Aunt Yao is over 60 years old this year and is a skinny old lady from the Northeast. Some time ago, she suddenly felt unwell, went to the hospital for a check-up, and found that she had a 28-pound tumor on her body.
So, Aunt Yao resolutely decided to have surgery to remove the tumor.
On the day of the operation, I rushed to the hospital with Aunt Yao's daughter Xiaoyu. The operation went on for a long time, and we waited at the door of the operating room.
"Mom, how are you?" Xiaoyu rushed up and asked. Aunt Yao endured the pain, barely squeezed out a smile, and said, "I survived, my mother is very strong."
After the operation, Aunt Yao's physical condition has been very poor, and she has to endure severe pain every day, sometimes to the point of suffocation.
I saw it in my eyes and was very moved in my heart.
I looked at the deep mother-daughter relationship between Aunt Yao and Xiaoyu, and I couldn't help but be moved. But I can feel the contradiction in Xiaoyu's heart.
After Aunt Yao was discharged from the hospital, Xiaoyu actively arranged for people to take care of her mother, but she herself was reluctant to return to China.
This made Aunt Yao feel distressed and helpless, she said to Xiaoyu on the phone: "Daughter, it's good that you are studying outside, but my mother still hopes that you can come back to see me and take good care of me for a while."
Xiaoyu cried on the phone: "Mom, I know that your physical condition is not good, I really want to come back, but I can't delay my studies, it is really difficult for me to choose."
Aunt Yao sighed softly, and said in a somewhat helpless tone: "Okay, okay, I know that you have worked hard for me, but my mother still misses you very much, and I can't get used to those people outside staying up late and being tired."
I watched the conversation between the two, and I felt sorry for them. This illness has made the relationship between the two mothers and daughters more obsessive and entangled, seemingly a sentence on the surface, but hiding too many emotions and contradictions.
One day, Aunt Yao's health suddenly deteriorated and she needed a second operation. This time the surgery was more risky, and Xiaoyu received a call from the hospital and was anxious.
However, Xiaoyu's request was rejected because relatives were unable to help take care of Aunt Yao for some reason.
Xiaoyu was in an unusually heavy mood at this time, and she felt that she was bound to the contradiction between her studies and her mother.
During this time, some chores at home also began to have problems. During Aunt Yao's illness, some of the family's expenses had exceeded the original budget, and Xiaoyu's relatives appeared at home one after another, accusing her of not taking good care of her mother and failing to do a good job of family responsibilities.
Facing the reproach of her relatives, Xiaoyu silently lowered her head and did not say a word. She knew that these relatives seemed to be selfless to her mother, but she herself had no way to live up to their expectations.
She really didn't know what to say about these intelligible relatives.
During this time, the atmosphere at home became extremely tense, with an invisible pressure. Xiaoyu felt as if she had reached a prison from which she could not escape, she wanted to protect her mother, but she could not affect the situation at home by herself, and the inner conflict made her feel very painful and helpless.
Xiaoyu's school held an important academic seminar, and she suddenly received a notice from her teacher inviting her to participate, but at the same time, Aunt Yao's body had new problems.
Xiaoyu, who was studying in a distant place, was in a serious dilemma at this time, whether it was to attend an academic seminar or return to China to accompany her mother.
On the phone, she had to communicate with Aunt Yao about her physical condition almost every day, which caused an irreconcilable contradiction between her studies and her mother's condition.
Aunt Yao saw it in her eyes, and her heart ached and hurt. "Daughter, mom doesn't want to be a burden to you, you are busy with your studies, mom can overcome it herself.
But she also knows that every trace of discomfort in her body is a silent call to her daughter, hoping that she can come back to accompany her.
These words made Aunt Yao feel endless guilt and heartache in her heart. Her illness caused Xiaoyu a lot of trouble, so that she had to give up her studies or give up her family, which was a great test for her.
This is not the first conflict between Aunt Yao and Xiaoyu, but this time the entanglement is more profound and heavy, because the contradiction between body and school makes their mother-daughter relationship face an unprecedented test.
I watched the entanglement between their mother and daughter, and I also felt uneasy and painful in my heart. Aunt Yao always smiled faintly and said, "It's a good thing that my daughter is outside, don't worry about me."
The contradictions and difficulties they face are far more severe than I imagined, and I can only pray silently for them, hoping that Aunt Yao's body can recover as soon as possible, and that Xiaoyu can successfully complete her studies and be able to let go of this uneasy contradiction.
After returning home, Xiaoyu has been sullen. She knows that her mother's physical condition is not optimistic, but she still has to face the choice between her studies and her mother.
One day after school, I looked at Xiaoyu's depressed expression, and finally couldn't help but ask: "Xiaoyu, you don't seem to be in a good mood lately, is there anything worrying?" Xiaoyu was silent for a moment, raised her head to look at me, and said slowly: "Actually, although my mother's condition has improved, her body is still very weak and needs to be taken care of."
Her voice was full of helplessness and contradiction.
When I heard this, I also felt hesitant in my heart. As a friend, I know her struggles, but I also understand her responsibilities as a daughter.
Xiaoyu was silent. I know that the contradiction in her heart is deep, and the choice between her studies and her mother is so entangled.
"I understand, and I know that you are working hard for your mother's health, after all, I understand the truth, but I really don't know what to do.
As time passed, Xiaoyu became more and more silent, and she seemed to be immersed in the contradictions in her heart, unable to extricate herself.
Perhaps, only she herself can find a suitable solution to this inner conflict.
The irreconcilable relationship between family, affection, responsibility and dreams seems to be like an endless test in life.
So, for the sake of her mother and her own future, how should she make the final choice?