In the spring of 1973, Lin Qingxia entered the film industry with a newcomer's face. At that time, she was only 19 years old, which was the age when a girl's heart was surging and she was full of infinite fantasies about love.
On this day, Lin Qingxia came to the filming location of the movie "Outside the Window". The clouds are light and the wind is light, and the air is filled with the smell of grass. Suddenly, many people in the crew were in high spirits, and Lin Qingxia looked up in confusion, only to see a man in a white T-shirt walking slowly.
"This is our male protagonist, Qin Han!" The director introduced with a smile. Lin Qingxia met this popular superstar in the film and television industry for the first time.
Qin Han is handsome and has an extraordinary temperament, which made Lin Qingxia's eyes light up immediately. In particular, his well-defined jaw and sharp eyebrows exude the charm of a man.
When the two officially played against each other, Lin Qingxia was already completely infatuated with Qin Han. Her heart was beating so fast that it felt like it was about to pop out of her chest. There was also a nervous and shy flush on his face.
In Lin Qingxia's view, Qin Han is simply the prince charming that she fantasizes about in her girl's heart.
However, this prince has become famous. Lin Qingxia soon learned that Qin Han's wife was named Shao Qiaoyin, a lady from a famous family. When Lin Qingxia found out about Qin Han's marriage, she was stunned.
She knew that a difficult choice was slowly unfolding in front of her.
Between Lin Qingxia and Qin Han, an irrepressible spark of love burst out. Although the relationship between the two has been criticized by the outside world, Lin Qingxia decided to only listen to her inner voice.
She is willing to do anything for Qin Han, even if it is a relationship that is defined as "unruly" by the world.
In the face of Lin Qingxia's enthusiasm, Qin Han couldn't extricate himself. He began to frequently go on dates with Ms. Lin, give expensive gifts, and drive her in a sports car to the most famous resort on the outskirts of the city.
However, all this was discovered by Qin Han's wife, Shao Qiaoyin. She was so angry that she couldn't stop crying.
"You go back to the United States! Don't see my husband again!" Shao Qiaoyin grabbed Lin Qingxia's hand and screamed hysterically. At this time, the two were in a hotel in Singapore, and Qin Han happened to be called out on official business.
Lin Qingxia faced this crazy woman, her eyes were full of confusion and helplessness. She realized that her defeat was a foregone conclusion.
With a loud "bang", Lin Qingxia slammed the door and walked out. She wandered alone in the pouring rain. The girl's heart was disheartened.
She returned to her hotel room and pulled out a bottle of sleeping pills from her medicine box. Lin Qingxia swallowed an entire bottle of pills desperately, and soon lost herself in her stupor.
The next day, Lin Qingxia was admitted to the hospital's intensive care unit. The news of "suicide by relying on medicine" spread all over the entertainment industry.
The emotional road between Lin Qingxia and Qin Han is not smooth, and they have experienced several separations and reunions. Under the double pressure of family and public opinion, the two were intermittent.
However, the seeds of love have taken deep roots, and no matter how many ups and downs they go through, they are still together again.
In 1983, both finally divorced their original wives and came together justifiably. Lin Qingxia was ecstatic, she believed that she had finally found true love, and it would be a sweet and eternal relationship.
"We'll be together forever, right?" Lin Qingxia said to Qin Han a little shyly. Qin Han smiled and nodded, but didn't say anything more.
However, as time passed, Lin Qingxia gradually discovered the uncertainty and anxiety in Qin Han's heart. They have a lot of differences in life - Lin Qingxia is an emotional person, and she longs to build a warm home with Qin Han.
And Qin Han cares more about his career, he is immersed in the spotlight of the entertainment industry, and he still lives a life of spending days and drinking.
"Do you still love me?" One day in 1993, Lin Qingxia questioned Qin Han with red eyes. Qin Han nodded lightly, but he was reluctant to propose.
Lin Qingxia realized that her original fantasy may never become a reality. She didn't want to wait, compromise and feel pain in vain in this relationship anymore.
So a new man came into her life.
"I'm getting married. Lin Qingxia said to Qin Han tiredly but resolutely.
"Well, I respect your choice. Qin Han replied lightly. There was not a hint of reluctance or sadness on his face.
Lin Qingxia finally understood that this was the last warning given to her by fate. She had to accept that her twenty years of youth would eventually disappear at this moment.
Time is like an arrow, and time is like a shuttle. In the blink of an eye, Lin Qingxia is 66 years old. Every time she thinks of the 20 years of ups and downs with Qin and Han, she always has mixed feelings in her heart.
Perhaps, it was just a beautiful misunderstanding in the green years. I gave all my heart back then, but I also missed other possibilities. However, Lin Qingxia will not regret it.
Because of that relationship, she has achieved the precious nutrition of her mature heart. As the saying goes, everything is true, and the avenue is invisible.
In the spring of this year, backstage at a charity gala, Lin Qingxia and Qin Han passed by. I haven't seen it for many years, and the forehead of Qin and Han has turned white. Before parting, Lin Qingxia looked deeply into Qin Han's eyes.
In those clear eyes, she saw the mark of the passage of time.
"How are you doing?" Lin Qingxia asked softly.
"I'm fine. I wish you a happy newlywed. Qin Han replied with a warm smile.
They all knew it. What is missed is nothing more than a graceful mirror image of youth. And the long river of life continues, and no one will stay forever in yesterday.
We will eventually have a more important mission, and that is to make the most of each day.
The 20-year relationship between Lin Qingxia and Qin Han has become a symbol of the collective memories of a generation. Those youthful memories of desperate self-determination are both beautiful and sad. It blurs our perception of love and life.
In that era, countless Lin Qingxia re-enacted the sublime love of a thousand people. However, time has passed, and we have to face up to the fact that it is just a beautiful misunderstanding given to us by youth.
When we gradually accumulate life experience, we also understand the true meaning of life. We no longer believe in the illusory paradise built by love, but learn to feel the beauty in ordinary life.
Life is like this, a panorama composed of thousands of small fragments, and it is the bits and pieces of these fragments that are intertwined into the most simple feelings in the world.
A heart that understands contentment and gratitude does not need to rely on love or career to achieve happiness, because the most primitive happiness is originally the gift that life gives us.
Therefore, when we finally saw these clearly, we were relieved of the story of Lin Qingxia and Qin Han. We will no longer mistakenly equate the ending of a fairytale love with the question of the meaning of life.
Contentment is the ultimate answer in life. When you embrace every plant and tree in this world, you have it all.