from someone, saying that Lao Tang has your mother's relics, which is not good for him, and he asked me to inquire about it." ”
Guangyu: "Is his heart empty?"
"Guangyu, you misunderstood, he was worried that you would see your mother's relics, and he was afraid that you would do irrational things!"
"Anyway, he has an unshirkable responsibility for my mother's death. Guangyu was still unwilling.
"Yes, didn't he also repent!" Jian Junming defended Guan Qishan, but in fact he was relieved and persuaded him to let go.
"Well, it's all gone, what's the point of saying this, I'm just sorry for my mother!" Guangyu didn't bother with it anymore.
Guangyu continued, "Aunt, in fact, I didn't hate him when he was alive, I just felt that he was so sorry for my mother." My mother's love for him was so heartfelt that she never wanted to ask for anything from him. ”
"I can also feel this from my cousin Qishan's letter!" Xia Jianjun said.
"Aunt, although you are entrusted by Uncle Guan, it is not easy to take care of our brother for so many years, I really treat you as the closest person, and I don't hide it from you, my mother does have a relic at the bottom of the old mountain pond, the relic is a diary, she wrote down all their feelings about their love, no one knows their joys and sorrows during that time better than me!"
"Then you knew that my cousin was your biological father?"
"Yes. What can I do if I know? My dad pulled us up with hard work, don't want him? I just want to climb, he can accept it? If he accepts it, Aunt Yan will not tolerate it. Xia Guangyu admitted calmly, because there is no need to hide it now, everything is revealed.
"That's true! Didn't you see my cousin thanking you in his letter, saying that you saved the last face for him!"
"What's the point of saying this? Everyone is gone! Aunt, now that everything is clear, the key problem has not been solved, how to make Aunt Yan face Xinyue and agree to Xinyue marrying me, this is the most difficult problem at present. ”
"Yes, or I'll come to you without her!" Xia Jianjun also felt very troubled.
Their aunt and nephew thought about it for a long time, no matter what way they thought, they couldn't get around Yan Hua in short. It can be said that "strict women should be closed, and ten thousand people should not be opened." ”
In the end, Xia Jianjun asked Guangyu to inform Xinyue of the appraisal results, and how to persuade her mother can only be discussed in the long run, and she can't be in a hurry!
As a relative of the Guan family, her elbow must have been turned inward, and when Xinyue was sure that it was not her cousin's biological daughter, although she didn't say it explicitly, she fully supported Guangyu in her heart to marry Xinyue.
And he has a deep mustard for Yan Hua!
Xia Jianjun is an outsider, she doesn't know what Yan Hua experienced back then? She just looked at the results and thought that she snatched her cousin from Xia Guangyu's mother Cao Jingyun and betrayed him, which made her unacceptable.
(To be continued)