Novel: Autumn Rain

autumn rain

It's raining, autumn rain, it's pouring.

The wife was bored in the hut on the high floor, went downstairs, said to go to the mall to buy something, and Yizi was alone and stayed in the house.

The cabin is not big and tidy. The entrance to the door, is the toilet, the bathroom, the decoration is very elegant, hanging the ceiling, paved the floor, the wall, there is a flush toilet, and bathroom cabinets.

Opposite the bathroom, against the wall, is a long row of cabinets. There were cabinets for clothes, and there were bookshelves.

Against the wall of the bathroom, there is a cabinet, and against the cabinet, against the wall, is a tatami bed. At the top of the bed, is the head of the bed. At the head of the bed, there is a bookshelf. Against the bookshelf, against the wall, is a corner sofa, and in front of the sofa, is a coffee table.

This is the bedroom, which is the combined living room.

Between the balcony and the living room, there is a wall with a door in the middle of the wall. On both sides, curtains hang.

This space on the balcony is the kitchen. The same was hung on the top, pasted on the wall, and laid on the ground. There are range hoods, there are also stoves, stoves, very neat and elegant. Facing the window, there is a table, a dining table, and a good place for Meiko to sit at the table, drink tea, and look out at the city.

In the cupboard, there are their clothes. On the shelves, there are books and some flowers. Anchovy bamboo and rich bamboo, green and lush. A few pots of green lotus, long and exuberant, the leaves are green and oily, adding vitality to the hut.

Since the cottage was renovated, Yizi liked it very much, nostalgic for this city, the hut on the high-rise building, there was nothing to do, he no longer liked to go downstairs and wander the streets like to come to the city when he first came to the city, but liked to stay in the hut, listen to the various faint sounds of the city, sit quietly, lie down, meditate, read, it was such a happy and comfortable thing.

Yizi knows that he is in the city, he can have this hut, can have a hut, no one is disturbed, quiet, leisurely life, it is not easy.

Childhood life, in the swaddling of parents, carefree play, such a day, is very beautiful, but, in a flash, it will pass. When I went to school, although I was tired and suffered a lot, I was with my peers, I had the same dream in my heart, and a vision for the future, and my heart was so simple and clean, and in my dreams, I could make people feel hope and beauty.

When she walked out of society, Yizi felt the distance between dreams and reality, dreams fell from high in the sky, fell to the ground hard, cold, tasted the dryness of life, and the world was hot and cold.

Yizi had just walked out of society, carrying a bed on his back, some daily necessities, and went to his hometown village, a remote village, and began to work. It didn't take long for my father to fall ill and die, and the family was broken.

In the midst of pain, the mother could not extricate herself, and if she could barely live, it was not easy to take care of him anymore. Yizi has become a person who has no one to protect anymore, and he also has the experience of reality, life, and he must face the wind and rain of real life without shelter.

In Yizi's heart, because of dreams and yearning for a better life in the future, although he fell into the pain of losing his loved ones, he was strong and energetic, working, living, and full of hope for the future. Dream of doing a career, dream of having a sweet and beautiful love.

However, no matter how Yizi does his work, he will not get a good evaluation, and when he evaluates, the score is always behind, and he has nothing to do with various fame and fortune and beneficial things. Later, the more Yizi did, the harder he worked, the more criticism he got, and his colleagues were also invisibly excluded and suppressed.

Suddenly, Yizi woke up from his dream, saw the reality clearly, and the faces of some people, and understood that this work is a means of making a living, just like a peasant planting land, planting his own land well, then having his own harvest, just a mouthful of rice to eat, the rest, do not belong to him, do not want to desire.

When she understood this, Reiko let go of her dream of doing a career. Looking at the traces left by the years on her face, the passing of youth and vitality a little bit, Yizi thought, not to think about the dream of doing a career, but to think about love, marriage, and family. You can't delay your love, marriage, and family because of that illusory, unrealistic dream, and in the end, you can't end up alone, it's not more desolate.

Thinking like this, Yizi did a good job with a clear conscience, and when he went to receive the salary that belonged to his own life, there was no more desire for work, and he had extravagant hopes, so he put his heart on the desire for love and marriage.

At school, there were several girls who liked him, but Iris didn't agree. Yizi uses her heart to study, thinking about love and marriage, waiting until the future is out of society, has a job, talks again, and then looks for, so that it is more real and mature.

Although Yizi is disappointed in doing a career, she is full of confidence in love and marriage.

However, just like waking up from a dream, seeing the reality clearly, and being disappointed in the work, Yizi woke up from the dream, saw the reality clearly, and realized that love is like a career, for him at this time, it is so far away that it has become a luxury.

In the unit, there are basically male colleagues, female colleagues, and several female colleagues, all of whom have families, have children, and can be his aunt or aunt. Male colleagues, some grandfathers, some uncles, the youngest, are also married and have their own families. On the unit, there is no object that the memoir can talk about.

In the village outside the unit, he was not familiar with it, nor was there anyone who could understand him in his heart, let him love and love him. Outside of work every day, looking up to see the mountain, the palm-sized sky, looking down to see the mountains, dead and silent villages, let people feel as if they have fallen into a dry well, depressed and desperate.

In the hometown village, although there are girls who are familiar with each other, but the hometown village, because of the remoteness, the girls basically do not read any books, in the depths of their hearts, there is an insurmountable gap, they can not understand his heart, he can not understand their hearts. And these girls, always have dreams of flying out of the ravine in their hearts, although there is not much culture, but in their hearts they think high, see far, and do not put him who has a job in their eyes. These girls, when they had the opportunity, all thought of ways to fly out of their hometown villages and ravines. Even if you stay, you must also find rich and powerful families. Who can see that there is only a job, and there is a broken family in his home!

In The heart of The Memory, I miss the time of school, when I was with my peers, I understood each other and resonated with each other. There are also girls who love him and understand his heart, but because he puts his heart in the future, he thinks about talking about love when he gets to work, but he misses it.

Despite this, Yizi's heart is still full of love for life, love, and yearning for the future. I believe that life in the future will be better. I also believe that in the future, there will be people he loves and loves him who will come into his life. He just felt that maybe fate had not yet come, that the people he loved and loved him were still walking on each other's roads, and had not yet reached the time of meeting and meeting.

Yizi thought like this, comforting herself, and in disappointment, she waited bitterly and suffered.

Yizi is like an oil lamp, gradually boiling the oil in the lamp dry.

In the unit, there is no object of love, and it is impossible to find someone who loves each other.

In the villages near the unit, and the villages of the hometown, don't say find inner understanding, love him, he also loves the girl, is to find a girl who does not care about love, does not care about love, can marry him, live a life, and have children, it is not easy. Girls of the right age have flown away, or have their own families. He was in the village, already an older young man, and at such an age, in the village, there was no suitable girl who would marry him, and he was destined to beat a bare stick.

His mother has been in pain, barely living, supporting the family, unable to take care of him, unable to worry about his work, and even more unable to worry about his love and marriage.

Everything, only Keiko worries alone.

Faced with such a situation, I think about the dream I once had in my heart. Also thinking about the road of studying and seeking, and turning around, did not do a so-called career, did not find the love of dreams, upside down, not even a family, and their own people, but also play bare sticks, this is not ridiculous, ironic?

Thinking about it, in The heart of The Reiko, there is only disappointment and desolation.

What comforts The heart of The Reiko is the sweet memories of the memories of the memories, the love of life, and the yearning for the future.

That memory, only in the heart of the remembrance, in the silent nobody, in the silent night, when feeling tormented, can not see the light and the future, silently remembered alone, silently recalled, forgetting the helplessness of reality, and pain, as if walking into a dream.

Despite the reality, it is such helplessness that makes Yizi feel desolate and disappointed, but Yizi still firmly believes that the future is brilliant and beautiful, and he and the people who have a relationship are still walking on their respective paths at this time, and they have not yet reached the moment of meeting.

With this memory, and the yearning for the future, Yizi walks strongly on the road of life, bearing the cold eyes and cold rain of don't let go. Greet the wind and frost of life. After experiencing ups and downs, setbacks. After cheating, suffering, and the convolution, finally, finally married a person who didn't care about love, didn't care about not loving, and came together.

However, the woman was very kind to him, did not abandon him to accompany him, follow him, cook for him, and wash his clothes. With happiness, to share together, to have pain, to be difficult, to meet together, to face. Although it is not as gorgeous and messy as the love of dreams, it makes people feel real and warm from the heart. It also makes Yizi feel that women are the only ones who are worth relying on and can accompany him hand in hand. After experiencing suffering, ups and downs, and pain, Yizi has seen through the world, and people, and feels that women are the best women, women who truly love and accompany him.

With a woman, Yizi's heart is solid, and she gradually feels warmth from the cold.

In Yizi's heart, the dream of the so-called career has long been put down, and she feels that work is a means of making a living, and she can do a good job with a clear conscience, and then receive remuneration and support the life of the family. Yizi is tired of the complicated world, has seen through human nature, no longer believes in the human heart, and is tired of the world, and takes the heart back, all in the family, longing for family harmony, and women live a small life calmly and smoothly.

Keiko's desire is not high, and he still pays a lot for this small wish.

The wife was pregnant, which made Keiko's heart feel excited and excited, although the wife was pregnant with a child, to give birth to a child, everything went well. However, during the period when he was pregnant with the child, he was not in good health and went everywhere to seek medical treatment. After giving birth to a child, the wife also fell ill and went to heal her again. Give birth to a child, go to a small county town, rent a house, and when it is time to give birth, go to the hospital to give birth. During the period, I also suffered a lot, it was financial, but also some trivial things, these, all of which made Yizi feel very tired, tired, financially tired, sometimes, thinking about those things, thinking about the money needed, Yizi was very stressed in his heart, and he couldn't sleep all night.

The good thing is that after the rush, the child was born smoothly and is a son. His and his wife's health is not a big problem, after being frightened, after treatment, there is no problem with the body, and they can still live a healthy life.

Yizi felt, perhaps, that the storm had passed, and the clouds had cleared, and he and his wife could live the life he longed for, there was a hut, a hut, a peaceful, smooth life.

But then, the work began to get bad again. Colleagues in the unit often speak ill of them in front of the leaders behind their backs. No matter how hard they work, they will not get a good evaluation, and when they are evaluated, the score is always behind, and they will not get any fame and fortune benefits.

Reiko remained patient, feeling that as long as there was a mouthful of food to eat, a hut, a hut, a peaceful and smooth life, she would be satisfied.

In this way, they still feel dissatisfied, and they react upwards, and the work of the son and his wife changes from time to time, long years, short months, generally no more than a year, and the places that change are mostly remote, closed, and the conditions are not good, and no one wants to go.

Fortunately, the wife has been silent, inseparable companionship, which somewhat comforts the heart of Yizi, so that he can see hope in the wandering, find the cottage he wants, a peaceful and smooth life.

Time, too, is drifting in the memory, and in turmoil, the water flows like water. In the flowing years, Yizi gradually became less young. People are also shaking, and they have also reached middle age, not confused age. My heart was tired of wandering in strange places in other places, how I wanted to have a mooring post, a stable home that could hold the body and soul.

Yizi thought of the ravines, villages, and homes of her hometown.

Thinking about it, the middle-aged remembrance is in the heart, poetically beautifying the ravines, villages, people and things in the hometown. Yizi felt that the landscape of her hometown was the most beautiful in poetry. I also think about the people and things in my hometown, my family, all in my memory, so warm, kind, and kind.

With poetic beauty, I yearn for it, and once returned to her hometown.

However, after experiencing some days, I feel that the landscape of my hometown has not changed, it is the way it is in memory, carrying too many of his memories, it is so beautiful and kind. However, the people and things in my hometown, my relatives, have been different from my memory. People do anything with an end, an interest, and for that end, they can do whatever it takes. People no longer have the memory, so kind and kind. His own relatives, but also for their own interests, especially the brothers who have grown up, the woman who married out, all feel that they have been remembering for many years, they have no experience at home, he is no longer belonging to this family, he is a person outside this family, the hometown, the land, the mountains and forests do not have him, he comes back, he can live for a while, he wants to live for a long time, it is not OKAY. Between words, if he wants to live permanently, there will be all kinds of contradictions, quarrels, fights.

In Yizi's heart, although he was nostalgic for the landscape of his hometown, and Shangshang, he treated him so cruelly in the face of the people and people's hearts of his hometown at this time, especially his own relatives. In Yizi's heart, he felt disappointed.

After tossing and turning, although Iris did not have much money in her hands, she finally made up her mind and bought a very small house in the city.

Signed the agreement, paid the down payment, and returned the monthly payment. It didn't take long for the house to be delivered, simply renovated, and ready to move in. Although the house is small, it is fully functional and can satisfy people's lives, especially to meet the dream of having a cottage and living a peaceful and smooth life that he longs for.

After experiencing ups and downs, pain, wandering, seeing through people's hearts, and the world was cold, Iko's heart, in the hut, found stability, found the warm feeling he had longed for.

Keiko feels that no matter how her future work changes. No matter how complicated the world is, how the human heart changes, he has his cabin, outside the world, outside the world, on the tall building where no one disturbs, to live the peaceful, smooth life he longs for, is happiness.

The wife went downstairs, in the house, very quiet. Outside the window, there are faintly heard the city, all kinds of sounds, this sound, faintly, let the memory lying on the sofa, as if suddenly back to childhood, listening to the mother's sleeping song, in that long-lost warmth, happiness, the brain has sunk, in the autumn rain, the memory walked into another memory.

Autumn rain pours down. The sky, full of lead-colored clouds. The mountains, in the autumn rain, solemn. The colors of the mountains also began to mix from the dark green.

In the fields outside the village, the leaves of the crops began to wither and yellow, filled with the smell of maturity. The water of the small river is flowing silently. In the village, on the fruit trees, with the fruit hanging, ripe. People's houses with black tiles of earthen walls slept silently in the autumn rain.

The people of the village, because of the autumn rains, got idle. Some people, feeling cold, were in the fire, and when the fire was lit, the roof was filled with blue smoke, rising and dissipating over the village.

In some people's houses, there are people gathered, drinking together, or playing mahjong. Next to it, sat some people, watching. In the house, it is very warm.

Keiko also joined in the bustle, hanging out in the village, this one to that house, in the house where the cards were played, sitting in the crowd, feeling the warmth of the house, and the bustle.

The autumn rain outside the window is still pouring, and the house is getting warmer and warmer.

Yizi sat for a long time, walked out of the house, still wandering around the village, at this time, met the plums in the village, he said to Yizi, it is raining, the wild chestnuts on the hillside fell well, go, go to the mountain to pick up wild chestnuts.

Keiko said, "Okay!

Plum took the bag, and Reiko went back to get the bag, walked out of the empty village, met on the path outside the village, and headed outside the village, on a hillside.

Qiu Yu is slim, with jet-black hair, and two twisted braids that are draped over his shoulders, which is very cute. There is a hair shade in front of the forehead. The eyebrows are dark and the eyes are bright and deep. The bridge of the nose is straight, the mouth is small, and the melon-shaped face is perfectly matched with the facial features, making the plum particularly cute and beautiful.

The path, initially next to the field outside the village, is not far away, the field, the village is behind it, to the uninhabited mountain wilderness. Meizi was with Yizi, following a small path and going to a ditch.

The mouth of the ditch is full of wild willows, and the branches of the willow trees are dense, and although the leaves are dense, they are in the dark green. Under the willow trees, there was a stream, and the side of the stream was covered with weeds, also in the deep green, and it began to wither yellow. Streams, ding-dong flowing, singing songs all the way.

Pass through the wild willows, follow the stream, and go to the ditch. On both sides of the ditch, there were dense trees, and on the trees, there was rain and oil.

The sky is still covered with lead-colored clouds, the rain is pouring down, the mountains are quiet, the rain falls on the leaves of the trees, and it is like singing a silent song. In the ravine, full of natural tranquility.

The leaves of the trees, shielded from the falling rain, under the mountains, there were some small trees, no grass, full of dead leaves.

There are sparse raindrops that fall from the leaves of the trees.

Not far away, gradually, it is all wild chestnut trees, and among the dead leaves under the trees, there are brown-red chestnuts. In some pits, there were wild chestnuts, reminiscences and plums, and he let go of his hand to pick chestnuts. While putting it in your pocket, you can eat it, the chestnuts are crisp and sweet.

Keiko has been with plums, like clinging to each other to pick up. Plum's hands, slender, slender. On the forehead of the plum, there are rain bamboo, and on the plush face, there are also crystal water droplets, and the plum is more and more beautiful and cute.

From time to time, Izuko's gaze and Plum's gaze meet, and Plum smiles slightly, and her gaze is so clear and pure that it makes Reiko's heart warm and jump.

Plums are smaller than Ikeko. It is the people in the village, whose home is facing the river, facing the mountain.

When Umeko was very young, she played with Keiko. Sit on a bench under the eaves in front of the door and play poker. In the courtyard, play chess. Go to the river beach and look for stones. Go fishing along the small river.

Gradually, Meiko likes plums, and plums also have an attachment to Meiko, and when she has the words in her heart, when she is together, she always says them to Keiko.

Later, because of her reading, she was less with Meizi, and gradually became estranged.

It wasn't until Keiko later worked that something happened at home. At work, there is no hope. In love, he did not love him, and the person he loved appeared and fell into confusion and suffering.

In the midst of this torment, Plum appeared in front of Iko again.

Plum is still attached to Reiko, and when she has the words in her heart, she also says them to Reiko. Give back to Keiko, saying this is her inner dream. Speaking of the future, I hope to have a small room, to clean up the house, and to live a peaceful and happy life with the loved ones.

In the midst of suffering, Izuko longs for love, and also understands Plum's heart, knowing that Plum likes him. However, Yizi knew that Meizi was smaller than him, and more importantly, Meizi did not read many books, and there was an insurmountable gap between them, in their hearts, and Yizi felt that until the end, he could not make up his mind to find Plum, it was rare to read so many books, paid so much hardship, and finally found such a person who did not have much culture and did not resonate in his heart? Although the plum is beautiful on the outside, Izuko has not yet reached the point where she has made up her mind to find the plum.

It was also at this time, that rainy autumn, that plum made an appointment with Meiko and went to the mountain to collect wild chestnuts.

Although Keiko knows that there is a gap between him and Meizi, in loneliness and suffering, he can't resist Meizi's enthusiasm and goes with Meizi.

Yizi and plums picked up many chestnuts in one go, and just then, the rain suddenly fell heavily, falling on the leaves of the trees, the sound of fluttering, the rain rolled down from the leaves of the trees, from the gaps in the leaves, straight into the woods, hit the dead leaves, snapped, the clothes were soon going to get wet, fell on the face, like a waterfall, flowing down, fascinated eyes, can no longer pick chestnuts.

Plum said to Keiko, find a place to shelter from the rain!

Keiko nodded in agreement. Just like the plums, clinging to the ditch, go forward, not far away, in the ditch, there is a huge stone, under the stone, there is a big gap, can allow people to shelter from the rain under the stone.

Plum and Keiko burrowed into the hole under the stone. Huge stones, shielded from the falling rain, in the cave, dead leaves on the ground, inside was dry and warm.

The cave, like a hut, became warmer and warmer when it rained like this.

Plum and Keiko, entering the stone cave, put the chestnuts they had picked up aside, and just wanted to cling to them and sit quietly.

The plum's body emitted a unique fragrance, and it drifted over in bursts.

Plum's gaze is clear, her face is fluffy, and there are crystalline water droplets in her hair and face, making plums more and more cute and beautiful.

For the first time, I was so close, and plum was in one piece.

Yizi's heart fluttered, and she didn't dare to look at the plum. And in my head, I think of everything, and I don't seem to think about anything, but such a quiet ravine, in a warm stone cave, feel the temperature of the plum, smell the plum, the unique fragrance that floats out, and in the heart of The memory, there is an inexplicable impulse and desire.

Plum sat quietly, bowing down, and did not look at Keiko.

At this moment, Izuko's hand inadvertently touched Plum's hand, Plum's hand, slender, tender, Reiko was like an electric shock, a shock, a warm current, instantly from the heart, rushed to the limbs.

Meizi did not take his hand away, and The head of The Reiko instantly buzzed larger, a blank, not thinking about anything, the human soul seemed to thresh the body and began to simmer. Izoko couldn't control herself and pulled Umeko's hand, and Umeko didn't refuse, she was very supple and obedient, and fell into Iko's arms.

The body odor of the plum, the fragrance, pounced on The Reiko, making the Reiko dizzy. Reiko seemed to fly in the air, suddenly, tightly hugging the plum, stroking the plum, kissing the plum.

After the entanglement and madness, Reiko woke up from the excitement, from the sky, back to the ground, at this time, saw the plum, that place as tender as a frog, like a blooming red plum, oozing out of Yin's red blood, Reiko knew, plum gave him the truest, purest thing.

Keiko didn't know what to say, and dressed the plum, tightly, tightly, holding the plum. Calling in my heart, Plum, thank you, Plum, I love you.

Coming back from the mountain, Yizi's heart, full of hillsides, and the scene of plums picking chestnuts, also thought in her heart, I loved plums, found plums, and plums together, and lived a peaceful life!

At this time, Yizi went to the county for training, met a peer, let Yizi feel, found love, this girl, is the person in the dream, after a short contact, she resolutely left her hometown, far from her hometown, the girl's unit went to work, dreaming, work and love can be double harvest.

With his love dream, Iko hurriedly left his hometown, and when he left, he did not see Meizi or say goodbye to Meizi.

When Keiko leaves, Umeko knows that Keiko went to work far away from home because she met a peer, for love, marriage.

After knowing this news, Meizi's heart was blank, and her heart was very uncomfortable, secretly shedding tears. However, everything, except for him and Keiko, no one knows, and Meizi can only swallow the pain into her heart alone.

At first, Meizi hated Meiko, hated Reiko's amorousness, and was ruthless to her. However, later, I thought that she did not have much culture and was not worthy of Yizi, and Yizi was because she should go to his peers, have the same greetings, and have jobs. Instead of hating Yizi in his heart, he blessed Yizi in his heart, so that he could get the love he wanted and live happily in the future.

After Meizi came out of the pain, there were people from outside her hometown and outside the mountains who came to her home to propose to her. That place is good, parents are willing, plums are willing. Did not follow the customs of the hometown, said everything, the young man gave the bride price, drove, pulled the sister away, Plum left the hometown, became the bride who did not let go.

At this time, Yizi and the companion, after experiencing the initial excitement and tasting the sweetness of love, went to push him from the peak of happiness to the abyss of pain. That peer, after tasting the sweetness of love with him, did not go to the palace of marriage with him, but married a person in the small county town, and also went to the small county town to work. These are all things that Yizi can't give, just like he resolutely left at that time and left the pain to Meizi, and the peer also left the pain to him suddenly, he had no place to talk, and there was no human taste.

At the New Year, back in the hometown village, Meizi had already followed the young man outside the mountain, in the village, when he saw Meizi, Meizi ignored him, and the young man, very sweet together, it was even more stinging Yizi's heart.

Yizi suddenly felt that the sky was dark, and she could not see the road ahead, could not find the confidence to live, and could not see the hope of living.

After surviving the year, Yizi went to his rural village unit alone with pain. How deep the memory is, how deep the pain is. Yizi did not know how to get out of pain, how to face work and life.

At this time, there was a girl who came to work in the unit, and Iko and this girl met in the spring, and in the summer, they went to get the marriage license. There is no love, there is no love, and it has come together. This girl became The Wife of Keiko.

In a flash, how many years have passed. Between Iko and his wife, although he could not find the love he longed for. However, no matter what happened and what he faced, his wife silently accompanied him, cooked for him, washed his clothes, had something to do, shared it, and Reiko felt, in fact, this is love. True love is not a mountain alliance and a sea oath, a bold word, nor a flower before the moon, but a silent enjoyment, companionship, and the day goes on.

Yizi also feels that love, in the end, is actually turned into family affection, in the flowing years, in the silent stay, companionship, this feeling, has been integrated into the blood.

After experiencing the wind and dust all the way, running, at this time, the important thing is in the city, there is a shelter, shelter from the wind and rain, in the future, no matter what things you face, how much wind and rain, how much rush you have experienced, there is a cottage, there is a wife who is silently accompanied, And Yizi is not afraid, and feels sweet and happy.

In the face of the autumn rain, lying in the hut, listening to the faint sound of the city, feeling the warmth in the hut, facing the autumn rain that is falling, bringing the memory into the memory.

In the face of memory, Yizi's heart was suddenly stinged by something, and her heart was full of guilt for Meizi. I don't know, where the plum is now, is it good. There was the same cabin as he did at this time, and in the cottage, the warm life was not.

2018, 9, 26 draft