In the long process of six years of lurking, Zhou Yi and Gu Qiuyan lurked together in the name of husband and wife, and together they raised Gu Qiuyan and Zhang Pingru's daughter Sasha, and together they set out to report and complete the task. Having gone through many life and death trials together, there is no doubt that they have confirmed their eyes and spiritual derailment.
In such an environment, Zhou Yi had to face the same scrutiny and suspicion as Gao Bin's magnifying glass every day, collect all intelligence under the premise of protecting himself, and silently protect the revolutionary comrades.
This high-pressure, oppressive spy life forced him to become a chameleon outside, good at lying, and disguised himself. It also forced people like him, who have a high IQ and high emotional intelligence, to see people talk about people and talk to ghosts; sometimes he knows that it is a trap designed by Gao Bin, and in order to better lurk, he watches his comrades being hunted down and imprisoned, but he cannot reach out, and his mental pressure can be imagined.
Man is not a machine, not a cold machine that can run non-stop with oil, he has feelings, perceptions, and more feelings. If a revolutionary is ignorant, emotionless, and only knows numbness to work, he is not a person, but a walking corpse.
Zhou Yi and Gu Qiuyan were revolutionary comrades-in-arms, working on one front, all the disguises outside, returning to their temporary home, the warm house, they could all temporarily unload, taste tea, drink wine, chat together, and encourage and ridicule each other, so that they could live a good life, so that they could continue to fight.
As the days went by, they went out on missions together, she was responsible for sending the newspaper, and he was responsible for safety and protection. From the initial mutual exclusion to the later tacit cooperation, this is the precipitation and accumulation of time.
Feelings are also slowly breeding in the lurking day after day, they are all loyal to their own families, ideal and rational, know that taking a step forward, for the two families and children is an unmanageable situation, so, confirmed the eyes, they feel sorry for each other, silently love each other, do not say.
Neither Zhou Yi nor Gu Qiuyan realized, or did not face this feeling from the heart, when the parting came, they began to examine their hearts, and when the revolution was victorious, they ended the lurking mission, and after they returned to the family, the original parent-child relationship would be broken, and the two children would have to face a strange father, could they accept it?
Sasha is the baby that Zhou Yi has held and loved since she was a child, can she accept the sudden emergence of her father Zhang Pingru? What if Sasha can't accept or even reject Zhang Pingru as a father? And Zhou Yi only verbally said that he was going to evacuate Sasha's life and let Sasha call other people's fathers, he was uncomfortable and heartbroken, and there was deep reluctance.
Jia Qiao has been a child without a father since he was a child, and in his consciousness and concept, he has no father. Her mother's lurking identity is a widow, how is he going to face this strange man who suddenly appears, and still have to call him Daddy? The impact and impact on the child will be immeasurable.
Six years of lurking, Zhou Yi and Gu Qiuyan, Sasha is already a family, Zhou Yi also made it clear to Old Wei, looking at his son Jia Qiao, he is very strange, there is no sense of intimacy, he has not participated in the growth of Jia Qiao, there is no clear appearance of children in his mind, all this makes him dazed and feels terrible. Instead, he had loved Sasha as his own daughter.
Once feelings arise, they are not transferred according to the will of the individual, and here they include both love and affection.
If reason tells Zhou Yi and Gu Qiuyan that after this period of latent work is completed, they will all leave this home, and all the people and things and experiences in the past six years are illusory hallucinations. Each of them returns to his spouse's side, and reminds himself all the time, not to recall the past, it is all false, for the revolution and work need to be temporarily pretended, it is easy to withdraw from the body of living together, how difficult it is to erase the memory of up to six years.
If they can do it, after returning to the family, they unconsciously miss each other, miss each other, and always think of each other's figures in their minds in the bits and pieces of daily life, and remember a warm word that the other party said, then they are really machines without temperature.
Such a family, a thousand-year-old encounter, such a beautiful and pure feeling, such a confirmation of the derailment of the eyes, is really a special existence, this is a kind of love between comrades-in-arms, a kind of you know me, I know your support, but also a kind of rational restraint loyal to their respective families.
Cheating makes people repulsive, and spiritual derailment is sometimes more than physical betrayal, but this feeling of Zhou Yi and Gu Qiuyan is not a spiritual derailment in the general sense, it is a mutually restrained love in that special environment, which makes people repulsive.