My wife and I relied on farm work to make ends meet, but as we grew older and our bodies began to become overwhelmed, I began to consider finding a maid to help.
After many days of job hunting, I finally met a young girl, her name is Wang Li. Wang Li seems to have a good life, but she is an orphan, and her family conditions are not as good as I imagined.
During my conversation with her, I learned that she was a very sensible girl and I decided to take her home.
With Wang Li's help, the housework was lightened a lot. But gradually, I found myself with something special about this young girl.
I tried to escape the feeling, but to no avail. At the same time, my neighbors and friends began to notice the delicate relationship between me and Wang Li, and they began to look at us in a strange light.
But I didn't give up because of that. Although I am over 60 years old, I can't deny my crush on young beautiful girls.
But the reality tells me that I can't resist this temptation.
Wang Li's appearance not only made me feel warm, but also made me fall into contradictions. This made me feel anxious, and I tried to keep myself calm, but the inner battle became more and more intense.
So, I began to look at the relationship, and I realized the gap in age and experience, as well as moral and responsibility concerns.
I know it's all realistic, just because of age, loneliness, and need. But I can't deny the attachment I have in my heart to her.
This is a secret between me and Wang Li, and I don't have the courage to face it yet.
I don't know what will happen next.
Just when I was in the middle of an inner conflict, something happened that shocked me.
That night, I was about to go home to see Wang Li, but I overheard some chattering on the way. When I got home, I found my wife and Wang Li arguing fiercely.
Wang Li's face was full of grievance and incomprehension, and she told me that my wife thought that our relationship had gone beyond the scope of employers and servants, and that she thought that I was becoming more and more excessive to Wang Li.
I felt extremely embarrassed and frustrated. I don't know how to face my wife's doubts and Wang Li's grievances.
Why did she feel jealous of Wang Li? Did she perceive my special affection for Wang Li? Or was it for some other reason?
This quarrel dealt me a great blow and plunged me into a deeper conflict. I even considered running away from all of this or even leaving this home, but the guilt and reluctance in my heart made it impossible for me to make a decision.
How did it all get to this point? I began to reflect on my own actions, and I began to examine the truth behind this quarrel.
The family will face an even greater test.
The sudden contradictory events put me in a state of even more uncontrollable state. One stormy night, I decided to confess everything to my wife.
But when I opened my mouth, I was interrupted by a scream. It turned out that Wang Li was in the kitchen preparing dinner for me when she was accidentally burned by oil, and she fell to the ground in pain, her hands shaking constantly.
I was anxious, but I didn't know what to do.
The wife hurried over, and she was surprised when she saw the scene. She calmly bandaged Wang Li's wounds and took care of her.
This incident made the atmosphere at home extremely tense. I didn't know what I was supposed to do, and I felt overwhelmed with guilt, guilt, and helplessness.
I began to wonder if my real motive was loneliness or resentment with my wife.
And my wife's attitude towards me has also changed, and she has started to become more distant and cold. Communication between us became less and less common, and there was an awkward and oppressive atmosphere in the home.
These problems and contradictions, which once seemed unattainable, suddenly became more urgent. I felt powerless and lost, and this was no longer the life I was familiar with.
What will happen next, I really can't predict.