I grew up in my uncle's house. After my father died, my aunt was cold to me and never paid attention to me. But I didn't give up hope in life because of this, and I often looked for small blessings in life.
Once, I went shopping at the supermarket and looked at the shelves with so many items that I suddenly felt happy. I wandered around slowly, picking out some sweets and snacks that gave me a hint of joy. As I was holding a bag of snacks and getting ready to check out, I saw a passbook with my name on it. I was a little surprised, I took the passbook and opened it, and there was actually a sum of money deposited in it, and there was a lot of money. I'm a little surprised, is this what my aunt gave me?
I thought about it with my passbook and didn't come to a conclusion. When I got back to my uncle's house, I didn't tell him right away. I silently took out my passbook and put it in the drawer, feeling a little conflicted. My attitude towards my aunt has always been complicated, but this time I was confused.
For the rest of the day, I pondered this question in my mind. I don't know why my aunt suddenly gave me this money, her indifference formed a psychological barrier, and I didn't know how to face her. But at the same time, her gesture made me feel a touch of warmth and made me feel at home.
In the days when I was about to take the college entrance examination, I felt even more confused, and I didn't know how to deal with my aunt's heart. I secretly made up my mind that if I was admitted to the university of my choice, I would definitely repay my aunt's kindness. I worked hard to learn Xi, worked hard for my dreams, and was grateful for my wishes. I don't know if this little passbook will change the relationship between me and my aunt, but that warm heart has slowly sprouted in my heart.
On this day, the results of the college entrance examination were announced, and I was successfully admitted to a 985 university. When I came home excitedly with my admission letter, my aunt saw my excitement and smiled slightly. She took out a piece of paper, wrote some trivial content, and handed it to me: "Go ahead, read hard, and remember to go home often." ”
I took the paper and was overwhelmed with emotion. Maybe it's not an affectionate word, but for me, it's full of care and love. I know that my aunt's heart has been received, and perhaps, our relationship will become less cold because of this heart. I thought maybe I should repay her well, because this little happiness of family affection has taken root in my heart.
My university life is gradually getting on the right track, and thanks to my aunt's kindness, I am even more determined to study hard and Xi. However, what I didn't expect was that by chance, I found an old photo album in my aunt's closet. I looked at it casually, and it was full of pictures from my youth, as well as some letters. I wondered if I should tell my aunt about it.
I thought about it for a long time, and finally decided to tell my uncle about it. After listening to my description, my uncle seemed a little hesitant, and he was silent for a long time. Eventually, he told me that the people in the album and the letter were all former lovers of my aunt. The uncle said that the aunt and the lover were childhood sweethearts, and the two had a deep love back then, and they were always ready to get married. But on the eve of the wedding, the lover left his hometown and went to a distant place, and since then he has lost contact.
Although I understood my aunt's distress, my heart was also more troubled. I don't know if I should tell my aunt this secret, I am afraid that all this will make her suffer from the pain of her soul again. But on the other hand, I feel that this secret has been hidden in my heart all along, and it is not fair to her.
This incident became a major contradiction in my heart. I am no longer as cold to my aunt as I used to be, I listen more to her and care more about her life. Although I didn't confess to my aunt in person, I could feel that she was paying more attention to me.
Perhaps, this family entanglement will become a deeper understanding and sublimation of the relationship between me and my aunt. I decided to slowly make up for the regrets in this family with my actions. I don't know if this contradiction will be resolved in the future, or will there be more waves? Or will all this finally usher in an unexpected ending.
When the good news of the college entrance examination was heard, another wave of contradictions was set off at home. My aunt suddenly asked me to stay in my hometown to study, and she said that she was getting older and wanted me to be by my side. She didn't convince me, she just put her hopes on the table.
It was a difficult decision for me. On the one hand, I understand my aunt's loneliness and expectation, and I can empathize with her lonely years after my grandmother's death. But on the other hand, I have big dreams, and I want to have the opportunity to get in touch with the world and see different landscapes. I don't know whether to give up my dreams for my aunt's wishes or stick to my choice.
This issue has become a point of contention among the family. My uncle and aunt urged me to stay, and they were worried that my aunt would be lonely at home. I tried to explain my heart's desires and dreams, but they didn't seem to understand, or rather, they cared more about the warmth and stability in front of them.
This time I felt extremely tired from this conflict, and I didn't know what to do. Perhaps, I simply can't satisfy my dreams without hurting my aunt's heart. I am grateful to my aunt for the passbook I gave me, but this affection made my choice even heavier. I was caught in a dilemma, and my inner struggle made me weary.
However, life has to go on, and the road ahead has to go on. I didn't find an answer to that question, but I knew I had to make a decision for myself and for my family. The predicament I faced was, after all, part of my inner world. I don't dare to jump to conclusions about where I should go, I just know that this choice will affect me for the rest of my life.
I needed time to think and more courage to face this choice. My aunt's expectations, my dreams, and my family's responsibilities are all tangled together to make it more difficult for me to move forward. I don't know how this struggle will end, but it will be a part of my upbringing.
I left home with a good impression of my aunt and headed to the university city to start a new life in high spirits. When I first arrived at school, I put all my energy into my studies and extracurricular activities, and I had a fulfilling life. But shortly after school started, I received a phone call that shocked me. My uncle's voice came over the phone, and he told me that my aunt had a serious illness. I panicked and hurried back to my hometown, only to find my aunt paralyzed in bed at the moment.
It all seemed to happen so fast that I couldn't accept it. My aunt's estranged attitude was a thorn in my heart, but seeing her lying on the bed at the moment made me sad. I struggled to suppress my emotions and made a strong and aloof appearance.
In the days that followed, I was so busy that I almost forgot about my aunt's existence. Rushing between school and home every day, even when I was facing my aunt in bed, I always avoided her gaze, as if doing so would erase my inner contradictions and conscience.
One day, I was hurrying home only to see my aunt sitting in the yard, basking in the sun alone without saying a word. I stepped forward, but was shocked by her sudden words: "I know you have an opinion about me, but I have never regretted being cold to you all these years." Hearing this, I was a little stunned, because this was a doubt in my heart for many years.
I suddenly felt angry and couldn't let go. Growing up, I was just a child who was left out in this family, and my aunt acted like nothing had happened. I couldn't help but ask her out loud why she had been so cold to me and why she had never cared about me. My aunt looked at me with mixed emotions in her eyes, but she didn't speak.
I sorted out my emotions and decided to leave. This home may be just a passer-by for me. I packed my bags and decided to leave this sad place.