15 years ago, a "Legend of the Paladin Sword" became popular and swept a ratings frenzy.
I thought that this would be the starting point of the Xian Xia drama, but I did not expect it to become the end.
Nowadays, this fairy tale drama has long become the youth memory of countless people, leaving a name for film and television classics.
And whenever the music in this play sounds, it immediately brings us back to that time and thinks about it.
There is a song that has an inexplicable sadness that penetrates time and the heart.
Almost no one has not heard of it, and after listening to it, there are mixed feelings and thousands of thoughts.
It's the classic "Always Quiet.".
Asan, who sang this song, has been away from us for 11 years, and whenever I hear this song, I think of her.
Singer Asan's life was ill-fated, short and full of light.
Do you remember this "healing singer" who has sung countless people?
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" >01 born sensitive and sad</h1>
Asan was born in 1975 in Yunlin County, Taiwan, and his original name was Huang Huixuan.
Asan's family was poor and fragmented.
What makes her even more sad is that her parents' marriage is very incompatible.
She quarreled over various things every day, and by the time she reached the sixth grade of elementary school, her parents were completely divorced.
Therefore, her life situation is like in the song, sad and sad, full of death.
After his parents divorced, Asan became an orphan like a parent without parents.
After his parents divorced, he entrusted Asan to his aunt to make a living in order to avoid debts.
The unfortunate childhood made Asan self-reliant and extremely sensitive from an early age.
In order to reduce the burden of her aunt's life, the sensible Asan began to use his spare time to work differently to earn money and supplement the family.
For example, I have done chocolate paper packaging, folded plastic flowers, and have also been to the electronics factory to install parts....
Anyway, as long as it is a job she can do, she will try it all.
As the old saying goes, the children of poor families have long been in charge, and Asan has already planted a dream in his heart to get ahead.
The pain of the original family makes Asan often pin all his pain on music, and he is obsessed with it.
She was born sad and sensitive, and assang, who was born to love singing, studied in the Nanqiang Industrial and Commercial Film and Television Department. (This school has produced many stars, such as Huo Jianhua, Chen Derong, Pan Meichen)
At this time, Asan has been working and studying half-time, and his life is as difficult as studying.
After graduation, Asan was admitted to the art team with his hard work.
Staying here is 5 years, in order to survive and make money, and what chores and hard work are done.
After leaving the art team, Asan formed a band with some like-minded friends and went to the bar every day to sing and earn money.
The bar sings, one is for dreams, and more for livelihood.
This suffering girl finally began to receive heaven's favor for the first time.
She was favored by veteran musician Wang Yiping in the bar and became her Bole.
Asan's path to fame was finally gradually opened.
<h1 class= "pgc-h-arrow-right" >02 years of suffering, 28 years old "advanced age" debut </h1>
Asan was born with a good voice, but needs professional musical training to make a difference.
So Wang Yiping served as her mentor and let her practice singing for a year.
Under the strict requirements of the teacher, Asan's singing skills have improved by leaps and bounds.
It was decided to try to record a demo of her and send it to the record company to try to knock on the singer's door.
But fate always seems to love to temper this scarred girl.
Wang Yiping recorded 6 songs for Asan for the first time, all of which are superior works.
When the company first intended to sign her, Asan voluntarily pushed away the invitations of other companies.
Unexpectedly, the record company later said that "I want to sing and refuse to sign a contract."
Later, due to the decline of the record company, the album was rejected for recording.
There is a classic song in it, which is "Far Away and Fly High" sung by Lin Yilian later.
Asan, who did not give up, won the contract for the second time, but he did not even enter the recording studio, because the company had begun to make no money.
After two failures, Asan was disappointed and lonely, and the teacher Wang Yiping loved Caicai and felt wronged for her.
So she recorded 10 demo demos, and this time she finally signed a contract and could record songs, and Asan finally saw the dawn of dawn.
But unexpectedly, Heaven made a helpless joke with her again.
She was about to finish recording the album when a sudden typhoon caused a flood and the studio was flooded.
All the mastering and samples were also drowned.
After countless days and nights of hard work, all of them were in vain in an instant and returned to the starting point.
The successive blows made Asan disheartened and full of despair.
So I had to go around again to work to earn money in order to make a living, and continue to wait for the opportunity.
After that, she went to a black tea shop to sell tea, went to a law firm as a telephone operator, and went to a department store as an broadcast customer service.
And this stay is four or five years.
If it was someone else, she might have given up, but she didn't.
In the past few years of working to make money, my brain still thinks of making an album, and still silently strives and prepares for it.
Fortunately, heaven finally began to pity this dream man who had gone through twists and turns.
In 2003, Asan's dream finally blossomed into green leaves and fluttered in the wind.
She sang a ending song in the urban idol drama "Rose Love", and suddenly came to the fore.
This song is the classic "Leaves".
The hoarse magnetic voice, coupled with the piercing lyrics, has healed the heartbreaks of countless urban youth.
The name "Asan" became a symbol of "healing" overnight.
It also makes people remember this classic lyric forever:
"Loneliness is the carnival of one person, and carnival is the loneliness of a group of people."
Loneliness is a one-man
Carnival is the loneliness of a group of people
I ate alone and traveled
Stop and go everywhere
Also a person reading a book and writing a letter
Talk to each other on your own
It's just that the heart has drifted somewhere again
I can't even see it for myself
After waiting for many years, Asan was signed by Huayan Records and officially debuted as a singer.
On this road, she has walked through the long loneliness that is difficult to say in her life.
This year, she was 28 years old, and she was considered to be a "senior" debut in the entertainment industry.
She said: "Life is not so satisfactory, and there is a chance to succeed when you do it." ”
And she survived the opportunity.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" >03 two albums that make people sad to this day</h1>
Asan, who became famous, has been appreciated and loved by countless people.
Wu Zongxian directly bought the copyright of this song and loved it.
That same year, Asan finally released his dream debut album, "A Little Hurt".
It contains a whole ten songs.
"Let Me Love", "Hurt a Little", "Gentle Mercy", "If I Love You Only This Time".... and other classic songs.
Among them, "Leaves" deliberately added an autumn version.
Added another poignancy to the song.
The definition of this album given by the record company is: "This is a sad album".
At the same time, it also tells the helplessness and bitterness that Asan has suffered for many years for his dreams.
For this album, Asan was nominated for the Best Newcomer Award at the 15th Golden Melody Awards.
And the peak that belongs to her is quietly opening.
In 2005, Asan released his second album, Lonely Singing.
The album is also full of sad background, which has made Asan known as the title of "healing singer".
There are two songs that express this sadness to the point where no one has touched it.
One is "Loneliness Singing":
Gently fierce
The singing is so cruel
People can't help but shed tears
You listen to loneliness singing
Gentle crazy
The grief is getting deeper and deeper
How can I make it stop?
The other is "Always Quiet" written by Fang Wenshan.
This song later became an episode of "The Legend of the Paladin Sword", which directly became popular and became a classic.
The love given to you has been quiet
Come in exchange for the care you occasionally give
Obviously, it is a movie of three people
I can't always have a name
Unfortunately, this classic album has not sold well compared to the first album.
Asan has also been in the embarrassing situation of not being popular, the reason is also too low-key and quiet.
At this time, Asan also happened to have a full contract with Huayan Records, so he did not consider renewing his contract.
Who would have thought that this would become the last album of her life.
The dreams of life often begin, and they are hurriedly ended by a ruthless fate.
In 2006, in order to make a breakthrough, Asan turned to the mainland to seek development.
He participated in the singing program "Fame Shock" of Hunan Satellite TV, but his results were very unsatisfactory, and he did not even rank.
Asan, who once again encountered a bottleneck in his career, did not expect to soon usher in a nightmare in his life.
<h1 class= "pgc-h-arrow-right" >04 "There is no loneliness singing in the world" </h1>
In 2007, Asan was diagnosed with lymphoma, and it took only 4 years from his debut to cancer.
In order to fight the disease, Asan had to stop all his work.
Asan didn't have too many close friends and didn't want to tell them, and she endured all her grief in silence.
In order not to involve her boyfriend at the time, she took the initiative to break up.
Asan has had three relationships, the first two of which ended in injuries.
And this time, she didn't want to see her boyfriend hurt for her.
Asan once said:
"I am a person who is afraid of trouble, so I am used to seeking perfection in grievances, for fear of bringing trouble to others and becoming trouble for others."
But at this time, the boyfriend is inseparable from her and tries to persuade her to actively treat.
During the time of serious illness, her boyfriend has always been by her side and has become the last warmth in her life.
Zhang Zhicheng, a good friend, once said: "Her biggest goal in life is to find happiness." ”
In 2008, the two had the idea of getting married.
Her boyfriend was desperate to prepare wedding plans for her.
But Asan's life is destined to be tragic, and fate still gives her an unfair blow at the end.
When people are hoping that she will get better soon, continue to sing, and embrace happiness.
On the morning of April 7, 2009, Asan was diagnosed with advanced breast cancer due to the deterioration of lymphoma, and eventually died of illness.
On this day, the "leaves" drifted with the wind, and they were only 34 years old.
And the happiness she had been longing for before she was born had become a regret that could only be continued in the next life.
Asan's untimely death has made countless fans sad and regretful.
Later someone said, "Before Asan, loneliness was just loneliness; after Asan, loneliness was Asan." ”
Before she died, she described her loneliness this way:
"I often feel lonely alone. But I rarely see anyone like me, bravely admitting that I am lonely.
In fact, no matter how happy people are, they can't hide from the emptiness eroded by loneliness, and I hope that everyone can be honest about their loneliness.
Listen to my songs when you are lonely, and you will find that you are not alone.
I hope everyone can live strong and beautiful. ”
Asan's life is indeed full of loneliness and sadness, and she is like the embodiment of "sadness".
From the misfortune of a young family to the twists and turns of 28 years before debuting, 34 years old died young, just 6 years, only two albums were released in his life.
And the two albums have also become immortal classics in her life, forever shining, becoming a masterpiece.
She was warm as light at the same time.
As she put it: "I want everyone to live strong and beautiful." ”
Now 11 years later, the fans' love for her has always been quiet and sad, often silently humming that lonely melody in her heart.
Just this quietness will always make sadness invade involuntarily, and regret and thoughts will arise suddenly.
Listening to those classic songs now, I can only sigh: "There is no loneliness in the world singing." ”