My ex-husband and I have been married for ten years, and our relationship was originally good, but gradually our relationship became estranged. In the end, we chose to get divorced.
I didn't tell my ex-husband because I knew he didn't want children.
I gave birth to a son by myself and raised him alone, and after the birth of my son, I loved him beyond imagination. I want to give him a happy life as much as possible.
However, on the day of my son's full moon, I made a decision, one that was both risky and stupid.
When my son was full moon, I secretly took him to my ex-husband's house. I stood in the doorway, nervous and overwhelmed.
I even forgot to ring the doorbell until my ex-husband's voice came from behind me.
"It's ...... What do you mean?" the ex-husband looked at me with a stunned expression, then turned his eyes to the baby in my arms.
I bit my lip and barely managed to squeeze out a smile: "This is our son." ”
The ex-husband's expression instantly became complicated, and anger and surprise were intertwined: "How are you ...... You're hiding such a big thing from me?"
I was a little flustered, I didn't expect this situation to become so embarrassing: "I didn't expect it to be like this, but I really can't help it, I don't know how to face you."
The ex-husband was silent for a moment and finally decided to let us into the house. In his silent and skeptical eyes, I felt a pang of sadness.
The son just looked around, his eyes full of curiosity. The ex-husband held him in his arms, and suddenly, a smile appeared on his face.
The ex-husband seemed to be infected by his son's innocent smile, and he laughed too.
"I was cooking when you came, so let's eat together. "My ex-husband greeted us.
We sat at the dinner table as a family, and at that moment, it was as if time had stood still. Although the contradictions of the past are still in my mind, the harmonious atmosphere in front of me makes me feel a burst of warmth.
"Thank you for bringing him to me. The ex-husband's voice broke the silence.
"No thanks, this is also his home. I said softly.
My son also seemed to feel the tension between us, and he looked at us with a smile and kept giggling.
"He looks like you. The ex-husband said suddenly.
I didn't know how to answer, so I could only smile reluctantly: "It's kind of like that." ”
We didn't talk much to each other, but on this day, our son eased the conflict between us.
When I left my ex-husband's house with my son, I was full of hesitation and uneasiness about the future. Although there seemed to be a bit of a thaw between us on that day, I knew that it didn't mean that our problems were solved.
A few days later, I received a call from my ex-husband who offered to see his son. Although I was a little reluctant in my heart, I understood that my son was the child of both parties, so I agreed to him.
"How can you not tell me about the child?" the ex-husband finally couldn't help but accuse me.
"I knew it was wrong, but at the time I didn't think you would accept a child. I explained with some embarrassment.
"Either way, you can't make such a decision on your own. We should face it together. "My ex-husband obviously has a deep resentment towards me for hiding my children.
"I know I was wrong, but that's in the past, and we have to think about the future of our children. "I tried to bring the conversation back to sanity and calm.
"Do you think that's all there is to it? There are still a lot of unresolved issues between us. The ex-husband's voice was full of anger and helplessness.
This conversation escalated the conflict between us, and I even regretted my decision to take my son to meet him in the first place.
But, no matter what, I just want to give my son a complete family and a happy future. I know that there will always be various hesitations in the face of life choices, but when I see my son's carefree smile, I know I can't give up.
Soon, my son and I were back where we are now. That unexpected decision gave us a glimmer of hope and a sense of relief.
Life still has to go on, and I continue to raise my son alone. Although the surface is full of beautiful hopes for the future, it is inevitable that the heart will feel lonely and uneasy.
From time to time, he would ask me, "Mom, why doesn't Dad live with us?"
Whenever he asked this question, my heart felt like a knife had been cut. Behind this question, there are some unspeakable secrets between me and my ex-husband.
Sure enough, that day finally came.
As usual, I came home from work to pick up my son from school. As soon as he arrived at the door, his son suddenly dropped his schoolbag and ran over excitedly: "Mom, Mom, I'm going to find Dad."
When I knocked on my ex-husband's door, he looked at us in surprise, but my son rushed in as if he couldn't wait.
The ex-husband took over his son with a complicated expression.
"Mom told me, why didn't Dad stay with us?" asked the son bluntly.
I panicked. The ex-husband took a deep breath: "Son, this ......"
Just then, the ex-husband's new partner walked out. She looked stunned when she saw us.
I stood in the doorway, like I was pinned to the ground, not knowing what to do.