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I was overwhelmed by the heavy baggage, and I couldn't hold back any longer and decided to shake out the stories of all these years.
What? I'm second-hand? What does this have to do with the old and the new? My belly is obviously handed, how can there be any scars!
In fact, a little secret that I have not been preaching everywhere is that I have a very simple and kind heart. Because I was pampered and raised from a young age, I always thought of everyone well. Whoever I meet, I am sincere enough.
He wears a pair of black sneakers, revealing two fleshless calves. It looks very quiet, wearing a black thin-rimmed glasses, and looks quite gentle. I pushed the cart over and asked him gently, "Classmate, would you like to buy an ice cream?"
He looked up, saw that it was me, stared blankly for a few seconds, and then smiled shyly: "Okay, let's have a strawberry-flavored one." ”
I hurriedly packed a strawberry ice cream and handed it to him, and he took it and said, "My name is Li Jing, what about you?"
"I am. "I'm a little embarrassed.
I often come here alone to read, and I'm glad to meet you today. Li Jing smiled sweetly and asked me, "Do you work here?"
I nodded, and told him a brief story. Unexpectedly, Li Jing immediately came to his senses: "What! I also work as a waiter in a nearby restaurant! What a coincidence!"
Seeing that Li Jing was not quite right, I asked him with concern: "What's wrong with you? Is there something unhappy at work?"
Li Jing hurriedly waved his hand and explained: "No, no, I still like you very much, but I may not be able to tell my family." You see, let's keep it a secret first, and then introduce you to my parents after I graduate. Is that okay?"
I thought about it for a moment, then nodded in agreement. Li Jing happily hugged me and kept saying thank you in my ear. I hugged him back, and I was very touched in my heart.
More than a year has passed since such days. Li Jing told me that his family began to urge him to get married, and he pretended to be still trying to go on a blind date, but in fact he was still with me. One day, Li Jing suddenly said that he wanted to live with me.
"Cohabitation?" I repeated in surprise.
Li Jing nodded and said seriously: "I really don't want to pass by you without telling my family anymore." I've already looked for a good house, small one bedroom apartment, small but cosy place. If you want, you can move in with me, right?"
I was so excited that I buried my head in Li Jing's arms. Living with my beloved is the romance I have always dreamed of. Although there will be hardships and inconveniences, with Li Jing, I firmly believe that everything will be beautiful.
However, the good times were short-lived. Half a year later, Li Jing's parents suddenly became seriously ill and were hospitalized, requiring a large amount of medical expenses. As an only child, Li Jing had no choice but to go home to take care of him, and his family repeatedly emphasized that he must get married and have children as soon as possible.
During the months of separation from Li Jing, I had a bad time. I am always absent-minded when I work during the day, and I am very lonely and sad to be alone in an empty room at night. I often miss Li Jing and wonder how he is doing now and whether his family's health is improving.
Then I quit my job and moved to my old hometown. I'm going to start all over again, to learn how to trust and love again.
Life in my hometown was peaceful, and I took up a job as a clerk, with a small income but enough to support myself. In my free time, I'm mostly out for a walk alone or chatting with a few old friends. I deliberately kept my distance from the opposite sex and tried to heal my heart.
However, I was still young after all, and 32-year-old Daniel Zhang broke into my life in this way. It was a rainy night, and I forgot to bring my umbrella and ran to the bus stop, only to see Daniel Zhang standing there waiting for me with an umbrella.
"My name is Daniel Zhang, and I want to give you a ride when I see that you don't have an umbrella. Daniel Zhang smiled and sheltered me from the rain, kind and sincere.
However, good times are always short-lived. Just half a year after getting married, Daniel Zhang suddenly became cold to me, and the time to go home was getting later and later. I wondered if he had another woman outside, and after some inquiry, I found out that after Daniel Zhang's promotion and salary increase, he was no longer satisfied with my old apartment and simple life, and wanted to change to a better environment.
Daniel Zhang and I had a heated argument. He complained endlessly about the harsh circumstances, and I accused him of having changed his mind and not in the first place. In the end, Daniel Zhang slammed the door in a huff and never returned.
I started to be afraid of being with boys, because I was always betrayed and abandoned after giving my heart. I decided to concentrate on my work, bought a small apartment and lived alone, living in isolation.
However, three years later, a boy named Wang Xiaojun came into my life by mistake. Wang Xiaojun is two years younger than me and is a new junior employee in our company. He was polite and courteous to me, and he handled things cleanly. I gradually became attracted to his humble and unpretentious personality and began to take the initiative to associate with him.
Wang Xiaojun is very attentive to me and often takes me out to play. He didn't mind how plain I dressed. I quickly let my guard down and was in a relationship with him. Wang Xiaojun always said that he didn't care about the outside, as long as the two of them had the same mind.
After more than a year, Wang Xiaojun said that he wanted to marry me. At first, I was wait-and-see, but he pleaded with me again and again, and I couldn't bear to keep going. So we simply registered with the Civil Affairs Bureau and got married. After I got married, I still lived in my old apartment, while Wang Xiaojun rented a single room and went back and forth.
The wedding day is sweet and pleasant. Wang Xiaojun was almost meticulous to me, and I gradually let go of my guard and spent a sweet time with him. However, when I was married for a year, Wang Xiaojun suddenly filed for divorce with me!
It turned out that a year ago it was just a confession of sweet words, but now Wang Xiaojun finally can't help but complain to me about the hard life of these years. He said that he wanted a decent environment, and if I refused to move, I would have to get a divorce!
In this way, although I have only lived with 12 boyfriends, every relationship has ended in a breakup. I gradually realized that what I had been looking for was the warmth and security that my parents had given me when I was younger. I want to rediscover my childhood self and the true nature of life.
So I began to learn to love myself and cherish myself. Stop blindly looking to others for approval, but build inner self-confidence. After all this struggle, I finally grew up and became more independent and strong.
I don't regret what has happened over the years. Both love and pain have made me grow. I'm doing well now, and I'm no longer the fragile version I used to be. I will continue to try to embrace life and love life.
I started over and lived the life I loved. No longer trying to please anyone, but happily being your true self. Whatever I like, I will pursue generously. Occasionally, I go on blind dates, but I don't have the nervousness and anxiety I used to have.
Just when I felt that my life was full again, a man named Du Hai appeared. Du Hai was the cousin of my college classmate, and he took the initiative to strike up a conversation with me at a party. At first, I didn't have any special feelings, but I just thought that Du Hai had a good character and might be able to become an ordinary friend.
However, Du Hai seemed to fall in love with me at first sight. He began to pursue me passionately, and I resisted at first, but was soon moved by his sincerity and maturity. I found him very different from other people, with his own unique life experience and deep inner world.
Du Hai took good care of me and never asked for a change in my lifestyle. He said that as long as two people have the same heart, everything else will fall into place. I also like his mature and steady personality.
Now that I have been married for three years, Du Hai treats me the same as before, and I no longer have any worries. The days passed peacefully and warmly, and I felt the steadfastness and happiness that I had not felt for a long time.
I don't care what people say about me as "second-hand" or "second-hand", because I know very well that what I have always held on to is my original heart. I am willing to wait, and I am willing to start again, until I meet Du Hai, who understands me and cherishes me. I never had any wounds on my stomach, and I left all my whole for the love of my life.
I think that love has an order like the four seasons. Only by experiencing wind and rain can we see the rainbow, and only by enduring the cold winter can we usher in spring. I'm glad that my spring has finally arrived. I believe that as long as the right person is there at the right time, everything will be so good.
After moving into Du Hai's house, I took care of this small world with my own hands. Du Hai is busy with work during the day, so I am responsible for buying ingredients and making some simple and delicious home-cooked food. Du Hai often laughs at me for being a little chef. We would talk about each other's work and life at the dinner table. Du Hai also cares about my ideas and often encourages me to do some small crafts that I like.
I like to plant flowers in the yard. Our roses are in full bloom, so I will choose the most beautiful ones and make them into vases and put them on the table. Du Hai also knows that I love flowers, and often buys lilies that I like and says good morning to me.
Every festival, Du Hai would take me out on vacation. This year's Mid-Autumn Festival, we went to the beach to see the sea and roast lamb around the fire. I leaned into Du Hai's arms and counted the stars, and he said "I love you" to me over and over again. I almost melted into this sweet love language. We also get together with friends regularly to enhance our relationships and harvest happiness.
Du Hai gave me a sense of security and self-confidence. I no longer doubt his feelings easily, because I know his sincerity. I also matured in this marriage and learned to be tolerant and communicative. When we encounter small things that are unhappy, we will sit down and talk patiently, and we can resolve them quickly.
In fact, I was once so broken by love that I no longer believe in eternal happiness. But with Du Hai, I found deep inner peace. I began to believe that this was the love of my life. We will join hands all the way to see all the ways of life until the last moment of life.
Whenever I look back on the past, I sincerely thank God for allowing me to meet Du Hai. I came a long, long way, but in the end I went in the right direction. I never heard anyone say that I was a "second-hand", because to Du Hai, I was the only one and most precious to him. My heart, all my all, belongs to him alone. This is the happiest portrayal of me, a woman.
told me about her past unreservedly, and the betrayal and hurt she suffered were let down by love again and again. I was very distressed after hearing this, and I admired her for not giving up the pursuit of love. I didn't see it as second-hand, in my eyes, she just took a lot of detours before she finally waited for me.
I like her independent and strong personality, and I also appreciate her self-seeking and optimistic spirit. That's what attracted me more to her than other girls. I don't care about her past, I just worry about whether I'll hurt this delicate flower again.
So I was careful and did everything I could to make me happy. I also found a long-lost sense of responsibility and mission in this relationship.
We will grow old together, and I will always love her, care for her, and protect her. Never let her be hurt or wronged in the slightest bit. I want to take her around the world and revisit our original intentions.
When we get old, we will plant all kinds of flowers in the yard and talk about interesting things in the past. In winter, drink red wine, bake the fire, and snuggle up on the couch to watch old movies. We will invite the children to come home with us, the warmth of family reunion.
I know I want to adopt a few more children. She would be a good motherly mother. I will also be the most reliable father to my children, teaching them to learn skills, face hardships, and embrace this beautiful and broken world.
I want to go through birth, old age, sickness and death together until the last trace of life. I will hold her old hand and reminisce with her about the bits and pieces of our lives. Those laughter, those tears, will turn into stardust, shining eternally in the long river of time.
After a few years of marriage, I gradually started my own small business and ran a small but boutique flower shop. I love all kinds of flowers and I love to dress them up and bring them to life. Du Hai fully supports my small shop and often sends different flower arrangements to the store to decorate.
Just when I was feeling that my life was complete, there were a few female customers with sad faces who often came to my store. The sadness in their tone when they bought flowers was not difficult to detect. I took the initiative to talk to them and listen to their stories.
It turns out that they have all experienced painful feelings and endured unimaginable injuries from others. I feel very sorry for them, because I have also stumbled on the thorny road of love like them.
I encourage them to be honest with themselves and not to be denied their worth by others. I reminded them that only by truly loving themselves can they recognize who is the one who truly treats them. When they regained their confidence and courage, I was very proud and gratified for them.
As a result, my small shop has quietly become a spiritual sustenance place for those who have been hurt by love. The women who had been slumped would spontaneously meet in our store to exchange their new lives. I often hear from them telling me about the new steps they have taken in their relationship.
Watching them come back from their wounds is filled with emotion. I am grateful to God for my right to listen to them and to be able to help them. I have finally learned to see my past as a precious treasure that has made me more mature, compassionate, and resilient today.
In the blink of an eye, Du Hai and I grew old, and our children also started a family one after another. We moved to a small village by the sea away from the hustle and bustle and lived a leisurely and peaceful life.
I picked up all the things I used to have, and suddenly remembered the ups and downs of my youth. I can't help but laugh secretly, the past that used to torture me has now turned into a small vicissitudes in the long river of memory. And they have made me a happy home.
Du Hai still cares for me and cares for me as always. We will walk hand in hand to the beach, soak up the tranquility of the sea and listen to its calm and powerful heartbeat. We became one of the most loving old couples in the village, but I know that our love has never faded.
I know that I have done a good job in this life. I am deeply loved and loved with all my heart. In this life, I have no regrets.
Looking at the sparkling sea, I am reminded of the time I faced with great sadness and despair all those years ago. Looking back now, everything is wrong, but I am still me. Those people and those things are gone. But I'm glad I went through all the ups and downs to meet Du Hai at the end. I know that at the end of the thorny path, there is always the other wing of my soul.