My name is Li Zhiqiang, I am 35 years old this year, and I am an ordinary office worker.
My wife Wang Fang and I have been married for five years and have a lovely son.
In the eyes of outsiders, we are a happy family,
But in reality, I felt very different from them in my heart.
Wang Fang and I met on a blind date, when we were both of marriageable age,
The family was urging tightly, and they felt that each other's conditions were suitable, so they got married in a hurry.
After getting married, Wang Fang soon became pregnant, and she quit her job to take care of the family wholeheartedly.
And I was busy with work every day, running for the livelihood of my family.
As time went on, I found myself talking less and less about Wang Fang.
She always revolves around family and children, and I wasn't interested in those topics.
I like to watch the news and follow current events, but she has no interest in that.
There was less and less communication between us, and I gradually felt lonely and helpless.
I started to feel dissatisfied with Wang Fang, I felt that she didn't understand me enough and didn't support me enough.
Every time I went home, I was confronted with her nagging and complaining, which made me feel irritable.
And when I tried to communicate with her, she always used family as an excuse and made me feel like I couldn't communicate.
Gradually, I became reluctant to go home, preferring to work overtime at the company or party with colleagues.
I know that this kind of behavior is very unfair to Wang Fang, but I really can't stand that dull family atmosphere.
Until one day, I met a female colleague at work, her name is Lin Yu.
Lin Yu is smart, independent, and thoughtful, which makes me feel very fresh.
We started chatting frequently, talking about work, life, and hobbies.
I found that I had a lot in common with Lin Yu, which made me feel more happy than ever.
Gradually, I found that my feelings for Wang Fang had faded,
And his feelings for Lin Yu are constantly heating up.
I began to think about my future and happiness, and whether I should continue to live with Wang Fang.
Eventually, I decided to have a frank conversation with Wang Fang.
I told her that my feelings for her had faded and that I felt that there was no love between us anymore.
Wang Fang was very sad when she heard these words, she cried and asked me why,
I told her that I had found someone who really caught my heart.
Wang Fang couldn't accept this fact, she felt that she had given so much for her family, but I didn't have any gratitude.
But I know that love is no substitute for gratitude.
I feel guilty about Wang Fang, but I can't sacrifice my happiness for gratitude.
I decided to be with Lin Yu and we started planning for the future together.
I know that there will be a lot of difficulties and challenges.
But I believe that as long as we love each other, we can overcome it together.
I know that my actions have caused a lot of damage to Wang Fang, and I will do my best to make amends for her.
I want her to find happiness that truly belongs to hers and not waste time and affection with me.
That's what I'm talking about, what a married man is saying.
I know this can be controversial and critical, but I think everyone has the right to pursue their own happiness.
I don't want to continue to sink in this loveless marriage,
I want to fight for true happiness for myself and my future.