I had been depressed for several days, and my friends advised me to go out for a walk and relax in a different environment.
When everything was ready, I stepped on the train to my destination.
On the train, I sat by the window, looking out the window at the speeding scenery. Everything seemed so blurry, as if my heart had also fallen into darkness.
At this moment, a gentle voice came into my ears: "I'm sorry, there are no seats here, can you sit here?" I looked up and saw a beautiful young girl standing in front of me.
"Absolutely." I suddenly looked up from my frustration and motioned for her to sit next to me. She pulled out her phone and looked down at the screen, seemingly busy with something.
"Where are you going?" She broke the silence by speaking suddenly.
"I'm just looking for a random place to walk around and relax." I replied.
"Oh, me too, just going to have fun with my friends." She said with a smile.
It was getting dark, and the lights were turned on in the carriage. I looked at her bright smile and felt a strange and dangerous feeling welling up in my heart.
"You look a little tired." She looked at me with concern, "Are you out of love?" ”
I was shocked that she could detect my mood change. I nodded: "Yes, I recently experienced the failure of a relationship and felt very painful in my heart.
Her words were like a ray of warm sunshine that illuminated the depths of my heart. I felt a sense of comfort and hope that I had never felt before, as if I had rediscovered the courage to live.
The bus arrived at the terminal and we got off together. I didn't come up with the idea of continuing the trip, because I found that I had developed a special emotion for this unusual encounter.
"Thank you for chatting with me, it made my mood much better." I said to her sincerely.
She smiled and shook her head, "This is what I should have done, it's just a coincidence, it's not a big deal." ”
We said goodbye and went our separate ways home. I was walking home and suddenly realized that I had developed a special feeling for this girl, a feeling I had never felt before.
Her image kept flashing in my mind this night. Every time I close my eyes, I can feel her gentle gaze, which seems to tell me that there is always a glimmer of anticipation and hope in life.
When I got home, I tried to shift my mind, but the gentle voice, the special feeling, lingered.
Just then, a text message came from an unfamiliar number. The text message reads: "Hello, I'm Zhang Xiaoyan, I met on that train.
When I saw this text message, my mood suddenly became excited. I quickly replied: "What a coincidence! I was still thinking about you just now! How can we see each other again? ”。
After a while, the phone rang again. This time it was a request for a video call. I couldn't wait to pick up the call and immediately saw Zhang Xiaoyan's smile on the screen.
We started to shift our conversation from each other's recent situation to family. She told me that she had been living with her sister's family for several years, and that she had not been able to live with her parents because of her work.
"How's your relationship with your sister? I see that you feel very well together together. I asked curiously.
She sighed, with a hint of helplessness in her eyes: "Actually, there have always been some problems between us. My sister always felt that my parents were partial to me, which made her very unhappy.
Listening to Zhang Xiaoyan's family problems, I feel the same way. I also have examples around me where conflicts and strife in the family are often complicated by the entanglement of family affection.
"Maybe we should all put ourselves in the other person's shoes and understand each other's position." I tried to give her some advice, "After all, family is where we grew up, and it carries so much emotion and history.
She nodded, held up her phone, and pointed it at her sister's door. "This is her, do you think we look like her, listening to your usual description?" She asked.
I saw a face that was not unfamiliar through the screen of my phone, and her sister was indeed the wife of the friend I knew.
"Actually, we don't really know each other." I expressed my inner feelings, "Only by truly understanding the other person can we find solutions to conflicts and disputes."
She nodded thoughtfully, as if pondering my words. "You're right, we need more communication and understanding to ease conflicts in the family.
We continued to talk about the importance of family, the value of affection and how to deal with family disputes during the video call.
"Thank you, because of you, I have different ideas about many things." Zhang Xiaoyan said to me with great sincerity, "Although we have known each other for a short time, you have given me a lot of strength.
I smiled and felt the satisfaction in my heart. "This is what I should do, and it is because of your company that I can get out of the shadow of broken love.
We continued chatting until late at night. I couldn't help but realize that my feelings for Zhang Xiaoyan were becoming more and more complicated, no longer just because of her tenderness and listening.
When I got home, I tried to dispel Zhang Xiaoyan's gentle figure from my mind. However, fate doesn't seem to be intent on giving me a respite.
The news pierced me like a sharp knife into my heart. I couldn't accept the fact that I used to like this girl so much, and now, I found out that she was actually related to me in this way.
However, I can't forgive them for their deception. I was disappointed and angry with my father and the family, and I couldn't accept that they had ever hidden such an important truth from me.
I decided to find Zhang Xiaoyan, I wanted to see if she knew all this. I found her phone number and hoped to be able to solve the mystery face to face.
"Hey, it's me." I called her in a trembling voice.
"Oh, it's you." Her slightly surprised voice came from the other end of the line, "What's wrong?" What's the matter? ”
I hesitated, but finally decided to tell her the truth, "I know, I know that you are related to me by blood, and you are the illegitimate daughter of my father.
There was silence on the other end of the line, and I could hear her breathing, as if she was trying to calm herself.
"So you know." Her voice sounded a little weak, "I don't know what to say, I just wish we could still be friends."
I was stunned, I didn't expect her to react so calmly to this fact. It dawned on me that she probably knew all about it and just kept it a secret.
"Why didn't you tell me? Why hide this fact? I asked, with pain and despair in my voice.
"I know this is a big shock to you, so I chose to hide it. But I want you to know that it doesn't affect the relationship between us.
I was lost in thought, it all happened so suddenly, I didn't know what to do with this complicated relationship.
Being friends with her means forgiving my father and the family's deception, and giving up on associating with her makes me feel lonely and lost.
I need time to think calmly and find the courage to accept this fact. But I also know that in the process, I will face more contradictions and troubles.
After returning home, I continued to miss the girl who made me sink, Zhang Xiaoyan. However, I am also well aware that our relationship is not simple.
One night a few days later, I received a call from my friend Li Ming. There was a hint of nervousness in his voice: "I heard that you and Xiaoyan took the train together, is it true?" ”。
I was a little flustered and didn't know how to answer. In the end, I chose to confess: "Yes, we met by chance on the train."
Li Ming on the other end of the phone was silent for a while, and finally said: "I hope there is no more contact between you, Xiaoyan is my sister-in-law, there are some family entanglements between her and me, I don't want you to get involved."
My heart suddenly became heavy, it turned out that all this was not as beautiful and simple as I imagined.
However, just when I decided to give up, Zhang Xiaoyan suddenly came to my doorstep. Her eyes were a little dazed, and her voice revealed helplessness: "Are you free?" I'd like to talk to you.
I didn't answer, just let her into my room. We sat together and the atmosphere was a little awkward.
"I knew I should leave, it was too complicated between us." Her voice was low and seemed a little sad.
"Yes, we shouldn't meet again." I nodded vigorously.
Silently, she took out a letter and handed it to me. I opened it and saw that it was written to her by Li Ming, and it was full of reproach and expectations for her.
"He doesn't want us to be together, and he's very opposed to our relationship." Her voice trembled.
I silently clenched my fists, my heart full of contradictions and struggles. I know that no matter how deep our relationship is, we can't escape the shackles and responsibilities of family.
After returning home, I was full of thoughts about Zhang Xiaoyan, and even began to have fantasies about the possibility of the future. However, I found myself in the middle of a family strife.
I didn't hesitate to stand up and defend her. My friends looked at me in amazement, but I continued without hesitation.
"How can you do this to a man of integrity and goodness? Zhang Xiaoyan didn't do anything wrong, she just chose her own way of life.
The eyes of the friends gradually changed, and they seemed to be a little shaken. I know that at this time, I must strive for a fair evaluation of Zhang Xiaoyan.
After that, I decided to talk to Zhang Xiaoyan. When I told her everything I had heard, her eyes became complicated.
"I know my sister always wanted me to be better, but I didn't want the kind of life they wanted.
"Don't worry, I'll support you." I took her hand and gave her strength and encouragement.
We decided to face our families together, for the sake of our true feelings, in order to pursue our own happiness.