Shin Ai doesn't believe that her husband doesn't love her. But she knew that her husband had other women before he died.
Shen Ai does not believe that God exists. Because God did not come to the rescue when his son was brutally killed.
Shen Ai does not believe that evil has evil retribution. Because the murderer actually had a rosy face and a calm heart, he told her that he had taken the lead in obtaining the Tao and receiving God's forgiveness.
Shen Ai was unwilling to accept the facts. She indirectly killed her own son, and she admired vanity and boasted everywhere that she was going to buy a property and let the murderer keep an eye on her money.
Shen Ai never converted to God. She knew that everyone who went to church had selfish intentions, some to avoid sacrifice, some to get close to themselves.
And she believed in religion in the hope that the Almighty God would iron out the pain of losing her son.
But in her heart, she did not believe in the existence of God, she knew that God was like an unreachable kite, trembling and holding this thin line in her hand, so fragile and easy to bend.
When she saw the murderer's religious belief, she professed to be forgiven by God, and with a triumphant look, she lost the right to forgive him condescendingly.
She watched the murderer's daughter being bullied by the gangsters on the side of the road, but stood by and watched.
She deliberately went to the record store to steal CDs, made noise in stately churches, made trouble at the scene of the priest's mission, and seduced the pharmacy man who was a priest.
She wanted to provoke God in this way, but also to validate her belief that God did not exist.
Or, does faith in God really work?
QuanDu Yan's heart-wrenching performance, retracted freely, impeccable, and deservedly cannes film queen.
Because of the thought of her deceased husband, Shen Ai returned to her husband's hometown of Miyang with the only spiritual pillar, their son.
She said, "No one here knows me, I'm going to start over here."
"Miyang" originally meant "a place with dense sunshine", and this is exactly the case, this is a place where the sun is strong and hot.
Miyang is an ordinary small city, with a sluggish economy, small social circles, contented residents, and many people who believe in religion.
Zong Can, an ordinary man like Miyang City, fell in love with Shen Ai at first sight and cared for her and took care of her.
Helped her introduce real estate agents, helped her decorate the piano school, and followed her after the loss of her beloved son.
He wanted to be her sunshine. And she didn't want to go into the sun.
"How is this place in Miyang?" - When he first came with the child, Shen Ai once asked Zong Can.
When Shen Ai's younger brother and Zong Can went to pick up Shen Ai, who was preparing to be discharged from the hospital, they also asked him this.
Another kind character is the murderer's daughter.
After the kidnapping, she appeared in front of Shen Ai's house, making her suspicious and calling the police.
After her father went to prison, she dropped out of school early and entered the juvenile detention center for crimes.
After coming out, she worked in the barber shop, gently and carefully cutting Shin Ai's hair.
Shin Ai can't accept the killer's daughter cutting her hair, even though she knows that the girl, who is almost orphaned, has been bullied.
No one knows what kind of pain she has experienced, and her father's sins are invisibly inflicted on her.
Li Cangdong exposed the cruel and heart-burning story to the bright sunshine and tried his best to present a God who was not present.
Since the abundant sunlight is not always available, once it is waiting, the film crew rushes to shoot it one by one.
The sun shines on the earth, humbly cares for all beings, and makes the sins that are free to breed nowhere to hide.
Man's divinity and cruelty, dedication and selfishness, are often two sides of the same coin.
In this film, Li Cangdong does not preach the greatness of maternal love, or how loyal love is unswerving to death.
No matter how well the sun is shining, there are also dark corners that can't be illuminated.
He stared intently at the back of the glamorous and beautiful life, the dark corners of human nature.
People whose lives are hit by sudden accidents, and the peaceful life that is hard to get on track is disrupted.
How they got up from the quagmire and continued to live tenaciously.
The strength that sustains them is not faith, nor oblivion, but the survival instinct.
Shin Ai cut her wrists to commit suicide, and blood gushed out of the wound, and she rushed out the door in horror to ask passers-by for help.
How will the murderer's daughter spend the rest of her life?
No one knows what went wrong with their lives.
The last shot of the film, aiming the camera at the intimate sunlight, may brew a little hope.