Once the sea was shipwrecked as water

As a sister who married late and flashed marriage and children, I just want a place to record my journey and life, and I should have a place to vent. It's messy, just keeping your own records.

Let's start with a heart-wrenching emotional journey.

After graduating from college in 2009, the boyfriend who was in love for two years chose to return to his hometown to separate the two places, he was very good, and it was not an exaggeration to imitate the spoiled novel heroine for my kind of pampering. Spoiled a lot, think that boys are like this, the arrangement he gave me let me go to graduate school, get married first, he went to work, but I always felt that rural parents, I was far away from them, they did not take care of, and there was a spoiled dizzy feeling that I could always meet better. I earned a low salary in a small state-owned enterprise in a small city and lived a leisurely and mixed life without thinking about getting married. Four or five years passed, he wasn't married, I didn't meet the right one, and I felt like he was always in no hurry.

It wasn't until 2019 that he got married that I suddenly found out I had lost him, but it was already too late isn't it? After quietly crying, I still believe that I will meet someone I love. So many years, he thought I didn't want to, I thought he had changed, he had seen a few times in a hurry, he even came to me to meet my parents, but he came and I didn't take him to meet, because I felt embarrassed to communicate with my parents less.

In 2020, I met a person, I knew someone for less than two months, I just felt that I should have a child of my own, so I talked about getting married and entering marriage, and then the child was born. At this time, I realized how disappointed and chilling it was to find a person with no emotional foundation, pregnant confinement was spent in quarrels and cold wars, and several times hovered on the border of divorce. Record this slowly.

Suddenly a few days ago, since he made up his mind not to contact about four years, in the evening WeChat asked me if I was doing well, he had a few times after drinking wanted me to cry and wake up, told me that he gave birth to a girl, the name is the name I gave to the future baby when we were together.

Then I really burst into tears T_T even if I went to him once, everything might be different.