At the age of seventeen, you look at the withdrawal application on the table and write down your name without hesitation. If you think about it, you don't have to go to school, you don't have to go to school, buddy is free. You're like the day you drank with a couple of good classmates and said we'll always be good brothers and always be together. After returning home, my mother said three children, since you chose not to go to school, then you should go out to work, don't stay at home like this, or your youth will be gone. You thought about it for half a day and said yes, anyway, don't go to school, let me do anything. You'll discuss it later, so let's go to the nearby construction site and then put on your hard hat later. At that moment, you have a fear of life, but more of an expectation for the future. You think I'll be able to mix it up this time. Eighteen-year-old watching the circle of friends post their grades, you silently thought in your heart, if you also went to the college entrance examination, will, what kind of results will be achieved? Don't you have to fight like this? Today's sun is quite big, the bricks of the construction site are particularly hot, and suddenly you feel a stinging pain, it turns out that you just thought too much, and inserted it into the nail. At the age of twenty, you feel that living with your parents, every day under the control of your parents, there is no freedom of imagination at all. So you said I was going to go out and break in, and you said that my parents didn't want to work at the construction site anymore, I wanted to see the outside world. I thought I would be scolded, but I didn't expect them to agree. But then you understand that it's more of a helplessness. The mother said that the third child takes care of yourself, don't take a crooked road, everything is your choice. Hey, I can't handle it, you're so self-conscious. Twenty-one years old you look at those recruitment ads on the hesitation for a long time, and finally you choose a high school graduate, most of your resumes are stone sinking into the sea, birds have no news. I told you to go to work, that is, real estate agents and insurance companies. In order to get a promotion and a raise in this cold city, you start working part-time, tired to death every day, with income running away from rent and water and electricity, and there is little left to eat. You say why I worked so hard, why I still got nothing. Twenty-two-year-old parents can't stand it, so you have to hurry to find a formal job, just last year to do part-time work with you friends to go to the machinery factory. You have the attitude of trying it out and it becomes an assembly line. Now the hospital does simple and tedious work every day, and the income is only a little more than last year. This year, your former brother also graduated, you want to ask him out to play, click on WeChat only to find that the last chat was two years ago. You laugh, maybe the gap between people and people starts here. At the age of twenty-three, you met a girl in a factory, and her previous life was like a pool of stagnant water, and after he broke into your world, this plate of water came alive. You go to work during the day and go out together at night to eat fried cold noodles and fried sausages, and you feel very happy. Back under the street lamp, you hugged him and said, it's good to have you, we will never be separated, never give up. She said, husband, I love you too, until the age of twenty-four came home forever, she called you and said, husband these days every three forks, I did not beat my home. I really can't do anything, I also went to see a few boys, don't be angry. But no matter who I saw, I still wanted you to break up with you at home, and I didn't agree. Husband, I miss you so much. As if at that moment, I met the love of my life, and I made up my mind that I must be with you for a lifetime, I must be good to you and make you happy. At twenty-six you fell out of love because the family didn't agree to you being together at all. He also got to know the factory manager's son, and on that rainy day, he said I had enough of sitting on a bike, I had enough, I ate grilled cold noodles with you every day, I was fed up with not even having a toilet in this little room. You cried, you cried very sadly, maybe from that day on, you began to really grow up, and since then, you have been in a bad mood every day, and your work has often made mistakes, and finally you have to resign. You learn from the people on TV, take out the meager savings of the year, and let his Classmates in the Dali circle of friends also start to take travel photos. The difference is that they work well, have a high income, and don't have to empty their wallets for a trip, while you give it all. At the end of the twenty-seven-year-old New Year, your parents forced you to get married immediately, and you were once again added to the blind date market. You look at the girl in front of you without much expression and without much talk. Then I thought about it for a long time, and you said that we might as well try it together. In fact, you know that your life is like this. At the end of the year she was pregnant, and you got married in a hurry. Although you are not together because of love, it is only a little bit of a relationship after a year. Maybe that's the only relief. Twenty-eight years old your child was born, and that's when you found out that the cost of chai rice oil salt sauce vinegar tea was so high. The bride price received at the time of marriage was also quickly spent, and this month's salary was not paid for a long time. You clicked on your brother's WeChat, thought about it for a long time, didn't know how to open your mouth, and then turned off your mobile phone. Fortunately, he asked for some money at home, and you finally survived the first winter. For the first time in your life, you find out how to be thirty years old, he was a stay-at-home mother for two years, you were unemployed for two years, and boys can go to kindergarten. You think that finally someone can have to share a little, two or three years no one to help, the heat is too delayed. Every time he was paid, he hated that you earned less and your brother was useless. But you don't know what to say for the sake of your children, and you put up with it for the sake of your family. You told him the truth that day, if you go out and look for a job, don't look for too tired, even if it's so rare. He said what are you in a hurry, who let me make money? I've been tired for so long, can't you just let me take a break? At that moment you are silent, and you feel that you are particularly like a sinner, or that particularly incompetent. Thirty-five years old, honestly this is very critical, let your child go to cram school, you calculate all the income in the family want to give up, but the impact everyone falls in love with. In the end, he signed up hard. You failed in your promotion this year, because most of your colleagues are college students, you don't have enough education, and you are in tears on the way home. The tears of men in their thirties may contain helplessness, helplessness, heartache, pity, and a trace of impotent desolation. Forty years old, your work efficiency has not kept up with the young colleagues in the company. The company said Li Ying, you are not in a good state, go back to rest and rest. In fact, you know that you have been expelled, during this time you run a car as a substitute driver, you are like in your twenties, at that time shoot out part-time. The difference is that this time it is more hard. When you come home late at night, your wife hates you for coming back late, and you earn less, and you almost quarrel with us. Life is really a grain of loneliness. Forty-five-year-old children are admitted to college, and your relationship with your wife has finally eased up a little, and your life has improved a little, but it is still not crazy. Because of these years when children go to school, the elderly see a doctor and make their income low. You guys have a dirt that's better than a soldier, I don't know when it's going to start, and you're studying it when you're okay now. Lottery you wish god would take care of me once, even if it was just a little bit at a time. Fifty-year-olds are starting to work too, and you finally see a glimmer of hope. When you come home, it's late at night, and you suddenly find that you can't do it, and you have to admit that you are old. You think about gritting your teeth again and not working hard, and I insist on paying a down payment to my child, and I will not do it. Until later, what supports you is one cold night after another, in fact, it is also one helpless riddle after another. Sixty years old your child was also born, you finally said happily, I finally became a grandfather, you finally became a grandmother, let's stay up. But they soon spent all the gift money. The child called and said, Dad get me some money, we have no living expenses, you don't even think about taking out half of the savings, just so that you are not hungry. You say to him, O child, you must remember that you are not poor to eat, and you are not poor if you are not poor. You are still young and victorious, and then count the money for a few points, don't make a big fuss. The other side said I know, I know, I'll give you a call, you look helpless, confused. At the age of seventy, you haven't seen your grandson for a long time, and the grandson who thinks about it day and night hasn't called you. You said to him that day, boss, I want to see the children of the Banlan franchise is so busy at work, don't add to the chaos. Yeah, for a while at this age, putting the grandson on hold became the only concern. At the age of eighty, you are lying in a hospital bed, and the people around you are solemn, and you understand. That day you had a dream, dreaming of your life, you were thinking, why I am not happy in this life, time began to flow back, you look at the bits and pieces of the past, there is no wave in your heart. The picture suddenly came to the summer of seventeen years old, you looked at the withdrawal application on the table, you loudly scolded the parent-child boy, don't personally, you quickly throw it away. Unexpectedly, he actually heard the boy throw the paper in his trash can. The picture came to the examination room of the college entrance examination, he finished the last question, he covered the pen and looked at the moment, with the pride of the sword received into the sheath on his face.