Gin Lee recently shared his emotional world on the online documentary travel interview show "Vain Talk", and took the filming team back to his old residence in North Point, where he first came to Hong Kong, and talked about the living environment at that time.
I first came to Hong Kong to live in a subdivided unit
Li Xingni took the filming team from Kwun Tong to North Point by boat, it turned out that North Point was the first place she lived when she first came to Hong Kong for development, and walked downstairs to the building, she said that she used to live on the top floor, a two-bedroom unit of more than 200 feet, one bedroom and one used as a cloakroom, cool in winter and warm in summer, from the gate to the bedroom, but three steps away.
She remembers the first time her parents visited, and her mother couldn't help crying when she saw her living environment: "They took two big suitcases, but after looking at the place, two people and two suitcases couldn't get in, and my mother was very distressed and cried." My mother felt that she was not used to it, because in our hometown, everyone lived very spacious, thousands of feet, and she would feel that there was such a big contrast. ”
Went through a dark time
After signing a new contract with a new company last year, Li Xingni moved her parents and sister to live in Hong Kong, and won good results at this year's awards ceremony. Coming to Hong Kong alone and not knowing a word of Cantonese, she also experienced a dark period, and her depressive symptoms surfaced one by one.
She said: "When I left the first company and signed the second company, I had no direction at all, and I had no connections, so I had to wait, and the whole process was so long. I cry when it's dark, cry until dawn, I start to get scared when it's dark, I don't know what to do, I can't hold anything, everything doesn't belong to me, what am I doing in this place?"
"I thought I was very powerful, but I didn't! A lot of this negative voice. I have no goal and dare not tell others, so I push my emotions to a critical point. I felt like I might not be able to turn back if I didn't pull myself back. ”
Asked if she had sought medical attention? She said helplessly: "At that time, I didn't go to the doctor, I didn't have the money to see a doctor, seeing a doctor is so expensive, the mountains and rivers are exhausted, I have the rest of the money to buy a plane ticket, two to eat, three to pay rent, where is there a queue to see a doctor?"
Earn tuition by performing on stage
Li Xingni, who has been performing on stage since college to earn tuition and give money to her family, looked back on this period and admitted that she felt ashamed of her parents, and she held back her tears: "I thought I was such a big girl...... I can't handle my own affairs, and I can't support my parents...... My family is not poor, but I feel that I have grown up and I don't want my parents to work so hard...... I was very angry with myself at that time, because I had been to Hong Kong and thought that everything would be better, but everything became very bad, and I couldn't handle my own affairs and couldn't support my parents, so I blamed myself so much. ”
Fortunately, in the end, Li Xingni survived one by one: "I chose to carry it myself, I have experienced such a dark period of time, and then I encounter similar problems, I am not afraid, but I am confident that I can overcome it." ”