That night, I attended a class reunion that I hadn't seen in a long time. The lively restaurant was full of laughter, as if I had stepped back in time, and I had returned to the years of my youth.
First love is a vague and beautiful memory, which is always hidden in the corner of the heart and is awakened from time to time. He is a touch of tenderness in my youth. We met in high school, and at that time, we were full of longing for the future and full of faith in love.
He appeared at the party, still so sunny, so charming. The years have not left too many marks on his face, but the panic in my heart has already surged into my heart. We greeted and laughed, but the turmoil in our hearts could not be calmed.
It was late at night, after three rounds of drinking, and the old love was uncontrollable, we came together. Time seemed to stand still, and only the sound of a heartbeat echoed in my ears. At that moment, I felt as if I was back in my high school days, and all the emotions came to my heart, and I couldn't control myself.
All night of joy, all night of loss. I know I've done something wrong, but I can't help myself.
The morning sun filtered through the curtains, and I woke up empty. As my consciousness became clearer, I realized my mistake. I packed up in a hurry and set out on the way home, not knowing what to do with my husband.
The door of the house was open, and a depressing breath came to the face. He sat in the living room, his eyes hollow, like a shell of a lost soul.
"You...... Didn't come back last night. His voice was filled with exhaustion and disappointment that could not be concealed.
I bowed my head silently and said nothing.
"You know what? I stayed up all night, my mind was full of you, wondering where you were and who you were with. His voice trembled, full of pain and helplessness.
I was speechless, and my heart was like a knife.
"I believe in you, I always thought that the relationship between us was indestructible. His voice grew deeper, "But maybe I'm wrong." ”
His words pierced my heart like a needle, and I couldn't resist it. I know that I have failed his trust, that I have failed our marriage.
"I don't know what's left between us, perhaps, we've come to the end. His voice was filled with endless helplessness and desolation.
I can't answer, I can't explain, I can't do it.
"I don't want to lose you, but I can't stand it either. His eyes were filled with despair and helplessness.
I burst into tears, and I knew that I had lost him, that we had lost everything we had ever had.
The divorce agreement is like an unbridgeable chasm that completely tears apart our marriage. I looked at his departing back, my heart was like a knife, and tears were raining down.
The class reunion, which was supposed to be a good memory, became the most painful experience of my life. First love is an unattainable memory, and I can't grasp it after all, and I can't forget it.
As night fell, there was a heavy smell in the room. I sat alone on the edge of my bed, thoughts rushing through me. The past is constantly replaying in my mind, like a nightmare from which I can't escape.
I closed my eyes, trying to resist the torment inside, but the fragments of my memories still came out clearly. That familiar smile, that warm embrace, everything seems like yesterday.
But yesterday has become forever. The guilt and remorse in my heart were mixed and I couldn't help myself. I understand that no matter what, I can't erase last night's mistakes and I can't get back the love I lost.
I know that I am all self-inflicted, and I can't escape it, and I can't forgive myself. Life may never give me a second chance, I can only bear it all silently, carrying my sins forever.