In 2003, less than a year after the actress Chen Baolian jumped off the building due to depression, Zhang Guorong also jumped from the Incense Jar Culture Hotel due to depression, leaving the world with feelings of surprise, reluctance and grief.
When the news reached the United States, Wang Xiaofeng finally realized that he had to seek medical treatment, otherwise the next suicide news that appeared in the newspapers would probably be his own.
Wang Xiaofeng was once a promising film actor, and when the zombie gui charm film was popular in the 1980s, she was the most successful "English girl", the royal "heroine" of Lin Zhengying, and the well-deserved "queen of gui".
In addition to gui films, Wang Xiaofeng's positive film results are also first-class, she entered the industry to shoot, the first practice, the second part ("Wrong Point Mandarin Duck") easily won the Best Actress Award at the Fifth Academy Awards, and was successfully sealed.
Her acting talent is extraordinary, and the interpretation of the character comes from but appropriate, but just when the industry places high hopes on her and expects her to have a good work, Wang Xiaofeng is plagued by evil diseases and disappears at the golden age of 28.
In "The Original Family", it is said: "The lucky people use childhood to heal a lifetime, and the unfortunate people use a lifetime to heal childhood." "Wang Xiaofeng is that unfortunate person, although she is a shadow queen and has fame and fortune, she has escaped all her life, and it is difficult to find a way to rush out of the pain of her original family."
Wang Xiaofeng was born into a family with many sons and a very high preference for sons and daughters. Big things dad decides, small things brother decides, men are women's fate, women are men's "mold". Dad can beat Mom without any reason, and Brother can beat Wang Xiaofeng without asking why. A child who needs to be hugged and kissed is greeted with fists, slaps and blows.
In a family where love and identity have been replaced by insults and violence, Wang Xiaofeng has lived a painful life since childhood. She first committed suicide at the age of six, with a tender little hand hanging a rope from a fan, hoping to end her unloved life. However, the moment the foot kicked open the stool, the worn-out fan did not bear the weight, not only did not die, the fan also fell and smashed into Wang Xiaofeng's head.
After the failure of the first suicide, Wang Xiaofeng did not give up the idea of seeking death, the second time she took the initiative to be bitten by a poisonous snake, the third time she ran to the barren mountain where the fire was burning... Heaven probably pitied this unfortunate little girl and let her escape from danger again and again.
At the age of 13, after being beaten by his brother again for no reason, Wang Xiaofeng was simply fed up with such torture. She didn't want to resist, knowing that she couldn't beat it, she still threw herself at her brother like crazy, wrestling with him, and she wanted to live with dignity. But the resistance did not buy respect, but angered his father, who was shocked and angry at her rebellious attitude, and he no longer wanted to raise this disobedient money loser.
Dad kicked Wang Xiaofeng all the way to the door, and scolded viciously in his mouth: "Don't go yet!" Don't go yet..."
Wang Xiaofeng was thrown out of the house, and the only thing he took away was a torn dress he was wearing. The tearful mother looked at her daughter, weakness is a common disease of women in the family, the mother can not protect Wang Xiaofeng, she put a pair of new shoes that have been treasured for a long time on her daughter's feet, the road ahead will go by herself, hoping that fate can treat her children kindly.
Susan Foward said: "The world of children is small, and no matter how violent the parents are, for them, the parents are still the only source of love and comfort. ”
After Wang Xiaofeng left home, she began to work desperately to make money, she wanted to prove that she was useful by earning money, hoping that her father could "repent", so that she could still be a person with a family, although she was not happy at home.
After a month of working day and night, Wang Xiaofeng earned 500 yuan. As soon as she got her salary, she ran home non-stop. When she arrived at the door, she was afraid to go in, she asked her sister to give the money to her father, and she was like an ant on a hot pot, waiting outside...
However, she did not wait for the door to open for her.
The sister came to her step by step, returned the money to her, and muttered, "Daddy doesn't want your money." ”
Wang Xiaofeng asked, "Why?" ”
The sister replied, "Dad said... Say you're doing something improper out there..."
At that moment, Wang Xiaofeng was like five thunderbolts, completely desperate. Sorrow is greater than separation, and sorrow is greater than death. She did her best, but there was no way home behind her.
Wang Xiaofeng began to exile himself, and the child who was not loved was in pain when he died, let alone banished.
She played billiards, mixed nightclubs, smoked, drank, fought in groups, and even smoked du, and as a teenager she was accused of murder. With the righteousness of not being killed and not afraid of death, she has become the most "fierce" boy on the street, and has also become the eldest sister in the circle of friends. Wang Xiaofeng, who has never felt love, felt the warmth of human feelings in the cheers and embraces of friends, although life is dark, but this warmth is real, Wang Xiaofeng seems to have found the meaning of his own existence.
However, several of Wang Xiaofeng's best friends actually died one after another in just one or two years. Some of them jumped off the building, some sucked too much, and some stripped naked to prove that they were invincible female King Kong, and the flesh and blood of the hit flew everywhere.
Wang Xiaofeng was in pain, her fate perch collapsed again, and her soul was banished again.
It is really difficult to live, and the world is so big that it is difficult to have a place for her. She didn't want to suffer like this, waiting for the years to be late, when she was sober, she planned how to commit suicide, and when she was chaotic, she used alcohol and dupin to anesthetize herself.
Just when Wang Xiaofeng reached the double edge of spirit and life, fate once again gave Wang Xiaofeng a way out - Wang Xiaofeng, who looked good and had a good body, was discovered by star scouts and became an artist.
The road to acting should start from Asian television, Wang Xiaofeng was initially arranged to host a movie program, and it did not take long for her to star in "Crazy Gui Out of the Cage" at the invitation of the director, and the next year she also liked to mention the heroine of "Wrong Point Mandarin Duck", and the male protagonist of the partner was the famous handsome Er Dongsheng at that time.
Wang Xiaofeng and Er Dongsheng, who have just entered the drama industry, cooperate tacitly and have superb acting skills, and at the 5th Xiangju Golden Film Awards Ceremony held at the Regent Hotel in 1986, Wang Xiaofeng won back the trophy of the queen as a newcomer, until now, the wonderful interpretation in "Wrong Point Mandarin Duck" makes Wang Xiaofeng still considered to be one of the most outstanding newcomers in the history of xiangjing film.
Someone once asked Wang Xiaofeng how she felt about playing the heroine, and Wang Xiaofeng said bluntly: "I am very excited, and what I am excited about is not to get the heroine, but the opportunity to play with Er Dongsheng, which is me, the first handsome man I met." ”
Wang Xiaofeng has a fanatical desire for love in his heart, but on the night of the award ceremony, the host gaged and wanted to come to a wave of CP terriers, and when asked Wang Xiaofeng what the criteria for choosing a mate were, Wang Xiaofeng was very alert, and his self-protection desire was extremely strong: "I must win the battle." ”
She is excited about her new life of being recognized, eager to say goodbye to her past self, and at the same time trapped in the sea of extreme lack of love. Constantly struggling, and cocooning like a cocoon, the more he struggled and became more nervous in life, Wang Xiaofeng's personality split like a bright and beautiful daytime, and at night it was difficult to drive away demons.
When her acting career was successful, Wang Xiaofeng's drama path became wider and wider, and more olive branches poured into her, including Lin Zhengying, who pioneered the era of Hong Kong movie zombie films. In the films such as "Mr. Zombie", "Man Gui God", "Blood Rose" and other films cooperated with Lin Zhengying, Wang Xiaofeng played the role of female gui many times, and the horror and gloomy performance made Wang Xiaofeng's career reach the peak again, achieving a generation of "gui queen", while also dragging Wang Xiaofeng's spirit into a more unfathomable dark realm.
She is too deep into the play, can not distinguish between gui charm and reality, and always feels that she is wronged. Coupled with the death of his mother in 1990, It made Wang Xiaofeng drink like a stick, and then suffered a blow, and living became the most difficult thing for Wang Xiaofeng to endure.
After the death of her mother at the beginning of the year, Wang Xiaofeng married herself at the end of the year, and disappeared with her husband Yimin In the United States, she thought that marriage was a door to rebirth, and she could abandon the past through marriage and yi'min to meet a new life.
However, after marriage, Wang Xiaofeng's condition did not ease at all, but intensified. Sometimes she can eat until she vomits, sometimes she has not eaten until she vomits for another week, sometimes she is sleepy, sometimes she is sleepless for seven days and seven nights, and more seriously, she keeps hitting herself, constantly hitting the wall, breaking her hand bones, there is no way to dress and wash herself, every day is thinking about suicide, but several times have not succeeded in suicide.
Moreover, her husband Xu Lixin also showed her husband's responsibility when Wang Xiaofeng needed to take care of her most. Xu Lixin was once a big man in the computer industry, and the turnover of his operating company had ranked second in the United States, such a "computer king old five" not only did not abandon his sick wife and look for flowers and willows, but at the cost of his career, he sold all the company, half of the share was distributed to employees, and the other half was used to treat and heal Wang Xiaofeng. It is said that at that time, all the employees of Xu Lixin received an average of 500,000 US dollars per person, and everyone called Xu Lixin a rare "best boss in the world".
After hearing the news that Chen Baolian and Zhang Guorong had jumped off the building, Wang Xiaofeng was finally willing to admit that he was not evil and suppressed his soul, but because of the backlog of bad emotions for many years, he had a mental illness, and if he was sick, he had to be treated.
After that, Wang Xiaofeng was sent to a nursing home, and in the process of treatment, her condition continued to repeat, Wang Xiaofeng almost killed Xu Lixin, and Xu Lixin was always by her side.
In 2006, Wang Xiaofeng's father suddenly suffered a stroke and was on the verge of death, facing his father who was already old and weak on the sickbed, and the upcoming life and death, Wang Xiaofeng suddenly let go, all the hatred about his father became unwilling, he was no longer the person who could wave his hand to move her, it turned out that at the end of his life, there was also nostalgia for her.
She was finally able to love the most important person who hurt herself the most, and she could finally reconcile with her life.
It is strange to say that the father who was already critically ill had a miraculous recovery a week later, wang Xiaofeng also had a chance to reunite with his father, after that, Wang Xiaofeng became a Christian believer through the introduction of friends, regaining family affection and doctrinal baptism so that Wang Xiaofeng finally walked out of the haze for many years, and Wang Xiaofeng, who had a spiritual home after untying his heart knot, finally lived a healthy and warm life.
In 2010, Wang Xiaofeng made a comeback at the invitation of Zeng Zhiwei, although it was not as good as the churning of the small flowers and waves of traffic, but her comeback was also an explanation for her hastily ended film career, and it was also an explanation to the fans who liked her for many years, Wang Xiaofeng had a year when it was blooming like a peony, and there was also a chrysanthemum-like indifference today, everything was the best arrangement.
In "The Most Beautiful Life is Qing Huan", Lin Qingxuan has a saying: "Love is like a big basin, no matter how good the swimming fish can not swim out of the basin, even if people can forget each other in the rivers and lakes, love is greater than the rivers and lakes." ”
What can trap us is often not the people and things outside, it is precisely the inner anxiety, relaxation and indifference may be the most powerful confrontation, just like a hundred steels are invincible to the fingers, when you really empty yourself, let go of what you want, everything will have its own answer. Don't stay in the shadows for too long, don't be afraid of the shadows, and dare to go forward, because the other side of the shadows is always where the sun blossoms.
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