These days, Gigi is paying attention to a Weibo that no one cares about.
In the past, the Chinese diva finally opened a personal live broadcast.
But her state was worrying, her eyes were scattered, she was delirious, and she was no longer what she used to be.
What's even more lamentable is that the entire live broadcast was simply ignored, and the number of viewers was so dismal that you dare not imagine.
Only more than 30 people.
What a concept, the number of people in our class who sang her songs at that time was more than 30.
Among other things, a song "Sunshine is Always After the Wind and Rain" has allowed countless people to see the rainbow of life again.
The singer of the song, but Xu Meijing, who was praised as "Xianyin"!
In the 90s of the last century, young girls were red, she wanted the wind to be windy, and she wanted to be rainy.
Li Zongsheng, the eldest brother in the music industry, heard her voice and begged her to sign a contract.
After his debut, he competed with Faye Wong, Lin Yilian and other diva, and songs such as "Moonlight in the City" and "Regret" were known to everyone from their parents to primary and secondary school students.
But 20 years later, she was driven crazy.
After a live broadcast that only more than 30 people watched, Xu Meijing immediately cancelled her account and disappeared again.
In fact, this is not the first time she has made people feel emotional.
Three years ago, some netizens met her in Singapore and sold art on the street.
There was a piece of cardboard next to her that her family and agent had transferred her property and conspired to take her to the hospital.
Forced to do so, she severed ties with her family and came out to sell songs.
After that, there were more rumors of her living on the streets, and her mental state became more and more worrying.
At this time, it is even more regrettable to contact the first half of the legendary and crazy life of this generation of divas.
In 1992, 18-year-old Hui Meijing participated in a Miss Chinese pageant in Singapore and won the Most Photogenic Miss Award.
But born with a good singing voice, she ran to participate in the singing competition and was immediately signed by the record company.
In 1994, Xu Meijing released her first album "Ming Know", the cover styling is avant-garde, and the copy on the inside page describes her:
"Innate neuroticism makes people love and pity."
At that time, the Hong Kong and Taiwan Chinese music scene, Faye Wong, Lin Yilian, Zhang Huimei, tianhou competed for hegemony.
But Xu Meijing, a single-handed Sin Chau girl, won a full house as soon as she appeared.
Never idol packaging, just quiet singing, but one after another on the hot gold song chart.
For a time, he was praised as the "Queen of Heaven Killer" by the entertainment media of the two places, and sat directly behind Faye Wong at the award ceremony.
Faye Wong was followed by Xu Meijing, who won the "Newcomer Award" of that year.
Xu Meijing's voice is really too special, at first it sounds full of cold alienation, but carefully tasting it also hides a hidden surge of emotions.
Some people say that Xu Meijing's voice is born to sing love songs, so she sings the love of urban men and women, sings shallow love, sings a hundred turns a thousand times...
In 1996, at the age of 22, she released two albums in a year: "Regrets" and "All Night Returns".
These two albums are high-quality enough to seal the gods, and the sales even overwhelmingly beat Andy Lau, who was released at the same time.
In the Hong Kong and Taiwan music scene, she also won awards and won soft hands, achieving the peak state of her career.
"Moonlight in the City" has become a must-sing golden song at major evenings, and Faye Wong and Sun Yanzi have rushed to sing at concerts.
"All Night Returns" is the theme song on late-night radio stations across the country in the 90s.
"Regret" has been repeatedly covered in the following 20 years.
In that era of "Hong Kong style diva", Hui Meijing was the only female singer who sang Chinese songs to enter the Hong Kong music scene and compete for the competition.
"Two Great Texts in the Hong Kong Dictionary", Lin Xi (formerly known as Leung Wai Man) spent a lunch time to write "Knowingly Committing Crimes" for her, while Huang Weiwen gave her a classic "Allure".
The best thing is that she killed most Cantonese singers in a second with these two songs alone!
The scenery is endless.
At the beginning of the popularity, big producer Li Zongsheng threw an olive branch and invited her to join Rolling Stone Records.
But Xu Meijing politely refused, because she fell in love with Chen Jiaming, a musician who brought her debut.
The 28-year-old Tan Ka Ming is a famous musical talent in Singapore, and some of Hui Meijing's most famous songs are written by him.
More because of his sentence "I will never find such a beautiful voice as you again", Xu Meijing gambled her life.
The relationship between the two of them slowly changed from "partner" to "lover", and Chen Jiaming already had a family at that time...
But the infatuated Xu Meijing repeatedly misbelieved the divorce promise of her husband," and the result of long-awaited waiting was a void, and she also exhausted her youth and efforts.
She is suffering and emotionally expects a lover to become a family, but intellectually she knows that she is destroying other people's families.
After six or seven years of entanglement, Chen Jiaming, tired of this relationship, turned his attention to Xu Meijing's assistant Huang Fengyi, which not only led to the love triangle becoming a four-corner love, but also made the overwhelmed Huang Fengyi embark on a suicide road.
All this made Xu Meijing's spirit completely collapse, and she was forced to fade out of the entertainment circle in frustration...
But when countless people hugged her and felt sorry for her, she said: "I am in front of the stage, he is behind the scenes, and it is not fair for you to say this about him." ”
Yes, there is no fairness in the matter of feelings, only the parties know a central acid, and she can't bear to say that he is not good after all.
Therefore, some people say that Xu Meijing's life is "Chen Jiaming, and Chen Jiaming is defeated."
Her star path also crossed the starry night sky at the end of the century, and soon disappeared without a trace.
If Xu Meijing's first relationship is to obsess over love and not regret it, then the second time, it is a knowing crime.
While struggling with pain, she met Hong Kong singer Yuen Yiu-fa, who was 8 years younger, because of her work.
At the lowest level, Yuan Yaofa took her on a trip to Italy to heal her wounds, giving her a chance to breathe.
Eager to get out of the shadow of the previous relationship, Xu Meijing quickly fell in love with this handsome boy.
Unfortunately, the good times did not last long, and he was not her antidote.
Not long after the two were together, Yuan Yaofa, who was not satisfied with his work, became grumpy and often vented his resentment on Xu Meijing, making his lover become a resentful partner.
Under the pressure of many unpleasant things, Xu Meijing tried to jump off a building to commit suicide, but fortunately was found in time.
When the two were still confused about their feelings, Chen Jiaming begged her to return to Singapore because she was divorced.
However, Xu Meijing listened to Chen Jiaming's words and rushed back to Singapore without saying a word, but found that everything was a hoax.
Yuan Yaofa also jumped violently at this time, vowing that he would never see Xu Meijing again in his life.
Both of her relationships ended in failure.
Falling in love with the "scumbag" again and again, and eventually forcing himself to nowhere to go.
The biggest incident was when she went crazy and broke into the hotel.
In 2006, Xu Meijing, who was out of control, broke into a guest room in a six-star hotel, shouted "call me god" to strange guests inside, and forced the other party to kneel and prostrate.
The farce ended with the police taking Xu Meijing away. For more than a decade, Xu Meijing's name was closely associated with "madness".
It is said that Xu Meijing once conceived a child, but no one knows who her father is.
But one thing is for sure, she didn't give birth to the baby.
But she never shied away from the fact that she was "crazy" and admitted to having schizophrenia.
At its worst, she even had auditory hallucinations and had to undergo electric shock treatment: "During the electrotherapy, there was an electric current that stimulated me, and since then part of my memory has been lost. ”
In fact, what is lost is not only her memory, but also her youth and vitality.
It's not that she hasn't tried, she doesn't want to give up her life and has been trying to calm herself down.
Reading, writing, drawing, occasionally attending some music festivals, or singing theme songs for movies, and doing charity as much as you can, doing your best not to get worse.
But every time we talk about "regrettable stars", people always think of Xu Meijing first.
She had been so beautiful, so dazzling, and then after a moment of pain, she withered completely.
Her most recent public appearance was on the 2017 variety show "Golden Qulao".
Slightly blessed, with a tired face, and the once avant-garde, bright girl judged the two.
The most regrettable thing is her voice, the moment she opened her mouth, everything changed.
But it felt as if she was still alive in the 90s, on a gorgeous stage, as if she were in a different world, out of place with her surroundings.
She would say on stage "Life is short, don't be unhappy".
Such words, from her mouth, were extremely sad.
Many people say that Faye Wong is brave for love, like a moth to a fire. In fact, Faye Wong is not a moth, she never cocoons herself, she has a broader world.
Xu Meijing is the moth that fights for love, obsessively and unrepentantly,
It's just how brave she was then, and how tragic she is now.
She is simple, determined, and everything can be abandoned.
As she sang in "Regret": You always think that if you want to experience life, you have to love a few more times.
But in the end, everything is irretrievable.
The best times that belonged to her were in the past.
I don't know what Xu Meijing's future holds, but what is certain is that her golden age was very short, like a brilliant meteor.
Paddled across the sky and never came back.
Knowingly, there are fans who ask unwillingly:
"If she had accepted Li Zongsheng's invitation, wouldn't she have had another ending?"
Where there are so many is not with why.
There is nothing in the world, and the young girl who began to sing bitter love songs at the age of 20 is not crazy and does not live.
Full of feelings, slender and sensitive, excessively obsessed, and finally lived himself into the sadness in the song.
As she sang in the song "Knowing" on her first album: "Knowing that loving you will not have results, why are you still so persistent, giving everything for you, you are desperate to leave..."
This poem, written by her and Chen Jiaming, seems to have written the ending at the beginning.
But I still listen to the song "Just This Life" every time I think of her.
The song sings: "It's just that this life is inherently short, and everything doesn't have to be too nervous."
"Life is not easy, but there is still some hope."
I hope xu Meijing can find that little glimmer of light in the darkness and seize that little hope.
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Edited by / jojo, Nyo Cobalt Lu Sang
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