"I have a daughter who runs the rivers and lakes."
Ma Lanying said this for many years, until her daughter married Xing Liyuan and lived a normal life in her eyes, she did not say it.
It is not difficult to see from this that she has never supported her daughter's entry into the entertainment industry.
The feelings in this world are the most complex, and there will be subtle differences in emotions between different objects.
For example, father and son are like enemies, mother and daughter are incompatible, etc., but by nature, even if there are obstacles, they still can't stop the strong bondage of family affection.
When she was young, Ma Lanying, beautiful and peaceful, had the simplicity unique to Shandong girls, she only wanted her family to be safe, her life was stable, and she spent her life calmly and plainly. But life seemed to have played a big joke with her, dooming her to drift for half her life, to experience life and death, so that later, she became a little worried, and even greatly insecure.
Finding Lin Weiliang, who is a military doctor, she thought that she could settle down for a lifetime, but with the change of the situation, they had to experience a life of wandering and displacement, and due to the suddenness of the incident, they had to abandon their daughter Lin Li, who had just been born not long ago.
For Ma Lanying, she was just a grown-up child, but now she had to face the separation of mother and daughter, which made her heart feel insecure since then, and she did not know what her future self would face.
Being in a foreign island in Taiwan, walking on the street is a strange look and unconscious prevention, a poor living environment, everything must start again.
Ma Lanying did not dare to think about whether he could or could not, but he was being pushed by life.
After that, she gave birth to 1 son and 2 daughters in succession, and the arrival of a new life not only did not dilute her thoughts of her eldest daughter, but also made her worry about her stomach.
In order not to breed right and wrong, she taught the children to keep to themselves and not to take the lead, even if anyone praised the child, she would have an inexplicable uneasiness.
But who knew that she had given birth to a little beauty who was loved by everyone, she was the second daughter Lin Qingxia, too delicate facial features, and a pleasing personality, which always made Ma Lanying have an ominous omen. And the husband Lin Weiliang has the unique open-mindedness of the northern Hanzi, to have such a beautiful and well-behaved daughter, it is too late to be happy, he can not understand the wife's inexplicable worry.
Therefore, Lin Qingxia had a particularly good relationship with her father as a child, and she also thought that she was most like her father regardless of appearance and personality, but she had an indescribable sense of distance from her mother Ma Lanying.
Whenever she proudly ran home and told her parents who praised her beauty, her mother always poured cold water on her cold face and coldly told her that the person was talking nonsense, and her sister was obviously more beautiful than you.
Ma Lanying used repeated beatings in this way to make her daughter not show off, but Lin Qingxia was more and more out of the ordinary, and the distance between her brothers and sisters was getting wider and wider.
And Ma Lanying's worries are also getting worse day by day, and finally one day, the thing she is most worried about has happened.
It was an era of literary and artistic flooding, but also an era of talents and beautiful people, and the scenes were fresh and beautiful, and the love that loved to the death and came back to life was constantly staged. So many people revel in the crisp love songs, romantic and beautiful big screen, lingering love poems, Lin Qingxia, who is cardamom years old, also yearns for this experience, imagining that she will one day also have a vigorous love.
Soon someone came to her and hoped that she could act in a movie, which was simply dreamy for a young girl, but it was a nightmare for Ma Lanying, who was safe and self-contained, she was afraid of being known, afraid of being jealous, she only wanted the family to be safe, and her daughter had to light the most dazzling fire, she was not angry.
So the mother and daughter began to fight, no one paid attention to anyone, Ma Lanying was even more angry, bedridden, did not do food, housework did not clean up, let the children and husband try to persuade, she felt that she was defending the family, she was guarding everyone, but in the eyes of her daughter, the mother was simply a bit unreasonable.
But how could the scout easily give up such a good seedling, so he also joined the army of persuasion, he understood the girl's mother's concerns, so he made various promises, and finally Ma Lanying wavered.
After this, Lin Qingxia filmed "Outside the Window", and then filmed Liu Jiachang's "Cloud Fluttering", originally thought that letting her daughter experience it quickly ended, who knew that her daughter was on fire, ma Lanying was both unwilling to face it and had a premonition.
When filming these two works, Ma Lanying accompanied her throughout the whole process, from the finalization of the contract to the details of the shooting, she would participate in the opinion.
She felt that she was not troublesome herself, but protecting her daughter, but in the process, she also gradually understood the filming process, coupled with the persuasion of others, and began to become less resistant to her daughter making movies.
But she knows that compared to the work itself, what is more sinister is the human heart, after all, there are not a few female stars in that era.
After that, Lin Qingxia signed 12 works in one go, often having to run around in various transitions, while Ma Lanying continued to accompany her throughout the whole process, and she did not see any tiredness at all, just like a warrior on the battlefield, full of fighting spirit and vigilance.
As Lin Qingxia continues to become popular, in addition to filming, some commercial activities have also begun to find her, which makes Ma Lanying start to worry again, she is afraid of the ill will of others, afraid that her daughter is not strong enough, so she always sees stitches and needles to remind her daughter who is confused in her eyes.
At a tailoring ceremony, Lin Qingxia and the popular actress Zhen Zhen attended together, and seeing the popular actress who exuded mature charm, Ma Lanying did not forget to hit her daughter.
"You look at people, that's called stars, how beautiful people are, you look at you so thin, your skin is loose, you still have to make movies, aren't you afraid of people's jokes, go home with your mother after filming!" 」
"I really hope that the movies you make don't sell well, so that no one will look for you to shoot anymore, and if you really can't shoot movies, you can go back to study." 」
At that time, Lin Qingxia was very humiliated and aggrieved, and she really couldn't bear it.
Where are you like that? When people are mothers, they all want their daughters to become red. ”
But it is also her mother's constant blows and knocks that make Lin Qingxia never lose herself in her work, she always strives to do her best, and will not be proud of her growing fame. In fact, in her bones, she wanted to prove to her mother that she could do a good job and win the respect of everyone.
Later, her daughter gradually became a real star, and seeing that she was getting better and better along the way, Ma Lanying finally stopped interfering in her daughter's career. Her life with her husband is very simple, and it is completely impossible to see that she is the family of the big star.
Perhaps in her heart, as long as her daughter is still in the entertainment industry for a day, she will not be assured, not showing off and not causing jealousy, has been engraved in her blood.
In her later years, Ma Lanying was deeply troubled by depression and finally left this world on December 4, 2002, when Lin Qingxia rushed back to Taiwan from Hong Kong and kept her emotions hidden until she went to the funeral home to see her mother's body, and the tears finally came out of her eyes.
This woman who loved and killed herself, who had been silently guarding herself all along, and now she was leaving in such a way, how could she not grieve as a child, but perhaps such an ending was also a relief for her.
After so many years of ups and downs, Lin Qingxia deeply realized at this time that her mother's caution and even some disgusting beating were actually the most intimate protection for herself.