On New Year's Day, our family got together for a sumptuous Chinese New Year's Eve dinner to welcome the arrival of the new year. At the celebration, my husband and I chatted with my in-laws while the children played happily in the living room. It's our biggest gathering of the year, and it's also the warmest time of the year.
5 years ago, I married my husband. At that time, I was a young and promising female auditor, and he was the son of a mild-mannered vice-governor. I still remember walking towards him in a white veil surrounded by the blessings of relatives and friends, and at that moment I felt like the happiest person in the world.
I watched him come and go, smiling so much that I didn't have the courage to ask him. The trust between me and my husband seems to have broken down, and I began to wonder if his love for me was real, and why did he hide his identity, even to trick me into marrying him, but was his feelings for me real for the past five years?
Until now, the atmosphere between my husband and I has been unusually heavy. I don't know how to deal with this, why he's hiding his identity, I don't know what his purpose is. My heart was full of contradictions, whether the person I had known over the years was the real him, or just an illusion.
I hope it's just a misunderstanding, and I hope he denies it and explains it all. But on the other hand, I was afraid of his answers, of his explanations, of his betrayal. Now, I can only bear it all in silence, silently waiting for his explanation, and the waiting center is full of disappointment and distrust of him.
After a few days of silence, I finally mustered up the courage to have an honest conversation with my husband. I put his identity on the table, and he seemed a little hesitant, but finally confessed everything to me.
It turns out that her husband's identity has always been a scar in his heart. He is the only son of the deputy governor and lives under the pressure of a political family, and he has always longed to break free from his shackles and pursue his dreams. He chose not to tell me his true identity because he wanted to get a pure love as an ordinary person. He felt that only by leaving the fame and fortune of a political family could he really get the life he wanted.
Listening to him say this, I felt both heartache and understanding. I understood why he chose to hide his identity, and I understood his deep inner struggle and helplessness. However, although the motive of his concealment was out of love, the scars left by this deception will not heal in a moment.
These days, I live in contradictions and entanglements, and every day seems like living a false life. I couldn't face the problems in my marriage, I couldn't let go of his deception, and I couldn't forget what I had done for him. I need time to calm down, I need time to think about the way forward.
Family disputes and contradictions between us are everywhere, and there is no hope of resolving them for a while. Perhaps, time will give me the answer. Perhaps, the relationship between us will be truly sublimated in this crisis. At least for now, I need to think calmly and make the best choice for myself and my children on this issue.
A few days later, I still didn't find the courage to ask him, and my heart was full of conflict. I had to pretend everything was normal in front of the kids, but every night in bed, I would think about his secrets and question our marriage. I began to doubt everything between us, I began to doubt his motives, I began to doubt his feelings for me, I began to doubt my marriage.
That night, the kids went to bed early, and I sat in the living room with him. I didn't speak, and he looked at me quietly, his eyes full of guilt. Finally, I couldn't resist asking him, "Why are you hiding your true identity?" ”
He was silent for a while, and then said slowly: "I know I'm sorry for you, sorry for our marriage. This was originally arranged by my mother, who wanted me to marry a kind, virtuous girl to take care of the family. When I first met you, I was attracted to your beauty and kindness, and I wanted to be with you. But I know that if I tell me who I am, you probably won't accept me. ”
"However, in the past five years, you have not told me, and I feel that you are a lie to me. Aren't you afraid that I won't accept you as you really are?" I said with some excitement.
He sighed softly and said, "It's not that I don't distrust you, it's just that I don't want our marriage to be tied up by family interests from the beginning." I really love you and I want you to believe in me. His eyes were full of sincerity and sincerity.
My heart began to fluctuate, and I felt the sincerity and love in his eyes. Over the years, he has always maintained his sincerity and love for me. Perhaps, there is something worth keeping between us.
However, I still can't let go of my heart, I want to know if our marriage can continue after this, and whether there is a future between us. I was filled with hesitation, and I needed time to calm down on all this.
In the days that followed, the atmosphere between us became a bit awkward, and I didn't know how to deal with it. How it all will end, and whether we will be able to re-establish trust and affection for each other, I am beginning to wonder if there is any chance that our marriage will be saved. All this, perhaps, needs the test of time, and it takes the joint efforts of all of us.
Today is the fifth wedding anniversary of my husband and I. Originally, I thought that we would re-examine our relationship on such a special day and gradually dispel the doubts in my heart. However, he did not mention the anniversary and seemed to be unconcerned about it. This made my doubts grow even more and more suspicious, and my trust in him seemed to be getting weaker and weaker.
That night, we ate at the dinner table, and the atmosphere was still silent and heavy. I couldn't help but ask him why he had been hiding his identity in the past five years. He was silent for a moment, and finally spoke, "I admit, I really should have told you about it before. But, be assured, my feelings for you are not false at all. His tone was firm and serious, and his eyes were full of sincerity and apology.
However, his explanation did not give me any comfort, and the distrust and doubt in my heart seemed to become even stronger. I felt that everything he said was an excuse, an excuse to hide the truth. Although his words touched my heart, I still couldn't let go of it, and even began to doubt the existence of true love between us.
This contradiction makes me feel tormented. I tried to control my emotions, but every time I saw him, I couldn't calm down with the contradictions in my heart. I longed for the truth, but I feared the consequences of it. During this time, I kept asking myself if I could continue to believe in him and continue to persevere in this marriage.
The whole family also seemed to feel my conflict and confusion. The children started asking me and my husband why we were always angry, and my in-laws' eyes were full of concern and concern. I didn't know how to answer these inquiries, and I couldn't respond to them because of my inner struggle.
The days that followed were even more bumpy than before. Communication between me and my husband has decreased significantly, and we no longer share the bits and pieces of life as usual. Such apathy and alienation made me feel hopeless, and I began to wonder if there was still hope between us.
I don't know who to turn to, I don't know how to deal with this. The conflict in my heart got me into a difficult situation, and I began to doubt my choices and the feelings between us. I hope to find a ray of light in this fog, to find evidence of his sincerity. But I was worried, worried that once I found the truth, I would suffer an even bigger blow to my heart.
Late at night, I was lying in bed with a lot of thoughts. I knew I couldn't continue pretending that nothing had happened, and I needed to find out. The next morning, I decided to sit down with my husband and have a good talk. Frankly, I told him that I had discovered his true identity and expressed my confusion and unease about the whole thing. My husband's expression was extremely complicated, he was a little speechless, but he refused to reveal more about his identity.
A few days later, I received a call from my husband's office, and the person on the other end of the phone told me to go to a designated location. Although my heart was full of doubts, I did it anyway. When I came to that location, I was surprised to see a photo of the family with a face I didn't recognize, but he was my husband. I was surrounded by a strange family that I had never heard of. This sudden discovery plunged me deeper into my doubts. Why did my husband hide his identity, and what is his relationship with this strange family?
This discovery made me feel angry and helpless. I feel like I've been cheated on and my husband has been hiding it from me. I don't know if I should trust his explanation or if everything should just let it go. I began to wonder if my marriage with my husband was real, whether our relationship was real or if everything was a lie. I couldn't sleep all night, and my heart was full of confusion and uneasiness.
I longed to be able to figure out the truth of everything, but I was afraid that the truth would be too much for me to bear. My relationship with my husband has become estranged, and the trust I have always had seems to be gone. I don't know what the future holds for us, but I'm ready for anything that can happen.
I was exhausted from all of this, and I didn't know how I was going to deal with it. I need time to calm down, to think, to find my own answers.
Yes, I have a lot of doubts and confusion in my heart, but I know better that the relationship between us will not change because of this secret. He is someone I love and has given a lot for me. I don't want to ruin my existing life because of the secret of an identity.
However, this secret also made me doubt everything about him. Whenever he's busy with work, I can't help but imagine what he's doing, how much trouble his hidden identity will cause. It's said that it's easy to fall in love and it's hard to stay together, and I'm beginning to realize what that means. I don't know how to deal with love and trust, but I know we still need to be honest and committed.
The contradictions between us have not gone away, but at least we are both willing to work hard for this relationship. Every day after that, I tried to accept the secret, and there was no barrier between us, but more maturity and understanding. Yes, the mystery has been revealed, but there are still many questions and challenges waiting to be faced in the future. I don't know if our love will be able to withstand these trials, but at least, I'm willing to give it a try. Because, no matter how many secrets there will be in this world, I know that what I choose to cherish is the relationship between us.