I met her in an online dating group, a woman six years younger than me who still maintains an intoxicating demeanor. We started an online relationship that eventually developed into a live-in relationship.
However, when we were preparing to move towards the stage of marriage, I never imagined that she would put forward the "buy one get one free" condition. At this moment, I fell from the fantasy of love to the quagmire of reality, and I really couldn't meet her requirements...
My name is Li Baojiang and I am 62 years old. My children are all starting families abroad, and three years ago, my wife died of illness, leaving me alone to live.
To pass the time, I often surf the Internet, study stocks, enjoy music, watch videos, and occasionally visit some chat groups for the elderly, chat with netizens or play chess and chat with old friends under the tree.
Last year, I joined a dating group in a poetry clubhouse, which included a group of elderly people who love literature and art. We communicate with each other and talk about the world, adding some color to the ordinary life.
In this group, I made many friends, among them was a woman named Fang Qing, who was very active. Whenever she sends a voice message in the group, I can't wait to click and listen because her soft voice makes me feel very happy.
One day, Fang Qing shared a poem she created by herself in the group, and I was deeply moved and liked it again and again. From then on, we began to communicate with each other in groups.
Soon after, she added my WeChat and started sharing her handwritten poems, and her beautiful handwriting made me even more impressed by her.
Gradually, our relationship became closer, from poetry to homely conversations, to each other's living conditions...
Through private chats, we gradually got to know each other. Her name is Fang Qing, she is 56 years old, 6 years younger than me, and she is from the county seat about two hours away from my city.
She has been divorced for ten years and has a 30-year-old son. Our chats became more and more pleasant, saying good morning and good night to each other every morning and evening.
From a few brief sentences at first, to hundreds of hours of voice chats, our relationship gradually warmed up. Sometimes, when we are talking, the phone is already too hot to touch, and we reluctantly end the call.
We all feel that a person's life is a bit boring and lonely, and we understand each other and gradually develop a tacit understanding. One day, Fang Qing suddenly made a suggestion: "Otherwise, let's try to be together and become boyfriend and girlfriend." ”
I'm excited because we've both been single for a long time and longing for a supportive partner. So, we officially confirmed our relationship, changed from netizens to online love, and finally came to the point of lovers.
One month after the agreed relationship, Fang Qing proposed to live together in my place for a period of time so that we could meet offline and get to know each other more deeply.
For this special occasion, I went to the beauty salon to make the barber look younger, and at the same time hired a housekeeper to do the cleaning and make sure the room was spotless. I also bought new bed linen, quilt and some toiletries and fruits that Fang Qing liked.
Finally, the appointed day came, and I got up early, put on my best clothes, and drove to the station to pick her up. When I saw her in my sight for the first time, my heart raced and I felt incredibly excited. She wears a lilac dress, fair skin, and a temperament like a young woman in her 40s.
I stepped forward, took her hand, and hugged her gently. She didn't refuse and we went back to my house together. In the evening, we cooked together, and Fang Qing showed her excellent cooking skills and made a few special dishes for me. During the meal, I opened a bottle of red wine, and we chatted about interesting stories from our childhood, shared our life experiences, and looked forward to the future.
She expressed her desire to travel with me around China's famous mountains and rivers, and I also hope to spend my old age with her. That night, we were as loving as newlyweds.
However, on the morning of the third day, when I opened my eyes, I found Fang Qing sitting on the edge of the bed staring at me
In the weeks following the breakup, my life fell into a deep sense of loss. After Fang Qing left, the home became empty, and everything returned to the calm of the past, but this calm no longer satisfied me.
I tried to take my thoughts away from Fang Qing and return to the original trajectory of my life. I refocused on my hobbies and tried to socialize, but there was always a sense of emptiness in my heart, a sense of emptiness that only Fang Qing could fill.
During this time, I also thought a lot about love and marriage. I learned an important truth that love is not just a relationship between two people, it also requires adaptation and compromise. For Fang Qing, her son is an integral part of her life, and for me, my financial situation and lifestyle are also unchangeable. We were so different that we ended up having to give up on each other.
However, although I deeply regret the loss of Fang Qing, I do not regret my decision. I know that if we force ourselves together, it will only make each other unhappy and may even lead to more conflicts and arguments. Breaking up, while painful, is also a mature and wise choice.
As time passed, I began to accept this fact. I returned to my daily life and continued to enjoy the tranquility of retirement. I found myself again, cherished my lonely time more, and understood more about what true love is.
Maybe one day, fate will intertwine me with another person again, but no matter what, I will remember the good times with Fangqing and be grateful for life. Love is sometimes complicated, but it is also beautiful, even in the moment of farewell.
In conclusion, despite the pain of the breakup, I have no regrets. I believe that every relationship has meaning and value, and they are all an integral part of our life journey. I will continue to move forward and cherish every day, because the good in life always appears inadvertently, as long as we are willing to discover and cherish it.