Lin Xiaomei lay on the hospital bed, tightly covering her stomach, her face full of tears. She was less than four months pregnant, and her life was full of longing and expectations for the future, but she unfortunately contracted the new crown virus a month ago.
After the state abruptly lifted various prevention and control measures, the virus quickly spread among the population. Lin Xiaomei, as a middle school teacher, was soon recruited.
In desperation, she could only recuperate at home, carefully waiting for the symptoms to subside, and regularly measuring her temperature every day, for fear that the fever would cause harm to the fetus.
After ten full days of struggle, Lin Xiaomei finally subsided her fever, and her tight heart relaxed slightly. She stroked her still flat abdomen, full of hope - when she recovered some strength, she would pull her husband to the hospital to check and see if the baby was okay.
However, when she returned to the hospital for a prenatal examination, Lin Xiaomei's heart immediately sank. The doctor told her with a difficult face that the fetus's heartbeat was no longer audible.
"Impossible! I've been careful these days and have definitely never done anything to harm the fetus! Lin Xiaomei denied it loudly without disbelief.
The doctor said softly: "It may be that in the days of fever, the fetus could not withstand such a high body temperature, and the signs of life had stopped."
Very regrettable.
No heartbeat. Lin Xiaomei's mind was blank, and her hand was weakly propped up on the examination table. The unborn child, who has not yet come into this world, quietly leaves like this.
She stroked her flat abdomen, and tears finally came out of her eyes. Before I saw your face and gave you a nice name, you left in such a hurry.
Lin Xiaomei sobbed softly, and her heart was like a knife. Her husband stood aside, his eyes were red, but he still comforted her softly: "Baby, it's not your fault, we can have another child later."
However, Lin Xiaomei knew that any later child could not make up for the lack of this unborn life.
On this day, Lin Xiaomei came to the school as always. However, as soon as I entered the office, I noticed that my colleagues were discussing something in a low voice.
"Have you heard? The government suddenly announced that all coronavirus prevention and control measures were canceled! ”
"What? Isn't the virus about to spread sexually? ”
"It's over, I feel like I'm looking for a dead end..."
Lin Xiaomei was shocked when she heard the discussion among her colleagues. Is the country just giving up fighting the epidemic? This is good news for normal people, but for Lin Xiaomei, who is still recovering, it is tantamount to a thunderbolt.
She subconsciously touched her abdomen, thinking that it was good that she was no longer pregnant, otherwise the news would undoubtedly make things worse for her.
Sure enough, as soon as the prevention and control measures were lifted, the epidemic quickly returned. Lin Xiaomei's city soon became the hardest hit area, with a surge in epidemic patients in hospitals and a serious shortage of medical resources.
One day, Lin Xiaomei's colleague Xiao Li suddenly had a high fever, and she quickly took Xiao Li to the hospital. However, as soon as I entered the emergency department, I saw a dense crowd waiting outside the ward, and all the beds were full.
Xiao Li leaned weakly on Lin Xiaomei, who had already burned to forty degrees, but there was nowhere to go. Lin Xiaomei anxiously asked the doctor, and the doctor could only shake his head helplessly: "There is really no bed, I can only wait until there is a vacant bed."
Xiao Li's husband ran forward and asked anxiously: "My wife is in such a serious situation now, can't she be hospitalized?" ”
"Everyone is in an emergency, the hospital is overloaded, and I can only ask you to wait." The doctor looked embarrassed.
Seeing that Xiao Li's condition was critical, Lin Xiaomei and her husband could only sit on the chair in the emergency room for the night.
However, the chaotic scene in the hospital finally reminded Lin Xiaomei that the disaster brought by this plague seemed to be completely uncontrolled by the country.
On this day, Lin Xiaomei received a phone call, and the phone was from the village hospital. It turned out that her father, Uncle Wang, suddenly had a high fever and had been sent to the hospital.
Lin Xiaomei was shocked, Uncle Wang was over seventy years old, his body was weak, and getting the new crown was simply a threat to his life.
As soon as I entered the ward, I saw my mother Fu Mei sitting in front of her father's bed, wiping his sweat while whispering comfort.
Seeing Lin Xiaomei come back, Fu Mei couldn't help but shed tears: "Xiaomei, your father has a terrible cough these days, I thought it was just a common cold, but today it suddenly burned to forty degrees!" I was terrified, but fortunately the village doctor brought him in time.
Lin Xiaomei's heart was like a knife, she knew that her father's condition must be transferred to the hospital immediately, but the city's major hospitals were already full.
However, the next day, his father's condition did not improve, and his mother Fu Mei also began to cough constantly. Lin Xiaomei then realized that she may have also transmitted the virus to her mother.
"Mom, are you feeling okay?" Lin Xiaomei asked with concern.
"It's okay, maybe it's been too hard to accompany your dad these days, and it's okay to cough." Let's take a look at your dad's condition first.
However, the next day, Fu Mei's symptoms also worsened. Lin Xiaomei was so anxious that she called doctors everywhere for help, but the major hospitals were still full of beds.
Lin Xiaomei guarded her parents step by step, but as time passed, the condition of the second elder continued to deteriorate.
Witnessing the death of her parents one after another, Lin Xiaomei was overwhelmed with grief. She knelt before their grave, tears welling up. Her parents gave her life and support, but she failed to save their lives when they needed them.
The death of her parents has already made Lin Xiaomei unbearable, and she bursts into tears every day, unwilling to talk to anyone.
Until one day, Lin Xiaomei suddenly received a call from her cousin, saying that her aunt, who lived with her, also had symptoms of fever and was in critical condition.
Lin Xiaomei seemed to wake up as if she was shocked, and quickly drove to her aunt's house. When I opened the door, I saw that my aunt was already tossing and turning on the bed and moaning, her face flushed.
"Aunt, how are you? Is there anything I can do to help you? Lin Xiaomei asked nervously and distressedly.
The aunt shook her head weakly, already speechless. My cousin stood on the side crying that her fever had become more and more serious in the past two days, but the major hospitals did not accept patients.
Lin Xiaomei's heart sank, did her aunt also want to follow her parents' old path again? She did not allow herself to witness the pain of the death of her loved ones again.
So Lin Xiaomei began to fight against the disease. She watched her aunt day and night, trying to find her medication.
"Aunt, you must hold on, I will find a way, it will definitely be!" Lin Xiaomei held her aunt's hand and muttered, as if to cheer herself up.
However, fate is cruel in the end. While Lin Xiaomei was running around looking for medical treatment, her aunt swallowed her last breath in a high fever.
"Not !!!" Lin Xiaomei cried bitterly and knelt beside her aunt. First her parents, and now her aunt has also left her. One by one, her relatives died before her eyes, and she could do nothing.
Lin Xiaomei couldn't cry and hugged her aunt's already cold body. My cousin also burst into tears while standing aside.
Lin Xiaomei's cousin Aunt Li, two years older than her, became pregnant after just one year of marriage. But shortly after the cancellation of prevention and control measures, Aunt Li also contracted the new crown virus.
That day, Lin Xiaomei received a call from Aunt Li and listened to her choke up and say that she had a fever and a cold. Lin Xiaomei knew that Aunt Li now had a baby in her belly, and she must be very worried that the condition would hurt the fetus.
"Auntie, don't worry first, if the symptoms are not serious, retreat at home. I'll call you later to ask about the situation, if there is anything you need, just say! Lin Xiaomei encouraged her as much as possible.
However, in the next few days, Aunt Li's symptoms became more and more serious, and the high fever did not subside. She did not dare to take any medicine, for fear of affecting the fetus.
Finally, on the fourth day, Lin Xiaomei received a weak call from Aunt Li. She said she had sudden abdominal pain and bleeding this morning and was rushed to the hospital.
"Auntie, cheer up! The most important thing is to take care of your body, I will come to the hospital to see you immediately. Lin Xiaomei comforted, but she also burst into tears.
When she came to the hospital, Lin Xiaomei saw Aunt Li lying on the hospital bed with a blank face. She gently held her aunt's hand, not knowing what to say to give her strength.
"Auntie, life comes and goes, and there are many things that we cannot control. You need to take care of your body and recuperate. ”
Aunt Li nodded silently, but her gaze wandered indifferently. She had just undergone an abortion and suffered great psychological trauma.
Lin Xiaomei was very sad. This plague has taken not only lives, but also hope. It ruthlessly destroys family after family, leaving behind endless grief.
Just when Lin Xiaomei was accompanying Aunt Li to adjust her mentality, she suddenly received a phone call, it was Aunt Li's father-in-law calling.
It turned out that the baby Xiaoming that Aunt Li had just given birth to was infected with the new crown virus! Because he was too young, Xiaoming could not take any drugs and could only rely on his immune system to fight the disease.
When Lin Xiaomei arrived at the hospital, Xiaoming had a high fever and was crying from pain. Lin Xiaomei's heart was like a knife, this little life born suffered such a calamity, it was so unfair! .
"Xiao Ming, you must hold on! Auntie is here to accompany you. Lin Xiaomei gently patted Xiaoming's back, and tears couldn't stop flowing.
In the following days, Lin Xiaomei looked after Xiaoming step by step. She cooled him down with a wet towel and coaxed him to sleep and sing.
The doctor said that Xiaoming's condition was critical, but he was too young to prescribe the right medicine. Everything can only be decided by Providence.
"Providence? Is Providence meant to make a newborn child suffer so much? Lin Xiaomei was angry and helpless.
But in the end, Xiaoming stopped breathing in front of Lin Xiaomei's eyes. His little ship of life, which had just set sail, suffered a devastating blow.
"Bob, I'm sorry... I'm sorry...... Lin Xiaomei cried bitterly, hugging Xiaoming's gradually cold body tightly.
This little life could have grown slowly under the care of his mother and family, but this sudden plague ruthlessly deprived him of his right to live.
After the first wave of the new crown peak, Lin Xiaomei finally had time to slowly recall at her parents' grave.
She looked at her parents' warm smiling faces on the black marble and remembered the bits and pieces they spent together. His father, Uncle Wang, has a gentle temperament and likes to make her happy the most; Mother Fu Mei is easy-going and always tolerant of her willfulness.
Lin Xiaomei still remembers that when she was a child, her mother would wrap her favorite meat buns to wake her up; Her father would patiently teach her to ride a bike and whisper comfort when she fell.
Today, all this warmth is a lasting memory. Lin Xiaomei shed tears and gently touched her parents' names.
"Mom, I've started a family. You left in such a hurry that you didn't have time to see me put on my wedding dress. ”
"Dad, I gave birth to twins, two daughters, I named them Xiaoxiao and Meimei, I want them to think of you often.
Lin Xiaomei muttered into the air, tears dripping on the grave. How she wished her parents would live to this day, to see her start a family, to see her children.
But they were gone forever, unable to respond to her thoughts. Lin Xiaomei squatted down and held the tombstone and cried bitterly.
This sudden plague not only took the lives of loved ones, but also robbed them of time spent with them.
Whenever Lin Xiaomei calmed down alone, she would always involuntarily imagine what kind of life her relatives would be like without this plague.
Uncle Wang has a gentle temperament, and even though he is old, he still smiles and welcomes people. He would sit in front of his house in the sun and tease the children of the past.
Mother Fu Mei is kind and willing to take care of others. She would tease Lin Xiaomei's twin daughters with a smile and make delicious clothes and toys for them with her own hands.
My aunt is so cheerful and optimistic, she will invite everyone to go out on outings and chat about coquetry. She would be the first to pick up Lin Xiaomei's daughter in a circle and listen to their silver-bell-like laughter.
As for Aunt Li's child Xiaoming, she should have grown up under the care of her mother and family. He would shyly call Aunt Lin, stumble and learn to walk and be a happy child.
But all this beautiful imagination has become a fantasy. The plague ruthlessly claimed their lives and deprived them of the opportunity to be reunited with their loved ones.
People are born to die, but at least they should not die in such a helpless and sudden way. Lin Xiaomei looked at the tombstone, and tears burst out of her eyes again.
Sunlight shone through the gaps in the leaves and fell on Lin Xiaomei's body. She sat quietly in front of the graves of her loved ones, the sun shining warmly on her.
Many things are destined to be unchangeable, but Lin Xiaomei knows that life will continue and she must also live.
She cannot let pain defeat her, and she cannot let the plague ruin her hope for the future. For her own sake, and for the sake of her twin daughters, she had to pick herself up.
Lin Xiaomei believes that there will always be light after darkness, and the tree of life will surely sprout and bear fruit again.
She wants to protect the family tree for the older generation, so that Xiaoxiao and Meimei can grow up in the sun and greenery.
Maybe she can't change the past, but she can create the future. When the plague passed, she would take her two daughters to visit her ancestors and tell them that everything was fine.
Lin Xiaomei stood up and smoothed the sunlight on the black marble. Although her loved ones are gone, she feels that they are by her side.
"Please rest assured that I will live well. When the epidemic passes, our family will definitely be reunited. ”
Lin Xiaomei reverently closed and turned to leave. The wind blew through, and her back looked straight and strong in the sun.
All suffering will pass, and new hope lies ahead. Lin Xiaomei firmly took a step forward towards a new life.