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1
Everyone has secrets, and I'm no exception.
I have a special fetish that is hard to talk about – I like to voyeuristically.
Before I knew Lin Xiaomei, I randomly selected the target and used the purchased telescope to spy on the people on the opposite floor, men, women and children, all kinds.
The women on the sixth floor always take advantage of the husband to take their lover home when they are far away, they are crazy, and always forget to close the curtains, the man who lives alone on the thirteenth floor often wants to commit suicide, he sticks his head into the rope noose, but does not have the courage to kick over the stool, the old couple on the sixteenth floor always praise their son filial piety in front of others, in fact, their son is a very grumpy person, often breaking things in the family.....
Two months ago, at the suggestion of a friend, I decided to rent out the vacant apartment in my name, which was my marriage home with my wife, and since my wife's death, I have moved out and bought another property, which has been empty for a few years, which is indeed a pity.
Lin Xiaomei contacted me through an intermediary, and I remember that on the day of the house visit, she wore a smoky gray professional suit, with long chestnut wavy hair tied into a ponytail, and a slender pair of legs tightly wrapped in stockings, revealing a professional feminine breath.
She didn't look amazing, goose egg face, big eyes, white skin, eyelashes upturned, and two small dimples when she smiled, but she was too similar to my dead wife, and there was a tear mole under the corner of her left eye, and so did my deceased wife.
From the moment I met Lin Xiaomei, my eyes never left her. She was very polite and called me Mr. Zhang.
"Mr. Zhang, I like your house very much, but the monthly rent of two thousand is a bit high for me, can I be slightly discounted?" I can pay quarterly.... Mr. Zhang? ”
When she said this, Lin Xiaomei bit her lip lightly, and her eyes were full of chuchu pitiful pleading.
Although the location of this apartment is a bit remote, it can be completely equipped with appliances, you can move in with your bag, and the surrounding facilities are complete, and you can go out to the subway station. The monthly rent of two thousand is the price of leakage, even if she does not rent, there are many people who want to rent, but I agreed to her request.
Finally I rented the apartment to Lin Xiaomei for fifteen thousand a month, I used the excuse to check the line of the apartment and let her check in a few days later, Lin Xiaomei said a lot of words of gratitude, she did not know, in fact, I was going to make time to install monitoring in the apartment.
I bought three miniature surveillance probes online, one disguised as a potted ornament installed in the living room, one disguised as an ornament in the bedroom, and one in the study.
After the completion of the work, I called Lin Xiaomei and offered to help her move, but Lin Xiaomei politely declined.
"Thank you Mr. Zhang, I don't have any luggage, just a few clothes, I'll just pack it up myself, don't bother you." Lin Xiaomei said politely on the phone.
"Well, Presumably Miss Lin also understands that this house has a special meaning to me, and I hope that during the time that Miss Lin lives here, she can try to maintain the original decorations of the house, because these are the things that my wife liked when she was alive."
"Rest assured, Mr. Zhang, I will cherish everything in the house." Lin Xiaomei solemnly agreed, and across the phone I could imagine her nodding like a deer's well-behaved look.
Lin Xiaomei quickly moved into the apartment, her luggage was not much, unlike she said only a few clothes, she dragged two huge suitcases, tired and collapsed on the sofa in the living room, she did not wear professional clothes, the upper body was a white shirt, the lower body was a pair of shorts, exposing snow-white thighs.
She wouldn't let me move for her, but she was wary of me, and it seemed that she was really a very cautious girl.
I watched from my phone after a short break, humming a little song and starting to pack up her things, she coiled her long hair behind her head, because she didn't find a rubber band, and used a chopstick as a hairpin at random.
After cleaning up everything, Lin Xiaomei returned to the room, changed into a suspender pajamas, and then went into the bathroom to take a shower.
Lin Xiaomei is not at home during the day, and at night after work, she will occasionally buy some ingredients to make a hearty dinner to treat herself, most of the time eating instant noodles or just a few pieces of toast.
Since Lin Xiaomei appeared, I didn't want to spy on others, and every day after work, I held my mobile phone and empathized with her.
She is also a girl who loves to be pretty, sometimes while applying nail polish while cooking porridge with people on the phone, I can hear her conversation through the monitoring probe, it turns out that Lin Xiaomei has a boyfriend who has been talking for a long time, Lin Xiaomei called him A Chao, the two are in a long-distance relationship, A Chao is planning to go to the city to find Lin Xiaomei.
It turned out that renting this apartment was used as a love nest for two people, and I suddenly felt a pang of loss in my heart.
2
Half a month later, Lin Xiaomei's boyfriend Ah Chao came.
Lin Xiaomei went to open the door unguarded, and Ah Chao, who was a dusty servant, stood outside the door.
The two people hugged and kissed together, this man named Ah Chao was indeed very handsome, they kissed from the living room to the bedroom, the clothes were lost on the ground, I was a little irritable in my heart, and unconsciously smoked half a pack of cigarettes.
Then for a period of time, Lin Xiaomei's life was like soaking in honey, two young people who had just ended their long-distance relationship, every day like glue, they were full of energy, and they did not hesitate to express their love to each other.
Looking at their appearance, I couldn't help but think of my wife Gu Jie, who used to love each other so much, kissed no matter how many times a day, and loved each other as if it were the end of the day.
But marriage is the graveyard of love, this sentence is really not empty, and then we who love each other will eventually erupt because of the trivial things of life, and in more and more Cold War days, we will consume our love for each other, and even sprout hatred.
In the second month after Ah Chao moved in, the three of us officially met, the reason is because the apartment's sewer pipe is blocked, Ah Chaotong has not been done for a long time, Lin Xiaomei thought of calling me, the landlord for help.
I took the tools and quickly solved the problem, Lin Xiaomei offered to invite me to dinner, I happily agreed.
The little couple held hands and went downstairs with me, and when they saw the Porsche I had parked on the side of the road, the two looked at each other.
"Get in the car, I know there's a nice restaurant nearby." I smiled and opened the car door for them.
I sat in the driver's seat, Lin Xiaomei and Ah Chao sat in the back seat, I looked through the rearview mirror, I saw that both of them were a little restrained, but the hand holding them did not let go.
I took them to a nearby restaurant, when I saw the decoration of the store, Ah Chao's expression was a little hesitant, but finally he gritted his teeth and led Lin Xiaomei and me into the store together, we asked for a private room, and the waiter brought the menu.
"Mr. Zhang, can we change to another restaurant?" The price here is a bit..... My boyfriend has just come to the city and hasn't found a job yet. Lin Xiaomei's look was a little embarrassed, and she said with a stoic.
"It's all right, I'll treat you this meal, you can eat whatever you want."
"How does this work, I said I invited, you helped us deal with the problem of the sewer pipe today, and let you invite you to dinner, how funny."
This restaurant has three hundred per capita, and it is thousands of dishes to order casually, and I really don't want Lin Xiaomei to pay for it.
"You're welcome, just take the wind and dust for your boyfriend." I smiled and tried to act like a gentleman.
Lin Xiaomei looked at her boyfriend and did not say anything more, during the banquet I did not have any conversation with Lin Xiaomei, but her boyfriend Ah Chao kept asking me what I did.
"I'm a doctor and I have a private clinic."
"Wow, Mr. Zhang, you're so good." Ah Chao learned From Lin Xiaomei and called me Mr. Zhang.
"What about you? What kind of job are you looking for? I asked him.
"Whatever, as long as you can earn four or five thousand a month, don't get too tired." Ah Chao answered carelessly, pulling out his mobile phone and playing the game while talking.
I smiled, did not continue this topic, at this time the waiter brought the dish up, A Chao game is playing vigorously, Xu is thinking that this is very impolite, Lin Xiaomei gently bumped him with her elbow.
I am not a talkative person, nor is Lin Xiaomei.
Ah Chao is a talker, he told me that he graduated from college, majored in computer science, his idea is very simple, there is food, drink and live, live in the moment. The vast majority of young people think.
I promised Ah Chao that I could introduce him to my friend's company to work, and he was very happy and kept asking me how much I was paid and if the work would be cumbersome.
When I paid the bill, I swiped the card and spent a total of 1588 yuan.
On the way to send them back, Ah Chao had been playing games, and Lin Xiaomei looked out the window, worried.
3
I quickly introduced Ah Chao to my friend's company as a network maintainer, nine to five, with a salary of five thousand.
It's not hard to introduce Ah Chao to a job, and I understand that he is not the kind of man who can hide in one place and work hard. After all, for a man his age, there are too many temptations in this world to resist.
Sure enough, in less than two months, Ah Chao did not want to do it, he hid in the sofa, holding the mobile phone, and told Lin Xiaomei that he wanted to resign.
Why, exactly? Do you know how hard it is to find a job now? You should cherish this job, after all, we still have to live. Lin Xiaomei persuaded him bitterly.
"I think my colleagues are squeezing me out, probably because I'm from the country, I don't have anything to say to them, and this job is really boring, you can rest assured, I won't stay at home, I've found other jobs." 」 Ah Chao's head did not lift, and he said slowly and leisurely, and his fingers were quickly pressing on the mobile phone screen.
"You think too much, why do people squeeze you out, what job you are looking for, you tell me." Lin Xiaomei sat next to Ah Chao, she looked at Ah Chao, and Ah Chao looked at the mobile phone.
"Bars, do marketing, come to money quickly, there are always more than 10,000 a month, first earn waves of money and then say it." The game seemed to have been lost, and Ah Chao discouragedly threw the phone aside and slammed the couch hard with his fist.
Hearing Ah Chao say that he was going to work at the bar, Lin Xiaomei couldn't sit still: "What? Are you going to work at a bar? You're crazy, you, good decent serious work don't do, have to go to the night show. ”
"Gee, what to do is not to do, you don't have to be so annoyed, I decided something, no one can change." Ah Chao no longer tangled with Lin Xiaomei.
This night they did not sleep in each other's arms, Lin Xiaomei lost sleep, and when Ah Chao snored, she was wearing pajamas in the living room in a daze at the TV, and her face was full of exhaustion.
The sweetness expires faster than I thought.
I took the opportunity to send a WeChat message to Lin Xiaomei.
[Listen to my friend say that Ah Chao has proposed to resign, what happened, can you tell me?] ]
In the surveillance, Lin Xiaomei held the mobile phone for a long time, and only half a day did she reply to me.
[Leave him alone, the mud can't hold up the wall.] ]
Ah Chao still went to work at the bar, and he came out day and night, perfectly staggering Lin Xiaomei's schedule.
Lin Xiaomei is a good girlfriend, although she does not like Ah Chao to work in the bar, but still helped Ah Chao forward the circle of friends who booked, I patronized the bar where Ah Chao worked, I sat in the corner, and I saw Ah Chao wearing a white shirt and black vest at a glance.
He looked busy, very eye-catching among a bunch of women, he was handsome, indeed handsome, sunny and confident, full of youthful charm. In the words of the current fashion, it is a small piece of fresh meat.
There are real and false celebrities in the bar, a woman was coaxed by Ah Chao very happy, opened several bottles of spades A in a row, the woman was full of pearls, eager to tattoo the luxury LOGO on the face, Ah Chao kissed the woman's face, and in the coaxing of the crowd, and drank a glass of wine with the woman.
There is no shortage of men and women in the bar who come out to hunt for sex, and everyone knows what the mind is. Ah Chao is very open in such an environment, I don't know if he forgot that there is a girlfriend waiting for him at home.
Of course, I will not shoot this scene like a green tea man and send it to Lin Xiaomei, do I have to pretend to meet by chance? I didn't want her to know I was following her.
I don't like Lin Xiaomei, but when I see her face, I can always think of Gu Jie, some things have passed too long and are easy to forget, and her face will remind me that some things cannot be forgotten.
Turning on the monitor every day to observe Lin Xiaomei's life has become a part of my life.
Finally, the contradiction between her and Ah Chao broke out.
The flashpoint of the contradiction is actually quite cheesy, Ah Chao came home drunk in the middle of the night, Lin Xiaomei, who was staying up and not sleeping, found a lip print on the collar of her shirt, and Ah Chao's neck was planted with "strawberries", and Ah Chao said that it was left by his own adventure.
Lin Xiaomei cried pear blossoms with rain, a pair of pink fists pounded on Ah Chao:"Where are you to make money, you fucking is to play, you slut!" ”
As if someone had seen through that bit of despicable carefulness, Ah Chao pushed Lin Xiaomei to the ground fiercely: "What is Lao Tzu not for making money for?" No money what do I take to marry you? ”
Sometimes I think women are quite stupid, if a man uses dirty means to make money, as long as he says it is for himself, the woman will not only forgive him, but even blame himself.
I don't like to stay up late, stay up late for a short life, I am very sorry for my life, I can only get up every day in the office and watch the video recording of the first night.
Lin Xiaomei's smile is much less, her life seems to be left with only waiting, Ah Chao does not leave work until three or four o'clock in the morning every day, Lin Xiaomei often waits on the sofa until she falls asleep.
I don't know why, I am sure in my heart, Lin Xiaomei and Ah Chao are destined to be a tragedy.
4
Just like before, I always thought that feelings are like building a house, as long as the foundation is stable, there is no problem with the house being built fast and high, but I forgot the essence of the problem.
If this house is a tofu slag project, what is the use of your foundation being stable?
How long we spend together is never a measure of whether a relationship is strong or not.
If I have witnessed lin xiaomei's sweetness, then I have also witnessed lin xiaomei's depravity.
In this world, there is a saying called "near Zhu is red near ink and black", Ah Chao is out of the matter, he knelt in front of Lin Xiaomei and begged her to save him.
This stupid man, tainted with gambling, lost more than half a million in just one month. Most of them are loan sharks, borrowed from a regular customer of the bar, this regular customer is mixed outside, very powerful.
Ah Chao knelt in front of Lin Xiaomei and kept kowtowing to her: "I am also a ghost obsessed, I also want to win some money to marry you early, I don't want you to work so hard, I want you to live a life of food and clothing, blame me, Xiaomei, you help me, I will be hacked to death." ”
Lin Xiaomei sat on the sofa and hugged the pillow and cried: "How do you want me to help you, where do I get so much money!" Half a million a, where did I come from a hundred thousand a thousand! I only have tens of thousands of dollars in savings. ”
"You go to the loan, you work on the stock exchange, you have a provident fund, no matter how much the loan, even if it is 200,000, as long as you pay back part of it to your brother first, he will not hack me to death." Ah Chao clutched Lin Xiaomei's hand tightly, like a life-saving straw.
"Xiaomei, you believe me, I will not do it again, I will change it."
I thought Lin Xiaomei should be sober at this moment, slap Ah Chao hard, and then let him get out of the egg.
It was I who underestimated Lin Xiaomei's feelings for Ah Chao, and the woman in love was indeed unintelligent. She actually agreed to help Ah Chao repay the debt with the loan.
She still had a glimmer of hope for this man.
Lin Xiaomei has not worked for several years, and there are no assets under her name, with her qualifications to borrow two hundred thousand has been the top of the sky, the day the loan came down, Lin Xiaomei held the money and Went out with Ah Chao to find the so-called "noble brother".
I don't know what happened during this time, but Lin Xiaomei came back crying.
Ah Chao has been coaxing her: "Please, I still owe him three hundred thousand, not a small amount, every month the interest will be twenty or thirty thousand, what do I take back?" Do you really want me to be hacked to death by them? Xiaomei, your brother has a crush on you, as long as you promise to accompany him, my debt can be written off. When the time comes, we'll leave the city, find a place where no one is, and start over. ”
I clenched my fists, what a scumbag.
"Are you talking about people?" How can you do this? What do you think of me? You roll, you roll! Lin Xiaomei gargled with tears.
"I'm sorry, it's all my fault, I'm wrong, I'll never mention it again, Xiaomei, don't get excited." Ah Chao hugged Lin Xiaomei's body tightly.
Ah Chao swore that he would definitely work hard in the future and try to repay the money, and Lin Xiaomei finally forgave her.
But it's not that simple.
A few days later, Ah Chao did not go to work at the bar, he was particularly attentive to make a table of dishes at home, I saw him into a bottle of drinks into something powdery, and then shook the bottle. After Lin Xiaomei returned home, Ah Chao beckoned Lin Xiaomei to eat.
"Baby, today is our fourth anniversary together, and I've made something delicious to wait for you to come back."
Lin Xiaomei was a little moved, she gave Ah Chao a long hug, she buried her head in Ah Chao's neck, maybe it was the recent events that made her exhausted, there was only surprise in life, and there was no joy for a long time.
I watched Ah Chao hand the bottle of drink with "ingredients" to Lin Xiaomei, Lin Xiaomei was defenseless, and soon the bottle of drink saw the bottom.
Lin Xiaomei had been holding her forehead, seemed to be a little dizzy, Ah Chao helped her into the room to rest, and then took out her mobile phone and sent a text message.
Not long after, the door was knocked, Ah Chao went to open the door, a man entered the living room, he had a leather bag under his armpit, a large gold chain hanging around his neck, Ah Chao bi respectfully called him "Noble brother", I cried out in my heart.
Ah Chao left, through the monitoring, I saw this man named Gui Brother, threw his purse on the sofa, took off his coat, and walked toward the bedroom with an obscene smile, in the bedroom, Lin Xiaomei had slept to death.
Of course, I know what will happen next, if I call the police now, I will be able to rescue Lin Xiaomei, but if so, how do I explain to the police, how do I know what is happening in the house? Did I tell them that they had installed surveillance in the house to spy on the guests?
Just when I hesitated, my brother had already taken off his clothes and turned to Lin Xiaomei, I was struggling inside, if my voyeuristic things were discovered, then I would be ruined.
Finally, I closed my eyes, I couldn't let me think about it too much, it was too late, I couldn't save Lin Xiaomei.
More than an hour later, your brother left, Lin Xiaomei did not wake up, Ah Chao went into the bedroom, cleaned up the scene, and dressed Lin Xiaomei, as if nothing had happened, and I witnessed everything.
I didn't know what was going on in my head, but I took a screenshot of the video and copied it to my computer.
I lost sleep, I kept looking at Lin Xiaomei on the screen, and I felt a little guilty. The medicine under Ah Chao is extremely strong, Lin Xiaomei woke up in the middle of the night, of course, she did not know what she had experienced, this drug usually has side effects, can make people temporarily lose their memory.
Lin Xiaomei held her forehead and stumbled into the bathroom, Ah Chao was particularly hypocritical, and got up to pour her water to drink.
5
I began to try to chat with Lin Xiaomei on WeChat, and Lin Xiaomei has always called me Mr. Zhang, polite and polite.
"Have you been doing well lately?" A Chao's new work can still be put? I asked her tentatively.
"It's okay, he's working very hard."
"By the way, Mr. Zhang, I remember you saying you were a doctor..... I've been feeling a little uncomfortable lately, does your clinic have a gynecology? I want to do some check-ups at your clinic. In the case of a private clinic, the diagnosis and treatment will not go into the medical record, right? ”
I looked at the message sent by Lin Xiaomei, felt a little confused, and quickly replied to her.
"There is gynecology, you have any discomfort can tell me, if you do not want to leave a record of the diagnosis, this is the best way." 」
"Some are difficult to talk about, I don't know what's wrong, the body has grown some granulation tissue, some pain and some itching, I'm scared, I don't know if it will be..."
"Come to my clinic tomorrow for a check-up, don't think about it." I comforted her and sent her the address.
"Okay, thank you, Mr. Zhang."
The next morning, Lin Xiaomei came to my clinic, my clinic is a high-level clinic, the scale is comparable to a small hospital, I specially arranged a doctor to Lin Xiaomei, arranged for Lin Xiaomei to do various examinations, I also got Lin Xiaomei's laboratory report.
Lin Xiaomei suffered from genital warts, a type of venereal disease.
Knowing that she had an venereal disease, Lin Xiaomei was completely unable to accept it and collapsed and cried.
"How could this be, I've only ever had it with my boyfriend and we do security measures every time....."
I suddenly remembered that night, your brother did not do any security measures.
"This can be treated, you don't cry first." I suggest you ask your boyfriend to go to the hospital for a check-up as well. I soothed her emotions while proposing.
Lin Xiaomei bit her lip hard, two hands dead tugged on the strap of the handbag, the eyes were red, seeing her like this, I couldn't say the discomfort in my heart, this kind of thing is afraid of being known by acquaintances, Lin Xiaomei came to me out of trust in me, but I, at all, do not deserve her trust, I am a selfish and cowardly person, if I choose to call the police that day, she does not have to suffer this crime.
Lin Xiaomei ran, ran home with her bag, rushed into the bedroom with a kitchen knife, and wanted to fight with Ah Chao, she must have thought that Ah Chao was messing around outside, and the illness was passed to her.
Ah Chao was frightened enough by the hysterical Lin Xiaomei, shouting neurosis while getting dressed and running outside the house.
In the end, Lin Xiaomei and Ah Chao still broke up. Lin Xiaomei threw out all of Ah Chao's things.
Lin Xiaomei was treated in my clinic, and her face was very poor, like someone who had been sick for a long time.
"Mr. Zhang, do you believe in love?" Coming out of the examination room, Lin Xiaomei suddenly asked me.
I pondered for a moment and replied, "Believe it." ”
Lin Xiaomei's treatment is divided into four courses, each course of treatment is one to two months, the treatment plan is personally formulated by me, I became Lin Xiaomei's attending doctor, I said to Lin Xiaomei, I know that her economy is not rich, the treatment cost can be given to me in stages, Lin Xiaomei is very grateful to me.
The contact between us became more frequent, and Lin Xiaomei let down her guard against me.
She told me that Ah Chao had looked for her several times, she did not know what to do, I advised her to break some things when it was broken, knowing that it was a moth to put out the fire, it should stop the loss in time, Lin Xiaomei followed my advice.
Life seems to have returned to calm, and Lin Xiaomei's mood has gradually recovered, and she has begun to slowly come out of the haze.
Lin Xiaomei and my interaction gradually increased, we talked on WeChat, looking at the monitoring, she was lying on the bed in pajamas holding a mobile phone to chat with me seriously, sometimes I did not reply in time, she would turn over in bed.
She talked a lot about her past, from elementary school to college, from life to work, we became friends who talked about everything.
Maybe after breaking up with Ah Chao, her heart was too lonely, so she poured part of her emotions into me, a middle-aged man who was willing to talk with her.
At least that's what I think.
Lin Xiaomei no longer called me Mr. Zhang, she called me Ah Xin.
In small talk she asked my wife, "What disease is she suffering from?" ”
"Heart disease." I answered succinctly.
She let out an "Oh" and didn't continue to ask, probably because she felt impolite.
I saw the shadow of her deceased wife Gu Jie in Lin Xiaomei, and her smile and smile could make me think of Gu Jie, but I knew that she and Gu Jie were two people who were diametrically opposed, Gu Jie seemed to be quiet, wild inside, and wild deep into the bone marrow.
But I can't control myself, I will take Lin Xiaomei as Gu Jie, sometimes I even have an illusion, maybe God also feels sorry, wants me to start over, maybe it is doomed in the dark, only to send Lin Xiaomei to my side.
But I was afraid, afraid of repeating the mistakes of the past, and when I thought of my body, I flinched.
I've already fallen once in one place and I can't fall again in the same place, absolutely not.
I began to deliberately alienate Lin Xiaomei, and she also felt my gradually indifferent attitude. I thought she would be as cold as before, but no, she asked me on WeChat if she was doing something wrong there, I looked at her anxious look in the camera, and something in my heart was quietly melting.
I still didn't hold back, and asked the words that shouldn't be asked: "Do you like me a little?" ”
I know that questions like this can make our relationships even more ambiguous.
Lin Xiaomei did not hide, she said: "Yes, I admit, at first I just took you as an emotional lifesaver, but gradually I found that we have many common hobbies, you are very gentlemanly, you are also very concerned about me, you are also very mature, you are the ideal object in my heart." But I know that I am very dirty, that I am not worthy of you, is it because I have had that kind of disease, so you are....."
Am I a gentleman? I laughed, if Lin Xiaomei knew that I spied on her every day through monitoring, I don't know if she would still think of me as a gentleman, I don't know if she would like me, or if she was afraid of me.
Seeing that I had not answered for a long time, Lin Xiaomei cried, she hugged the pillow and buried her face in the pillow, from sobbing quietly to howling and crying.
Her tears were like a heavy punch, hitting me the heart, and I was afraid of women crying.
I can't refuse such a Lin Xiaomei, perhaps, I should give each other a chance.
"I don't feel like you're worthy of me, it's something wrong with my body, you're still young, you shouldn't follow someone like me, you shouldn't."
After Lin Xiaomei read my message, she quickly replied to me: "What problem?" You are a doctor, you can treat. ”
I smiled bitterly: "It is precisely because I am a doctor, so I know that there is no cure, and being with me is equivalent to being a widow, no matter how much you like me now, this feeling will eventually be boiled to the point of slag, I am inferior, you know?" ”
I confessed to her the things that were most difficult for me to say, that my physical function was inadequate, congenital, and could not be remedied. I used to think that sex was just a part of life, and even without it, I could compensate for it with a lot of love, but I was wrong.
Gu Jie's betrayal made me lose my last dignity as a man.
"I don't mind, no, as long as we love each other, even if it's just a simple kiss, it's enough to make my heart move." 」
Seeing this, my heart trembled unceasingly, and the pain that was suppressed in the depths of my heart was finally shattered by Lin Xiaomei's affirmation of me at this moment, she was willing to accept me, she was willing.
I couldn't restrain my emotions, drove to Lin Xiaomei's apartment, the moment she opened the door, I hugged him, hugged and kissed her, we embraced each other warmly, she returned my hottest kiss, we kissed for a long time, that night I stayed with Lin Xiaomei.
That night, she said she was happy and content.
6
I talked to Lin Xiaomei about love, she is really a very considerate girlfriend.
Our feelings heated up quickly and I let her move into my house.
Lin Xiaomei loves me very much, I can feel that she prepares a loving breakfast for me every day and goes out to work, life seems to have a new hope, and the whole family has become warm because of the new hostess.
I sneaked back to the apartment, removed the three monitors, and threw them in the trash can near the apartment, I think that in the future I will not have to hide in front of the screen to spy on other people's lives, I have a new life of my own.
With Lin Xiaomei, I will have a sense of guilt, especially when I hug each other and sleep skin kisses, my fingertips can feel her skin is hot, shortness of breath, she can only go to the bathroom to take a bath again and again, trying to extinguish the heat of the body.
I knew I would never be able to give her physical pleasure.
But Lin Xiaomei never complained, I know that sleeping with me every night is a kind of torment for her, I don't know how to compensate her, I can only use substances to make up for the happiness I can't give her.
I paid off the money she had borrowed earlier, but because of this incident, I almost showed my horse's feet.
In fact, Lin Xiaomei never told me that she owed money. Maybe I didn't want to think I was approaching me for money.
I lied that I had accidentally seen the interest-collecting text message from the bank on her phone, and she believed it.
"Debt-free and light, don't have too much mental burden in the future, everything is with me."
Lin Xiaomei's eyes flashed with tears, I think, she was moved.
I was with Lin Xiaomei, and unconsciously after more than half a year, I took Lin Xiaomei back to my hometown to meet my parents.
My thoughtful mother took advantage of the fact that no one was there and pulled me into the room: "She and Gu Jie really look too similar, you..."
I patted my mother's hand to comfort her: "Rest assured, Mom, she and Gu Jie are not the same kind of people, she is very good to me, we are very happy together." ”
I have been alone for a long time, my parents want me to start a family again, Lin Xiaomei does not comment.
I planned to propose to Lin Xiaomei, after all, I was married for the second time, she was the first marriage, I could not treat others badly, I had to have everything.
If I hadn't been too careless and let Lin Xiaomei find the video in my computer, I think that Lin Xiaomei and I would really get married.
Lin Xiaomei inadvertently opened my computer and found the video I saved with her and your brother, she looked at the video, the light in her eyes disappeared little by little, she trembled her lips and asked me: "Are you spying on me?" Why, why don't you stop it? ”
I hung my head like a death row prisoner on the execution ground, and I was guilty of a capital offense, an unforgivable crime.
"I'm sorry, I can't let others know that I'm peeping, not that I don't want to call the police, it was too late, I saved this video, or I'm afraid that one day when you know the truth of the matter, at least I can provide you with evidence." 」 I defended myself weakly.
Admitting that I was spying on it made me feel more humiliated than confessing my incompetence.
"How can you do this to me!" Lin Xiaomei's emotions finally erupted like a volcano.
She pounded me hard, and I took her in my arms and let her fists rain down on me.
"It's all my fault, you don't leave me, you can punish me how you want, things are over, let's stop thinking about the past, let's live well?" We got married, and I swear I'll be good to you for the rest of my life. I hugged her tightly, afraid she would leave me.
Lin Xiaomei finally forgave me, I thought she was soft-hearted, and I got the same opportunity as Ah Chao, the opportunity to atone for my sins.
I cherish this relationship, in order to prove how much I love her, I transferred the apartment to Lin Xiaomei. Lin Xiaomei also agreed not to break up with me, but she said that she should consider the matter of marriage.
It was right to think about it, after all, my despicable character had lost her trust.
My relationship with Lin Xiaomei has been estranged a lot, Lin Xiaomei is no longer home after work, and I am tired of being together, we still sleep in the same bed, when my fingertips cross her warm skin, she is no longer excited.
Lin Xiaomei's attitude towards me was hot and cold, sometimes cold like an iceberg, and occasionally gave me some sweetness. A kiss, a smile, like a life-sustaining medicine, made me unable to lose this relationship.
I suspect lin Xiaomei has someone else, but only doubts. I thought that even if Lin Xiaomei had a good relationship, as long as she was willing to be with me, I could pretend to be deaf and be a fool. After all, I am such a terrible person.
I overestimated my own endurance, when I found the condom in Lin Xiaomei's bag, I was still jealous to the point of madness, my heart ached so much that I couldn't breathe, Lin Xiaomei and Gu Jie's figures overlapped and kept floating in my mind, I was eager to tear that face to pieces.
Many nights when I woke up, Lin Xiaomei was not by my side, the bathroom light was on, I heard her talking to someone in the bathroom, the door of the home was soundproof, I could only hear Lin Xiaomei's laughter faintly in the bathroom.
She hadn't given me a heartfelt smile in a long time, and I wondered what the man had said to her to make her so happy, and I had a hidden camera in the bathroom.
Late at night, I pretended to sleep, Lin Xiaomei next to me gently pushed me, saw that I did not respond, crept over and got out of bed, went into the bathroom, and closed the door.
I knew she was on the phone with the man, the man who stole my happiness.
I couldn't wait to open the phone, Lin Xiaomei sat on the toilet: "I can't have a showdown with him now, he feels sorry for me, now he is willing to give me anything, because he has lost so much, how can I be willing?" No, I didn't give up on him, he didn't do that at all, I endured so hard every day, I had had enough, I knew he still had a deposit, and when I coaxed him to transfer the money to me, I would leave him. Rest assured, it's you I love. ”
Before getting the license with her boyfriend, she inadvertently opened a video in his computer, and she hurried to design a repentance
Lin Xiaomei held the mobile phone and talked to the man on the other end of the phone.
I closed my eyes in despair, and I finally did it all over again.
I pretended not to know, and every day I still treated her with a pleasant face, even better than before, and how I hoped that my sincerity would impress her.
At the dinner table, Lin Xiaomei asked me: "Can you transfer 200,000 yuan to me?" My family wants to build a house. I told my parents that when the house is built, we will go back to my hometown to make happy wine, my house is now in tatters, and my parents feel that there is no light on their faces. ”
Without thinking about it, I agreed: "Okay, I'll transfer it to you now." ”
For my pain, Lin Xiaomei was a little surprised, but she didn't say anything after all, and silently accepted my transfer.
The next day, Lin Xiaomei did not go to work, she said that she was uncomfortable, took a leave of absence with the company, and she watched me go to work.
I didn't leave, I sat in the car and watched her take a shower through my phone, then called the man and told the man that the money had arrived and that she was going to leave quietly today.
I touched the bottle in my pocket and secretly made up my mind.
Lin Xiaomei was very surprised to see me turning back: "Didn't you go to work?" How did it come back? ”
"I know everything about you and him." I said to her calmly.
Lin Xiaomei's body stiffened for a moment, and she instinctively took two steps backwards, looking at me warily: "What do you want?" ”
"What can I do?" Although it pains me for you to do this, I..... Or wish you happiness, I don't want you to go quietly, make me another meal before leaving, let's get together and disperse, I don't stop you from pursuing your own happiness. "I'm a gentleman again.
My attitude was very sincere, and Lin Xiaomei was obviously relieved: "It is best if you can think like this, then you wait, I will go to buy vegetables, I will eat and then leave." ”
Lin Xiaomei went to buy vegetables, I took out a bottle of red wine from the refrigerator, took out the cork, this brand of red wine I bought two bottles, I think its taste is too astringent, but at the moment the taste of this bottle of wine, it is really very appropriate.
Lin Xiaomei came back quickly, put on her apron, and got busy in the kitchen, she really liked to cook, humming songs while cooking, looking at her figure, my eyes were a little blurry.
Lin Xiaomei made three dishes and one soup, all of which I love to eat, so I took two glasses and poured red wine for her.
"You must have been poisoned, right?" Lin Xiaomei hesitated and refused to drink the wine in the glass.
"Let's have a drink, I wish you happiness, I'll do it first." I looked up and drank the red wine out of my glass.
Seeing that I had drunk it, Lin Xiaomei put her mind at ease, lifted the wine glass, and drank it all.
"Have you ever loved me?" Even for a moment. I didn't hold back, but I asked.
"I don't know, it may be a bit too much to say love, you appeared when I was most emotionally empty, maybe more as a lifesaver." 」
After listening to Lin Xiaomei's words, I poured her a glass of wine: "This cup, salute our misplaced love, salute my ignorance of the sky, wishful thinking." ”
A bottle of red wine was drunk by Me and Lin Xiaomei, and Lin Xiaomei choked and said, "Why are you such a person?" If you are not such a person, I will not cheat, all blame you, why can't you be cautious, don't let me find out.... Why....."
Lin Xiaomei covered her heart, and the expression on her face began to hurt: "It hurts, my heart hurts so much..."
I put down my glass and looked at her tenderly: "I've drugged in the wine, rest assured for a while, so that you can never leave me." ”
"You obviously drank, you obviously drank..." Her facial features became distorted and she fell heavily to the ground.
I walked up to her, sat down on the floor, wrapped her in my arms, and whispered in her ear, "I took a release dose in advance, this medicine will become very sour when it meets water, I have tried a lot of wine, only this wine after adding this medicine, but it will synthesize the original astringency, I bought two bottles of this wine, a bottle of my ex-wife drank, this bottle left for you." ”
Lin Xiaomei struggled in my arms for a while, and finally stiffened and collapsed.
I picked up her phone and sent a message to the man: "I've changed my mind, I love Zhang Xin, I'm going to be with him forever and don't contact him again." (Original title: "Lover")
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