While he was alive, I was a noble concubine in his harem, and a joke throughout Kyoto, because we never had a round house in our lives.
Before his death, the two of us looked at me eagerly, and instructed the eunuch not to forget to give me a meal when it was time, because Concubine Hui Guifei could not help but be hungry. He touched my head, "Good little love, don't be sad, Brother Zai just went to find your eldest sister..."
I was in a trance back in the autumn of my childhood, the emperor was still a carefree prince, he took a piece of cake from his arms and handed it to me, and the crystal clear rose cake throbbed the whole first half of my life. But he never loved me, and if there was an afterlife, I would never have known him.
In the mind of Brother Zai, the candidate for the crown princess should be my eldest sister, the noble daughter of Kyoto, my concubine of the Choi clan - Cui Yuanzhen. She was the daughter of a concubine, from a noble family, and had received a new education. And the prince is a male talent and a female appearance, a match made in heaven! And I am her sister, witnessing the love and hate of the eldest sister's life.
Cui Yuanzhen is a very vivid woman, different from my stereotypical nature. When I wrote a poem in five steps, she sneaked down the koi pond in her house in three steps, "splashing water", a project that all girls would not learn, for which she was beaten half to death by her father.
In fact, in earnest, it should be the three of us green plum bamboo horses, but halfway through the middle, the eldest sister began to talk and did not count, and when she was nineteen years old, she was filled in by the empress. Therefore, the empress of the emperor is Xiao Yu, not my Cui daughter.
Dad once said that a woman should be virtuous and virtuous, but she is not sticky like Cui Yuanzhen. She will pretend to be a man and sneak out to play with the prince, will ride a foreigner's bicycle, will dance with a foreign man in cuddling and hugging, and will accompany the prince with all the pressure.
I was envious of her, and I was also jealous of her, and to be honest, if I were a prince, I would choose her instead of mine. After all, Cui Yuanzhen has only one person, unique and irreplaceable. But a famous girl like Cui Yuan'ai grabbed a big handful, and every one of them was the same.
The most annoying person for the empress dowager today is Cui Yuanzhen, she is proud and dares to love and hate. He is knowledgeable, has many ideas, and even dares to criticize and discuss the political situation, which is a big taboo for women to discuss politics in the royal family.
Moreover, the arrogance and rebellion of the eldest sister are far more than that, and she even shouts at the city gate when the prince is on the expedition, "I will marry you when you return triumphantly!" ”
There are not many brave women like this, and I dare not think about it, because I do not resist hunger!
On the day Cui Yuanzhen returned, she was locked up in the firewood room by her father and was hungry for eleven days. If I hadn't sneaked pastries all the time, she would have almost had a spirit in the sky! But Dad said that he was saving her, and he was also saving the full door of the Taifu Mansion.
In the days before the crown prince returned to the dynasty, the former emperor suddenly ordered the Eastern Palace to make Xiao Yu a princess and I a side concubine. How absurd, at that time, the prince was not in Kyoto at all, and he was inexplicably forced to get married. He also married two women at once, but unfortunately they were not his beloved.
I know the eldest sister, she is undoubtedly proud, and she still needs to consider the position of wife, let alone being a concubine. A month after the big wedding, the prince returned, and he stood in silver armor in the light rain of apricot blossoms, like a god's face, which was even more profound and charming under the baptism of war.
I said, "The marriage is not what I want, are you credible?" ”
The prince squinted at me, as if considering whether he needed to kill people or not. Once upon a time, looking at Cui Yuanzhen's face, he also had good words for me, and he would let me softly call him "Brother Zai!" But now I see only disgust and alienation in his eyes.
I looked at him in despair and said maliciously, "Now that you have a wife and a concubine, my eldest sister is so proud, she will never bow her head." You're done, you're done! ”
His slender fingers were sharply knotted and slammed into my neck like a poisonous snake spitting out letters, lifting me up, ready to end my life. I had trouble breathing and coughed intermittently. The rain became abrupt at this point, dividing us into two different worlds, and I knew that I was afraid that in this life I would never be able to go near him again, and I would not be able to express my heart to him.
The prince returned to the dynasty, quarreled with his mother and queen, quarreled and made trouble, and endured him. After all, there is only one crown prince, but there are many princes, and there are two princes, five princes, and seven princes under the knees of the empress dowager alone. Zai Yi was not happy to pull down, the position of the middle palace, there were many princes queuing behind him, so he recognized.
Zai Yi spent half a year to coax the eldest sister, exhausted all his strength, and threw away the royal face.
Xiao Yu's father is today's yipin champion Hou, the big miss is very violent, and Zaiyi is three days to move his mouth, five days to move, the East Palace is like living in a gong and drum team, every day to renovate.
And I'm like an outsider, every morning I just need to think about what kind of supper to use, and no one will listen to my words, right?
Cui Yuanzhen had the audacity to collude with Prince Zaiyi outside. She was my sister-in-law's sister-in-law, and I came to the door several times to advise, but she only made me jealous, jealous that she had been pampered by Zaiyi, and even sneered at me. I told my father in a rage, I never expected to make a big mistake, my father was angry and attacked, and he died.
Unsupervised, Cui Yuanzhen gradually boldly built a villa with Zaiyi on the outskirts of Beijing, often posing as a princess concubine, and daring to feast on the wife!
On that day, the crown prince was suddenly ordered to accompany the emperor on a hunting trip, and I felt that things were different. Before I could leave the house, Xiao Yu came to my room, and the big horse and golden knife took the next person and put me under house arrest.
"Cui Yuan'ai, you are a smart person, you should know that she can't live..."
I was shocked, "She is the prince's beloved, you and I can never move, otherwise there will be endless troubles." ”
Xiao Yu is the tiger woman who kills decisively.
"She must not be left behind, otherwise it will be a scourge to you and me, to your Taifu Mansion, and even to the Crown Prince!"
"How do you say that?"
Xiao Yu raised her head and smiled sarcastically at me.
"You know what? Last month, she dared to invite the courtiers to a private banquet with the prince in the courtyard on the outskirts of Beijing, in a vain attempt to implement the new policy..."
My head buzzed and I slumped on the ground. Then she is damned! Did she want to drag everyone to Huangquan together?
It wasn't until after noon that Xiao Yu got up to leave.
"Cui Yuan'ai, if I were to keep you moving, you would still have your mother, brother and nephew..."
The snuggly servant lifted me up, and I sat down at the table in despair. The former emperor was not in the palace at that time, and could only be the hand of the empress dowager. Just like What Xiao Yu said, my Taifu Mansion still has a bloodline, and I absolutely cannot be rash.
"Go, tell me to prepare the meal in the kitchen."
"What? Master..."
I tapped the table, "Don't you hurry up, haven't you seen that it's already past noon?" I want meals..."
That day, I ate a whole pork knuckle, four lion heads, a cold plate and a bowl of mutton soup by myself. I threw up all myself, lying on the edge of the table, spitting and crying. "Eldest sister, eldest sister... This is the last time I call you, may you go all the way..."
When Zai Yi returned to the palace, he also happily brought me a deer leg, and I just looked at him stupidly. When he saw the white flowers on my sideburns, he was stupid at once and rushed out of the city gate. I tried my best...
Later, the former emperor collapsed, and Zaiyi soon succeeded to the throne, because he did not have the courage to oppose his mother-in-law, who was a woman with sharp eyebrows. Although it is said that now that I am older, my beauty is no longer there. But the beauty in the bone is no longer skin, can bear half of the country for the former emperor of the woman, is definitely not a general generation.
Xiao Yu's means of managing the harem were very hard, but he still couldn't stand the absurdity of Zaiyi. Except for concubines, he liked everything. The servants sweeping the floor in the courtyard, the slaves who washed the clothes, the dancing maihimes, and even the ugly slaves who brushed the toilet in Xinzhiku, he took them all according to the order. Angry, Xiao Yu vomited blood and became Zaiyi's wife for seven or eight years, and she didn't even touch Zaiyi's body, of course, I didn't.
Sunrise and sunset, the moon rising, another day. Zai Yi was still drunk, the empress dowager was eager, I had already seen it, Zai Yi was incompetent, if it were not for the ancestral ritual law, she would hate to replace it.
"Cui Yuan'ai, what are you doing?"
Zai Yi kicked open my door and walked in shakily.
I pointed to the plate on the table, "Have a supper!" ”
"Eat, eat, eat, now that you are also a noble concubine, how come you have nothing to do except eat all day, are you a pig?"
I rarely straightened his body seriously, pressed him on a stool, filled him with a bowl of soup, picked up chopsticks, and murmured, "Concubines are noble concubines, noble concubines of Cui Province, and also rely on Cui House." Therefore, we must eat, eat enough, live strong, and let them rely on them for a lifetime, so that my Cui Mansion can stand firm..."
Zai Yi seemed to be stunned at once, and his eyes darkened, "You are such a small family, unlike your eldest sister, who is a woman with great talent and great ambitions." ”
I clipped a chopstick elbow skin entrance, smooth and bouncy teeth, the aftertaste is mellow.
"Yes! It's such a strange woman! It was a grave sin to dare to encourage the emperor, who was still the crown prince at the time, to carry out a restoration and privately win over the courtiers. You are of dragon descent, the prince of Banzai Grandpa, and you must be carefree. But I Cui's door will inevitably be full of cuts. Under the nest, Ann has finished eggs? Wondering if your odd woman could have thought about her parents? Can she think about her brother and sister? Could she have thought about her bloody nephew? ”
Zai Yi listened and angrily said, "Hui Guifei, you are slandering her!" You know, now that you are the emperor, the son of heaven of a country, once the golden mouth is opened, it is still a trivial matter for you to overthrow the Cui Mansion in the blink of an eye! ”
I did not hesitate to take another sip of tea, it is a jasmine spring bud, although it is a shallow taste, but it is rare and sweet and delicious, and it is loved.
I raised an eyebrow and looked at his body, which had long been hollowed out by the wine. The eldest sister's vision is really not good! Is such a person still delusional about being able to open up the world and create a new era?
I sarcastically opened my mouth "Really? ”
Zai Yi smiled awkwardly, "Yeah! Now that she was trapped in this small harem, even which concubine to spoil was not up to her own. All the decisions of the imperial court depend on the mother queen and the auxiliary chancellor, but they are just a puppet, and what kind of bold words do you say that you want to destroy your mother's family? ”
I wiped my mouth, cleaned my mouth again, and ordered the servant to help Him escape into the room to rest. At the moment when the two of us were intertwined, a sentence quietly drifted through his ear, "If you are willing to see through your own inadequacy early, then my eldest sister will not die early..."
Zai Yi was shocked to hear it, he resented me for so many years, and now he realized that it was he who killed the eldest sister himself.
The Emperor soon became seriously ill at the age of twenty-one.
When he was dying, only me and Xiao Yu were with him. The empress dowager made Zaiyi's three-year-old son emperor, and her birth mother was a foot-washer, who was now fostered under the name of Xiao Yu.
At the age of nineteen, Xiao Yu suddenly became a titular empress, and because I had always been peaceful and self-kept to myself, I also became a noble concubine. Only Zai Yi, a puppet emperor who had no use value, in the end, even a tai doctor could not be invited.
His eyes were scattered, and he leaned into Xiao Yu's arms and held my hand tightly.
"You, are you ready to eat?"
Looking out the window at the sun to the west, he held back for half a day and couldn't find a suitable language. His favor killed the eldest sister and failed me, a look of guilt!
Half a lifetime has passed, after all, he is just a puppet who can't be the Lord, and we are all just dolls manipulated by those in power, and I don't hate him anymore.
"You will be well, you will be fine..." I could only comfort him against my will.
Who knew that he shook his head slightly, "No, life is too hard, I will take a step first." Little love, I don't know if you can call me another brother? ”
Watching his expectant pupils gradually dilate, my mouth opened and closed, but how can I not be exported, it may be that things are impermanent, things are not human!
Ten years of life and death are uncertain. Don't think about it. Unforgettable. Thousands of miles of lonely graves, nowhere to say desolate. Even if they don't know each other, the dust is full of dust, and the sideburns are like frost...