What is death?
It is the end, it is a farewell, it is an irretrievable hand, it is a hand that can no longer be held, a temperature that can no longer be felt, and a cheer that can no longer be spoken.
It was Li Min, who was in his prime of life but died of depression.
The atoms in the universe will not be extinguished, and Li Min's death is also destined to set off terrifying waves again.
01
Walking on the plain, I suddenly encountered a wall that was infinitely high upwards, infinitely deep downwards, infinitely far to the left, and infinitely far to the right.
This is perhaps the most appropriate description of Li Min's life.
Until today, people may not learn that the queen of heaven, who seems to have no worries about food and clothing, and has a great fortune and status, turned out to be a poor person.
Frustrated, distressed, desperate, and struggling are everywhere.
Proud brilliance and Tengda are often difficult to look back at when they are disappointed.
In 1975, a senior intellectual who graduated from Peking University, Li Min's mother experienced the ups and downs of life.
The good news is that although she is not in good health and has just been seriously ill, she is pregnant with her third child.
Li Min's father also graduated from Peking University, and they read books, ate, and listened to rare versions of Beethoven together.
Talking and writing openly together, although the life is not rich, but it can gain deep and lasting strength from each other.
The bad news is that Li Min's father suddenly died of a serious illness a few days before Li Min was born.
"Many people tell my mother, you can't take care of a woman, give up this youngest child."
——Interview with Li Min
Li Min's mother was greatly stimulated, which caused Li Min to be born early and almost lost her life.
Red starts at five o'clock in the morning, and contractions begin at two o'clock in the evening, every five to ten minutes.
At that time, the medical conditions were far less developed than now, and Li Min's mother's uterus mouth was fully opened, and the doctor had already laid down on the delivery bed to find that the child's fetal position was not correct.
Ordinary children born naturally curled up head down, while Li Min was in her mother's belly, not only in the hip position, but also on one foot.
By the time the doctor found out, one of Li Min's legs had already been born.
Is this breech possible spontaneous delivery?
At present, the proportion of spontaneous births with one-legged breech position is about 2%, and it may become lower and lower in the future.
The problem of single-foot dystocia, which could not be solved by modern medicine, was even more difficult to deal with in 1975.
The critical illness notice was issued several times, bleeding a lot, heavy bleeding, the doctor took a stainless steel basin and took more than 400 milliliters, plus the second half of the clothes were all stained red with blood.
The process was very painful, nine deaths.
In this case, there is no way to transfer a caesarean section because the child's feet are already out.
If you don't forcibly pull Li Min out, both of them are in danger, and forcibly pull Li Min out, at least you can quickly rescue the adults.
Weighing the pros and cons, the doctor pulled one of Li Min's feet and pulled the child out.
In general, the survival rate of children is not very high, but Li Min shows amazing flexibility and vitality, crying loudly like a full-term baby.
Li Min's mother was dragged back after the ghost gate closed.
Everyone surrounded Li Min's mother, no one cared about this child who was "father and mother" at birth, and no one found that Li Min's leg was dislocated.
Thigh dislocation generally refers to the dislocation of the junction between the thigh and the waist, because Li Min in infancy could not walk, could not speak, and did not feel obvious pain, so it was ignored.
After the age of one, because he has not sought medical attention in time, resulting in abnormal joint development, it is difficult to treat it in the future.
At the age of 2, Li Min, who was learning to walk, attracted the attention of her family because of abnormal joints, long and short legs, bumpy gait, hip pain and lameness.
Although he was sent to the hospital for surgery, it was hoped that the misaligned joint would be violently chiseled and put in place.
But the operation was not successful, and in order to restore leg function, the doctor used an iron rod through the left heel, pulled the weight with a rope, and hung it at the end of the bed.
02
I still remember how painful it was for the doctor to pass an iron rod through the heel of my left foot.
It felt like the days were passing slowly... I was hospitalized with more than 200 children, and their screams and cries were unforgettable.
It became my nightmare for a long time. ——Interview with Li Min
Tagore's "Birds" has this sentence:
The world has kissed my soul with its pain, asking for its returnin songs。
Translated into Chinese, it means: Life kisses me, and I will sing in return.
Later, Li Min, who followed her mother abroad, grew up, and she was very transparent.
Just like the boss is responsible for his own profits and losses, everyone, as the director of his own life, learns to be responsible for each of his own decisions, and only he will be responsible for himself.
Do not complain, do not complain, face reality, and be brave to be at the helm of life.
I like to laugh and I like to make my mom laugh, and when she laughs, I'm happy.
This is the attitude of Li Min towards himself.
Although her left foot could not use a little force, 18-year-old Li Min chose to take a break from school to debut, during which time she would pray every night that a show would come to her the next morning.
"I beg God to give me just one chance. Give me a chance and I can prove it to you. I really work hard and I really love singing. ”
Sleepy, bumpy, eating the last meal but not the next, people's puzzlement and ridicule did not stop this girl who laughed particularly infectiously.
Eight hours on the train, a person travels between Taipei and Tainan with a make-up case and costume to record at the cheapest time slot in the studio in the middle of the night.
Run a fever? Sick? Exhaustion after the rotation of the body?
It's all small problems, even if her body hurts so much that she trembles, and when the agent asks her if she needs to cancel the event, she shakes her head forever.
Gritting his teeth, he sang and danced for dozens of minutes.
"I'm not going to let that stuff affect me, I think it's giving me a push to make myself stronger and do better."
Li Min said.
Others debuted in order to become famous, and Li Min debuted and took half a life.
Regarding the physical disability and his own hardships, Li Min never mentioned a word, always smiled, and said that he was very happy.
Li Min has become a popular singer, a senior in the music industry who sings and dances well, the first Chinese singer to sing on the Oscar stage, and the first "Chinese Light" selected by Time Magazine.
Li Min's songs "Dao Ma Dan", "Moonlight Lover", "365 Days of Thinking of You", "Good Mood" and so on, every time I listen to it, I have a feeling of pride.
Life is already difficult, Li Min feels that everyone needs a lot of positive songs, so her songs, like her people, have always been to guide everyone to be positive, so that everyone can forget those troubles for a short time.
Perhaps, this is why everyone likes her.
Do not sell miserable, do not engage in disabled consumption, do not sensationalize, do not admit defeat, do not cut the leeks of fans.
It's pretty cool, and it's pretty distressing.
03
Such Li Min is naturally eager for the family.
But at this time, she may not have imagined that marriage has become a calamity that can no longer be escaped in this life, and it is also the culprit that took her life.
In 2003, Li Min met Le Yumin.
At that time, although he was much older than Li Min, he was also a company executive, and he founded Copley with Li Ka-shing's son Li Zekai.
The value of 1 billion and the romantic and considerate character fascinated Li Min.
Li Min is in love, this year she is 28 years old, and Le Yumin is 46 years old.
Even if this rich man in a foreign country has long had a wife, there is an endless stream of easy girls around him.
She was also deeply involved and completely obsessed with this man.
This relationship, Li Min can't wait to tell the world, not only generously admitted in the interview that the two are in love, but also said that his mother also appreciates this "prospective son-in-law".
Le Yumin, who is only half a hundred years old, has completely pinched Li Min, Li Min wants to be stable, but the man still has a wife at that time.
When they were together, everyone knew that her ex-husband had not divorced, and it was said several times on the show.
This is also why the stepdaughter did not like her from beginning to end, because in the stepdaughter's heart, Li Min is the mistress who knows that his father is married but intervenes in "destroying his parents' marriage".
This matter, media person Chen Lingling was frank in the program.
This also solved the first controversy before Li Min's death: why she treated her two stepdaughters as her own, but the two stepdaughters have always been very resistant to her.
It is not difficult to understand that we bring in the identity of the two stepdaughters, although the father often throws flowers and grass outside, but no one can threaten the mother's main palace identity.
Except for Li Min.
In the hearts of the two stepdaughters, people originally lived well with their mothers, and if it were not for you to marry your father, your parents' formal marriage would not have broken down.
If you bring in this point of view, you can understand why Li Min treats his stepdaughter as his own no matter how good he treats his two stepdaughters.
What's more, the mother of the two stepdaughters is still alive, and she is by her daughter's side to take care of her daughter wholeheartedly.
When Li Min met her ex-husband, her stepdaughter was not 20 years old but 17.8 years old, her mother was alive, her father was a billionaire, wearing gold and silver, clothing, food, housing and transportation were the best, there were a bunch of maids and nannies around her, and there was no shortage of material aspects.
In that American environment, do you need this stepmother to treat it as your own? People don't care at all, but instead feel that this stepmother is a destroyer of their family.
What's more, Li Min's treatment as his own does not seem to provide anything to his stepdaughter.
Cosmetics? Clothes? Pocket? Concert tickets? Affection?
Do you think billionaire stepdaughters need it?
RV money, connections, stocks, etc., people themselves have, and it is not rare for Li Min, a later interventionist, to provide three melons and two dates.
As for family affection, these two are even less needed.
As a billionaire, Li Min's ex-husband will try to curry favor with the people around his daughter, because they are the heirs of billionaires.
And there are countless young mothers around Li Min's ex-husband who want to take the position, and each of them wants to start from the two girls.
If you were one of your stepdaughters, would you suddenly accept and identify with Li Min?
04
Li Min is also a person who wants to do the best in everything.
Here comes the second controversial point behind Li Min's death: why Li Min, who has suffered countless setbacks since childhood, suffers from depression.
Yan'er personally feels that "value denial" is the main reason for her suicide.
A woman with good character, hard work from the bottom, and a glamorous resume must have high self-esteem.
But since she began to fall in love, including after entering her marriage later, Li Min has been denied.
Her childhood experience made her regret and obsession with the role of her father, so she came into contact with many young men of the right age in the circle, but finally fell on her ex-husband who was more than a round older than herself.
After starting a relationship, all the values that Li Min had previously created were being denied.
For example, she was successful before, but after the official announcement of her relationship, she was insisted on "knowing three when three", and her character was extremely poor.
For example, everyone liked her before, but after falling in love and getting married, her husband's two daughters did not agree with her overtures, and even maliciously.
And compared with her ex-husband's economy at that time, Li Min was also at a disadvantage.
At that time, Li Min's ex-husband's career had not yet thundered, and Le Yumin had a net worth of 4 billion yuan, a proper invisible rich.
Le Yumin's name alone has about a dozen mansions in Hong Kong, including many worth hundreds of millions.
The mansion with roof in Hong Kong's Shoushan Chen Dao Xiaoying Garden is worth as much as 150 million.
That was a valuation a few years ago, and it may be more than that.
Le Yumin and Sheng Zhiwen founded Colby, which at that time won a large order from the American department store Kohl's and made a lot of money.
In 2000, Le Yumin and Sheng Zhiwen sold the company to Hong Kong's Li & Fung Group, cashing out 2 billion.
Li & Fung Group was founded in 1906 as one of the earliest foreign trading companies in China, and today remains the largest trading, distribution and retail group in China.
Lok Yu Man was highly appreciated by Li & Fung Group Chairman Fung Kwok King at the time, and after the sale of the company, Lok Yu Man joined Li & Fung Group as the company's Chief Executive Officer.
Later, Li & Fung Group was spun off, and Le Yumin became the leader of its Libiao brand. The Feng Guojing brothers are worth about 20 billion Hong Kong dollars on the Forbes wealth list.
And Li Min's money is not worth mentioning in front of her husband.
As an "outsider" whose value is very low, who can be discarded as if he were a stubborn, and who cannot be recognized by her husband and daughter, all of Li Min's values seem to be denied.
The pressure she felt at that time can be imagined.
What's more, Li Min's legs have not been good, and she is disabled.
You will find that many patients have a very bad mentality, in other words, if you have a chronic disease that follows you every day, can you not be uncomfortable?
Therefore, Li Min's choice in this marriage is the degree of myocardial infarction of non-fans.
Li Min ignited the idea of having a son so that he could inherit his ex-husband's huge family business.
Run to learn from Beckham's wife, how can you quickly have a son.
Finally, because he was too old, he missed the best age for childbearing, and he could only take ovulation injections to freeze eggs and increase his pregnancy rate.
Everyone I met said that in the future, I still want to have twins with my husband.
But Li Min's body is different from others, others can retrieve eggs once in 10 days, and she can only retrieve them once in 21 days.
She had 9 ovulation injections.
I was very shocked to see 9 test tubes, and gave a simple science popularization that I didn't know much about, and the passage of each test tube:
1. N times a week to draw blood for gynecological examination
2. Stimulation injection before ovulation, one injection a day, five days, during the period of great physical reaction, it will hurt to get out of bed.
3. Surgical egg retrieval, poor egg quality, one retrieval is not enough, a single test tube may require several operations.
4. Surgical implantation again in one month.
5. If you want to protect the fetus, take an injection in the stomach every day, and some older pregnant women need to be injected from successful implantation to one week before birth.
6. After the test tube fails, drug flow + human flow is required (the IVF doctor will worry that the drug flow is not completely outflow, generally double).
The above process, Li Min did 9 times, miscarried 9 times, and ended in failure.
05
Here, we should solve the third controversy after Li Min's death, when did she start to have depressive tendencies.
Although we don't know exactly when Li Min suffered from depression, after reading all of Li Min's interviews, she came to a conclusion.
It started after falling in love, and depression got worse after marriage.
Li Min disappeared for a long time after falling in love, coupled with the stalemate between Li Min and the company, her exposure was also forced to decrease, almost hidden by snow.
Until now, many people think that it is because Li Min plans to live happily with her billionaire president husband and retire from the entertainment industry.
In fact, because of the severe pressure at that time, Li Min's voice suddenly disappeared completely, and he had to raise an octave before he could speak, just like Zeng Zhiwei.
She went to Rihanna's vocal teacher, but she didn't expect the other party to tell her: "You are not a throat problem, you are a psychological problem." ”
It can be seen from this that Li Min's spirit in this period has collapsed.
Longing for the warmth of family, but making a mess.
Tried his best to marry the so-called true love, but did not get the respect of his stepdaughter, and his husband also cheated on him repeatedly in marriage, resulting in his loss of face.
In order to strengthen their position, starting to conceive but unable to give birth is a very fatal blow for any woman.
In Li Min's objective mainstream cognition, he subconsciously regards such a self as "an incomplete woman", just as everyone thinks that a man who cannot give birth is an "incomplete man".
She walked into a dead end.
Although encouraged by her mother, Li Min put aside her past as a diva, started from scratch, practiced vocal skills with professional teachers, and re-practiced the songs she was familiar with every day.
On a 2019 "You & I" concert tour in Taipei, Li said:
"It's hard for a singer to continue singing to this day, I don't know how long I can keep my voice, but I want to keep singing."
Everyone was deceived by Li Min.
Although I finally decided to leave the quagmire created by my ex-husband and go through the divorce procedures.
Although he returned to the stage in his "battle robe", the iconic smile on his face never disappeared.
However, Li Min's depression worsened, and her weight dropped to a worrying 42.3 kg.
In 2022, Li Min was diagnosed with early breast cancer lesions, in order not to worry her 80-year-old mother, she went to the hospital by herself, and let her sister hide from her mother.
During her surgery, Le Yumin was still drinking with other women, and the two daughters had quietly cancelled their social accounts to draw a line.
In the professional sensitivity of gossip, Yan'er linked these items to investigate: Is there a relationship between "multiple ovulation induction" and "breast cancer"?
The 2016 Code of Practice for the Use of Ovulation Induction Drugs emphasizes that it is uncertain whether ovulation induction drugs increase the risk of tumors in the reproductive system.
However, long-term or high-dose use of stimulation drugs is proposed, and tumor surveillance needs to be strengthened.
As you know, breast cancer is a hormone-sensitive tumor.
A sudden rise in hormone levels in the body during ovulation induction is a risk factor for the development of breast cancer.
Estrogen and high frequency of ovulation induction may increase the risk of breast cancer in infertile and infertile women and promote the development of breast cancer.
The above sentence is inferred from medical theory.
And what about the practical results?
The jury is still out, but a 2019 meta-analysis observed an increasing risk of breast cancer from multiple artificial reproduction (ovulation induction) over 35 years of age.
06
Looking back, in fact, Li Min predicted his death this year.
The new song "TRAGIC" (tragic), released on Valentine's Day 2023, reads:
"Love to death, irreparable relationships, maybe leaving is the best arrangement."
July 2, after lunch, an ordinary looking Sunday. Fans in Li Min's fan base received a voice message from Li Min.
In this 40-second speech, everyone at the time seemed to notice nothing unusual.
As everyone knows, the last sentence of this paragraph: "I hope you are in good health... I miss you guys so much... Love you guys. ", 18 words turned out to be her last words to the world.
The last voice left by a patient who has suffered from depression and has deteriorated rapidly in the world is not an indictment of the world and the disease.
It's about wishing everyone good health and tears.
People who understand depression can actually hear that Li Min's tone of voice at that time was a typical symptom of a depression attack.
The tone is slow, with a shallow cry.
Be ashamed to acknowledge and express your emotions. It could also be suppressing your sadness and using a smile to pretend that everything is fine.
Forcibly suppressing their true emotions not only makes the outside world ignore the abnormalities of patients with smiling depression, but also makes patients themselves underestimate the extent of their condition.
After that, Li Min cut his wrist with a nail scissors in the bathroom alone in an attempt to kill himself, this action should be impulsive, Li Min quickly took the initiative to run out of the bathroom for help.
On the way to the hospital, severe vomiting occurred in the ambulance, which caused her to fall into a coma after suffocating.
"Death by suffocation due to vomit entering the lungs", which is medically called "reflux aspiration", refers to the stomach contents vomited from the stomach, which cannot be smoothly spit out of the mouth like normal people in the case of coma/unconsciousness, but accumulates in the throat.
At this time, it is difficult for the epiglottis to maintain normal reflexes, and the vomit will choke into the trachea...
If there is a lot of vomit and the airway is not cleared in time, it will cause complete airway obstruction, and the person will suffocate within tens of seconds.
The pH of human gastric juice is 0.9-1.5, and once it enters the trachea into the lungs, it will strongly corrode lung tissue and become seriously infected, causing chemical pneumonia
And the reason why Li Min's whole family is still trying their best to rescue Li Min when the doctor has declared Li Min "brain dead".
It is also because in their opinion, Li Min is still waiting for someone.
That is, the husband of Li Min who rushed back from far away - Bruce.
But the problem also appeared in this husband, who had obviously spent a lot of time drinking, although the husband who had been separated for 2 years did not show up.
But the day after Li Min's death, in the name of him and Li Min's sister, he released a text of condolences to Li Min.
He also affectionately called Li Min his "beloved wife", and Li Min's light was immortal.
Here, the problem is big.
During Li Min's lifetime, an insider said that because of the unfortunate marriage, Li Min made a will with more than 1 billion yuan of property under his name, and gave it all to his mother.
However, Yan'er circled the point, although Li Min broke down with her ex-husband and announced that she was going through divorce procedures, the two did not really divorce.
In other words, at the legal level, two people are still husband and wife.
If you look at it at this time, Li Min's ex-husband called Li Min his "beloved wife", which is obviously impure in purpose.
When you are in people, you do not listen to it, throw flowers and grass, people are gone, you regret not being the beginning, and become a saint again?
If you have nothing to offer, you are either a traitor or a thief, why?
It should be to eat Li Min's "human blood steamed buns".
Now that Li Min has passed away, more than 1 billion yuan of property naturally has to be inherited, and she did not divorce her husband before her death, nor did she sign a marriage agreement and property justice before marriage.
Her ex-husband still has the right to inherit the property.
Even if they were preparing for divorce a few months ago, it was still useless without signing, even if Li Min made a will to give all the property to his mother.
But as Li Min's husband and daughter in the legal sense, they have the right to object and appeal.
If they don't get their servants, they will be the ultimate winners of this legacy.
However, for Li Min's mother, her daughter means a lot to her, more important than fame and money.
Even if her ex-husband and three daughters appeal, she will presumably protect her daughter's assets and will not give her daughter's hard-earned money to the culprit.
In this matter, we can still squat for a wave of follow-up.
The end of life is only a death, the meaning of death is only rebirth or eternal sleep, death is not the loss of life, but out of time. ——Yu Hua, "Alive"