Maybe it's the best relationship in the world

A long time ago a friend told me that his biggest dream was only to be secretly loved by his crush, and to this day I have long broken off contact with that friend, but I was secretly surprised that I remembered such a sentence so clearly, and I didn't know if his biggest dream had come true. Life will never be like a movie, it is full of regret and uncertainty, we have the shadow of the male and female protagonists in the movie, but we don't necessarily have their ending.

Suddenly wondering what you're doing at seventeen? Because when my friend said that to me, we were all 17 years old. Were you the first lovers at that time? Is it because the girl tosses and turns and can't sleep? Was it kissed her face thinking and she could ever be? Fast forward so many years, after going through college, after graduation, after we have seen so many betrayals, separation stories, can we still say "I love you" to others? Was it the vows that you said most seriously at that time, or was it the I love you that you said to the hard-won people after you drifted and matured years later? I have never gotten an answer to this question.

That year, you always complained that the food in the canteen was too poor, the homework was always not finished, and the physical education class was always occupied by the class teacher. That year you liked someone, maybe she was not good-looking, her grades were not as outstanding as Shen Jiayi, maybe you liked her just because she smiled and said something to you at the school gate that day, you liked it so much.

That year you ran around for her birthday but quietly didn't let her know; that year you chatted with her on the phone until dawn, in fact, you were already sleepy enough to open your eyes; that year you sent her home, she told you that we would be good friends for a lifetime, right, Sheng Sheng held back your confession.

You always deliberately create all kinds of "chance encounters" in school to make her think that you are destined for fate; you always pass on notes half a class to whisper your own; you hear gossip about you in the class, you pretend to be angry but secretly happy that your names can be linked.

But then what?

Maybe you started the relationship, maybe you didn't, maybe there was another him next to her, or maybe you spent your youth liking each other and didn't get together. At that time, I always thought that I could be together after graduation, but when I really graduated, I couldn't find a reason to be together. Later, at a class reunion, you finally said to her, "Actually, I liked you at that time", she stared at your eyes and nodded vigorously and said " I am too", but you who got the answer only smiled and couldn't tell whether you were sorry or sad in your heart. The years are thieves, and I'm sorry none of you can go back. You think she must have understood the Time Machine you ordered, and you think she must have heard your heart say to her, "Thank you, goodbye."

After "Those Years" was put on the screen, my friend Li Jing also talked to me about the books I secretly read in class at that time, and now they have been made into movies. At that time, I never understood Shen Jiayi's words: "There are many things in life that are futile, but we still have to experience." ”

In the blink of an eye, 4 years have passed, and year after year has flown far faster than imagined. After graduation, she went back to her alma mater, where the previous classroom was still in class, and my biggest headache was physics; the playground was crowded with people on the basketball court; the boys and girls in the hallway were secretly whispering; the canteen, the conference room, the red teaching building, everything was business as usual. I suddenly understood that the other name of the original youth was futile. It has not changed, it is just a stop we passed, we passed it is gone, but there will be people passing by this stop in the back. But after we passed, we couldn't go back, we could only watch from a distance, secretly nostalgic.

Such a futility, as much as I liked her at the time, as she waited for a long time in the cold wind to wait for me, just as we were separated in the end. That year we finally went to see a Mayday together, when you were most sad that year, I couldn't be with you, and that year you said that we were not small and could not be more willful. That day I went to the concert alone; that day Chen Xinhong sang the song again; in the early hours of that day you called me, and I heard you suddenly missing you there, but none of us spoke.

That day, Li Jing and I stood in the playground lamenting the old time, but saw the younger "we" desperately squandering. Another futile aspect of youth is that no matter how you live, cherish it with your heart, live it bravely, and then look back and feel that what you did was not good enough.

Love will come again, but the protagonist is probably not the one you loved in your youth. Old friends will leave and new friends will fill in, but the memories of youth can only be shared by former classmates and old friends. The most regrettable thing is that youth will not come back, and the best days have passed.

But I still pay for the movies about the old times, because youth is just a rain, a cold, but I want to go back and shower again. Even if we know that too many things are in vain, even if we know that one day we will become silent adults, even if we know that one day my end with her will be nothing more than separation, maybe worse, strangers, but we will still do it, we will still start that relationship.

At the end of the day, you're just willing to gamble, and for that person, you're willing to gamble and lose. In your youth, you can meet the person you are willing to gamble for her, she is willing to accompany you when you are most ignorant and young, how lucky are you to meet that person, so why give up your rights because you are afraid of losing?

There is no relationship in this world that is not torn apart, the difference is only in how you see it.

Some people are destined to just put it in your heart and disappear into your life. You know from the bottom of your heart that you love him, even though you can't remember what he looked like. Because this love is so deep that you once thought you would not forget it. Until one day you find that the thoughts that are piled up in your heart have unconsciously become invisible. At least she had made me feel that meeting her was a blessing to be given.

So, where will you be in the next four years?

Youth had slipped away while I was still thinking about what youth was, and suddenly I felt that the so-called seventeen-year-old, the tangled seventeen-year-old, the lonely and hot-blooded seventeen-year-old, was so much like an illusion. Maybe one day you will suddenly think of him, the man who made you look forward to tomorrow, but did not appear in your tomorrow at all. You think of the feelings of seventeen years old, and suddenly laugh out loud, how stupid you were at that time, but it was worth it.

Miss that person, maybe this is the end of this life. After the ebb and flow of the tide, after the sadness and sadness, mayday was left behind, along with my so-called dreams, to accompany me through every morning and every dusk. People who have lost their fate are not easy to meet even in the same city. Memories are getting more and more beautiful, but the old times have trapped you in it and can't get out. Yeah, how beautiful the past was, how awkward it was to be alive. But just as you're immersed in your memories, you're missing out on one person after another. How many people do you have to miss to meet the person who is really right.

Maybe one day we will find that what we miss so much is only our original self. So how many people guard someone in the name of a friend, in each other's best time?

That year, a tidal wave called youth overwhelmed us. At low tide, I sat on the beach soaking wet and watched my favorite girl wave her hands vigorously and happily walk to the other end of life. The next wave will take away the beautiful footprints that the girl left on the beach, but I am still there. The girl's appearance engraved in my heart will still be there.

Maybe the best feeling in the world is that you like her, she likes you, and you don't get together.