Wang Keying's childhood was spent happily in a big family with mixed cultures. Her father, who had a typical Oriental appearance, spoke pure English and passed on a pure English surname to his daughter.
Wang Keying's mother has a tall American beauty and can explain traditional Chinese stories in fluent Chinese.
This multicultural family consists of 8 people, parents and three biological sons, as well as three other adopted sons of different skin colors. They come from all over the world and have a variety of ancestry, but they mix together in this family to form a harmonious and beautiful picture.
The little girl Wang Keying grew up in such a warm environment. She is always happy, like a round of sunshine in this big family. Mom and Dad and her brothers took care of her like a pearl in their palms.
Although living in mainstream American society, this family made Wang Keying feel the tolerance and warmth of traditional Chinese culture. Her grandmother immigrated from Shanghai in 1957 and never gave up her roots.
Her grandmother often made warm and delicious Chinese buns for Wang Keying, so that her granddaughter was also contaminated with a layer of oriental flavor.
Although Wang Keying does not speak Chinese, this cultural difference has not become an obstacle to her happy growth. She is like a small flower that thrives in a greenhouse, blooming with a bright smile under the rays of the sun.
The United States is a multicultural country, and Wang Keying's family is a microcosm. The convergence of different cultures has found the possibility of harmonious coexistence in this big family.
Therefore, Wang Keying's childhood was happy and satisfying, and she enjoyed the excitement of the interweaving of the two cultures.
At the age of 13, Wang Keying joined a local theater troupe, and her passion for performing arts finally had an outlet. She was full of excitement and prepared for auditions for various roles, experienced failure after failure, and gradually accumulated acting skills.
Finally, under an opportunity, Wang Keying got a role that could shine.
Standing in the center of the stage for the first time, Wang Keying was so nervous that her whole body trembled, but when the spotlight hit her, she incarnated into that character and successfully conveyed her inner emotions to the audience.
The moment the applause rang out, Wang Keying was so excited that she burst into tears. It turns out that performance is such an addictive pleasure that can sublimate people's emotions to a more sublime level.
When he was 15 years old, an opportunity to go to China for development appeared. The agent took a fancy to Wang Keying's appearance and potential, and wanted her to be an idol singer in China.
For Wang Keying, this is like a dream come true, and it is a great opportunity for her career. But when she came to China in high spirits, the language barrier shattered her dreams.
Although her grandmother was a Chinese, Wang Keying had never learned Chinese.
The dream of becoming a Chinese singer soon came to an end, and Wang Keying could only continue to develop her career in the United States. She arrives in the Hollywood of her dreams, and attends audition after audition with hope.
But she always got a reply of "not enough for China, not enough for the United States", which cast a shadow on her dream road. However, her passion for performance still supports Wang Keying, who believes that the dawn is just after the darkness.
After repeatedly hitting a wall in Hollywood, Wang Keying gradually realized that her Chinese surname had become an obstacle to her career development. The pronunciation of her last name is too foreign to Americans, and she is directly judged by her last name to be "not American enough".
In 2013, after a painful struggle, Wang Keying finally chose to change her name. She changed Wang Keying to Chole Bennet, a typical English name.
Although abandoning her surname is a disservice to her self-identity, Wang Keying has no choice but to transform herself into a "standard American" in the eyes of others in order to survive in this cruel entertainment industry.
The name change quickly paid off. Wang Keying got an important role in the American drama "Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D.", and became an instant hit.
She successfully portrayed herself as a heroic and sexy female agent of the Orient, which was warmly sought after by the audience.
However, whenever fans are excited to praise, Wang Keying has a trace of bitterness in her heart. The price of her success was to abandon her family name and identity.
The cruelty of the entertainment industry forced her to give up herself, but the joy of success once again ignited the fire of dreams in her heart.
After becoming famous overnight, Wang Keying often cried silently in a room alone. The self she saw in the mirror was a transformed product. In order to survive in the radiant world of showbiz, she had to abandon her roots and play the role of a standard American girl.
Wang Keying hopes that one day, her acting skills can make her no longer defined by her surname, but be seen by people as her true self.
After her career took off, 21-year-old Wang Keying fell into two relationships that were destined to end without a problem. 's first boyfriend was actor Austin, and his handsome face and profound acting skills made Wang Keying's heart move.
The two met and knew each other in the crew, and gradually fell in love. Fans are crazy about this pair of golden boys and girls, and they are full of CP.
However, the good times did not last long, and the two died without illness after only more than a year together, for unknown reasons. No matter how sad the fans are, their true feelings can't be saved.
What made Wang Keying even more physically and mentally devastated was her second boyfriend, a negative news-ridden Internet celebrity who became popular on the Internet with his absurd video content, but his disregard for life in the video caused a huge controversy.
Despite this, Wang Keying was still attracted by humor, and the two turned from confidants to lovers. But this relationship was questioned and denied by the outside world, and Wang Keying's taste was tested.
She didn't dare to make this relationship public again, so she could only carefully maintain this misunderstood love.
In the cold Vanity Fair, the truth is not favored, and Wang Keying can only bear the scrutiny and criticism of public opinion. She understands that self-centered pure love is not allowed in this circle, and any choice she makes involves her career
In the face of ruthless scrutiny, Wang Keying has learned to be careful in her words and deeds, but she still longs to be seen as her true self.
After reaching the peak of her career, Wang Keying ushered in a trough again. The pilot episode of the new drama starring her received a dismal response, and was rated as "the story is blunt, the actors are thin, and the overall embarrassment is embarrassing".
The TV station decided not to renew the show, and it smashed in the first step of the pilot.
For Wang Keying, this is undoubtedly a heavy blow. She was originally full of confidence and hoped that this new drama could bring her again.
The sudden cancellation made Wang Keying lose her next job, and the future was confused.
What's more, the TV station gave the show an extremely poor review, believing that it could not attract viewers. Wang Keying had to face the fact that her acting skills did not support the whole work.
Once again, she felt that she was not strong enough and needed to work harder to become a great actress.
Wang Keying fell into self-doubt and depression, and she was not sure how to break through the bottleneck and get her career back on track. The originally bright eyebrows and eyes gradually cast a shadow, and the happiness that success brought to her no longer existed.
In this way, Wang Keying fell to the trough of acting again, and her future was confused. The contrast from the peak to the bottom made her mentally on the verge of collapse. And she is burdened with a crisis of cultural identity as a Chinese, and she feels that she can't find a place to stand.
Wang Keying looked around blankly, and the sunshine of her dreams was once again obscured by dark clouds. She must rekindle her fighting spirit and light the way ahead.
Wang's experience reflects the cultural identity dilemma that Chinese Americans face in general. They stand between the two cultures, like a wobbly scale. Mainstream society always accepts them with prejudice, and it is difficult to find a true sense of belonging when they retreat into their own niche cultural circles.
"I'm sad because I've lost my language. This is a true portrayal of countless Chinese children. Their kinship with China is waning, and it is difficult for them to fully integrate into mainstream American culture.
Their mother tongue is English, but they don't understand Chinese, like wanderers floating away.
Wang Keying is one of them. In order to get a chance in Hollywood, she had to ditch her Chinese surname and embrace an American name instead. However, the name change is only a superficial project of the ego, and the crisis of her cultural identity still lingers.
Wang Keying constantly searched for her own position between the two cultures, but she was never able to gain a firm foothold. She packaged herself as what the mainstream society expected, but her inner confusion became more and more serious.
She longs to be accepted as her true self, not just as a label.
We believe that time will give her the answer. She will continue to explore her emotional identity in her performances, using the lens to convey her inner touch. When she finally sees herself clearly and embraces her firmly, confusion will also turn into firmness, and Wang Keying will use her acting skills to light up the hearts of more people and get real happiness.