Why exactly is there such an animal to live in!
On the 5th of this month, South Korea's SBS "Curious Story Y" broadcast "Three siblings were abused by the pastor's father and stepmother".
Because of the length of the program, only part of the perpetrator's crimes can be exposed in the program, so the protagonist of the incident, victim A, recently wrote about his and his brothers' victimization experience in a famous forum, in order to comfort the spirit of the dead second brother in heaven, calling for the abolition of the statute of limitations for child abuse to death.
The following is A's self-statement, very long and shocking...
The content is disgusting, warning
Hello everyone, I am the mother of the child who raised this 15-month-old baby girl in Seoul, born in 1993, 31 years old, ordinary appearance.
I was a very serious victim of child abuse and was trapped in that experience until now, living as a victim. There is no evidence and the statute of limitations has expired (the statute of limitations for child abuse is seven years after the child has reached adulthood). When I was 27, their crimes ended with the statute of limitations. But if I only buried these things in my heart, I would never be able to live normally, so I decided to tell it in words.
Born into an ordinary family, I suddenly fell into hellish abuse one day.
I am the youngest daughter of two boys and one woman in a pastor's family, with two older brothers who are 4 and 3 years apart. His father, who served as the deputy pastor of Chuncheon 00 Church, was a church saint at the time, but he had an affair with a **** deacon who was married and had two children, and the tragedy began ever since.
My father took our three siblings to the woman's apartment regardless of his pastoral status, brazenly engaged in an affair, and the husband of the adulteress *** deacon was very violent, so she took my gentle and considerate pastor father away from my mother. Eventually, my mother was forced into divorce amid the whispers of the congregation, and three children were taken away.
What if he had given up our three siblings to my mother to raise? Even though I'm in my 30s, I'm still imagining it every day. I don't know if it was because I thought we were a normal pastor family, or because I was worried that the father who exercised the right to visit our mother would see my mother again and destroy their relationship if our custody was in my mother's hands, or because I was worried about my mother's financial ability, so we were dragged into hell despite our wishes as children, and my two brothers and my lives were completely changed.
Because they were labeled as having an extramarital affair, they could no longer work in the church in the Gangwon Province area, so my father fled with his adulterous stepmother and the three of us to a remote seaside village church in Seosan, Chungcheong-do, where he stayed for more than 13 years after the divorce. With an extramarital affair for 1 year, a rural area of Chungcheong-do for 13 years, and Asan for 3 years, I have lived in abuse that cannot be expressed in words for more than half of my life.
From now on, instead of writing at length, I will list what happened to me. The following is the abuse we suffered in my memory, my brother's memory, and my church sister's description of the abuse we suffered when I was forcibly moved to Seosan in Chungcheongnam-do in 1996 and until I finally escaped hell in 2013 at the age of 21.
1. The filth that was expelled from my body returned to my mouth
【Eat】
I remember 2 times. Between the ages of 5 and 7, I was once kicked out of the house to eat and live at the door, and because I wanted to defecate, I begged my stepmother to let me go to the bathroom, but my stepmother asked me to pull it directly under my clothes, and then took off my pants and ate it. At that time, they did not dare to resist, so they all ate it. After a while, my stepmother often gave me orange, gave me spoons to eat while pulling, and she would always see the end.
【Drinking urine】
I peed in the bucket and my stepmother asked me to finish it.
[Let my brother drink the dirt squeezed out of his underwear]
The older brother dropped out of school before going to the United States, was locked in a room, could not go to the bathroom, and could only excrete on his underwear. They asked my brother to take off his pants, and then I squeezed his underwear, and my brother knelt on the ground and drank the dirt that had been squeezed out. I have lost my memory of this incident, and it was my church sister who saw this scene who told me, "It's so shocking, I can't forget it for the rest of my life", and then talked to my brother about the situation.
[Eat food that has gone bad, and if you spit it out, you will eat it again]
During the time I ate and stayed in the entrance, I vomited at the place where I took off my shoes, so I grabbed it with my hand and finished it.
【Eat spoiled food at any time】
The food that the believers brought did not like to eat, the food that had been left for a long time, and the food that had been rancid belonged to me, and I ate it all day; When I was locked up in the room, I hid the food because I didn't want to eat the broken food, but when I was later found, I still ate the rancid food; The pears that have rotted out of the water should be eaten together, and the paper wrapped in the pears should also be eaten.
【Licking dog bowl】
There were a couple of dogs in the backyard of the church, and they asked me to wash the dog's rice bowl, and before washing it, I had to lick the bowl with my tongue before I started washing.
【Lick the sewer filter】
Although it sounds like it is made up, it will be licked first when brushing the filter.
【Pick up insects to eat】
There are many bugs called rat women around the church, and because it is also my job to pull weeds for the church yard, I can pick up the bugs and eat them when I see them. At Sunday school (children's little church), ** is also described as a bug for them to pick up and eat.
【Garlic torture】
When the garlic season came, the believers sent a lot of garlic, so we peeled the garlic all day and let us eat all the garlic until our mouths were swollen. My brother has a psychological shadow because of this, and he doesn't eat garlic until now.
【Eat fatty meat eaten by dogs】
I didn't let anyone say that when I was thin, I would cook fat for me to eat, and now that I think about it, those fat meats should be sold by butchers for free, usually for dogs.
【Dust on the door frame】
They made me eat dust on door frames, bug carcasses, hair, etc.
【Water for dirty towels】
After washing the dirty towel, let me open my mouth and squeeze the water out of the dirty towel for me to catch and drink.
2. Physical torture
[Imprisonment, binding]
According to my brother's recollection, I began to be abused when I was only 36 months old. Shut me up in the attic, don't let me go to the bathroom, urinate and urinate in my pants. I will be beaten if I have feces and urine, but 36 months is just the age to learn to take off diapers and go to the bathroom. Older, when he was 6 years old and in the lower grades of elementary school, his hands were wrapped in duct tape and he was locked up in a traditional bathroom for several days. I remember the stepmother's mother-in-law who occasionally came would put potatoes on my tied hands, and I would gobble them up with my tied hands. The stepmother is mentally ill, and her mother-in-law can't control it.
【Torture】
When beaten, often waterboarding, continuous splashing of water on the face is the most basic, tied up the hair and dipped the face in the toilet, and then pressed the toilet button, the whole head is in the toilet water. In the lower grades of elementary school, they would take a dozen church children to camp in Gangneung, my stepmother's house, knowing that I was afraid of water because I thought it was frequent waterboarding, but they would deliberately let the church children get me into the sea. The two of them carried my arms and legs and played with the water and threw me into the sea many times, and my stepmother always looked at me and smiled and said, "Why do you want that?"
【Bang your head against the wall】
Grabbing your hair and banging your head against the wall.
【Slap】
Hit until you have a nosebleed, and you will continue to hit even if you bleed.
【Kicking people with leather shoes】
Wearing leather shoes and kicking in the stomach, he kicked very hard, and was asked to stand up immediately when he fell down, so he was kicked all the time. Of all the torture I have experienced, it was the most painful. At that time, when I was young, I thought about kicking my stomach like this, and when I grew up, I should not even be able to give birth to children.
【Hit the head with a stick】
Knock on the head with a wooden stick until the blood does not stop, then apply Magas scar ointment and send it to school. Several of the scars on my head were made by my stepmother wielding a wooden stick.
【Standing looking at the sun】
On the grounds of the whiteness of our faces, let's completely raise our heads and look at the sun and stand, tears keep flowing, our eyes cannot be opened, we must stand like that.
[Deliberately make the appearance ugly]
Although this is not as good as the other abuses I experienced, I still remember it so I wrote it down. My eyelashes have been long and dense since I was a child, and they have cut my eyelashes many times, and my hair is always cut randomly with scissors, as if it has been gnawed by a mouse. I was like a boy with short, unmanaged crooked hair. When I was an adolescent junior high school, I never took me to a beauty room, and the school uniform was inherited from the children of a believer who graduated 15 years ago, and I have been wearing old clothes for three years. Because I was short and had a long skirt, I had to fold the hem of my skirt, and the day I was discovered, I was taken away by the hair and beaten.
[Daily violence]
For no reason, or even a reason to create a bad word, beatings are commonplace. It turned out that they used it as a tool to beat people when they saw anything, but one day the family got some wooden hangers, and began to use these wooden hangers that would not be broken easily, because they were beaten too many times, and after a few months, all the wooden hangers were broken. Our biological father would also beat us, and let 000, who was most loyal to the church at the time and was manipulated by his stepmother's gas lamp. It is difficult for biological fathers to meet except during worship hours and firewood time, and violence is even worse when fathers are not at home.
3. All kinds of labor
【Collecting firewood】
At that time, the church was using a boiler, and I had to collect some of the firewood for the boiler. Around 6 a.m. I would go up the mountain to cut down trees, and at 6 a.m. in winter, it was dark, and I had to go down before going to school.
【Clean up dog poop with bare hands】
The steaming just pulled by the dog in the yard let me pick it up with my bare hands.
【Labor Exploitation and Indulgence】
In the countryside church laundry, cooking, washing dishes, cleaning, washing diapers for half-brothers and other household chores, cleaning church chapels, pulling yard grass, picking stones and other household chores are routine. He was sent to work at 000 Honsha. Once I cut grass with a sickle in that paddy field all day, where I could eat bread and drink milk, sleep in an empty house nearby, and then continue to work in the morning, and so on for several days, but after being seen by the owner next to it, word spread in the village, and for a time there was a uproar.
【Into the Goat Pen】
There was a black goat in the church yard, so I was asked to enter the goat pen, which was persuaded by 000, but this person was not mentally ill like his stepmother, so he only let it in for a while and released it, which was very impressive.
4. Killing
I remember that in the summer of 1999, my second brother was abused to death by his father and stepmother. I was only 7 years old at the time and my memory was blurry. When my second brother died, I didn't know why I was locked up in a dark and blocked box, and I could only hear sounds.
Because they didn't show everyone the letter to their parents, my father and stepmother beat my brother mercilessly all day, and I didn't let me drink water all day, leaving me hungry. I heard that my stepmother's mother-in-law put a few plums in our room, and the second brother, who was very hungry, gobbled up the plums, and then was stuck by the plums and had difficulty breathing, and kept humming with saliva. The eldest brother knocked on the locked door outside, saying that the second brother was strange, please save the second brother.
Because the second brother was beaten all day and his body was bruised, if he was sent away like this, some people would definitely be suspicious, so they decided not to send the second brother to the hospital. During this period, my father and stepmother underwent acupuncture, fire pot, moxibustion and other traditional Chinese medicine methods, and the results were more serious. Moxibustion for a child who can't breathe? As a result, the second brother went to heaven.
It is said that it was easier to disguise Dr. Pei after announcing his death at that time, and if it were now, he would definitely be in the news and go to jail. After the death of the second brother, in order to declare his death, they took the second brother to the hospital, and after the funeral service in the church, they put on makeup for him.
They said that the 1 million won help money received at the funeral was missing, so they asked me and my eldest brother to back the black pot, saying that they would beat my eldest brother until they confessed. For money, he did not even give an umbrella in the downpour, driving the eldest brother away.
Now think about it, isn't it the stepmother who took the money? 7 years old, 12 years old... Will the children who just lost their brother and younger brother still want to steal 1 million won? I kept beating like that, and I was tortured in various ways, saying that we stole 1 million won. We didn't even get a 1,000-won pocket money at that time.
5. Emotional abuse and various false accusations
【Thief, liar】
I have never stolen money, but whenever the money is gone (I don't know if it's really gone) I suspect us, and if I say I didn't steal, I will be beaten until I admit to stealing, but then I will become a liar, or I will continue to be beaten.
【Sex with my own brother】
I don't know what I'm thinking, but there is still such a false accusation. My brother, who was so uninterested in this aspect because he was so busy surviving because he was abused, was choreographed together to say that we had a consanguineous relationship. It had never been like this, but since I moved with them to Seosan, Chungcheongnam-do, I became a child who had sex with my brother until we admitted it in person, and I would be beaten if I didn't.
Then they would say to us, "Do as you say," and then let us have sex naked. We didn't know what to do when we were young, so my stepmother let my brother lie on top of me. I was also asked to put my hand into my reproductive organs, and I didn't know how to do it, so I extended my finger in the direction of the urethra until I inserted four fingers. I didn't know about sexual relations and childbearing until college, but my stepmother framed our children who weren't in school for doing this, saying that we were raped and masturbated by close relatives.
Not only us, but also 000 counselors and stepmothers also engaged in the same sexual abuse, which would make them lie in the car with their legs open and hit the genital part with a stick.
【Forced diary】
Force us to write in a diary about stealing, lying, sex, and then show it everywhere, threatening us to show them the diary when we grow up and bring back the people we like, telling them that we are garbage and will we marry us? There were other pastors and ladies who believed it, and were deceived by their stepmother's brilliant eloquence.
【Biological mother's phone】
I always asked my birth mother if she had called the school, and I answered the phone several times, but I never received a call from my biological mother. Because they separated at the age of 3, I don't even remember my biological mother's face, and I haven't heard a voice once. As soon as she said no, she asked me why I lied, then tortured me, and chased me to the school to torture the teacher. Because of my stepmother's domineering, I didn't go to school for months in the second grade of elementary school, and the school teacher was in pain because of the crazy women who came to school every day.
[Threatening to say that he had been sexually harassed]
Is this something that normal people can make up? One day, she asked me if Uncle Postman had taken me to the toilet and touched my body, and I said no, so I kept asking until I admitted that I had become a liar, and Uncle Postman had become a bad guy without any mistakes. Aren't ordinary people going to call the police when they hear this kind of thing? She said it everywhere when she encountered this kind of thing? And then it pulled down.
She also asked me if a man in my congregation had also bullied me, and I had to answer yes, and when 000 came here, the man's wife asked me if it was true, and I said no, and the matter was over. Why didn't the man's wife question the matter? Why should I lie? Why did the pastor's wife spread rumors?
At the same time, the village uncle was also involved, spreading rumors everywhere that he had sex with the young me. The church yard stopped a car that I didn't know, and said that the person had sex with me, and the whole village was saying... Rumors are spreading.
[Insult to biological mother]
My stepmother said that my father was a prophet, and my brothers and I were born by cheating on our biological mother, so we should not call our father father, nor should we call our stepmother mother. Obviously, my eldest brother looks exactly like my father, everyone knows that he is the son of Pastor 000, and I also look a lot like my biological father, she is just to insult my biological mother.
6. Verbal violence
"Your father is African, your mother is a prostitute", "Bad thing", "Madman", "Devil cub", "What the devil is doing, not to take children like you", "You are the nanny of this family"... These are the words that I already hear the cocoon.
Finally, my parents got married under the introduction of my grandmother, and eventually ended the marriage because of my father's affair. The year after the death of the second brother, the father and stepmother gave birth to their biological children, and the eldest brother was sent to the United States to be an adopted son for the eldest uncle, but after the uncle gave birth to a son, the eldest brother was sent away for adoption, and was sent back to South Korea at the age of 14, and was imprisoned in a small room with poor light for a year and a half, unable to cut hair, eat well, or wash, and it is better to live an inhuman life in the United States and here.
Because he could not imprison his eldest brother for the rest of his life, he was later thrown into a factory run by his father's friend, and went to church nursery, street benches, saunas, and suffered every day, but he still passed the exam strongly to obtain a diploma from elementary school, junior high school, and high school, and now he has also met a good wife, has three children, and lives an honest father life. He was tired of reminiscing about the past, so he was completely reluctant to reminisce about that time.
I was the longest of the three siblings who lived with my father and stepmother, and after my eldest brother was abandoned, I found my biological mother and asked her to save me from hell. With the help of my biological mother, I eventually escaped.
Although he wanted to sue them immediately after fleeing, he gave up the prosecution because of his pleas and the thought of his half-brother, who was still very young at the time. Since then, I have spent 10 years busy with livelihood, and after marriage, I have been busy with pregnancy, childbirth, and childcare, but every day I will recall the abuse of the abuse, not a single day of sleeping well, and I have been traumatized.
Watching my daughter's rapid growth, I felt that human beings are such a cute and precious existence, but why was my brothers and I so miserable when we were children? Why did my stepmother abuse me so mercilessly? My stepmother has already given birth to two children, and in her later years, why did she treat me like that? Hearing the news that they were still wearing masks and living the life of priests with dignity made me angry.
Thank you for taking the time to read my word-by-word survival story. So far this is all what happened to me, I am willing to block my life, and I can also block everything about my daughter who is more precious than mine, I swear it is all true!
Come to an end
This is a fairly long and detailed indictment, and my hands are cramping just by typing... But it is precisely because of this that the horror of A's suffering, we just see these words is painful enough, how did she persist for so many years?
I hope that A will get what he wants, good will be rewarded with good, and evil will be rewarded with evil!