Ma Lanying's tragic childhood
Ma Lanying was born into an ordinary peasant family, and her parents worked hard to barely make ends meet. Xiao Malan Ying is innocent and lively, often frolicking in the fields, listening to the voices of adults talking and laughing, and her heart is full of happiness.
However, when Ma Lanying was 7 years old, war broke out, the village was ransacked, and they lost all their belongings overnight. Ma Lanying was displaced with her parents and begged everywhere to survive.
That's when she realized that life could be so difficult.
In the days of wandering, Ma Lanying often starved and froze, and her thin body shivered in the cold wind. In order to fill her empty stomach, her parents often saved money and gave her the only food they had.
Ma Lanying felt sorry for her parents' hard work and wanted to grow up and make money to support her family. She looked at the backs of her father and mother's hard work, and secretly made up her mind.
At the age of 10, Ma Lanying's life took a major turn. She and her parents came to a slightly larger town and started a new life. Ma Lanying helps sweep the floor and run errands on the street during the day, and follows her mother to work as a waitress in a restaurant at night.
She is no longer the innocent little girl, but precocious and strong. Looking at the tired figure of her parents, Ma Lanying strengthened her dream of being admitted to medical school - she wanted to help more workers like her parents.
A good marriage shatters dreams
After hard work, Ma Lanying was admitted to medical school and became a nurse as she wished. In the hospital, she met Lin Weiliang, an elegant and modest doctor. Dr. Lim is highly skilled and well received by his patients.
Ma Lanying was deeply attracted by his quality of thinking about patients, and after a period of getting along, the two finally entered the palace of marriage.
The married life is very happy, and Ma Lanying feels that this is the life she dreams of. Two years later, she gave birth to a smart and clever daughter, named Lin Li, which means the fruits of this marriage.
A family of three sat around the dining table and enjoyed a sumptuous dinner, how warm and beautiful it was.
However, the good times did not last long, and just when Lin Li was just one year old, the war spread to the city where they were located. Lin Weiliang received an order to retreat to Taiwan in order to protect his family's technical service.
Ma Lanying hugged Lin Li and cried bitterly, and the husband and wife fell into a painful entanglement. They know that this parting may be the eternal secret.
On the day of parting, Ma Lanying hugged the young Lin Li and tears burst out of her eyes. "Mommy will definitely come back to pick you up, definitely!" She said, knowing it was an impossible promise.
Before Lin Li's little hand could wave goodbye, the backs of her parents disappeared into the thick smoke and dust. Ma Lanying's heart was like a knife, she turned around, and in the hazy eyes of tears, her beautiful life had come to naught.
Many years later, Ma Lanying recalled that moment, and it was still difficult to suppress the pain in her heart. She often wonders if if there was no war, she and Lin Weiliang would have lived in that good time, watching their daughter Lin Li grow up and be happy.
This became an eternal pain in her heart.
Build a career in a foreign land
As the war spread, Ma Lanying followed her husband Lin Weiliang to this strange place in Taiwan. When she first arrived in Taiwan, Ma Lanying felt lost and helpless. Everything here was so foreign to her—the language, the environment, the people...... She didn't know how she was going to survive in this completely different place.
However, Ma Lanying did not give up, but actively adapted to life here. During the day, she went to the factory to do odd jobs and worked hard to support her family; In the evening, she signed up for a language class to practice Xi her new language.
Ma Lanying insists on getting up early every day to memorize words, even if she is tired, she never stops.
After a year of Xi hard work, Ma Lanying's language level has finally made great progress. She retook the Nurse Qualification Exam and passed it with flying colors.
Soon, Ma Lanying found a job as a nurse in a large hospital and resumed her career.
Although there are still many unsatisfactory things in life, Ma Lanying is not discouraged. She works actively and is praised by both doctors and patients. Together with Lin Weiliang, Ma Lanying gradually established a new life and career in Taiwan.
Although they often miss their hometown and Lin Li, they are also glad that they have regained their dreams in a foreign country.
One day many years later, Ma Lanying looked at her photos. Those photos that record her life in Taiwan reveal her inner satisfaction. The initial confusion and loneliness have been replaced by tenacity and courage, which has also become an important moment for her perseverance.
Behind success lies grief
In Taiwan, Ma Lanying and Lin Weiliang rebuilt their family and gave birth to a daughter, named Lin Qingxia. Lin Qingxia has shown intelligent talent since she was a child, and Ma Lanying has placed too many expectations on this daughter.
In order for Lin Qingxia to become an excellent actor, Ma Lanying did not hesitate to invest time and money to let her receive the best training.
After years of hard training, Lin Qingxia finally emerged in the entertainment industry and gradually became a household name first-line star. When she exudes enthusiasm and charm on the screen, everyone falls in love with her.
Ma Lanying watched her daughter's success, and her heart also swelled with great pride and joy.
However, whenever people are praising Lin Qingxia, Ma Lanying's heart is far away
There is such joy as it seems on the surface. A thought always haunts her - that is, the eldest daughter Lin Li, who was forced to abandon the mainland, whether she is okay now.
Every night in the dead of night, Ma Lanying would dream back to the town of Tianjin many years ago, thinking of the little girl who was held in her arms. She couldn't help but ask herself, where is my Lin Li now? Is she doing well? Does she hate my decision back then? All kinds of questions linger in her heart, making Ma Lanying toss and turn.
Obviously, life is not what it used to be, and Lin Qingxia is also thriving in her career, but Ma Lanying still can't be really happy. She felt guilty for her helpless decision back then, and she was also worried that Lin Li would grow up in a difficult environment on the mainland.
This became a haze in her heart that was difficult to dispel.
The outside world only sees the aura of Ma Lanying's successful daughter, but does not know the pain and self-blame hidden in her heart. She tried to portray the joy of a loving mother, but the pain in her heart almost overwhelmed her.
This is the true portrayal behind Ma Lanying's success.
"Cyanide 晚寻找存在感
As the years passed, Ma Lanying gradually entered the twilight of her life. Lin Qingxia has a successful career and can support her mother's rich life, so Ma Lanying lives in a high-end apartment with a full-time nanny to take care of her daily life.
However, the luxurious environment and thoughtful service did not make Ma Lanying happy.
Ma Lanying sat alone on the balcony, looking at the hustle and bustle of the city, but her heart was empty and lonely. Her children are busy with their lives and careers, and there is very little time to visit her.
In the empty house, only the sound of the TV echoed monotonously.
"My daughter has grown up and has a life of her own, and I am also old and useless. Ma Lanying thought to herself. She felt like a forgotten old thing in the house, only to be abandoned after time passed.
This feeling of neglect made Ma Lanying feel painful.
During the day, Ma Lanying paced around the apartment alone, and at night she couldn't sleep. If you are not careful, your shoulders and lower back will be in severe pain due to rheumatism. But she didn't want to disturb the child, so she swallowed the pills alone, hoping to alleviate the pain.
At this moment, Ma Lanying suddenly received a phone call, saying that Lin Li's whereabouts had finally been found. Hearing the news, Ma Lanying trembled with excitement, she immediately got on a plane and came to the mainland, and finally reunited with her long-lost daughter again.
However, the joy of reunion was soon replaced by disappointment. Lin Li was very cold to Ma Lanying and rejected all her kindness, which broke Ma Lanying's heart completely.
In desperation, Ma Lanying made a decision - to end her life. She hopes to use her death to arouse her family's attention to her, even if it is just a little.
After repeated attempts, Ma Lanying finally jumped off the 12th floor of the hotel and left this world forever. What is left behind is the endless regret and remorse of the children.
Warning about life and death
Ma Lanying's life was full of ups and downs, and she also experienced the peak of success, but after all, she found a short-sighted vision in despair and ended her life journey. We should not criticize her choices, but draw wisdom from them.
Life is a mirror that reflects warnings to us. First of all, we should cherish the family members in front of us and care more about the mental health of the elderly. It is also necessary to have a correct understanding of depression and use love and companionship to resolve the difficulties in life.
In addition, family responsibilities cannot be neglected on the path of pursuing a career. Only by finding a balance between the two can we live life to the fullest.
When Ma Lanying was alive, we couldn't understand the pain in her heart; But her departure has taught us to listen and understand. We will all grow old, we will all be scarred by life, and we hope that in our lifetime, we will be able to treat others and ourselves with tolerance and compassion.
May Ma Lanying's spirit in heaven rest in peace. Each of us has shone in our lives, and we have all experienced dark moments, so let's grasp the moment and live the meaning of life, so that even fleeting life will bloom with brilliant colors.