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I am Wang Yonghong, 61 years old, from Suzhou, Anhui Province, who worked as a nurse for decades before retiring.
When I was young, I dreamed of retirement, either helping my children with my grandchildren and living a busy life around my knees. Or travel with three or five old friends to enjoy the beautiful scenery and great rivers and mountains.
But now, I am alone, my husband has been lost by me, and my own son does not treat me.
Every day I am alone in this room, and life is really lonely and helpless.
If there is a regret medicine in this world for sale, I am willing to give everything I have to buy it and eat it.
But how can there be this medicine in the world, I have become an eternal hatred, which can be described as a wrong step.
It's like falling off a cliff with one foot in the air, and even if you don't die, you will fall to pieces.
Looking back, I really hate myself when I was young, I don't know how to cherish the people around me, I play honest people as monkeys, and I think that the so-called romance is love...
02
I was born into a family of doctors, and my parents were doctors in big hospitals. After my mother gave birth, I could never conceive again, and I became a scarce only child in the 60s.
Because my family is rich, I am an only child, my parents spoiled me, I want the moon, my father hates to take it off for me.
The pampering of my parents raised me very willfully, I can do whatever I want, and my parents can't control me. I have to get what I want, or I'll mess with my parents.
I was very playful and didn't like to study, because I was beautiful and beautiful, and there were some punks chasing me in school since junior high school, and I fought with them hotly.
By high school, my poor grades had even given up on me. Every day I go to school to hang out with the poor students and fall in love with them.
Naturally, I couldn't pass the exam, and I suddenly lost interest in the punks and became a cult of the top students.
My mother's unit has an aunt's son, Zhang Jianming, who is a high school classmate with me, but he is a top student in the key class.
He was admitted to Tsinghua that year, and I wanted to fall in love with him.
03
At that time, 2 of our students were admitted to Tsinghua, which became the pride of the school and made me notice him.
Zhang Jianming was originally unpretentious and introverted, and in the pile of students in our high school, he was not noticeable at all.
But because he was admitted to Tsinghua, his image grew high in my eyes. I don't care that he is less than 170 tall, his fat face is full of acne pits, and he blushes when he sees girls...
My parents paid me to attend the local health school, and during the first winter vacation, I took the initiative to run to his house to find him, and his nervous hands had nowhere to put them, and he didn't dare to look at me with a red face.
But the more shy he was, the more he attracted me. I told my mother that I wanted to marry Zhang Jianming. My parents also think that I have a good vision and feel that Jianming has a great future.
Because my mother is the leader of Jianming's mother, and my family conditions are good, I look good, my mother didn't have much trouble, Jianming's mother asked someone to come to my house to ask for a kiss.
I have been in love with Jianming for more than 3 years, although he is boring and does not understand romance, he is knowledgeable, intelligent and intelligent, which makes me fall in love with him.
As soon as Jianming graduated from university, we got married, and I didn't expect my tragedy to begin.
04
In order to better develop my career, Jianming stayed in Beijing to work after graduation, and I was arranged by my parents to work as a nurse in their hospital.
When we were young, it was difficult to transfer jobs, and the transportation was not as convenient as it is today, and Jianming came back up to 2 times a year, each time taking a week off.
We have been separated for many years, and we have never had children.
Jianming is a very stuffy person, usually does not write to me often, can't remember my birthday, our wedding anniversary... It's even more impossible to buy me gifts on these important days.
When he came back from vacation, he was just bored at home reading, at most buying vegetables and cooking, and he couldn't even think of taking the initiative to buy a movie ticket to invite me to watch a movie, and he couldn't dance and sing.
Jianming never said affectionate things to me, and sometimes I felt like he was a stranger.
In the days when Jianming was not at home, in order to drive away loneliness, I was often with my classmate Xiaoqing, who was also my best friend from Wei School.
Xiaoqing has a cheerful personality, and is very affinity. But because she was too fat to find a partner, we often fooled around together.
Unexpectedly, I would end up in Xiaoqing's hands.
05
Xiaoqing went ballroom dancing in order to find a partner and wanted to lose weight, and I also learned to dance with her.
Because I have outstanding looks and figure, I have become a sought-after dance partner for men on the dance floor. Jumping down one night, I was often so tired that I gasped.
And Xiaoqing often makes wall flowers, and no one dares to take a heavyweight girl like her to dance.
Xiaoqing began to whisper me, reminding me that I was a married woman, telling me to dance less with men who looked flowy, saying that I hugged men every day, and Jianming knew that I would be jealous...
But I was already obsessed with dancing and was unaware of Xiaoqing's mood changes. Especially Lao Liu, who is recognized as the most handsome man in the dance hall, we are very comfortable to partner with.
Lao Liu not only danced well, but also had a sweet mouth, and every time he saw me, he praised me to the fullest. In Lao Liu's eyes, I am a beautiful flower with buds waiting to be released.
Jianming never praised me like this, gradually I was fascinated by Lao Liu, I took him back to my house, we had a relationship, Lao Liu brought me happiness, which Jianming never gave me.
Just when I was indulging in Lao Liu's gentle township, Jianming returned from vacation.
06
Jianming seems to know something, and this time he came back very actively, but I was a little disgusted with him.
I looked forward to Jianming going back after his vacation, but I didn't see Lao Liu for a week, and my heart was hungry and thirsty, as it was as difficult as it had been for centuries, and I missed him very much.
On the night Jianming returned to Beijing, Lao Liu came to my house. I don't know who leaked the wind, just when I was entangled with Lao Liu, Lao Liu's wife smashed the door with a few big men.
She pulled my hair, dragged me out of bed to the ground, rode on me and grabbed and beat me, I didn't have a chance to fight back, I was beaten to the head and bleeding...
At this time, Jianming also appeared in front of me, I was simply self-contained to the extreme, how to explain it was useless, and the next day I signed a divorce with Jianming.
I thought that I had suffered such a big grievance for love and was abandoned by my husband, and Lao Liu would feel sorry for me and divorce his wife and marry me.
But I was too naïve, after that day Lao Liu disappeared from my life, and for 2 months, I could no longer contact him.
At this time, I was pregnant.
07
To be honest, I don't know who this kid is, but subconsciously I think it's Jianming. When I called Jianming, he didn't answer, and he didn't reply to my letters.
When I was about to go to Beijing to find him, I learned that my best friend Xiaoqing was getting married, and then I remembered that we had not been in touch for a long time.
Xiaoqing didn't invite me to the wedding, I inquired about the hotel where she got married, and went directly to the wedding site that day, which made me almost cry and faint.
Xiaoqing's groom turned out to be Jianming, when did they get together? Remembering that Jianming left the night and suddenly came back, the old Liu's wife broke into the door... I seem to understand something.
It is said that fire, theft and girlfriends, why am I so stupid? I decided to take revenge.
When they were about to exchange rings on stage, I desperately ran up, hugged Jianming's neck and kissed him, and shouted that I was pregnant with his child.
I was dragged out of the hotel by Xiaoqing's three older brothers, who threatened me with what they would do to me if I dared to disrupt their sister's wedding again.
Sitting on the steps outside the hotel, I felt that God played a big joke on me, I couldn't swallow this breath, I had to give birth to children, I couldn't afford them like this.
To be continued!
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