That day, I stood in front of my house, and my heart was at a loss. The results of the college entrance examination came out, and I got a good score of 691.
"Son, didn't you say that the treat should be filled with 8 tables? Why is it that only 1 table is full?" the mother's voice revealed disappointment and dissatisfaction.
"Yes, you have good grades, why did you hire so few people?" the father also joined in the reproach.
I didn't know how to answer for a while, but I was also puzzled. I happily invited a lot of classmates and friends, but only so few came.
"Don't they want to come, don't they like our family is too poor?"
"Don't talk nonsense, maybe everyone has something, not everyone wants to participate in this kind of banquet. "I tried to defend myself.
"How is it possible? No one is here for such a big banquet, do you think I can't see it?" Mom's voice became more and more sharp.
Although I have been studying abroad for a long time, I have always been very concerned about family matters. Every time there is something at home, my mother always likes to post on Moments and make our family's affairs public, which makes me feel deeply uncomfortable.
This time, my college entrance examination results seemed to be the fuse of her emotions.
I began to reflect on the fact that perhaps it was because I had been studying abroad for too long and had not fulfilled my family responsibilities that the relationship between my family had become so strained.
It's just that now that the family relationship has become so strained, how can I adjust?
Conflicts between family members seem to be becoming more frequent. Some time ago, Dad accidentally knocked over Mom's most beloved flower pot.
I tried to mediate, but my mother said, "You two, one is more ignorant than the other!" I really didn't want to go, so I had to silently persuade my father to help my mother buy a new flower pot, and it was reluctant.
This family banquet incident also made the family relationship awkward. I felt as if I was useless in front of my family, and as a son and brother, I could not comfort my family, but instead became the fuse that caused family conflicts.
However, new contradictions in life follow. My mother has been under pressure recently because of the company, she is tired every day, and she often has insomnia at night.
But when I turned on the massage chair at home, there was a malfunction, and my mother felt that it was a waste of money to buy bad things and blamed my father.
This incident has become a new family conflict. Mom regretted blaming her father a little, but she was embarrassed to apologize on her face, so she could only hold her breath.
I saw it in my eyes, and my heart was really troubled. Every time I go home, including after this college entrance examination, I originally wanted to make my family happy, but it always turned out to be a mess, which is really helpless.
Maybe I should go home more often, spend more time with my family, and let them feel my care and warmth. However, no matter how hard I tried, the conflict at home always seemed to be irresolvable.
Home should be a warm and harmonious harbor. However, in my opinion, the current family is like a fire of desire that cannot be extinguished, and can trigger a fire at any time.
I hope that time can dilute everything and let the family love shine again.
After this incident of family dinner, I felt very depressed. I tried to do well in my studies, but when I wanted to share my joy with my family, I was met with their disappointment and dissatisfaction.
After this incident, the relationship with his family became even more strained. Mom became more critical, and Dad was reticent.
So, one weekend evening, I begged my parents to sit down in the living room and talk to them seriously about my thoughts.
I spoke about my deep troubles and expectations for my family relationships.
Our conversation didn't solve all the problems right away, but at least we both understood each other's thoughts.
I am deeply aware that the maintenance of family relationships requires the understanding and efforts of both parties, and I am determined to work for the harmony of family relationships with this wish.
Now, the question in my heart is: What attitude and what action should I take to solve it?
After my mom quit the family group, the atmosphere in the whole house became even more dull and tense. Every day when I come home, I can always feel an inexplicable depressing atmosphere in my home.
Dad didn't smile either, as if he was just staying at home, and his heart had long been far away from this home. The backlog of family conflicts seems to be getting heavier and heavier.
One day, my mom and I got into an argument over some trivial matter. We were supposed to prepare a hot pot for my dad to come back for the evening, but I ended up putting some of the dishes in a place she didn't like.
"Can't you just divide the dishes properly, and always make a mess of things!" said the mother, who was full of dissatisfaction and resentment.
Our rhetoric grew more and more intense, and eventually it turned into a heated argument.
In this atmosphere, I felt that the whole family was shrouded in a haze. I know I can't afford to let things go on like this.
However, I began to hesitate again, and I was afraid that this conversation would turn into another irreconcilable quarrel.
Perhaps, I should know more about my mother's heart. Her withdrawal from the group and posting on Moments may not be out of jealousy, but a kind of helplessness and loneliness deep in her heart.
Perhaps, I need to spend more time with my family and use my actions to make up for the lack of my family because of my studies.
I know that none of this will be solved overnight, but I will try to run the family.
I hope that one day in the future, our family will be able to return to that warm and harmonious state again.
Because I love this home deeply, and this love will become the deepest bond between me and my family.
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