In college, the most common emotion is "loneliness".
A person gets up early in the cold winter, a person goes to the canteen to eat,
One person goes to squeeze the subway, one person goes to the big classroom, one person goes to the playground for a run,
Even a person goes to see psychological counseling, and a person goes to the hospital for follow-up consultation and medicine.
Many times, we will feel ashamed and embarrassed about our own state alone, how can I fall into "only myself", how bad the popularity is, and even doubt my own thoughts.
To be honest, I often had this feeling in college, every time I went to the canteen to eat, sitting alone, I always felt that others were looking at me, and the eyes seemed to be saying, "You see, that person is so pitiful, you can only eat alone." ”
So every time I go to the canteen to eat, I swallow it up, solve it in three or two bites, and just want to eat quickly and leave quickly.
Later, I found that I really thought too much, and no one would pay attention to you at all.
People generally have a kind of psychology, that is, the "spotlight effect", always feel that others are always paying attention to themselves, looking at themselves, and staring at themselves.
In fact, people are narcissistic, everyone is most concerned about themselves, there is no need to hahahahaha.
But the feeling of loneliness can be said to be something I deeply experience.
I didn't mean to be out of the group, you thought I was lonely, I just wanted to be comfortable.
I haven't been in a good state lately, and I feel as if I've been out of shape all the time.
Halfway through the blink of an eye, I always feel how I am so sad!
I have always said that I want to raise my spirits but I have never had spirits, and I have to behave in front of others every day, and I have to be as lively and cheerful and energetic as they say.
I don't know when it started, probably some not very good experiences in high school, resulting in my current inability to get along with others normally in some cases, I began to like to be alone, and when someone was around, it would seem very uncomfortable and embarrassing.
Try to enjoy a person's life.
Read idle books, write some text, make a cup of hot black tea, curl up on a stool, cross your legs, hold a warm water bag, and watch good books and videos.
I'll also go out for a walk, go shopping, eat good food (eat two McDonald's ice creams alone) for a long time, or be bored alone and look out the window.
I remember climbing the stairs to the classroom one morning, a female classmate who passed by me asked me, "Did you rub a lot of flower dew, the smell on your body is so strong." ”
I remember that at that time, I turned on my own small desk lamp every night in the dark dormitory, there was no air conditioning, but there were mosquitoes, and I couldn't let the mosquitoes affect my study, so I painted my whole body with flower dew.
A bottle of flower lotion was used up by me in a short time, and I could even smell the strong smell of flower lotion on my body.
The three years of high school were the darkest three years of my life, not for any other reason, but for real, really, I was so tired!
For three whole years, I did not relax for a day, and for three years, day and night, no one knew how I survived those lonely nights.