I said to My Papa at the beginning of the year, "After being with you, I feel like I've become a joke."
As Liu Ye once said, he used to be melancholy, and because of his current wife Anna, he became cheerful, even like a comic.
I am the same, because of Pang's father, a taciturn person who has become more and more cheerful after entering marriage, even to the point of being like erha and comic.
Marriage is strange, it can make a person wither, it can also allow a person to be healed.
It is worth your waiting and watching.
In early 2008, I ended a relationship that didn't work out, but I wasn't quite out of it yet.
In the middle of the year, I bought a ring with a hollow pattern of a cross in a bookstore, put it on my hand and said to the Lord, "For the wrong person, this ring can block out many bees, flies, cockroaches, and bed bugs for me, but the person you are going to give me will not recognize me because I have the ring." You know, I am actually surrounded by men, because the shipping and boating are all men, frankly speaking, on my own, as long as I am slightly feminine or ambiguous, it is not difficult to find someone, in fact, at that stage, a number of people with a lot of money, heads and faces have come to me. But I've decided I don't want that, and I want the Lord to prepare for me. It often happens that when I go out to work, the crew or the owner asks me, "Are you a married Marie or an unmarried Marie?"
In this way, I put on this ring that I called the "Ring of Chastity" as if I had cut off my own back road, and I wore it for 6 years (until I got married in April 2014).
At the end of 2008, I met Pang's father, who was only a brother in the church at that time, and called Brother Pang good.
As I mentioned in God As a Matchmaker, I burst into tears the first time I saw Him, because the Holy Spirit moved in me and He knew that this man had appeared.
After that, God began to reveal to me again and again that "it is Him":
In 2009, after a Sunday meeting, four sisters came up to me on the same day and said, "I suddenly feel that Brother Pang is a good match for you."
At Easter, another brother took a picture of us very casually, and at the moment someone said, "How does it look like a wedding photo?" (It was our "head photo of us learning and teaching, and it was also our first group photo") I couldn't imagine that after we were together a few years later, this photo was really used by us as a photo on the marriage license.
In 2010, I attended the "Ladies Camp", during which an Indonesian teacher and mother laid hands on me and prayed, and as soon as she prayed to me, the picture appeared, because at that time, I was still giving up, still fantasizing that I might be able to marry him one day. But the picture that appears is the chain and the chain that is broken. I can't help but disconnect, but I can't help it in the picture. Immediately after these chains were broken, Brother Pang appeared (at this moment, the Indonesian master and mother were still laying hands on me and praying, in Indonesian, and I don't know what she was talking about). But what came to my eyes was a picture of me and Brother Pang serving, working, and getting along together, like a movie, but beautiful and quiet.
I said to the Lord, "Lord, He is not worthy of me. ”
The Lord answered, "It is you who are not worthy of each other." ”
In 2011, I went to Taiwan and thought it would be good for the Lord to prepare a Taiwanese brother for me.
Just thinking about it like this, as soon as I checked into the hotel and turned on the TV, the boot screen jumped out of Brother Pang's English name, which really frightened me. For the next three days, every time the camera was turned on, his name popped up. Later, I learned that this was the brand of Taiwanese television, and the Lord actually told me again in this way, "Who is it?"
In 2012, Pang's dad said:
I originally worked with Ms Mariechen at a company. In 2012, I left her company to avoid Ms Mariechen and went elsewhere. The reason I wanted to leave was more to avoid her. Previously, God had begun to reveal to me that "this sister will be your wife in the future," and I had not prepared myself. My new colleague said to me, "Go to so-and-so to get money," and that "so-and-so" is Ms Mariechen's Chinese name. To know that Ms Mariechen's Chinese name is not ordinary to fish all over the street, it is unlikely that three words are exactly the same. I was shocked at the time, and later learned that the company's finance was called so-and-so, and the three words were exactly the same as Ms Mariechen's Chinese name, and I was really frightened, thinking that I could not escape her Five Finger Mountain wherever I fled.
Later, every time I read the biblical proverbs on the virtuous wife, the figure of Ms Mariechen inexplicably came to mind, the kind of appearance that came up again and again:
Pr 31:10 Who can get a virtuous woman? She was worth far more than pearls.
Pr 31:11 Her husband trusted in her heart, and there was no lack of profit,
Pr 31:12 She spent her life benefiting her husband.
Pr 31:13 She searched for cashmere and hemp and worked willingly by hand.
Pr 31:14 She is like a merchant ship carrying grain from afar,
D 31:15 She rose before dawn and distributed food to the people in the household as a servant of labor.
Pr 31:16 She bought the land she wanted and planted the vineyard with the proceeds of her hands.
Pr 31:17 She braided her waist with her power to make her arms strong.
Pr 31:18 She felt that what she was running was advantageous, and her lamp would not go out all night.
Pr 31:19 She holds a twisted pole and a spinning wheel.
Pr 31:20 She stretched out her hands to help the needy and the needy, and reached out to help the poor and needy.
Pr 31:21 She didn't worry about the snow because the whole family was wearing scarlet clothes.
Pr 31:22 She made herself an embroidered blanket, and her clothes were made of fine linen and purple cloth.
Pr 31:23 Her husband was known to all the people as she sat with the local elders at the gates of the city.
Pr 31:24 She sold her linen clothes and sold her belt to merchants.
Pr 31:25 Power and majesty are her garments. She smiled at the thought of what would happen in the future.
Pr 31:26 She spoke wisely, and she had the law of mercy on her tongue.
Pr 31:27 She observes housework and does not eat idle meals.
Pr 31:28 Her children rose up and called her blessed, and her husband praised her,
Pr 31:29 Says, "There are many virtuous women, but you are more than anything!" ”
Pr 31:30 Beauty is false, beauty is vain, but a woman who fears jehovah will be praised.
Pr 31:31 May she enjoy the proceeds of her operation, and may her work glorify her at the gates of the city.
Meanwhile, in 2012, I started dreaming one after another at night.
Once, in a dream, Brother Pang cut off a double eyelid, I said why do you cut your double eyelids, and he replied, "Because I don't deserve you, so I want to make myself better." ”
Once, I dreamed that I was walking through a passage in a white veil, and the camera of the road was waiting for me, brother Pang.
Once, I dreamed that I was pregnant, and someone came to congratulate me and asked me who the father of the child was, and I replied "Brother Pang" in the dream.
Know that I don't dream because I think about him during the day and at night, I don't think about him at all.
...... In this way, the dreaming of the latter night has reached the point of affecting my daytime work, because this person has been "disturbed" to the point that I can't stand it, so I once again seriously ask God:
If he really is, you give me real confirmation and words today.
On the same day, I walked in the subway passage of People's Square, and the billboard along the way was "Holding the Hand of the Son, And the Son with the Old Man".
Walking to the subway, another billboard jumped out "Love Bloom 2000".
"These are all advertisements, not count. Tell me in the words of your Bible. "I still don't give up.
After saying that, I opened the Bible in the subway, not casually flipping through it, but continuing to read the place I had seen the day before. I happened to be reading the Book of Revelation, and the verse popped up, "You are like a bride dressed up, waiting for your husband." Reading this, I couldn't care less about the people in the carriage looking at me, and I put the Bible together and cried wow.
After calming down, I took a long breath and continued to read, and the following verses were even more frightening:
"You have to write it, because these words are credible and true."
I cried again...
After that, I went to Ireland. On a trip to the Cliffs of Moher, I heard locals say there are sometimes rainbows, so I asked the Lord again. I said to the Lord, "Marriage is so big and important, I don't want to make a mistake, just as I am a little letter, I really want to ask for clarification." Last time, I ask you one last time. If he were, it would also allow me to see a rainbow today (a rainbow is a sign and a promise from God to Christians). ”
That day, I saw seven rainbows...
After the last time I saw it, I closed my eyes and the tears flowed down...
In February 2013, Pang's dad sent a text message:
Are you the one? (Are you the one?) ）
In fact, we had been absent for two years at that time, and he fled to a mountain in Zhejiang to escape from me—Daniel College, of course, for further study in the Lord.
He quotes this quote from Matthew 11:3, which is Are you the one who is to come, or should we expect someone else? (Is it you who is coming?) Or do we wait for others? He didn't say it all, but I saw what he wanted to ask. At the same time, it also instantly solved my question for so many years--did the Lord say "it is him" to me again and again when he said "it is him"? What God has prepared must be something that moves both sides, not unilaterally. So why didn't I see him coming to me? Or hint at me? I even think he's better to the other sisters than to me? It turns out that the Lord moved me and moved Him at the same time.
However, instead of answering him directly, I deliberately set a barrier, and I replied: "Are you drinking?" Or is it because you are lonely only brother in the mountains? He sent a message again: "None of them." In fact, I have been thinking about this question for many years, and I am asking you very seriously. ”
In the spring of 2013, after confirming each other, he sent a message from the mountain quoting Hosea 2:19 "I will hire you forever to be my wife, and with benevolence, fairness, love, and mercy, I will employ you to me, and I will also hire you to me with honesty." ”
Contrary to the Tao of the world, we decided to get married and then started to fall in love.
After that, we asked for a confirmation that if we could work together and both parents blessed us, we would get married. (But no one around us said anything, lest people open the way)
In the same week in the winter of the same year:
On Wednesday, he called to say that his teacher was transferring him from a mountain in Zhejiang to a window job in Shanghai;
On Thursday, my mother inexplicably said to me on the subway, "I see that so-and-so and you talk very well..." (my mother didn't like him before);
On Friday, he called me and his mother called from Guangdong and said, "The beautiful girl who received us in Shanghai last time, if you like people, go talk, don't delay people's time." (And before, his mother was also very unoptimistic).
Wow, thank God. We know the time has come.
After he returned to Shanghai, we went to the Hengshan Road International Chapel to worship together. When it was over, he said to me word for word before God, "Marry me"—no rings, no flowers, no knees, only a great cross between him and me—and I agreed.
People around us knew and began to remind us that we had to book a banquet in Shanghai a year in advance. Thank the Lord that God is prepared for invincibility. We started looking for venues in January 2014, not in early 2015, not in late 2014, but in April 2014 – expo mexico and the whole pavilion was ours. The person in charge of the banquet said that it was a coincidence that you came, and yesterday a couple of newcomers who had been waiting for a long time suddenly canceled and let you in.
We both knew it wasn't a coincidence, it was God's preparation!
After marriage:
Ms Mariechen: You say, how did you treat me so coldly in the first place? How I think you are very good to others, is the most indifferent to me.
Papa Pang: Because you're different, I see you nervous. I also deliberately restrain myself.
(Ms Mariechen said to herself: Just like I later listened to Gao Haozheng sing "Don't Alarm Love", "I want to touch you, so avoid you.") I'd rather use the distance to make you curious. Avoiding the look first secretly gasping for breath, he ordered his arm to be placed in place."
Papa Pang: Why were you so serious when you used to work? So unbearably?
Ms Mariechen: Because you're my brother, but I can't just be my brother and be on the Internet at work. And what if I'm particularly nice to you and you like me? I couldn't figure out whether it was because my actions were touched by me or what. I just want to be mean to you on the basis of fairness and justice, and if you can even fall in love with me like this, I really know that your love is touched by the Lord.
Ms Mariechen: Why didn't you ever hint at me before and didn't come to me?
Papa Pang: If you say you're not moved, and you say you're not, then we'll be embarrassed later, and we'll be church co-workers and company colleagues. Besides, I see that you have almost everything, money, a house, friends, wisdom, good work... The only thing missing around me is a man, and I am so good, so good, I said to the Lord, am I born and grown up to fulfill her? Even good men have given it to her, then she really has everything.
Ms Mariechen: How can you be so narcissistic?
Papa Pang: I just think I'm fine.
Ms Mariechen: What I said this year (at the end of 2014) is the sum of my last decade.
Papa Pang: Hmm.
Ms Mariechen: The Lord healed my taciturn and withdrawn personality through you, through marriage.
Papa Pang: Thank you Lord. I'm also a withdrawn personality and don't like to talk, but I can say it in front of you.
Ms Mariechen: Well, there's a lot of talk.
Papa Pang: Two weird people together.
Ms Mariechen: Yeah.
Someone asked, what is the difference between the first and second year of marriage you know and the 6th year of marriage you know? Didn't God tell you "it's TA" in the first year? Isn't it a waste of time to wait for 6 years inexplicably?
There is no waste, but good.
First, a major matter you ask for clear questions, or even repeatedly. Because once you're married, if you get it wrong, it will be very costly.
Second, we have not been in vain in the past 6 years, we have not been in love, but other relationships have been in, we know each other in the church, we know each other in work. And not alone, but with a group of friends, not only to avoid temptation, but also to see a person's true face. And often, when you are in love with someone, the other party will often deliberately show you his good side to show you. Pang's father's good or bad, I already know the roots. The reverse is also true.
Third, it is better to run into each other before marriage than to enter into marriage and then run in. Although they will still run into each other after marriage, the big head has already been dealt with before marriage. How pathetic it would be for a woman to stare at a man after marriage and ask him to change, thank the Lord, the Lord has made him change during these 6 years through Daniel's brother and teacher, and the nagging man is not me. The reverse is also true, my change is not because of his nagging, but each other first change, deal with some things first, and then enter the marriage.
I pulled out the same Papa Pang thing when I was sorting through my belongings:
Ms Mariechen: Is this yours?
Papa Pang: Yes, the vows made at the "men's camp" before.
From another place, I took out an identical card and said, "This is mine." ”
We both hugged and laughed...
P.S.
All the above records are true testimonies, and none of them are exaggerated or fabricated. In fact, there are so many other testimonials in the middle that we can't count them all.
Please brothers and sisters do not copy it, thinking that the process of Christian love to marriage must be like this, because God's guidance to everyone is different, but some of these principles can be used as references.