I recently experienced a special technological discovery that gave me some new thoughts about life. Not long ago, I participated in a virtual reality game experience, and through the special equipment, I felt like I was in the game world, feeling the wonderful scenery and immersive adventure experience in the game.
Speaking of life, I am a middle-aged man with a successful career, although I should be very satisfied in the eyes of outsiders, but there is an inexplicable emptiness in my heart.
My wife and I have been married for many years and we have never had children. Although we live a privileged life, the loneliness of our home makes my heart ache.
Whenever I have dinner with my friends, watching them sit around and have a drink, and the children and children laugh and laugh, I always feel an indescribable envy and loneliness.
On this day, my wife and I went out shopping and passed by an orphanage. My wife suddenly stopped and said to me, "Let's go inside."
The children in the orphanage were either playing or Xi, and they were all full of curiosity when they saw us as a couple.
Xiaoyu playfully asked Mrs. "Sister, are you here to adopt me?" Mrs. smiled and shook her head and said, "No, no, we just came to see you to see if there was a chance to help."
She asked again, "What about you, uncle, do you want to adopt me too?" I paused for a moment, a little overwhelmed, and gently touched Xiaoyu's hair, but did not answer.
When I got out of the orphanage, my wife looked at me and said half-jokingly: "Xiaoyu is smart and cute, do you want to consider adopting her?" I was startled and quickly shook my head: "Forget it, our life is already very good."
Along the way, I was silent. When I got home, I was alone in the study, and the sentence that Xiaoyu asked me appeared in my mind.
Perhaps, adopting a child will make a difference in our lives, maybe I need children more than just my wife.
The loneliness at home made me unacceptable, but Xiaoyu's innocent question deeply touched a certain string in my heart.
On this day, I proposed to visit the orphanage with my wife again, and she was a little surprised but agreed. When we arrived at the orphanage, Xiaoyu happened to be lecturing, and she saw us coming and walked over with a smile on her face.
After leaving the orphanage, on the way home, my wife suddenly stopped, looked at me and said, "Actually, I've been thinking about adopting a child for a long time, maybe we can really think about it."
I've always been successful at work, but I've been a bit constrained by my family. Being a child is a new identity and a new responsibility for me.
This hesitation accompanied me and made me feel more anxious. I tried to find a balance, but my inner conflict became more and more serious.
I began to secretly contradict whether I should adopt Xiaoyu or not. While she undoubtedly had a heart that longed to be loved, did I have the courage to take on the responsibility? I began to complain about my constant apathy and suspicion, feeling like I was caught between two sharp blades.
This inner contradiction made me feel overwhelmed.
In the days that followed, Xiaoyu's smile and that question kept lingering in my mind. I began to secretly observe how my wife and I got along.
It seems that because of the children's problems, our relationship has become more and more strained. Whenever I brought up the matter of adopting Xiaoyu, my wife always dodged and didn't want to talk about it.
On this day, I secretly went to the orphanage and watched Xiaoyu play with other children in the yard. Her joy and liveliness made me think that maybe adopting her was not a bad idea.
However, when I returned home and confessed my decision to my wife, she did not understand my thoughts at all and was adamantly opposed.
I secretly complained that she was selfish and unwilling to accept foreign children, and I even began to doubt our marriage.
This superposition of knots makes me feel that this is a seemingly small rain, but in fact it is pulling the entanglement of the relationship between us.
I don't have a definite answer to this question.
Once I arrived at my destination, I wandered aimlessly through the streets of the neighborhood. Suddenly, I was attracted by a loud burst of children's laughter, turned around, and I saw a little girl playing with her mother.
Once again, my heart was touched and I began to rethink my life and family.
Soon, my wife and I were quiet again, but the shadow of the light rain lingered in my mind.
When we arrived at the orphanage, we were greeted by a light rain. When she saw us, she immediately had a big smile on her face.
After returning home, my wife and I had a new change, and we began to seriously think about whether to adopt Xiaoyu.
However, it was at this time that I received a phone call from my cousin, whom I hadn't seen in years. He said he had some problems lately and needed my help.
However, I was troubled by my cousin's affairs, and I knew that my wife was dissatisfied, but I also didn't want to live up to my cousin's trust.
At this time, Xiaoyu's figure resurfaced in my mind, and her innocence and intelligence made me feel a little warm.