The path of the female nurse's depravity, from the little princess loved by the whole family to the loser daughter who her father disliked
Text/Mr. Xiao Han
Figure/ from the network, intrusion and deletion
When the dawn of the sun rises, it means that a new day begins again, seven years ago, I was still a pure little girl, but after seven years, I experienced various real blows, feelings were cheated, unmarried pregnant, beaten as a little three in the street, etc., this is the life I want. Maybe being born in the countryside was a mistake, but who could have changed my birth? No one knows that only you can change your life. And the mistakes I have made are all because of cleverness, perhaps, people should do things honestly and simply be people.
For girls, going to the school of health, being a nurse, is a good choice, at least food and clothing, through their own efforts, can make many people awe-inspired, which is also my original fantasy.
But reality will eventually beat me back to the original form without a family background, from a little princess who was loved by the whole family to a loser daughter who even hated her own biological father, except to use blame to describe herself, there seems to be no good word to describe.
In 1994, I was born in an ordinary peasant family in Yichang, Hubei Province, as the only daughter of the family, even if the family situation is very bad, my parents still spoiled me as much as possible, when I was a child, the family was not good, I liked beautiful skirts, my father would quit smoking to buy for me, see my classmates carrying new school bags, my father would get up early in the morning, and then go to town to buy me the exact same school bag to come back, just so that I could carry it when I was in school.
At that time, I was smart, sensible, and well-behaved, and I understood that it was not easy for my father, so I rarely put forward my own requirements. As I grew up, I also changed from a little girl to a big girl, and the conditions at home were getting better and better every year, because my parents worked in the factories in the south for many years, and although I was a girl, my father still wanted to tear down the earthen houses in his hometown and rebuild a few new houses.
But I am not a good student in my studies, and in addition to not being able to learn, I also feel that learning is of no use to me, because I don't have to worry about my parents getting angry about it. After barely finishing high school, after more than half a month of discussion with the whole family, I was finally sent to the health school to learn nursing knowledge.
In my dad's words: "It's good for a girl to be a nurse, not only has a high salary, but she can also find a good condition for finding a partner in the future." ”
Yes, my parents think it's right to be good, because my parents won't hurt me.
I went to a three-year health school, learned two years of professional knowledge, the third year to go to the internship, the first two years of life is very pleasant, even from the beginning of entering the school there are boys to pursue, but at that time keep in mind the father to give me the instructions: "Don't fall in love at school, wait until you grow up, find a suitable direct marriage, from the pain of lost love." ”
I don't know where these truths come from, whether it is Dad's personal experience or hearsay, in short, in my heart, Dad's words are the truth, and listening to Dad's words is correct.
What really made me realize reality was during my internship.
At that time, many students had family backgrounds, and they all entered the county hospital, the city hospital, and the top three hospitals according to their family connections, while my parents did not have relatives in this regard, even if they tried to find someone, they finally did not find a hospital for me to intern, so they had to go to the hospital for internship.
I have found five or six, and finally a hospital agreed to my internship here, and the person who took me was a young doctor, only in his thirties, who had been booing and greeting me since the first time they met, which was very kind. At that time, I thought that all doctors were like this, but I was wrong, only he was like this to me, and he was not so kind to other interns.
After more than half a year of internship, he began to pursue me, and I also learned the fact that he was married among colleagues, and resolutely refused, after all, entanglement with a husband with a wife would not have any good results. But he promised that as long as I was good with him, he would definitely let me become a regular worker in the future.
From the initial disapproval to the subsequent submission, all this is forced by reality.
I went back to school two months before graduation, and I was in touch with the doctor, but most of the time I didn't manage his hookups. Later, after graduating, watching my classmates enter the hospital one by one, I was a little panicked, interviewed several hospitals, either the treatment was not good, or it was directly dissuaded, there was no chance.
Mom and Dad followed the worry, Mom is a very timid person, for my work, can't sleep all night, and then I chose to promise him, and also entered the hospital as desired, but not a regular worker, signed a two-year contract, said that it was a delay in the military, and when two years passed, it would give me a regular turn.
During this period, the relationship between me and him was unclear, although there was no skin kiss, but after work, it was like a couple, colleagues did not know this, he did not let me mention this matter.
As the two-year contract expired, I started asking him, "When are you going to turn me positive?" ”
He began to play sloppy and said that he was fast, and then one of my girlfriends said that he didn't get what he wanted, how could he give me a regularization, and this relationship between me and him was impossible to have the opportunity to turn right in a lifetime. At this time, he officially confessed to me that as long as he was with him, he was willing to divorce and marry me.
I was convinced that I had become his woman, but still did not have the opportunity to turn right, he told me: "It is not impossible to turn right, how much money I have to spend, I don't have a lot of money, the money is in her control." ”
Lost, unwilling, to this step today, there is no way back.
At that time, I was pregnant, and he asked me to be beaten up, which he did at another hospital that he introduced me through a relationship. But I still hope that I can become a regular employee, and don't have illusions.
I asked my parents for 60,000 yuan to let him go to the point, but the money was adrift, and my parents borrowed 50,000 yuan for me, and this time, it seemed very promising, but when I was shopping on a vacation, I was beaten by his wife with a few people on the street, and after leaving, I threw me a few photos, which were photos of me and him in the hotel.
Shame and anger welled up in my heart, but I didn't dare to blatantly resist.
Time passed day by day, to the fifth year, my parents urged me to go on a blind date, but he blocked, and then my parents knew the existence of this man, I also honestly explained everything, I thought my parents would hurt me, but who knows, my father said that I was something that was not a tool.
The words "not a weapon", a loser's daughter, and shamelessness came out of my father's mouth, very sad, I chose to resign and change careers, went to another city, and completely broke off relations with him, less than thirty years old, but ruined my youth for a scumbag, and later realized that this kind of thing did not only happen to me, but also many girls experienced similar cases.
I have never hated anyone, only blame myself for being ignorant, greedy, playing clever, and hoping that in the future, I can live a simple life.