In the middle of the night, the lights of the city still flickered, they tirelessly illuminated every corner, but my heart was chaos. I sat in front of the window, looking at the points of light, my mind playing out the day's events over and over again, and time, the invisible giant, beat my heart with its heavy steps. The imaginary self is always so radiant and unhurried. However, in reality, I always seem to be chasing something, but I always lose the opportunity to move forward in the waiting again and again. Yes, wait, that's the biggest lie I made for myself. I'm always waiting, waiting for a so-called "perfect moment", but this moment never seems to come. I began to recall myself four years ago, that young boy who set off with a dream, with a fire in his heart, hot and bright. But four years, which seem fleeting, have quietly changed me. It was as if I had lost that initial enthusiasm in an instant, as if I had forgotten what I was fighting for.
In these four long years, I have jumped from one city to another, from one unfamiliar environment to another, even more unfamiliar. I asked myself, what have I gained in this migration? What have I lost? Have I forgotten my original intention? Have I lost my direction? In the dead of night, the loneliness and anxiety always hit me like a tide, leaving me with nowhere to hide. Yes, I'll admit, I'm not as strong as I once thought. The rhetoric that once threatened to hold the dream in their hands has become so pale and weak. So, what else can sustain me to keep going? Suddenly, I realized that maybe it was the beautiful hope for the future, the desire for the world, that made me still persevere. I don't want my future self to look back and be full of regrets and losses. What I want is a life full of color, the courage to get up even if I fall, and to move forward with a smile with dirt and sweat. I finally understood that waiting does not lead to change, only action can make a difference in the future.
I set out to do the things that had held me off. Read the unfinished book, finish the unfinished work, and say goodbye to those useless waits. I want to prove with my actions that I can find my place even in this complex world. Now, I stand at a new starting point, with my past experiences and perseverance. I'm going to the place I've dreamed so many times in the dead of night. I want to use my meager strength to try to change something, even if it is just a little bit, even if it is just to make my life, the life of those who care about me, a little warmer. This time, I'm no longer just a dreamer, I'm a doer. I want to make every step of my way firm and strong, and I will not give up, no matter how difficult the road ahead. I'm going to make time my most precious asset, not my worst enemy. In the future, I want to be able to look back and say to myself, "You did it." "At that time, I knew that all the struggles and efforts were worth it.
In this world, there are countless roads that entangle our feet. Some are covered with flowers, some are muddy, some are endless, some are crooked. Standing at the crossroads of life, everyone is making a choice: do you take the road that seems easy, or the path full of thorns, but it may lead to your dreams? Perhaps, you have felt this way too. You watch others live in good times, or in peace and comfort, and your inner voice tells you that that's not the life you want. Other people's stories, although they sound moving, are theirs, not yours. However, do you really know the stories behind those who appear glamorous in the crowd? Is their success as they show to be as radiant and unweathered? In fact, they have also experienced setbacks and failures, and have fallen and got up again and again, and it is these invisible efforts and efforts that have brought them their current glory.
I would say that life is never a smooth marathon course. It's more like a rugged hike, with everyone carrying their own bags and going alone. On this path, injuries and failures are our companions. Every now and then, they show up, blow us and break our hearts. But have you ever thought that it is these difficulties that make us stronger, let us learn perseverance and courage? Think about it, when you feel lonely and lost, in fact, this is also an opportunity, an opportunity for you to understand life more deeply, and feel yourself more truly. Every event, whether it is happy or sad at the moment, will eventually precipitate into a precious memory in our hearts. As long as you can persevere to the end, you will find that every step is the way to go, and every choice has its irreplaceable meaning. In your life's journey, there will always be people who seem to have something to say and dictate your choices. At this point, you need to ask yourself: Am I really scared?
The answer is often: there is nothing to be afraid of, because this path is my own choice. We don't have to be afraid of other people's judgments, we don't need to look back, and we don't need to stay where we are. Sometimes, it can be an unforgettable experience to face the world alone. You will witness the multifaceted nature of life and experience the richness of life. When sadness and frustration strike, you might as well take a walk alone to see the beauty and vastness of this world, it will tell you that life is worth feeling and cherishing with your heart. And every time you stop and look back at the road you have traveled, you might as well ask yourself: Have I done my best for my dream? If the answer is yes, then no matter how rough the road is, there should be no regrets. Because you have come far enough on your own path, and this path is the path that leads to your dreams. Let us continue on our own paths, for those who shine are not God, they are mortals.
They are simply telling us that nothing is impossible in the world as long as we go on bravely. So, raise your head, firm your steps, and move forward bravely on the road of life, towards your dreams. This road may be winding and lonely, but it will be the journey you are most proud of.