"I've been here, I'm very well-behaved", these 6 words are a suicide note written by an 8-year-old girl to herself, and she used these 6 words to end her life.
She Yan, an orphan, from the moment she was born, her biological parents threw her into the wilderness, and on her body she had nothing but a piece of paper that read, "12:00 p.m. on the twentieth day of the tenth month of the lunar calendar", but fortunately she met a man who guarded her all her life.
On November 30, 1996, She Yan was found by She Shiyou in the grass next to a small bridge in Shenjiachong, Yongxing Town, when she was found, she had already been frozen to death because of the cold weather, looking at this little baby, She Shiyou was once very hesitant, because the family was poor, She Shiyou, who had already reached the age of marriage, had not started a family, if she saved this little baby, then her already poor life would be even worse, if she did not save, then she would freeze to death in this ice and snow.
After several struggles, She Shiyou sighed, and finally could not let go of this little baby and carried it home.
She Shiyou, who brought the baby home, named the child She Yan, and due to the poor family conditions, She Yan was somewhat malnourished, and could even be said to be frail and sickly.
But She Yan has been very intelligent and sensible since she was a child, and the neighbors are very fond of this sensible and well-behaved girl.
When she went to school, She Yan knew that she had to study hard, to take the first place, to make her father proud, and she never let her father down.
The days passed like this day by day, and although the two lived poorly, they were also full of joy and laughter.
But the good times were always short-lived, and She Yan suddenly began to get sick.
Since May 2000, She Yan always has an involuntary nosebleed, and sometimes when washing her face, the water in the basin will turn into red water, and the more the blood flows, the more she can't stop it.
She Shiyou took her to the township health center for injections, but in addition to nosebleeds, the needle eyes also bleed, and there were many red dots on her legs, and the doctor in the township said: Hurry to the hospital to see!
They came to the big hospital in Chengdu, which was at the peak of medical treatment, and She Yan's family was not on the line.
She sat alone on the bench and pressed her nose, the nosebleeds flowing straight down, she picked up a bedpan to catch blood, and in less than 10 minutes, the blood in the basin was half half.
When the doctor saw the situation, he immediately took She Yan to carry out various examinations, and the examination results showed that She Yan had acute leukemia.
She Shiyou, who heard this news, was confused, how could his daughter get this disease when she was young?
But now is not the time to think about this, She Shiyou only has one thought: to save his daughter, but in the face of high medical expenses, She Shiyou has no way, but in order to save his daughter, She Shiyou borrowed all the relatives who could borrow it, and was ready to sell his adobe house, but because the house was too broken, the house could not be sold for a while.
Faced with the high cost of hospitalization every day, looking at his daughter lying on the hospital bed, She Shiyou's heart is like a knife every day.
She Yan looked at her father and said a sentence that shocked She Shiyou: Dad, I want to die.
She Shiyou couldn't believe that this was his 8-year-old daughter's words, and he asked her with tears in his eyes: Why did he say this?
She Yan said: I am a doll that I picked up, everyone says that I am a lowly life, I can't afford this disease, let me be discharged!
Listening to her daughter's childish words, She Shiyou had long been unable to cry.
On June 18, 8-year-old She Yan replaced her illiterate father and wrote in one stroke on her medical record book: "Voluntarily give up the treatment of She Yan."
No one knows what kind of mood She Yan and She Shiyou who wrote this sentence are in, but why doesn't She Yan want to live? But reality made the 8-year-old girl give up her life.
After returning home, She Yan made two requests to her father: she wanted to wear a new dress and take another photo.
She explained to her father: "After I am gone, if you want me, you can look at me in the photo."
The next day, her father called She Yan's aunt to accompany her to the town, spent 30 yuan to buy two sets of new clothes for She Yan, She Yan herself chose a set of pink short-sleeved shorts, and her aunt chose a white red dot skirt for her, and she tried to put on her body and was reluctant to take it off.
The three of them came to the photo studio, She Yan was wearing a new pink dress, her hands were in a V gesture, smiling hard, and finally she couldn't help but shed tears.
She Yan, who had already given up treatment, ushered in another important person in her life.
A reporter named Fu Yan learned about She Yan's story and wrote a report entitled "8-year-old girl obediently arranged the aftermath", so that the people of the whole country knew that this little friend named She Yan was also touched by her story, and spontaneously donated money for her, hoping to save this poor little girl.
In just ten days, more than 100,000 yuan of donations were raised, and She Yan's life seemed to see hope.
On June 21, She Yan, who gave up treatment and returned home, was re-admitted to Chengdu Children's Hospital for chemotherapy.
The pain of chemotherapy is unbearable for adults, let alone an 8-year-old girl?
But She Yan showed that she was very strong, not crying, not screaming, which made her attending physician very moved.
Looking at this strong little girl, her attending physician Xu Ming said to She Yan, Be my daughter!
She Yan's tears could not stop flowing at this moment, and this sentence was so precious to She Yan, who had never experienced maternal love since childhood.
When Dr. Xu Ming came to She Yan's bed the next day, She Yan shyly replied: Mother Xu.
Xu Ming was stunned for a while and replied happily: Daughter is good.
She asked She Yan: What do you want?
She Yan thought for a moment and said: I want to have a pair of red leather shoes, paired with my white socks, just like Snow White.
Xu Ming took a taxi to a children's clothing store and bought She Yan a pair of red leather shoes and two pairs of white socks, and She Yan was very happy with new shoes and new socks.
Chemotherapy lasted for two months, She Yan broke through 9 ghost gates, infectious shock, sepsis, hemolysis, gastrointestinal bleeding and other complications, but She Yan every time he was murdered.
This set of chemotherapy programs was jointly discussed and formulated by experts across the country, and the effect was very good, and everyone was looking forward to the good news of She Yan's recovery.
But with the chemotherapy going on day by day, She Yan's body was somewhat unable to bear it, and she was already weak, after such a long period of chemotherapy, her health was even worse.
On August 20, 2005, She Yan handed Fu Yan a math workbook and said: Auntie, this is my suicide note.
Fu Yan was taken aback and quickly opened it to see that inside was a 3-page suicide note written by She Yan in pencil.
Inside is her hope for her father after her death, hoping that he can live well, and also wrote a thank you for the help of well-wishers in society, and wanted to donate money to other people who were deeply suffering from illness after her death, so that they could recover as soon as possible.
This suicide note made Fu Yan burst into tears and could not cry.
On August 22, due to the aggravation of gastrointestinal bleeding, She Yan could no longer hold on, even if everyone tried their best to rescue, this little angel finally left us.
On August 26, her funeral was held at a funeral home in the eastern suburbs of Chengdu, and the cremation hall was filled with tearful citizens.
People wanted to send this girl who was abandoned at birth and voluntarily gave up treatment after suffering from leukemia, and they came from all over to make this little girl no longer so lonely.
And on her inscription it reads: I have come, I am very good.
After She Yan's death, according to her last wishes, the remaining 540,000 yuan of medical expenses was left as a gift of life to 7 children with leukemia, the oldest of whom was 19 years old and the youngest was only 2 years old.
Just like a netizen said: Child, you are originally a little angel in the sky, open your little wings and fly obediently!