Two days is the Spring Festival, I heard that this year is the year with the most people going home for the New Year, I don't know if you are all on your way home?
When I couldn't go home for various reasons in the first two years, I felt that I had never felt so homesick, and this year, as soon as I released the ticket, I quickly bought a ticket to go home, and I was a little excited to think that I could finally go home for the New Year.
However, as the date of my return home approached, my state of mind gradually changed from excitement to calm, and from calm to anxiety. People have not yet arrived home, and the New Year's phobia has committed it first.
I can't think about it when I can't go back, I really can't go back, I don't want to go back so much, who understands this contradictory mood?!
In the past, the most feared New Year was dinner and visiting relatives, and this year is no exception. After living for 30 years, the most unlearned thing is the scene words.
I am not the only one who is afraid of the "two sentences" session at the dinner table. Every time I go to dinner, I can't wait to sit in the car and think about what I want to talk about, and when I take turns to toast, five people start to organize the language in advance, and finally stand up and hold the wine glass tremblingly, and the blessing is stumbling.
When I think that I will definitely not be able to escape the speech this year, and even that I may be the protagonist on the table because I haven't been home for too long, I am one head and two bigger.
Although in the past, it was inevitable to meet and greet relatives when going home, being urged to get married, or being asked about work, but this year there is an inexplicable premonition that everything will come more violently.
Before I returned home, I already had a picture of fiercely exchanging Yangkang's feelings with my uncle and aunt, whom I hadn't seen for a few years. In addition, there has been no new progress in my work relationship in recent years, and after talking about the new crown, I will definitely return to those fixed topics.
It's almost the day to go home these days, and when I lay in bed at night and closed my eyes, my mind began to echo: "Did you find a partner", "Your job is very good", "When do you plan to go home and develop", even the disappointed expressions of my relatives with a little contempt after I answered, I made up my brain.
Even if you are with your closest parents, sometimes you feel a little speechless.
When I went home this year, I and a few friends have not yet bought tickets back, so that I can buy tickets to return to Beijing at any time if I am tired of staying at home. Homesickness is true, but so is the truth that the smell is far away.
Last year, a friend went back to his hometown with great difficulty, originally thinking that it would be hard to go back and have to accompany his parents at home to book a ticket to leave after the holiday, but he didn't expect to be able to stay on the fourth day of going back, and he lost money in a hurry to change the ticket to leave the next day.
Different habits are the most serious problem. A friend's routine is to sleep in the early morning and get up at noon, and after returning home, it becomes an early morning sleep and is woken up at seven o'clock in the morning, and every day I go to visit the door with a big black eye, and I have to be like a thief when I am hungry at night, which is really crushing.
After being away from home for too long, her parents have become accustomed to life without her, and her parents will quarrel as soon as she returns home over the years, and the warmth of home is limited to Chinese New Year's Eve and the first day of junior high school, and the atmosphere has changed since the second year of junior high school.
Staying with her parents for four days is her limit, and staying any longer will change from respecting each other to looking at each other and disgusting each other.
In fact, staying in a place for a long time will default to the place where you stay longer is "home", so returning to your hometown briefly for the New Year will make many people feel unaccustomed, which is a normal thing.
But many people, including me, know in their hearts that only the Spring Festival is a time of reunion throughout the year, and only at this time will they face these anxieties. Compared with the thoughts and love of family members, New Year's phobia is nothing at all.
One thing is certain: although I am anxious now, once I get home, I will still be happy for a short time, even if I may have conflicts with my parents later, I will definitely experience some very boring times.
For me, going home for the Chinese New Year is like a ritual carved into my DNA, and if I tell me that I can't go home for the New Year this year, my heart will definitely be empty.
When I think of the New Year, the first thing that comes to mind is the joy of reunion, embarrassment and anxiety are secondary.
Therefore, it is good to cherish the time with your family, and it is also meaningful to feel the present moment with your heart.
Regardless of whether it is a good or bad emotion, it is good to treat it once a year as a life experience only once a year.
There are still two days to celebrate the New Year, and I want to wish you all a happy Spring Festival in advance. May you go home with enough food and drink to avoid quarrels with your parents, not to be embarrassed in the face of relatives, not to be urged to get married, not to be asked about work, not to be urged to go home for development, and to spend a happy and satisfying holiday.
You can also chat in the comment area about your anxiety about going home for the New Year, good night.