It is said that the sheep are idle, go out to hang out, and meet shen ke, the "originator of internet celebrities"- she held an exhibition. Shen Ke, who was born in 1987, is 33 years old this year. It has been 5 years since she announced her "resurrection" in 2015.
Speaking of Shen Ke, perhaps some students have popped up in their minds the pictures constructed by terms such as "self-harm", "bisexuality", "suicide" and so on...
Maybe some little cute will be a little confused - "Who is Shen Ke?" ”...
"Shen Ke" is not only a name, but also belongs to the middle two years of a certain generation.
—— Shen Ke, "Shen Ke" ——
More than a decade ago, Shen Ke became popular on the Internet and brushed up the QQ space, and many people took her photos as QQ avatars.
Therefore, many media now mention the name "Shen Ke" and often add a "Internet celebrity ancestor" as a footnote.
Shen Ke in real life has a seemingly good family background: her mother vacations abroad all year round, and her father has a listed pharmaceutical company.
△ In recent years, some self-media have interviewed Shen Ke and called her home a "billion Marriott house".
But Shen Ke's successful father was not like a qualified father: as early as the fourth grade of Shen Ke Elementary School, she was transferred to a fully enclosed aristocratic school.
How old can a fourth grader be? Shen Ke's parents did this as a "hand-throwing treasurer".
Even for a family reunion festival like the Spring Festival, Shen Ke may have to spend it in the principal's house.
Maiden Shen Ke
Shen Ke faced not only her father's indifference, but also the rough oppression of patriarchy until she became an adult.
Shen Ke, 29, mentioned in an interview with People that the last time she spoke to her father was 4 years ago.
Shen Ke, who was 25 years old at the time, called her father and said that she wanted to marry someone she liked.
He said no. Before I could say anything, he hung up the phone, and I didn't know what that meant. ”
—— Shen Ke
From the age of 25 to 29, the only phone call between father and daughter, Shen Ke's father said two words coldly, "No."
Shen Ke's story is not a history of struggle against patriarchy, from childhood to adulthood, she did not even dare to look at her father. In Shen Ke's own words, she is a "brutal" person.
Shen Ke's growing environment did not give her enough security. Later, the young girl Shen Ke met a girl who was two years older than her at school, and the two had similar experiences, and their feelings quickly warmed up. It is a relationship that transcends friendship, two perennially unloved children warming each other, can not be simply summarized by "love".
Shen Ke once wrote a "lace" novel "Shen", based on her real-life experience, telling the love affair of two girls who died without illness. Later, the intimate relationship between the two girls was discovered, ridiculed by the classmates, and brutally suppressed by adults.
I feel that's the first thing I understand, that is, it's not enough to be yourself, there are always some people who want to hurt you. But there was nothing I could do, I was so small, I couldn't do anything.
In Shen Ke's words, her youth is "self-destructive"...
What she calls "self-destruction" should include her self-inflicted actions.
From a psychological point of view, self-harm is a way of stress transfer: when negative emotions such as anxiety, uneasiness, and pain are not resolved, physical pain is used to alleviate mental pain.
In fact, at that time, the young girl Shen Ke had already suffered from depression, but she did not know how to seek help.
In a small city, I go to the hospital and who am I looking for? I (do I want to) say that the doctor thinks I have neurosis, I want to hang up the neurology? I don't know what to do.
Even in this era, there are many people who think that depression is a disease-free groan and scorn.
△ Look at the photos of Shen Ke that were popular on the Internet at that time, exuding a strong decadent and world-weary atmosphere.
—— Death and Rebirth ——
In 2004, during the period of rapid development of the Internet in China, Shen Ke's popularity was inseparable from the development of the Internet and the popularity of computers.
Of course, it is also inseparable from Shen Ke's own appearance.
There is no doubt that Shen Ke is a beautiful girl who was born with a "mixed-race Internet celebrity face" (which was pursued by many Internet celebrities later).
△ Shen Ke's grandfather was Irish, and traces of "mixed blood" could be seen in her closer eyebrow spacing and high nose bridge.
Although Shen Ke was a popular network more than a decade ago when the computer was just popularized, taking her photos of that year to the present is also a "net red face" that is above the average and does not lose recognition.
Shen Ke's popularity depends on her appearance, but not only because she is beautiful enough.
In Shen Ke's own words:
"Everyone's youth will have something in common."
Some of Shen Ke's fans also have unhappy growth experiences, and they have resonated with Shen Ke.
To them, Shen Ke is more like a "distant and invisible friend" than a chased idol.
Although most teenagers have their own setbacks in their growth experiences, they are generally bland and there are not too many twists and turns.
However, adolescent girls have the attribute of "wanting to give new words to say sadness"...
Or to put it: learning life is too monotonous, there is not much realistic pressure of the half-old children, often in the eyes of adults P big small things to seek their own troubles.
Yi Shu's "Infatuation Division" chose such a sentence from the book to put on the cover: "At the beginning, I always thought it was the end of the world, but later, I found out that it was just a lost love." ”
The distress of adults is realistic, often related to the survival pressure of "chai rice oil salt sauce vinegar tea"; in contrast, "growing pains" are with a hint of temperament...
Is there a little cute who would listen to certain songs and automatically construct tragic scenes in their minds, and move themselves to tears...
Although most of us do not have the complicated growth experience of Shen Ke, some of our classmates also have their bitterness and "neglect". At this time, many students can easily get empathy with Shen Ke.
In 2004, at the age of 17, Shen Ke began to contact some underground culture and tried to create his own novels and songs, slowly accumulating fame.
In 2007, Shen Ke and Guangguang co-created "Flying to Someone Else's Bed", which quickly became popular, and the lyrics were explicit, which was attractive to teenagers and girls who were in adolescence and had some ignorance of sex.
Shen Ke's self-harm behavior has also caused a "boom" in some adolescent groups - even if it is far from the unstable mental state of Shen Ke, it is also necessary to place spiritual sustenance on physical pain.
In short: although some students who tried to self-harm were not mentally painful enough, they were enough to be "secondary two" at that time. At the same time, Shen Ke's exaggerated shape was very avant-garde at that time.
Students who know something about Shen Ke should be able to roughly know that she has an inexplicable obsession with gothic style.
△ Shen Ke's soap tablets in recent years also have a distinct Gothic style.
The Gothic style mostly revolves around elements such as death, decadence, vampire, spooky, and horror, such as the typical Gothic film of 1992, "Four Hundred Years of Thrilling Feelings"; in other words, the Gothic style is not majestic enough, and even has a "sharp" feeling.
For example, Gothic churches, mostly equipped with towering minarets and pointed arches, are more than gorgeous, but with their own melancholy colors.
Too many sharp angles can give people a sense of danger.
△ "Four Hundred Years of Thrilling Feelings".
There is also the 2005 animation Zombie Bride.
Coser Meiwei once cosified "Zombie Bride", which can be said to be a god cos.
From this, it can be felt that the Gothic style is mostly associated with themes such as darkness, despair, and loneliness that are not very "sunny".
This coincided with Shen Ke's mental state on the verge of shattering...
Shen Ke old photo
In the Spring Festival of 2008, the fireworks outside the window were brilliant, Shen Ke was still alone, and her parents, like the past ten years, did not know where they were.
Under the pressure of many parties, Shen Ke's spirit collapsed completely.
She turned off the computer, swallowed a lot of sleeping pills, and finally cut her wrist with a knife. Fortunately, Shen Ke was rescued, but her "death news" was misinformed.
After Shen Ke's "death", the discussion about her did not end: some people commemorated her with tears; others dissed that she did not set a good example for teenagers.
After she was rescued, she did not respond to various rumors on the Internet. In fact, Shen Ke's "popularity" on the Internet at that time did not have any utilitarianism. It's just that the sensitive and lonely girl Shen Ke needs to get a sense of security in a virtual space.
△ Taken from Shen Ke's solo exhibition, the "2008" in the picture seems to mean something.
Until 2015, at some opportunity, she returned to the public's attention again.
The young people who had pursued Shen Ke on the Internet had grown up, and Shen Ke himself became a mother.
But maybe she hadn't changed, she was still the insecure girl.
—— Non-mainstream "non" ——
The sheep found that Shen Ke was classified as "Killing Matt" by some of his friends.
Admittedly, neither the "non-mainstream" of the Shenke style nor the killing of Matt belong to the mainstream culture, but there are still obvious differences between the two.
For example, audiences.
The group portrait of Matt killing is roughly as follows: teenagers, less educated, mostly from economically less developed areas.
The typical is the killing of Matt's godfather, Luo Fuxing - the family's economic conditions are very bad, after graduating from primary school, they go out to work and cannot integrate into the city.
Young "Killer Matts" entered society early and longed for attention. Perhaps to the surprise of many students: Matt's godfather Luo Fuxing was born in 1995 and is only 25 years old this year.
After so many years of going around and experiencing a lot, Luo Fuxing was only an age that did not graduate from college for a long time.
△ Luo Fuxing initially triggered a hairstyle of onlookers on QQ, which is also the prototype of the killing Matt style.
When Luo Fuxing walked down the street in an exaggerated "Killing Matt" costume, he knew that the onlookers of passers-by were unfriendly.
But he didn't care, luo Fuxing, a teenager who had been neglected for many years, needed to be paid attention to.
But none of that mattered to me at the time, and I enjoyed being noticed, and as long as I wasn't ignored, I was happy.
—— Luo Fuxing
The "Kill Matts" often act collectively, which is to huddle together for warmth.
In contrast, Shen Ke's mental state is obviously particularly unstable, very "homely", and not good at socializing.
In general, the non-mainstream of the "Shenke style" has obvious loneliness, not much economic pressure, and more self-harm and self-pity.
And "killing Matt" reflects the embarrassing situation of a group of young people on the edge of the city.
Of course, whether it is the "Shen Ke" or the "Kill Matt" of that year, there are common points - not understood, ignored, depressed, lonely, secondary two.
△ Whether it is Shen Ke or Luo Fuxing, both have the attribute of "middle two".
Sheep believes that whether it is "non-mainstream" or "killing Matt", although it is a little thin in aesthetics, it is in a powerful posture to tell the outside world about their attitude.
△ Shen Ke now occasionally teases himself.
It contains the growth process of a certain generation at a certain age stage, and can even reflect the social status quo at a certain stage.
This is something that mainstream culture cannot replace.
For example, Shen Ke's exhibition: To be honest, in the field of art, Shen Ke does not have much solid foundation, nor does he have too many skills...
However, Shen Ke's experience itself is an "art", and the name "Shen Ke" is a symbol.
But Shen Ke is shen ke, a living, flesh and blood girl, woman, mother.
It is said that Shen Ke himself is very gentle, speaks softly, and is quite friendly to people.
△ Although the hair color gives people a feeling of "not being easy to mess with", the look is gentle that cannot deceive people.
She wants to be their children's best friend, and she believes that parents must let their children know that they are loved.
Even if they have a cat, Shen Ke will give them a serious name, which is not a kind of respect.
△ Shen Ke's cat is called Chen Jianzhou... Ahahahahaha
With the growth, the half-grown children of that year slowly integrated into the real society, and needed to make compromises to the "chai rice oil salt sauce vinegar tea".
"After the age of 23, I haven't played much [kill Matt]."
—— Kill Matt Master Luo Fuxing
Those secondary two years that belong to the "non-mainstream" and "kill Matt" are getting farther and farther away from the post-80s and 90s.
But teenagers in every age will have a "secondary two" process, but in a different way. When you grow up, and then recall the "stupid things" you did in those years, you may be eager to erase this "black history" in your memory...
But that is youth, a youth that can cry, laugh, and make stupid mistakes.