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Aunt Lin, 50, is a live-in nanny with an income of 7,000 per month, a relaxed job, and supposedly a very comfortable life. In the face of the envy of her friends, Aunt Kelin could only swallow back the words she wanted to say.
Narrator: Aunt Lin, 50 years old
I am Aunt Lin, 50 years old this year, and my monthly income is not bad, enough to make me live well. In my spare time, I hang out with friends, who are very envious of me, easy work, and a lot of income.
I feel very depressed about this, I know my own business, although the job is very easy, I am not very happy, but always want to escape from the employer's house.
Friends only see my superficial brilliance, but who knows the pain in the dark, I can only experience it myself, and I can only digest it by myself.
That day, I met with my friends again, and my friends talked about their discomfort at work, and at the end of the day, they said that they were particularly envious of me, that I had such a high salary every month, and that I had so much free time to do what I liked, and that I often had time to invite them to dinner. The employer is good to me, I don't need to always guard him and so on.
Listening to the envy of my friends, I can only smile wordlessly, my work is relaxed, I don't need to pay too much physical strength and time, but my heart is tired.
The employer is good to me, that is purposeful, not to be good to me for no reason, he wants to have something, so he is willing to give up, willing to give me a high salary.
I like money, the more money I am happy, even if I suffer some grievances in the middle, I have to endure, because I can't bear it, I have to leave, there will be no high income, and I will worry about my old age.
I don't want to live that kind of day of looking at people's faces, especially when people are middle-aged and elderly, watching their wives look at the faces of their children and daughters-in-law, which makes me unable to accept it.
I think that I was also a flower in the eight townships, and the people who chased me were not good, but I was finally attracted by my wife's rhetoric.
After I started a family with my husband, I learned that living a life is not the same thing as being chased. Falling in love is a matter for two people, and living a life is a matter for two families, and it needs to be considered too much.
Entering the marriage, I no longer have that kind of spirit, and gradually I am tied up in the trivialities of life, even if I regret it.
In order to regain my youthful state, I chose to be a nanny in my 40s, just because of my high income, I can have some money to spend, and I don't have to live the day that I can't buy today and the day that I can't eat tomorrow.
My current employer knows my mentality, so he hangs me with money, gives me a high salary, does not limit me to guard him, let me stay in his house as a live-in nanny, and endures his sometimes excessive demands.
Getting used to the days of high income, easy work, and asking me to go back to the kind of days where I was calculating the expenses, I wouldn't adapt to it, and it wasn't what I wanted.
I want to live the day I love, I want that feeling of being full of energy, and that makes me feel young, energetic, radiant.
Some people say that since this is your choice, then you have to suffer, you are willing, the employer's harassment of you, but also your own willingness to tolerate the attitude, let the family feel possible. But I would like to say that who does not have that little idea in their hearts.
Many times, I also ask myself, what qualifications do I have to pursue that kind of wanton life in middle age, and what is the use? Why can't you live a down-to-earth life, you are not young, you can still not know yourself, to pursue something that has no meaning at all.
But in my heart, I am not willing, I am not willing to live a plain life, and I am not afraid that I will not have money to use in the future.
The reason why I am willing to endure is also because of the high salary, and there are also compromises after considering reality. I still have the capital, I can still be liked by my employers, willing to give me a high salary, I should seize this opportunity. Even if there is bitterness and discomfort in it, you must endure it.
If you want to get something, you need to pay something, there is no lunch in the world, and some things hurt and can only rely on yourself.
In the dead of night, my heart is restless, and many times I want to give up, I want to run away from my employer's house, but where can I escape.
Can I meet a good employer if I escape from here, and can I have a high income? Whose life is not mixed with sour, sweet and bitter, not moving forward in the wind and rain.
Everything is for a better life, for the sake of old age, in order to no longer look at other people's faces in their old age.
When people reach middle age, they have long since lost their wanton capital, and some are just various choices. We all have our own difficulties, but we have learned to face life no matter what, we must smile, we can cry secretly, but we will not cry in front of people.
Maybe I should be satisfied, at least I have the conditions that others don't have, I can get a high-paying job, it's easy, why bother.
In the sea of life, we are all using our strength and desperately living a better self.
Write at the end
In life, nothing is smooth sailing, if you want to get something, you must pay something, high salary will not be in vain, always need to pay more.
Human desires are infinite, and when you are filled with money and other desires, you cannot find peace in your heart. Only by being willing to be ordinary and learning to control one's desires can it be possible to achieve peace.
We must learn to be content and content to be happy. When you don't know, when you make certain choices in order to want more, don't dwell on it, because it doesn't help, it's better to run it well and live the current life.
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