Finally, on the day of the college entrance examination, my child and I went out early in the morning. I was thinking of taking a taxi to the test room, but when I saw the price, I immediately gave up the idea.
The child smiled and nodded, but did not speak.
On the bus, everyone's face was full of anticipation and nervousness. The child has also been checking the contents of the school bag and chanting words from time to time.
Looking at the old grandmother's appearance, I felt a little unbearable. So I said to the child, "Son, put the bag on my lap, and you can go and help the old woman."
The atmosphere in the car became harmonious, and some people talked to the child, asking him what major he was taking and hoping that he would get good grades.
Suddenly, the cell phone of one of the passengers in the car rang. It turned out to be a call from the staff of the examination room, informing several candidates that they needed to change to another examination room to take the test due to an accident.
My child and I were stunned for a moment, then immediately got out of the car with the other passengers and hurried towards the new examination room. On the way, I kept reassuring the child and telling him that everything would be fine.
Over the years, I have been worried about my children, but this matter has made me a little anxious. But in the end, we made it to the new exam room in time.
And now, as I watched my child stunned with hope, the joy in my heart was palpable. This trivial accident seems to have made me feel more deeply the warmth of family and the power of supporting each other.
A new paradox occurred after the exam. When my child got home, I couldn't wait to ask him about his exams.
"What's wrong, didn't you do well on the test?" I asked.
"No, it's okay. The child replied in a low voice.
"What's wrong with that?" I asked.
The child was silent for a moment, then told the truth. It turned out that during the exam, he encountered a math problem that he couldn't do at all, which made him feel very frustrated.
I held his hand tightly and comforted him: "Son, it is not the most important thing to do well in the exam, the important thing is that you really put in the effort, and I will support you no matter what the result is."
"You're always like this, demanding too much from your child, pushing him too hard, have you ever considered his feelings!" the husband angrily accused.
After the quarrel, the Cold War began. This made the atmosphere in the house extremely heavy, and the child seemed a little depressed. I was conflicted, should I be too harsh, should I think more about my child's feelings?
This situation made me fall into deep contemplation. The conflicts in my family seemed to come to me inadvertently, and I began to reflect on my parenting style and expectations.
Just as we entered the examination room, I received a phone call from my husband, and his voice was full of anxiety: "Wife, go home quickly, my dad is sick, the hospital phone can't find you, I have tried to delay as much as possible."
My husband hurriedly told me that his dad had a serious illness and needed emergency surgery. My mind went blank and I wondered where to go.
The child saw my hesitation, "Mom, go back quickly, I will take care of myself." His words gave me a sense of comfort and reluctance.
I hurriedly left the exam room and rushed to the hospital. In the waiting room of the hospital, I held my husband's hand with a heavy heart.
"My heart was even heavier, and I felt a chill in my heart as I thought about my family's savings and my family's life.
At this moment, the son hurried to the hospital. When he saw me, he anxiously asked, "Mom, why are you here?"
At this time, I suddenly thought of my child's college entrance examination, and I was full of contradictions in my heart. When my child is not by his side at the critical moment of his exam, he will definitely feel lonely and lost.
After thinking about it, I decided to stay in the hospital with my husband while having a relative go to the exam room to accompany the child.
All this makes me feel extremely tired and conflicted. The conflicts and disputes in my family plunged me into endless anxiety and heartache.
This kind of life is really suffocating.
On the way home, the child was silent, and I could tell that he was in a mixed mood. Perhaps it was this accident that disrupted his rhythm and made him feel a little lost.
When I got home, the child closed the door and I knew he needed to be alone. I went to the kitchen and boiled a pot of hot water, ready to get some snacks for him to satisfy his cravings.
I picked up the phone and it was my husband calling. His anxious voice revealed that he was on a business trip, and after hearing that his son unexpectedly needed to transfer to the examination room on the day of the college entrance examination, although he was not around, the anxious mood still made me feel.
I answered softly, choked up and said to my husband on the other end of the phone, "I know, we'll take good care of him."
Hanging up, I walked to the child's room with hot water and snacks and knocked on the door. The child did not respond. I gently pushed the door open and saw him sitting on the edge of the bed with a depressed expression.
"Kid, let's have a cup of hot water and a snack. I said softly.
The child looked up at me, then shook his head.
I walked up to him and sat down, and patted him lightly on the shoulder, "Kid, the college entrance examination is not so easy, this little setback is nothing, the important thing is to have a good mentality and believe in yourself."
The child was silent for a while, and then said slowly: "Mom, I didn't want to admit it before, but I was really scared, I was afraid that this college entrance examination would disappoint you."
When I heard this, my heart ached. I took his hand and comforted, "Kid, we won't be disappointed because of an exam, just do your best."
The child raised his head, his eyes full of gratitude and reluctance, "Mom, thank you for everything you have done for me. ”
Looking at the child's eyes, I felt a warm current welling up in my heart. At this moment, I deeply understood that no matter what the future holds, we are each other's strongest backing.