Once familiar celebrities roll over because of negative news, the most common comment is: Aaaah, my childhood filter/feelings are broken!
If it is really broken, sigh and quickly turn the page. The most frightening thing is that I want to pick up those pieces and try to piece them together again, but I find that I have been cut with blood and hurt for the second time
Today's fans of Ayumi Hamasaki are about this mood.
For mao? Because the Japanese music diva, in yesterday's sudden self-exposure, today's semi-autobiographical novel, for the first time exposed a love affair with record label president Katsuhito Matsuura 24 years ago! Detailed how they met for the first time, dated, went to bed for the first time, broke up...
The point is, Matsuura Katsuhito now has a wife and children! Ayumi Hamasaki's Qiongyao romance style writes this relationship beautifully, but how do the wives and children in people's reality have to face it?
This love affair was originally a flower in the fog, and the two sides never confessed love. Who would have thought that 24 years later, the star himself personally put the hammer to blow himself up, and the old melon has a new way to eat!
Today, let's walk into the confusing emotional world of Asian Singer: "Do you dare to ask, like me crazy about love?" ”
Scared, afraid, afraid not to dare.
——I am the dividing line of forbidden love——
Ayumi Hamasaki's name may not be familiar to young children, but the peak period of people will not be easily forgotten by the times. She was the first Japanese singer to win the Japan Record Awards for three consecutive years, and the first Japanese female singer to tour Asia for two consecutive years.
As a former trend leader, the Japanese nail art, brown curly hair and leopard print trend all started with Ayumi Hamasaki. Originally, her album cover had a fox tail hanging over her jeans, and the streets were filled with all sorts of furry tail ornaments.
Although in the past two years, Ayumi Hamasaki's hidden tendency to become swollen has been complained about by many people, the appearance value is indeed not as good as when he was young.
But this Asian singer has absolute strength, a glorious past, fans all over the world, and a billion yen mansion with a yoga room, a huge bathroom and a cloakroom, and last year also exposed a suspected boyfriend, who is 21 years younger than her and only 19 years old!
At least in the eyes of our ordinary melon-eating masses, this sister has put out all aspects of the conditions, and can completely slay the whole scene.
However, in the autobiographical novel that Ayumi Hamasaki has just published today, the dazzling and shining Diva on the stage, when he and Matsuura Katsuhito fall in love, it is actually the humble "Zhong Wuyan" written by Lin Xige: "Without your permission, I will love and wish each other a soft heart or allow me to kiss." ”
Katsuhito Matsuura, Ayumi Ayumi's mentor and owner of her record company, was removed from the board of directors in 2004 after being accused of embezzlement. At that time, Ayumi Hamasaki stepped forward and said that he would advance and retreat with Matsuura Katsuhito.
At that time, forced by the strong influence of Ayumi Hamasaki, the company finally saved Matsuura Katsuhito. At that time, everyone thought that this was Ayumi Ayumi's righteousness, and 24 years later, I knew that this was love
Before the autobiography was released, Ayumi Hamasaki admitted that his first boyfriend after his debut was tomoya Nagase, who was also an idol.
In 2008, a gossip magazine broke the news that Ayumi Hamasaki's love was not Tomoya Nagase, but his mentor Matsuura.
In the version at the time, Hamasaki seemed to be on the side of the initiative: Matsuura fell in love with her at first sight and obeyed her words, and Matsuura bought her whatever he wanted. But at that time, the two did not admit it, so they did not have a real hammer.
But now, in Hamasaki's autobiography, she directly confessed that she had a secret love affair with Matsuura for four years before falling in love with Tomoya Nagase, and unlike the rumors, Hamasaki was the active and humble one from beginning to end.
The autobiography writes that 17-year-old Ayumi Hamasaki came to Tokyo to develop, met Katsuto Matsuura at a nightclub and fell in love with him, the point is that when Hamasaki fell in love with the man at first sight, Matsuura seemed to be married.
Later, the man divorced and returned to singlehood, Ayumi Hamasaki took the initiative to confess, and the two began to communicate and live together. When the love between the red singer and the producer, the age difference is 15 years, and the public is facing many difficulties, so she can only start an underground love that cannot be told.
The first letter of Matsuura Katsuhito's name is M, and Ayumi Hamasaki uses M as his code name and saves his number. Record the number of times he calls in the small book, he fell drunk and fell into the doorway of the house, and Hamasaki lay with him...
Ayumi Hamasaki picked out clothes for Matsuura to take home every day, but he still didn't come back when the clothes were piled up in ashes. Running to him, I found a bunch of women sitting in Matsuura's studio... Ayumi Hamasaki was devastated and ran to the hotel where the two reminisced about it and closed it for three days.
Even Ayumi Hamasaki's insistence on taking the path of music was given to matsuura. Feel the small passage of Qiong Yao's love in Ayumi Hamasaki's autobiography: "This alone is enough, as long as I have this statement from someone I believe, I will be enough to live." ”
"I lived to spend time with this person, to spend time with this person—the years that went through with this idea, as if it were yesterday."
In her autobiography, Ayumi Hamasaki said that after seeing Matsuura with other women, she shut herself in the hotel for three days and wrote "appears"; in the four years of her secret love affair with Matsuura Katsuhito, famous songs such as "M", "Boys & Girls" and "Vogue" were all records of their ulterior love affair.
It sounds like a story of an ignorant little girl who is deeply in love with the big guy in the entertainment industry and grows up in humility, right? But Ayumi Hamasaki chose to publish it today, and the story has changed at all.
If it is only an autobiography, it is not wrong to tell your own emotional history. But the problem is that Matsuura Katsuhito remarried as early as 2003 and had a wife and children. Ayumi Hamasaki suddenly capitalized a close-up of how he had given everything for him in the first place, how he had humblely loved him, which was also too inappropriate!
Matsuura Katsuhito is currently married and has children, Hamasaki Bu was also suspected of having a small boyfriend last year, the two did not want to break the mirror to reunite the meaning, Hamasaki Step chose to write a book to tell the love story of the other party many years ago when the man's family was happy, many of her fans hate Iron Chenggang and want to scold: Nong Brain Watt?
Second, for fans, it is a real dream.
Take Hamasaki Bu's famous song "M", many people were moved to tears when they heard this song, but now they are personally told by their idols that M is the abbreviation of the male protagonist of unrequited love stored in Hamasaki Bu's address book, and this song is also an underground love song, a song of sleep?!
Childhood fresh memories suddenly turn into dog blood story will, who can accept this ah!
For Hamasaki Bu, the love and time with Matsuura Katsuhito is "a deep love that does not hesitate to self-destruct"; but she suddenly exposed herself after 24 years, and for fans, the love and time related to Hamasaki Bu are ultimately wrong.
——I am the dividing line of the former queen of heaven——
Although Ayumi Hamasaki's work made people look black with a black question mark, most fans expressed their confusion and shock, but turning over her love journey, can't help but make people sigh, tianhou's emotional detours and dizzy operations, only increased.
She is a person who is extremely eager to love, her father left home at the age of two, in order to reduce the burden of her mother's single family, she began to work as a child model at the age of 7 to subsidize the family.
These hard-working pasts were even so sad that they didn't want to be mentioned for a while, hoping to be sealed forever.
It was a poignant beginning, but she ended up turning people's lives into an inspirational story: as a singer, her hearing went wrong early on, but she insisted on performing on stage, even if the tinnitus was so severe that she couldn't tell the direction of the left and right.
Two hours before the tour began, due to tinnitus, Ayumi Hamasaki lost his balance and fell into a large pit on the stage and broke his left leg.
The injured Ayumi Hamasaki was rushed to the hospital, and just as the staff was ready to cancel the performance, Hamasaki returned in a wheelchair.
She insisted on finishing the performance, and took the medicine on her left leg to perform on stage. The painkiller's effect was only one and a half hours at most, and the concert lasted for two hours, and even though the effect of the drug faded, Hamasaki still jumped and jumped on the stage, and the fans offstage did not find anything unusual. The concert is also considered one of the best performed by Ayumi Hamasaki.
She conforms to all the world's imaginations of female celebrities: beautiful, powerful, rich. In the eyes of the world, such a female star should be a dashing and independent big woman in film and television dramas, love to love, not to love to pull down, how cool.
But in fact, Ayumi Hamasaki, who has lacked love and is sensitive and fragile since childhood, can strive to play a good Asian singer in his career, but in love, he still can't do the same slay as on the stage.
She once said in an interview with Time Magazine: "I am a commodity at all, I am just trying to realize other people's dreams." ”
Queen Tianhou is the dream that the world wants her to achieve, and being a beloved little woman is Hamasaki's own dream. Outsiders envied her status as a queen of heaven, a toilet with diamonds at home, and affluence at home that ate matsutake mushrooms like rice,
But for Ayumi Hamasaki, if you can't choose happiness, no matter how successful you are, even if you have fame and property, it is meaningless.
Therefore, at the beginning, she desperately supported Matsuura Katsuhito, there were 50 meters wedding dress, 70 kg diamond skirt, known for luxury concerts, after Matsuura offended the company, the funds were sharply reduced, the old clothes were sewn and repaired for another three years, and she did not say a word of regret.
At the peak of her career, she met tomoya Nagase, a male star at The Janis Studio and lead singer of the tokio band. The exposure of the love affair between the two popular idols was a bombshell for the Japanese music scene, and the stock price of Ayumi Hamasaki's company Ai Hui fell by 10% overnight.
They survived the controversy for seven years until they announced their breakup in 2007. For a long time afterward, Ayumi Hamasaki would cover the couple's tattoos behind the two.
It was not until 2016 that the beautiful back photos of the tattoos were re-exposed in the ins.
Shortly after breaking up with Tomoya Nagase, a magical thing happened to Ayumi Hamasaki. Her ex-boyfriend in middle school actually broke the news of her marriage with her mother, which surprised everyone around her.
Mom and her ex-boyfriend are in love, that Hamasaki step love pinch?
On New Year's Day in 2011, she told everyone that she had found a beloved husband, Schwarz, who was known in the United States to shoot MVs.
However, perhaps because of the foreign country, quarrels and conflicts between two people also occur from time to time. Schwarz gave Hamasaki a nude photo album dedicated to his wife, but Hamasaki saw that he had exposed his body in the photo album and was very disgusted, thinking that his husband should not do such a thing.
After the earthquake in Japan, Hamasaki, who was concerned about his homeland, chose to divorce. The divorce statement was written in a crisp and resolute manner: "The future I have in mind is what else I can do in Japan, not with his future in the United States." ”
The ex-husband took nude photos, which was inconsistent with her life plan, so he chose to break up; the new boyfriend Uchiha I haven't been sweet for a long time, it was exposed that I suspected of having a wife and an illegitimate daughter, and Ayumi Hamasaki inexplicably became a little three?!
Fortunately, it was later clarified that it was only a misunderstanding, but the relationship still did not last long. The so-called breakup to see the character, after breaking up with Ayumi Hamasaki, the endogenous I not only revealed that I had 500 girlfriends, but also justifiably excused myself for finding an affair.
What's even better is that he talked about his affair with Hamasaki Bu in the show after the breakup, and it is said that he also received a large sealing fee from Hamasaki Bu before!
She thought that the American Master of Medicine association she met later would be her final destination, but last year she announced her divorce again, which belonged to Ayumi Hamasaki's second marriage and would "go their separate ways" from then on.
Ayumi Hamasaki's love affair is really rugged, hurting money and hurting the body. These love affairs that did not come to the end, containing the complexity of dog blood, accompanied by the aggravation of her ear disease and the regression of the state of her voice, made Ayumi Hamasaki step by step from a pioneer of an era to a middle-aged aunt who is now ridiculed by many melon-eating masses.
In 2015, when Ayumi Hamasaki talked about the collapse of CD sales and the popularity of the past in an interview, he couldn't help but cry, but the harsh Japanese netizens did not buy it, spitting on her: "Is this acting?" ”
This time, when the tour is in full swing, Ayumi Hamasaki himself has come out to expose his old love affair with Matsuura Katsuhito, and it is difficult not to associate this inexplicable behavior with keywords such as comeback and hype.
When 21-year-old Ayumi Hamasaki was asked why she wanted to sing, she said: "Because she wanted to find a place of her own." And now, the era no longer belongs to Ayumi Hamasaki, there are more new people on the stage, the love she has been looking for is still uncertain, where is this place that belongs to her?
Her first studio album, A Song for XX, was sung: "Can I be a kid forever, where I'm coming from and where I'm going to go." ”
Since being a child forever in the first half of the sentence is an unfulfilled wish, I hope that in the second half of the sentence, Ayumi Hamasaki can find the answer as soon as possible.