Romantic youth is always accompanied by a youthful first love. For Sichuan writer Qiong Yao, her first love in high school is undoubtedly the most unforgettable memory in her life.
At that time, Qiong Yao was still a girl with infinite longing for love. Her Chinese teacher is gentle and elegant, full of knowledge, and while teaching students, she also makes Qiong Yao yearn for it.
The age gap between the two is 20 years, but it does not hinder the secret promise of youth. In their spare time, they often take a walk along the playground or discuss literature in the classroom. After school, the teacher will take Qiong Yao to the lake to watch the sunset...... The hazy and beautiful relationship makes the two hearts closer and closer.
However, the personal relationship between teachers and students soon spread. At that time, the society was conservative, and most people could not accept this pair of lovers. Especially Qiong Yao's mother, she strongly discouraged her daughter's association with the teacher.
Once, she even burst into the Chinese teacher's office and angrily accused him of tarnishing her daughter's innocence. The teacher was speechless and had to leave the school gloomily. The pain of separation was unbearable for the young Qiong Yao, and she chose to end this affection with death.
Fortunately, on the verge of despair, she did not make the last step after all.
Three years later, Qiong Yao used this first love as a blueprint to complete her debut novel "Outside the Window". For a time, the sensation of teacher-student love made waves again. And that Chinese teacher is also teaching silently in a primary school in a remote village.
They failed to be together after all, but this first love made the great writer Qiong Yao, and also deeply imprinted the freedom and innocence of love in her heart. Years later, even after all the ups and downs of life, her pen is still full of enthusiasm and pursuit of love, looking forward to the day when she will regain the warm and sunny dawn.
The four years of college are the time of fresh life. Qiong Yao met the first person who made her heart flutter on campus - Qingyun. Qingyun was born in a scholarly family and studied literature, and the two fell in love at first sight and quickly entered the palace of marriage.
Although the years of the newlywed Yan'er were short, Qiong Yao and Qingyun also had a romantic and sweet love. However, the weight of reality soon came to work. Qiong Yao began to write to earn money to support her family, but Qingyun became addicted to gambling and couldn't extricate herself.
Qiong Yao begged him to relent, but Qingyun not only did not change, but also laughed at her work in front of Qiong Yao and scolded her.
Heartbroken, Qiong Yao couldn't sleep all night, and she suddenly realized that love should not only stay in emotional longing, but also need rational support. She began to write persistently and published several works.
Gradually, Qiong Yao rose to prominence in the literary world, while Qingyun chose to leave due to financial constraints and jealousy. Although this marriage ended in breakdown, Qiong Yao was not crushed. On the contrary, she tempered her independent soul in the midst of suffering. She no longer relies solely on men, but chooses to go on in her own way.
This failed marriage experience has become the driving force that stimulates her passion for writing, and it also makes her take a more open step on the road of life.
1964 was an important turning point in Qiong Yao's life. After experiencing the decadence of a failed marriage, she joined the then-defunct Crown Magazine and began the second spring of her career.
Ping Xintao, the editor-in-chief of Crown Magazine, has brought the magazine back to life on the verge of bankruptcy with his outstanding leadership and business acumen. He was also keenly aware of Qiong Yao's talent and fully supported her writing.
The two had frequent contact at work and gradually fell in love. Ping Xintao would come to Qiong Yao's office during the lunch break, deliver a hot lunch, and chat about literature; In the evening, after work, they will also walk side by side in the night, telling their ideals.
Ping Xintao will use Qiong Yao's favorite color to buy clothes and furniture for her, so that she can feel the taste of being loved. However, while the relationship is like honey, the two also understand the taboo of this relationship - Ping Xintao has a wife and children. Ping Xintao's wife, Lin Wanzhen, came to the company many times and begged Qiong Yao to leave her husband and family.
But the nature of love is difficult to rein, Ping Xintao finally chose Qiong Yao, and the two began to live together.
Becoming a junior is a new role and identity for Qiong Yao. She began to boldly portray the perspective of third people in her literary works, showing that they also deserve to be loved and understood.
However, this free love also hurts others. While gaining, Qiong Yao also lost a lot. Years later, she is still reflecting and examining this relationship that cannot be accepted by society.
When we love someone, we must cherish the whole world. Time flies, Qiong Yao and Ping Xintao grow old together. In 2003, Ping Xintao suffered a sudden stroke and could only rely on Qiong Yao's all-day care. However, the lovers who originally thought they had been in the same boat for 50 years suffered unfair treatment in their later years.
Ping Xintao's original wife, Lin Wanzhen, is now eighty years old, but the resentment in her heart has never disappeared. She accused Qiong Yao of being the intervener, causing her married life to break up.
What makes her even more unacceptable is that Qiong Yao not only ruined her family, but also beautified a third party in literary works and praised this distorted view of love.
Lin Wanzhen couldn't bear it anymore, and at the age of 88, she decided to write a memoir to expose Qiong Yao's past. She wanted the public to see the writer's true face beneath his glamorous exterior.
Ping Xintao's children also came to visit their bedridden father, but they sneered at Qiong Yao, making her feel morally guilty.
Facing condemnation from all walks of life, Qiong Yao's heart was full of grievances and pain. All she pursues is the freedom of love, but she is notorious for destroying other people's marriages.
However, looking at the best-selling novels, she is also reflecting on her own life. We should be tolerant of everyone's past and not criticize the love of others, because everyone's circumstances and positions are different.
Only by opening our hearts and giving warmth can we achieve happiness. A person's character and values often come from the family environment in which they grew up. For Qiong Yao, her parents' love relationship and marriage have had a profound impact on her literary style.
Qiong Yao's mother was a student at the university, and her father was her teacher. Regardless of the identity differences between teachers and students, the two fell in love in the youthful campus. For the sake of this love, the mother even chose to get pregnant first and then get married.
This was unacceptable to the social concept of the time. However, they still came together bravely and gave birth to Qiong Yao.
Under the influence of this love-oriented family atmosphere, Qiong Yao Xi learned that love can be without sticking to conventions, as long as you truly love each other, you can be together. This directly inspired her later literary works to boldly describe and tolerate free love.
She believes that there should be no limits to feelings and that third parties can be understood. On the other hand, the affection of parents also makes other children lack love. Qiong Yao is often lonely and lonely, which makes her sad and emotional style. She uses literature to express her inner uneasiness and longing for warmth.
The love relationship and marriage between her parents have invisibly shaped Qiong Yao's free-spirited and sad literary style. Her experience reminds us that a person's growth is a combination of multifaceted influences.
Therefore, while giving love, we must also balance family relationships so that children can grow up healthily. Qiong Yao's life can be said to be a perfect combination of love and literature. From her first love in her youth to her various experiences in married life, she has become a source of inspiration for her creations.
Her heroines are vivid, stubborn, amorous and sensitive, projecting her own personality. She boldly depicts the joys and sorrows of love, expresses the pursuit of feelings, and calls on people to embrace love and freedom.
This has made her a best-selling author and a projection of herself for a wide range of female readers. However, she also hurt others for her pursuit of free love, and faced criticism in her later years. We should not criticize her life, but draw positive elements from it. That is - we should maintain our passion for life and bravely pursue our inner voice; But also learn to be tolerant, compassionate, and cherish what you have.
When we love someone, we also love the whole world. The complexity of life cannot be judged by the duality of good and evil. We all grow, we all make mistakes, and we all deserve to be warm.
May Qiong Yao's story inspire us, and the quality of her works will continue to mature and continue to warm the world. In her world, love will last forever; In the world we create together, love will also bloom.